That was heavy, but I think it's good Nick is really seeing it from Howie's point of view now. Howie has been through hell and I think it's just hitting Nick now. Nick had been kind of in denial until he walked into that hospital room. He needs to stop blaming himself, I feel it's going to bite him in the ass later. I am going to be sad when you don't update again for a while.

Author's Response: That is exactly why I decided to go ahead with the liver transplant storyline, even though you know I was originally questioning if it was too much. I think Nick needed to see Howie literally hours away from death in order to realize he doesn't really hate him, which is what will hopefully pave the way for forgiveness. I do think he's been in denial, to an extent. The magnitude of the situation finally hit him in this chapter. Thanks so much! I actually wrote more chapters during my break than I wrote all of last year, so I am good to keep updating about once a week through February, and hopefully I'll be able to write some more chapters between now and then. I'm feeling really inspired; I just need to make the time to do it!