Why Did I Fall In Love With You? by Broc30
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Why Did I Fall In Love With You? by Broc30
Ever since I've known her all I've ever done is watch her. The way she crinkled her little nose when she would laugh from the way she would push her hair back behind her ear when she was nervous about something. I never figured out what it was about her that turned my head. But there was just something about her. Still to this day I have know idea. It may be because I'm jealous of her and whom she's dating. Or it could be of our big age difference. There is a seven year separation. But I don't know.

Allison and I hangout all the time when AJ's not glued to her. Which is most of the time. So I will admit that yes she is my best friend who's a girl. So anyway, right now we're sitting on my bus trying to play cards. I'm trying my best to not look at her cause I know she's right now staring at me. "Nick..." I hate these long boring bus trips to the next city. Where in the hell are we anyways? "Nick!" Oops. I should answer her. "Huh... What? Sorry." I reply looking up at her across the table. "Nicky, what are you thinking?" "Oh, nothing." Shes now looking at me confused. "You've been acting strangely for awhile now. Talk to me. What's going on? What's wrong?" Out of every bodies buses she could be on she had to be on my bus for the next few hours. But of course AJ was doing interviews on his bus. Brian and Howie had there families with them so it left just me.

God she's staring at me. "Nicky." She said touching my hand. UGH! "Ally I..." I start as I stood up quickly. "I can't talk to you about this." I said as she looked up at me still confused. "Did I do something to offered you?" I shock my head trying to think straight. "Whatever it is you can tell me anything." "No I can't!" I said getting upset as I stormed out of the sitting area and headed to the back of the bus. "Nick?" "Ally, drop it ok?" I yelled as I flung the curtain closed then flopped myself onto my bunk before pulling the pillow over my head. I needed to somehow get her out of my head. But seems like everything I do she's all I think about. Hell I've even tried dating and it doesn't work out. I just end up comparing the girl I'm with to Allison. Maybe I'll try and sleep.

Sitting up front with Mike, Nick's bodyguard he keeps glancing over at me. Of course having Nick storm off like he did... I'm still confused about. There has to be someone who knows what's going on. Standing up after checking the clock I saw that it wasn't to late so I called over to Brian's bus. Maybe he'll know something. "Hello." "Hey Bri." "Hey Ally, what's up?" "Well...um..." "Something's wrong I can tell. Spill." "It's Nicky. He's been acting really strange all day. It's like... I don't know. Like he doesn't want me around." I said as I waited for a reply. "Oh..." And there was my answer. Just "Oh". "That's it? Just oh? Brian what aren't you telling me? You know something. What is it?" That's when I hear him sigh. "Ally I do know something but... It's not really for me to say. That's up to Nick to tell you." "Could you give me a clue or something? Like...is it bad? Will I get mad at him for telling me?" Brian sighed again. "That I can't say for sure." Now it was my turn to sigh.

I hated not knowing what was wrong with Nick. I thought that he was my best friend. I thought that he trusted me. Being left out of the loop I started to get upset. I could feel my eyes start to burn cause I knew I was on the brink of tears. "Brian please tell me something. Anything." I begged. "I'm sorry, I can't. Just try and talk to Nick." "Ok I guess." "Ok. Go talk to him then call me back." "Yea." "Alright, talk to you soon." "K." I said as we hung up.

Walking back towards the curtain I could tell that Nick had been crying. That surprised me cause Nick hardly ever cried. This was serious if this was making him this upset. "Nicky." I said pushing back the curtain. "Go away Ally." He said turning his back to me. "No, not until you explain to me what's going on with you." "No!" He yelled from under his pillow which came out all muffled. "Then I'm not leaving until you do. Nicky you're my best friend. We've always talked about things. Why is this any different?" "It just is. Ok?" "No, it's not ok. Nicky please. I'm worried about you. Whatever it is... I'm not going anywhere." I said as I placed my hand on his hip. "You say that now." He said as he scooted away from me. "You don't know that. Try me. Tell me what it is."

Moving over to the edge of the bunk Ally got up and moved across from me. Looking up and over at her wasn't easy for me. But of course I had to do this. "Ally..." Oh my god I don't know if I can do this. "Nicky, I'm right here." She whispered to me. Oh god either I'm gonna cry or she is. "Ally I..." I stammer again as she reaches for my hand. I can't even look at her I'm so nervous. "Ok. I can do this." I coach myself. "Go ahead." She said still looking at me. So I close my eyes and I just come out and say it. "Ally I'm in love with you. I have for some time now and I'm jealous of what you've got with AJ." Nothing. All she does is slip her hands out from mine and stares at me shocked. "Ally say something. Anything." "No." Was all she said. "What do you mean no?" "Just...no. You can't be in love with me. You just can't." "But I am. Ally I'm sorry." I said as she stands up and backs away from me while shaking her head. "No..." She repeated again. "This isn't right." "I know."

As she turns away from me she heads back up towards the front of the bus. "Ally?" I say as she throws up her hand to stop me from going on. "Just don't. I can't... I can't deal with this right now." She said as she moved to talk to the driver. She was telling him to stop the bus. After contacting the other buses we pulled over and she got off my bus. I knew it was a mistake telling her. I didn't want to. I didn't want to lose her as a friend. And at that very moment I knew I had lost her.

Looking out the bus window I can see her talking to both AJ and Brian. Oh crap, AJ's looking over here and he doesn't look at all happy. I close the curtain and I just peek out. I pull the window open a little so I can try and hear something. "AJ, just let it go!" I hear Brian say to him. Allison is now sitting at some picnic table crying. God I wanna go out there and comfort her. Make it all go away. Then I hear the one heartbreaking painful thing ever. "Ally, you're staying away from him the rest of this tour. I don't want you alone with him for any reason what so ever." I cringed at what AJ had said. Then I hear Allison. "Alex he's still my best friend. I'm not gonna avoid him for the next three months. That's not..." "I made myself clear. Stay away from him."

I've never heard AJ... Well I've heard AJ. But I've never seen him act so coldly. I wanted to throw up. I wanted to just cancel the rest of the tour and just go into hiding. Close out the rest of the world so I didn't have to see anyone ever again. Just be alone... Forever.

Looking up at Alex I couldn't believe he was saying this. I told him this cause I wanted him to know the truth about Nick. Not have him shut me out of his life. I like having Nick around. Well... Maybe Alex is right. Maybe I shouldn't hang out with Nick anymore. God I'm so confused. Looking up at Nick's bus I shake my head in shame. I do feel bad about it all. I am gonna miss him. But I wish he hadn't told me how he felt. I was happier not knowing. Or so I thought.

Few nights later I was laying out on the couch on Alex's bus trying to read a book. I looked up to see Alex breeze by knocking my book out of my grip. "Sorry." He said picking it up for me. "It's ok. I'm not even reading it anyways." I said tossing it on the floor. "Ally." He says sitting down next to me. It took me a moment to look up and over at him. "I'm sorry about earlier. About what I said." I just shrugged. "It doesn't matter." I whispered back. That's when he sighed. "It does matter." "Why does it matter? Why does anything matter?" He just sat there staring at me so I went on. "Alex, Nick and I have been friends long before we started dating. Yes hearing that he loves me after all these years does hurt but we can't change that. I'm with you. I love you. Only you. Nothing's gonna change that." I said taking his hands in mine.

Trying to get him to look up at me was difficult. I tried about everything I could think of. Then I thought of the one thing that always worked. Standing up I moved in front of him. Pushing his legs together I straddled him and forced him to look at me. "Alex I love you with all my heart. There isn't a man on this planet that would ever take me away from you." That got him to finally look up at me. "I don't wanna lose you." He whispered. "You won't." I said placing my hands on his face. That's when he pulled me towards him and held me tightly. "I love you Ally." He said into my chest. "I know you do. And Alex... I'm gonna have to talk to Nicky soon. I need to apologize to him about running out on him the other night. But there is one thing you're right about." I said as he looked up at me. "What am I right about baby?" He asked. "I can't hang out with him all the time. Alone I mean. Yea I know I'm not always alone with him cause Mike's with us but..." I shake my head confusing myself. "I understand what you're saying." He says as I hug him.

After the buses stopped to refuel I got out and headed over to Nick's bus. I needed to speak to him. Entering his bus I found him curled up on his couch asleep. From the looks of his bus, it looked like a tornado blew threw it. "Nicky." I said sitting down at his feet. "Hmm?" "We need to talk and we need to talk now." Rolling over he sat up. He then moved farther away from me. "What do you wanna talk about? Cause if you haven't forgotten we aren't a loud to be alone together." He said quietly but harsh. "I don't care about that." "Well I do." He replied harsher than before. "Nicky, what are you saying that..." "Stop it!" That got me to stop and stare at him. "Stop what? Nicky what am I doing?" "That... Stop that! Stop acting so damn innocent. Like this has been all my fault! And another thing, stop fucking calling me NICKY!!!"

After hearing him yell at me like that I didn't know what to say. I had to say something though. "Nicky... Sorry, Nick... I'm not blaming you and I'm not trying to be all innocent here. I just want my friend back. Nick I miss you. I miss what we had. I miss our friendship. I want everything to go back to the way things were before." I said as I tried to reach for him. "Just go away." He whispered as he moved away. "I can't be your friend. Just go back to AJ and be happy with him." "I am happy with him but Nick... I was happy with you as well. I don't ever wanna lose that." I said starting to get all teared up. "I'm sorry Ally but I can't. It's hard enough being in the same room with you without wanting you even more." Then he got up and started for the front of the bus. "So that's it then? Our friendship is...over? Just because I can't love you the same way that you love me? That's not fair Nick. That's not fair to me."

Now I was dropping the tears like it was Niagara Falls. "Nicky, I do love you..." "Don't...just...don't. It hurts enough already so just don't." As he started down the steps he then stops. "I want you off my bus by the time I get back on." He was then out the door and heading towards the gas station. I sat there a moment. Took a few deep breathes then I left his bus heading back to Alex's for the rest of the trip.


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