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Reviewer: Rose Signed [Report This]
Date: 05/16/14 10:17 am Title: Chapter 11

Having Q in there totally broke my heart :( but I get why you did. And I liked that you backtracked. We needed to see this conversation. And OMG at Howie still thinking he had a shot with Nick if Lauren was gone! HAVE YOU LEARNED NOTHING IN ALL THIS?! Jesus lol.

Author's Response: Aww, I know... it was hard to write, but I felt like I couldn't just ignore it. LOL Poor delusional Howie... or is he?

Reviewer: bsbgurl_1990 Signed [Report This]
Date: 04/06/14 11:11 pm Title: Chapter 11

Cant wait for an update! I think i check 10 times a day for an update! ha!

Author's Response: Sorry for the late reply, but thanks! I finally updated!

Reviewer: Alexsgirl_ritz Signed [Report This]
Date: 03/31/14 10:55 am Title: Chapter 11

Hey, Julie! First, I am sorry it took me so long to leave a review. As I've told KeepThisSecret, I only sneak personal internet time at work, so I usually don't log in when I visit AC.

To be honest, I almost wanted to stop reading when I learned Holden has AIDS. I can take hundreds of Cancer Nick anytime but not a baby with serious illness. But, the plot of this story is really good, and beautifully written, so I came back. I just hope Holden will not die.

Leigh's reaction is so real. As a mother, I know I would feel the same. It doesn't matter if my husband infected me, we can go through it together. But passing it on my baby is a serious matter. Leigh will need a lot of time away from Howie. And, I feel sad for Howie, too. No father would ever want to be on his place. I have a feeling, he was the one who committed suicide in the first chapter. But knowing you, Julie, we can never be sure. :)

*waiting for the next chapter*

Author's Response: Hey, Ritz! Thanks so much for the review! I didn't know you were reading this. I don't blame you for almost stopping when Holden got sick. That was hard to write because that is the one line I have always had - I don't hurt [real] BSB kids. In all honesty, I will just tell you I'm not planning to kill him. He was just a plot device for Howie to find out and feel this extreme guilt. I'm glad you found his and Leigh's reactions realistic. Thanks so much!!

Reviewer: KeepThisSecret Signed [Report This]
Date: 03/30/14 10:38 pm Title: Chapter 11

Totally not surprised that Leigh took the kids and left. I would have done exactly the same thing in her situation. What kind of surprised me was Howie's thoughts about him and Nick possibly having some kind of a future together. Howie is clearly very conflicted at this point. On the one hand, he is devastated over the possibility of losing his wife. On the other hand, he is still carrying around this fantasy of him and Nick living happily ever after. I find his behaviour very believable as we are often unsure of what we want in times of despair. I'm not sure how I want this to all end up at the moment and I don't have any inkling of where you're going to take things from here. Thanks for keeping me guessing!

Author's Response: Thanks for the review! I think Howie IS very conflicted. Clearly he has some feelings for Nick and maybe men in general, but I do think he also still loves Leigh. Even if he is gay (and I don't know that he's totally comfortable admitting that yet), she's his best friend and the mother of his children, so he doesn't want to lose her. I'm glad you found his feelings believable. I drew inspiration from real life stories I've heard of middle-aged couples divorcing because one of them came out. It just goes to show that people can live in the closet, essentially living a lie, for a LONG time... and yet, I do think there's still some sort of love there, just maybe not a sexual/romantic love. It is definitely confusing! Thanks again for your thoughts!

Reviewer: dontwantyouback Signed [Report This]
Date: 03/29/14 08:29 pm Title: Chapter 11

I’m afraid that Leigh already has divorce papers in my mind. It doesn’t look good for Howie. The poor fella, he meant no harm.
lol Funny that Howie still lingers on the hope that Nick will develop feelings for him through this. Responding to your last chapter's end notes, as much as I’d love to imagine a scenario where Nick and Howie engaged in penetration, I’m going to choose to believe that they only went as far as oral sex. I don’t think Howie would forget fucking or being fucked by his friend. I’d like to believe that the guys were unlucky enough to infect the other even when the odds were against them. ;)

Author's Response: Thanks for your review and your comments about my author's note! That's pretty much how I feel too, but I wanted to leave the door open for anyone who wasn't buying the bad luck thing LOL.

Reviewer: Carter-Orange Signed [Report This]
Date: 03/29/14 03:08 pm Title: Chapter 11

Poor Howie :( I know he cheated, and Leigh is obviously devastated and in need of some time, but he didn't intend to infect everyone with HIV, that was just bad luck. Although if that happened to me, I'd probably be furious too and then start to deal with it.

Looking forward to more :)

Author's Response: Thanks, Steph! I know, I'm not sure he deserves all the hate either, but at the same time, I think I'd be upset and need some time away from him too. I'm glad you can see both sides of it.

Reviewer: Jenna Signed [Report This]
Date: 03/29/14 10:06 am Title: Chapter 11

Howie's world slowly unravels one person at a time....funny how he's cling to the hope that Lauren could possibly leave Nick so that he would turn to him and possibly become friends and then lovers lol.

Nick being cold towards Howie wouldn't be too far from reality. I would never see him turn back to the person that ultimately changes my life forever in a positive way; especially with HIV!!!!

Since the time line doesn't add up for Nick to have been the carrier I will be interested in seeing how this goes....will your twisted mind (lol) infect everyone in the band with HIV so we'll never know how this originally started?!?

Author's Response: LOL Hey, Howie's just looking for the silver lining in all this! ;) I'm glad you can understand why Nick is being so cold. LMAO That would sure be interesting if the whole band was infected! I'll take it as a compliment that you think me capable of such evil LOL. Thanks!

Reviewer: DelphinaCarter Signed [Report This]
Date: 03/29/14 05:58 am Title: Chapter 11

Poor Howie :( his wife taking off to NJ without him makes sense but I still feel bad for him being on his own with all that. Plus now Nick is being a jerk, also understandable even though he is a little harsh. It is nick after all. I think maybe Lauren won't flip out on Nick cause of how she reacted to the cheating, but you never k.ow. looking forward to the next chapter!

Author's Response: Thanks, Tracy! I'm glad everyone's reactions seemed understandable, if not the most understanding. Technically Lauren already knows about everything; Nick told her in the last chapter, but this chapter backtracked a bit, so he hadn't told her yet when he talked to Howie. I just thought someone should react without flying off the handle, and Lauren seems pretty level-headed and supportive of Nick. I think Leigh reacted worse because her child was affected too, whereas Lauren doesn't have that and doesn't even know if she's infected yet or not. Thanks again!!

Reviewer: JennayHeartsNick Signed [Report This]
Date: 03/29/14 05:41 am Title: Chapter 11

Damn you!!! You just HAD to put Q in there didn'tcha!!! Yep..the tears are streaming down my face! GAH!

It really made me mad when Howie was kinda hoping Lauren would leave Nick so HE could have him. Just...WOW! Dude really needs to make up his mind...and fast. Its not fair to Leigh.

The last chapter made me think that after talking to Lauren and how she took the news might soften Nick's attitude towards Howie. Guess this took place BEFORE that that convo with her so I guess we shall see what happens when Howie goes back out to LA.

Can't wait till the next chapter!!!

Author's Response: Aww! I went back and forth about whether or not to include Q, but since I was writing this in real time, it was either include it or pretend it never happened, and I thought it would be better to acknowledge it than ignore it. So it's in there. LOL Poor Howie was a bit delusional with that hope. I think he honestly does love Leigh, as the mother of his children, but not in the way he should, and he's confused about that. Yeah, this chapter kind of backtracked a bit, so Nick hadn't told Lauren yet when he talked to Howie. We'll see if his attitude softens afterwards. Thanks so much for the review, Jen!