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Featured Story of the month for March 2008 - Prevailing Fate by Nijntje

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AJsKellyMouse:
This is the first story of the month that I've started reading...I haven't really read a whole lot of fanfic in a while though anways.  I've only gotten to read the first two chapters so far, but I think it's totally awesome!  I'm mad that I got the ending spoiled for me though now-I went in and looked at comments for the story and someone gave it away.  I'm still going to finish it though.  Congrats you two!!

Nijntje:
Thanks everyone! I must say I was kinda getting insecure since hardly anyone said anything in here.. but I understand though! No hard feelings or anything  ;D

mare:
aww don't be insecure. I've noticed that there are always one or two weeks when no one says anything and then suddenly people get talkative. I'm sure it didn't help that half of us just moved as well lol i'm settled in and back online now though so you'll be hearing from me shortly. :)

mare:
AHH! How annoying!! lol I just had all these questions made for you and when I hit the post button I got kicked offline!

So i'm trying this again.

1. How did the two of you come to work together?

2. Do you see yourselves writing a sequel to this one somewhere down the line?

3. What is your favorite chapter in this story and why?

4. Is there a favorite scene between any two characters you'd like to share?

5. Is there anything you wish you could have done differently while writing this story?

Nijntje:
1. How did the two of you come to work together?
You mean how it got started? Due to the fact that PF was originally a forum-fic that nobody seemed to care about rofl but us.. Since it was only us writing it, I think I pm-ed A-Rok about working together (or she pmed me?? Not sure) and so we did.

2. Do you see yourselves writing a sequel to this one somewhere down the line?
I don't really think so.. I don't really see what else can be said about this storyline/idea..
I can see us writing another story together though!

3. What is your favorite chapter in this story and why?
I have several lol.. Skip this question though if you don't want to read any spoilers!!

Chapter 12&13&14: I think these chapters portray several things perfectly. One: The fact that Nick is scared he'll never have what Brian has. Two: Brian has faith that everything will be alright. Actually, he has enough faith for both him and Nick. Three: Because it shows how much Kevin cares about Nick and how he is scared of losing him.

Chapter 25: The chapel/candle scene. I am really proud of my own writing and thinking in that chapter!  :D

Chapter 34: This is where four of them have a huge fight. I love the tension in this one (written by A-rok btw), you can almost see them screaming at each other. And even though one of them was acting like an asshole, I can kinda see where he was coming from. So I was both angry and felt for him..

Chapter 55: I love the flashback A-rok wrote! It just shows the bond between them and the relationship between Baylee and Nick. I especially love this quote:
--- Quote ---“Crowd in!” She handed the camera to Leighanne, “Come on guys! Act like you know each other!”
--- End quote ---

4. Is there a favorite scene between any two characters you'd like to share?
Hmm.. lemme check.. There might be several again, but I'll choose just one this time. It's from chapter 41, scene with Brian and AJ. Again, if you don't wanna read any spoilers, stop here!

Here it is:

--- Quote ---“I’m sorry for what happened at your place. Those things I said, I was completely out of line. I- I completely lost it and could only think of how badly I wanted to prove my point, about being his best friend... but I guess I’m not..” Brian choked out.
It remained silent for a few minutes as the eldest of the two tried to control his emotions, while the other was waiting for him to continue, but eventually he was the one who spoke up. “You are, Brian. That’s why you care so much. Yes, I was about to kill you that evening and I was still angry as hell when I first saw you at the plane. Not seeing you for a few days has changed my perspective on things though. When I really, really looked at you on the plane, I saw how all of this has been affecting you, like it has been affecting the rest of us. We’ve never looked this shitty. God, we all lost weight, we hardly sleep anymore and have all aged ten years or so.”
“That bad, huh?” Brian sadly smiled.
“Yeah, but ofcourse I still look the best out of all of us.” A.J. smiled, but sadness replaced that smile when his mind wandered off to the days when Nick was the one who looked the best, according to the fans that is. Right now, he was no more than a shadow of how he looked back then.

“I- I just.. I don’t think I can handle another disappointment, Alex. I know y’all said it isn’t about me. But it is. It’s about all of us. To me, it feels like Nick isn’t the only one fighting this disease. We’re fighting just as hard. When I met him, he was just a kid. And now, over ten years later, he still is in some ways, but in other ways he’s grown so much. I watched and helped him grow. And now, I can’t help him fight this. There’s not a freaking thing I can do. And although I still think he CAN make it, the feeling he can’t is slowly starting to take over. I watched the kid grow up, I can’t watch him slip away from us. Seeing how he’s changed through all of this kills me. The sparkle in his eyes, it’s gone. The lighthearted kid, gone. The way he could always cheer us up, gone. The Nick we knew is already gone. And that hurts SO much. I’m gonna lose it if the day comes when we really, really lose him. I love that kid, he shouldn’t have to worry about chemo, pain, his funeral. For God’s sake.. he’s just a kid.. He’s my little brother.” Brian rubbed his face as he again felt how tears filled his eyes. Blinking them back, he turned to look at A.J. who was avoiding his stare.

But when he finally glanced at Brian, the eldest could see that he too was fighting to hold back the tears. Brian couldn’t recall the last time he had seen A.J. that close to crying. And that’s when he realized that he had never ever heard him talk about how he was feeling during all of that was going on. He knew better than to ask though, so he didn’t say anything for a few minutes, hoping that his friend might speak up. But he didn’t. So Brian continued to speak his mind, in need to get more things out in the open.

“Maybe it isn’t my place to ask, but.. Has Nick been talking to you about his feelings lately?”
”He has..” A.J. replied after he had tried to clear his throat a couple of times. “He has been talking about the four of us a lot. About how he feels guilty for what he’s putting us through. He’s been talking about you a LOT, Brian. About how you it’s been affecting you and how he’s been thinking of going somewhere so you wouldn’t have to see things get worse. He’s said he misses you quite a few times. Not that he feels you aren’t around enough, he understands you have a family too. Sometimes he even pretended to be asleep, so you would go home to Leighanne. He just  misses the way you two were before all of this bullshit. He just feels like.. He doesn’t wanna tell you, because he know you’ll feel guilty, but he.. He misses his best friend. You.. you are treating him so differently. He understands that you’ve changed, he know he’s changed himself too. He would just love to have that old thing between you and him, Frick and Frack against the world. And I’m not saying this to make you feel guilty, it’s just the truth. We’ve all changed..”

“We have..” Brian whispered. As he let the words sink in, A.J. continued. “Yes, we have. Damn, I’ve even been watching the kid sleep at night.”
“You what?” Brian asked in surprise. “You watched him sleep?”
“Yeah.. I know, cheesy huh.., but I had to make sure the kid was alright. For some strange reason, it was comforting to watch him sleep. Whenever he had a nightmare, I was there to help, sorta. I just found out he knows..”
“How? Not even a bomb can wake that kid up.” Brian smiled.
“Dunno. Howie said that Nick told him he knows. It’s so not me, you know..”
“Like you said, we’ve all changed..”
“Yeah, we have. You were right, Rok.. When you said that I never gave a damn about the kid when we were younger.”
“But how..” Brian asked as he felt his cheeks flush with red.
“I heard you. When you were in the studio with D., I ran over, ready to punch you in the stomach when Kev stopped me. He told me to go talk to Nick and that he would handle you. I wasn’t about to listen though and when he opened the door, I heard you say that. It hit home. Hard. You were right though. I thought he was annoying, always whining, tired or wanting some attention. You saw past that and you saw what was behind all of it.”

Brian nodded. He was still young himself when they met, but he instantly knew the kid wasn’t happy at home and had a lot of shit going on in his life. He knew Nick was lonely, and still a kid who was in desperate need of a friend. Brian became that friend, at first because he thought that it was sort of his responsability, being older and all. But later on, they became best friends because of the person Nick was, out of true friendship, not out of a feeling of obligation.
“I didn’t. So yeah, I didn’t give a damn about him back then. But things changed, Brian. Not only in these last few months, but these last few years. You know that. He’s my brother too, and every morning I’m scared that I’m gonna find that he’s gone, that the cancer has won. I found his will, Brian. His Goddamn WILL! He’s too fucking young to die.. He’s 25!!! He shouldn’t have to worry about that kinda shit. DAMN! He doesn’t know I found it.. but I did. And I couldn’t just put it down. He wants us to carry him to his grave, Brian. His GRAVE!” A.J. cried, followed by a whisper. “He’s been thinking about this stuff and he hasn’t been talking to me about it..”
Brian slowly shook his head. He pushed the thought of carrying Nick’s coffin to his grave aside. That was just too much to handle at this point. “Not to me either. I think he’s scared to. We’ve all been talking about holding on, not losing faith.. We just never-”
“Gave him the chance to talk about his fears..” A.J. finshed his sentence. “Damn.. we’ve all been screwing up a lot lately..”
--- End quote ---


5. Is there anything you wish you could have done differently while writing this story?
Yeah! Chapter 42: the scene where the guys are lost and ask a Dutch girl for directions..  I wrote that and I can't re-read it, it is just that awful  :o I would never choose to write it like that again..

Thanks Mare!  ;D

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