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Questions to ponder part 12
mare:
I think I put a lot of myself into my stories without even realizing I do. Many of the dream sequences I write about are dreams that I have actually had, like the singing gophers dressed as Elvis in "Shadow Woods" lol I know a lot of the dialogue I write especially for Nick, are things I would say if I were in 'his' shoes. Besides Mel's and it's sequels though, I don't think I've ever really used one of my real life situations in fanfic. Since most of what I write is suspense that's probably a good thing. lol Even my non suspense stuff though, just kind of stems from things I could picture them doing and not so much me, like fishing and camping etc... When it comes to writing about Nick and his need for the boys to be his family well...see answer below LOL
First of all, to answer your second question Reb, Nick is not my favorite. I know he might as well be, but he isn't. Kevin is my favorite Backstreet boy and personality wise, I am definitely closer to his than I am to Nick's. I would say I am a mix of Kevin and Howie in the personality department. I have been told I have 'the look' of my own! LOL
I relate the most to Nick however because of the utter and complete dysfunction of his family. It's so easy to just take my family life and his and intermingle them because I swear to God, we could be related. In fact, my mother was adopted and I wouldn't be the slightest bit surprised if she ended up being Jane's sister, seriously. I know if I was in the situation he was in, I would latch on to the guys and call them my family all the time too, credit them for raising me and looking up to them. I know people think it's a cop out answer for him, but understanding and relating to that feeling of needing role models, I totally know it's not. I latched onto my older college friends completely. I know it probably drove them crazy but I needed them to be the family I just didn't have.
Just like Nick, if I were to ever be married, I'm quite sure I wouldn't invite my mother to my wedding either. The only thing that seems different is I am very close to my sister, but who knows if given different circumstances, like the crap load of money they have, if that would be different.
I made my sister watch a few episodes of House of Carters with me one time and she said "Wow, they are the rich version of us!" LOL
So in a weird way, I feel so connected to Nick it makes it very easy to not only write him but read about him. And it's probably also why I feel the need to defend him when it comes to people dissing him when it comes to his family issues.
RokofAges75:
--- Quote from: rebellious_one on July 31, 2014, 03:03:54 AM ---You see, I didn't know all that! LOL. The only one I follow on Twitter is AJ, and I don't even really go on Twitter, hahaha!! And being that I've only ever met AJ and Brian, and it was that one time, it wasn't enough for me to really know much of anything, hahaha. I just remember AJ calling me sweetie (and sporting some hard nips when we took the pic, lmao) and Brian making a funny face in his pic; and when it was asked why he didn't make a funny face in a another pic, he replied with "Cause you didn't ask!" Lol.
But OMG, didn't know he replied with that on IG! LMAO!! Him and Kevin have this way of telling people off; it's so badass but makes you laugh cause you know that person they're talking to deserved it, lmao. Like that one interviewer that was asking a question and trying to insinuate that they were gay and ask if they do each other from behind or something, the other guys were trying to laugh it off uneasily; cause like seriously, how do you respond to that?! And Kevin responded as only Kevin could, with telling the guy "You can sit down!" Hahaha. Gotta love them Kentucky boys!
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OMG, I remember that thing with Kevin; that was so funny!! Kevin is awesome. I've said it many times on here in the last year, but I appreciate him so much more since he's been back!! I think his personality and sense of humor come across better now that he's mellowed out, as Mare said. He seems to be having more fun and doesn't come across as such a hardass. He is still anal; I saw this firsthand at their first soundcheck party of the US tour last year in Chicago, which he treated like a SOUNDCHECK, not a party. The other guys just get up there and mess around, but Kevin was very serious about making sure the sound and his keyboard was right! LOL Which was awesome because we got like 5 songs out of it, whereas normally they sing 2-3. He still tells long, rambling stories, too, but I love those as well.
rebellious_one:
LOL!!! That sounds like it was an interesting dream of singing gophers dressed like Elvis, lmao!!! I was re-reading one of my stories over, which helped to stem the question, cause I was like "Oh yeah, this scene was based off of my experience!" Like, with Last Christmas; the scene I wrote of Kevin being in the hospital with his gunshot wound and post surgery. Not saying I was ever shot, lmao, but I included what I did after my recent surgery during that time with Kevin.
I don't know if I had ever told you guys what the surgery was for, but I remember waking up from the anesthesia, still drugged out and slipping in and out of consciousness because I wasn't even wheeled back into my room, and I remember my throat being so parched and sore and having to pee, lmao. The nurse came up to me and was like "Welcome back, how are you feeling?" and I just remember saying that my throat was sore, that I had to pee, and repeating "I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm tired and don't know what I'm doing!" LMAO!! Then, I remember lifting the collar of my gown up to look down at my chest and trying to see any scaring; I totally wrote Kevin doing that with his gunshot wound, lifting the collar of his hospital gown up to inspect any scaring. I also wrote the pain I had experience for Kevin as well... when they had wheeled me back to my room, and my mom had asked me how I was feeling, I just remember feeling this intense pressure on my chest, and heat... like a steam roller had rolled over my chest, lmao! Now, is that how a gunshot victim out of surgery from removing the bullet would feel like? Probably not, lmao, but my experience felt sort of revelatory, lmao!
And whyyyy oh whyyyy do I get those men mixed up for you?! LMAO! Just the other day, in another post I was like "you're a Kevin girl right?!" Hahahaha! I knew it, I was just testing you! ;) Bwahahaha!! And LMAO at you having your own look! That's like a DOE employee must... if I was your student Mare, I think your look would have probably scared me into being a straight-A student! Lmfao!!!
And omgosh girl, woooow; I would have never known! Thank you for sharing that with us, and I'm sorry if it struck up any feelings or anything. Yeah, Nick's whole family backstory and whatnot truly makes my heart ache for the guy. I may not know a lot of personal stuff about you, but to me, reading this, just like Nick, despite adversities, not really having that stable support system from the very ones who should be helping and guiding you along the way, your family, and just having to grow up way too fast beyond your years, you both had set out to make a name for yourself and stand on your own. It's easy for anyone that goes through that kind of situation of not having a home sweet home or a family to come home to to roll over and be like woe is me, I can't do anything because my family doesn't support me with anything, my home life sucks; not saying that those thoughts may have never entered the mind, but you both became your own person through your profession and... I don't wanna necessarily say "cut off", but stood apart and rose above the hand you were dealt.
It's a struggle trying to raise to the top of where you want to be or see yourself in life, but even moreso of a challenge when you don't have that extra push or set of helping hands from your family to support and help get you there. And just like with Nick, you can't help than to be proud of the person you've become.
rebellious_one:
--- Quote from: RokofAges75 on July 31, 2014, 05:40:56 AM ---OMG, I remember that thing with Kevin; that was so funny!! Kevin is awesome. I've said it many times on here in the last year, but I appreciate him so much more since he's been back!! I think his personality and sense of humor come across better now that he's mellowed out, as Mare said. He seems to be having more fun and doesn't come across as such a hardass. He is still anal; I saw this firsthand at their first soundcheck party of the US tour last year in Chicago, which he treated like a SOUNDCHECK, not a party. The other guys just get up there and mess around, but Kevin was very serious about making sure the sound and his keyboard was right! LOL Which was awesome because we got like 5 songs out of it, whereas normally they sing 2-3. He still tells long, rambling stories, too, but I love those as well.
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So true, loving this other side to him as well! It seemed as if, when he first returned tho, the boys were actually a little mellow, like "Damn, Kevin's back, we gotta be on our best behavior; we can't goof around, and we gotta let him be the spokesperson and let him answer all the questions seriously." I don't know if it was just me that felt that vibe with their first set of interviews when Kevin came back. But, seeing the recent videos of today, and seeing that Kevin is just as crazy as the rest of them, it's like he's truly glad to be back, and instead of being a 24/7 perfectionist that's serious all the time, he's actually enjoying it all and just living the moment.
RokofAges75:
--- Quote from: rebellious_one on July 31, 2014, 04:29:52 AM ---I totes love your explanation Mare, all on point! Lol.
So, to continue with our convo, how much of you, the writer, goes into your stories? Like, as you're writing the boys, do you ever find yourself linking so much with a certain characteristic of one of the boys, that you write them doing something you had done, or saying something you would say, or creating a scene or situation that has happened in your life and just placing the guys in it? Lol. I know years before when I would write a lot, I'd think to myself "Oh, I'm going through this... I wonder what the guys would do if they were in my shoes." Lol.
Also, since we talked about most and least favorite character to read and write, do you think having commonalities with said member plays a role? Like Mare, you enjoy reading and writing Nick, is it because you find that you have more in common with him versus the other guys, or is it strictly because he's your fave?
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I am most similar, personality-wise, to Kevin and Howie, who are my least two favorite boys to write about. I really don't have much in common with Brian or Nick (except for stupid things, like liking cheese pizza and The Walking Dead LOL), but those are my boys. I don't know if it's a case of "opposites attract" or if it's more just that I've always gone against the "Write what you know" mantra. I think writing what you know is boring.
That said, I definitely do put some of myself into my stories. There are female characters that I've put a lot of myself into, and I've also based characters and settings on people and places in my real life. As far as Backstreet Boys go, though, I see myself mostly in the way I've written Nick over the last decade. My Nick from 10+ years ago is very different from the way I write Nick now. I used to write Nick as very insecure and emo, always on the verge of wanting to end it all. I don't know if that's because I really saw him that way or because I'd seen him written that way in other fanfics or because that's how *I* was, but I think it's probably a combination of all three. The biggest example of this is in Broken, which I wrote in 2003-2004. I really do think it had to have been some insecurity that led to the questionable choices real life Nick made during that era (the ghetto fab phase, dating Paris Hilton, etc.), but I was also pretty insecure and still trying to figure out who I was and how much of myself I wanted to share with people back then. I was a drama queen, as many teenage girls are, and you definitely see that in my writing.
My Nick now is much more confident and self-assured, and that's mainly because real life Nick seems much more confident and happy with himself, but again, it also kind of mirrors my life because I am a lot more settled and at peace with myself than I was ten years ago. I don't really have anything more in common with Nick than that, but I do think it makes it easier to write him that way. I feel like we kind of grew up together.
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