Date: 10/03/14 01:41 pm Title: § Message #25 §
Oh christmas, I love crhistmas exactly because it is such a special time, with the lights, with the family... And this year will be the first time in my 28 years, that I will have to spend christmas all alone, cause I have to work.
So I kind of understand what Brian is going through here, you shouldn't be alone on christmas no matter what. And that he'll be lonely cause he lost a loved one makes the whole thing all that more permanent. So I hope his family will be there for support, else I see him falling into a deep pit there.
Author's Response: I love Christmas too, especially the lights, the music, all the decorations and be with family.
So yes, this time for Brian is even much harder. And so soon...
Thank you for reading!
Date: 10/01/14 09:34 pm Title: § Message #24 §
Hahaha loved the Desperate Housewives reference, I used to watch that all the time :D. And it's so sweet like I wrote somewhere before I kinda imagine Brian as the perfect housekeeper :)...
It all seems so calm at the moment... I wonder if that is just the eye of the storm :)
Author's Response: In my mind, Brian is the housekeeper. XD though I love to write him as kinda of obsessed with cleaning. XD and clearly I can't see Nick being the one doing the houseworks. O.o
I loved Desperate Housewives too!
Yes, in a way it's the calm before the storm. We're getting halfway to the story and there are still a lot of things to happen!
Thanks again for reading! *__*
Date: 09/30/14 11:39 pm Title: § Message #23 §
Thanks again for writing this. I'm kinda wondering if the interview you mentioned in end of this chapter is actually a real one, because I can't remember it. No matter if it is or not tho it's really sweet how you described it.
And I also wonder what talking to the outside world meant :O... mhhh :) as usual I'll keep reading to find my answers maybe ;)
Author's Response: And thank you for reading this story. *__*
Yes, that interview does really exist and it's quite pretty famous (though I can't remember the name. :( )
As for the outside world, it just means the real world, all the fans and the media. Brian's first interview after Nick's death.
Date: 09/29/14 11:19 pm Title: § Message #22 §
I agree with Brian on the fact, that something seems strange, like I wrote before. And I love this reflecting of the past, I always like that in Brian/Nick stories, thinking of their beginnings.
What I also like about this story is that I have not the slightest clue where it will lead to :O... it's like a bag full of surprises :) and I love surprises
Author's Response: lol That's the main goal of this story, keeping the suspence high till the very end. *laughs*
Yes, one thing sure is that this story is full of surprises.
I love stories like that too. I always tell myself that I should write something set in the beginnings. If only I had the time... or self confidence. lol
Thank you so much!
Date: 09/28/14 12:05 pm Title: § Nick's Letter #1 §
Okay this is quite the weird letter to write, when you are still around. So it kinda confuzzels me. Wanna know when Nick wrote this one and why he was thinking about dying. And dying before Brian especially.
Mhh mystery. :)
Besides of that you have written this beautifully again. But Letter #1? There is another one to come? Well I'll see how this continues
Author's Response: All of your questions will be answered in the last chapter. ;)
And yes, the number means that there are going to be more letters. I never write plain stories, there is always going to some mystery or twist in them.
Thanks for reading! *__*
Date: 09/27/14 02:19 pm Title: § Message #21 §
What I always notice again is how great you are in describing things and painting pictures, that become a movie in my head. This chapter was just brilliant writing.
You hit the right notes at the right time so to say.
But I'm really curious about this letter, can't wait for next chapter! Wonder if Bri is strong enough to handle this. And if not I hope Kev is close enough to hug him! :O
Author's Response: Thank you for the kind words. *__*
I love descriptions, I love writing scenes that could work as a movie because that's how I see them in my mind when I write. So that's huge accomplishment if I can make the reader see what I'm describing.
You will be surprised by not only Nick's letter but even Brian's reaction. Better have some tissues ready, just in case. ;)
Date: 09/26/14 04:58 pm Title: § Message #20 §
So Brian is making little steps to getting better? I'm curious how that developes I know Void is not easy to simply fill...
Opening up to others can help but not necessary has to, so we'll see what will happen. So I am pretty sure this still will be quite intresting. I'll be following it as usual :)
Thank you for giving me something to read! :)
Author's Response: Thank you for reading this story! And for liking it.
Yes, Brian is making small steps, though it doesn't imply that he is getting better. ;)
For now, he's just trying which is a lot more than the first chapters. Let's see how it will last. lol
Date: 09/24/14 11:28 pm Title: § Message #19 §
This seems to be like a cut to all that has previously happened. Something new seems to be beginning and I'm curious in what direction the story will go now...
You know I am worse than Brian :P I still hope that Nick is alive and just hiding and suddenly will pop up in this story ;)
I also like all the glimpses in their past you are giving in those chapters, like what happened before... They are just so cute in my mind :)...
but we know they are perfect for each other anyway ;)
Author's Response: Well, I couldn't keep let Brian going on like that. Although this doesn't mean the worst is over. This story is about the up and downs after something like that happens. So we're going to see Brian struggling, trying to find new directions and... who knows? (I mean, I know but... lol)
And don't worry. You're not the only one who believes that Nick is alive. Otherwise Brian wouldn't keep calling Nick's phone and talking to him. ;)
Thank you again. =)
Date: 09/23/14 10:33 pm Title: § Message #18 §
I feel like I'm repeating myself, but I just again and again notice how great you are in creating atmosphere and tension.
This chapter is very sad and the raging storm and rain kinda links it to the very first chapter. I don't know if you did this with intention, but that is what came to my mind.
And you again left this quite literally on a cliffhanger!!! :O...
Author's Response: I think that now it's pretty much known that I love cliffhangers. lol
Yes, it was that the intention, kinda wanting to link what happened to Nick with what Brian was trying to do.
Thank you for reading. =) I love your comments! *__*
Date: 09/22/14 11:05 pm Title: § Message #17 §
On month? Aww I say it again but poor Brian...
This chapter really reminds me of that song called Maskenball (I think it translates to masquerade) which really made me think about Brian as well. It ends with the lines: "Your whole pitiful life, you have been on a masquerade! Your smile was frozen, it was shining like crystals! Nobody saw through you but they looked down on you!
If you don't wanna die living, then just remove your mask!"
I just listened to that yesterday, so the ending of this chaptere reminded me of it. I love that only Nick was able to look through that mask. That indeed is something that connects people, or maybe it is something that can only happen if there is a certain connection. Being able to look behind someones mask is a talent...
The picture of Brian hugging Nick from behind in my head was cute too, thank you for that... Tell me they are wearing oversized sweaters, that's so cute on them xD...
Author's Response: Yes, poor Brian.
And it still isn't over! I'm really bad, I know! *but I like it! XD*
I do really think that Brian uses his smile to mask and hide a lot of things. That's why Nick is so perfect for him, at least in my mind.
Brian was probably wearing one of Nick's sweater. lol
Thanks again :)
Date: 09/22/14 03:12 am Title: § Message #16 §
How come I didn't see this til now? I'm laying in my bed now... read it on AO3 with my smartphone... but commenting here..
This is again a very picturesque chapter. How you play with the seasons to reflect emotions and give them a name without describing them... I guess that is what makes your stories so touching. The pictures you paint for us...
And oooh nooo about the ending :(... well halfway at least cause you know it only makes me more excited for the next chapter ;).... I hope I won't miss that one then.... again thaaaank you
Author's Response: Better late than never, right? lol
Thank you so much for your comments. I'm glad that this story is so touching, I think it's one of the greatest compliment ever for a wannabe writer.
As for the ending... well, Brian is at his lowest bottom. Let's see if he manages to climb back or not. ;)
Date: 09/22/14 01:16 am Title: § Message #15§
Love the story so far its so sad...but I still love it
Author's Response: Thank you for reading and reviewing! =)
Yes, it's a sad story but there's gonna be some light at the end. Well, sort of. lol
Date: 09/19/14 11:04 am Title: § Message #15§
What I really like is how you are playing with visuals. How they are mirroring the characters emotions or not.
Feeling so bad for Bri, just wanna hug him. You did a great job portraying mourning, and how Brians world is falling apart. I'm really curious, where this will end.
I can imagine that not feeling a thing like Brian there is even worse, than actually being able to be sad. That numbness he is feeling, I think you done that right. If you loose a person that was everything for you that is probably exactly how you would feel. And I can totally understand how he is feeling there.
I wouldn't want to move on either.
Thank you for writing this :)
Author's Response: Thank you for reading! :)
When I was translating it, I felt so bad for Brian. Giving how much he loves, how much he really lives for the person he lives, losing his other half would be devastating. I don't think it's something you ever get over it easily and I fear there is still more darkness waiting for Brian. Oops? lol nope, I'm not sorry. lol
Date: 09/17/14 10:23 pm Title: § Message #14 §
Yay, I'm happy you did this o/, we two have to revive the Brian/Nick romance stories on this page! :)
To the chapter, I really enjoyed it, I could really feel for Brian when I read the words. The empty house, leaving so much darkness in Brians heart, so sad.
What I also enjoyed to read was how Brian is blaming himself for it now... it's so full of drama, just like I enjoy it.
You also did a great job creating the atmosphere of this chapter, by how Brian was describing everything I got a good idea about how it looks like, and how a heap of darkness is laying on everything kinda...
the only negative thing really is that it's already over :) I could go on reading for hours :)
Author's Response: Just like a wise man said "stop dreaming, start doing". So I've started! lol
These first chapters are short but it's mostly cause they are from Brian's pov and, right now, Brian is in that state where nothing really matters. As he will start to stand up, the chapters are going to be a little longer. :)
So, yes, there is a light at the end of the tunnel for Brian. But I love to put him through hell so there is still a lot he has to go through! lol #Oops
Thank you so much!
Date: 09/17/14 01:05 am Title: § Message #13 §
Again a beautiful story I don't simply just like it because of the pairing. I love the genre, the psychological stuff you put in it the drama and the angst. It really touches my emotions, nearly had tears in my eyes and I never ever cried for a story... Thanks for writing it.
Author's Response: Aww thank you!
Yep, I love angst and psychological side of the characters. I love putting my characters through hell and try to see and explain how they manage (if they will XD) to get through it. Again, I'm so sorry for leaving this story like this and I will try to do my best to update it. I just have been ill during this week and I'm slowly my energies back. I hate when I can't or don't have time to write!
And I'm definetly going to read and review your story!
Thank you!
