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Reviewer: Sakabelle Signed [Report This]
Date: 06/18/17 04:12 pm Title: Epilogue

I'm glad Nick was able to reconnect with Lauren after everything that happened. She is basically the queen of forgiveness! Nick saying all that stuff about how he was alone now was so sad. I liked how they were watching the rocket launch and how that was a constant throughout the story. It really tied everything together. I liked how you ending this with Nick taking Lauren's hand. This story was definitely an emotional rollercoaster from start to finish! I really enjoyed it.

Author's Response: Thanks so much! She is very forgiving, but I guess when you love someone that much and want to be with them that badly, you're willing to move past some things. I'm glad you liked the rocket launch thing; I liked being able to call back to that scene earlier in the story. I wanted to end it in a way that hinted at Nick and Lauren getting back together without skipping ahead and actually showing them officially together. Thanks again for reading and reviewing along the way!

Reviewer: KeepThisSecret Signed [Report This]
Date: 06/18/17 02:52 pm Title: Chapter 80

I knew it!! Still, it didn't make this chapter any less sad. Kudos on doing such an amazing job with this final official chapter. It was such an emotional roller coaster. As a Brian girl, I was so pleased that you had Brian be there for Nick. It seemed strangely fitting that they would come back together over this moment.

Anyways, I'm gonna go and have Father's Day breakfast with my family now and try not to be an emotional mess over this. Haha!! I will be back for the final epilogue later!

Author's Response: You called it! Thanks so much! As a fellow Brian girl, I loved the idea of Brian being there for Nick too. I felt like, of all the boys, he seemed to understand Nick's relationship with Howie the best, so I thought he was the best choice to be there to console Nick. Hope you made it through Father's Day okay! LOL

Reviewer: Jujube Signed [Report This]
Date: 06/18/17 01:01 pm Title: Epilogue

This was such a wonderful read, definitely a emotional rollercoaster. lol I'm glad Lauren was there supporting him. Great job!

Author's Response: Thanks! I definitely wanted Nick and Lauren to get back together, so it was important for her to be there for him in the end.

Reviewer: Jujube Signed [Report This]
Date: 06/18/17 01:00 pm Title: Chapter 80

I had a feeling this is how it was going to end! I was in tears reading this! Thank god Nick was there by his side. Great, emotional chapter

Author's Response: Thanks so much!

Reviewer: nickslilmami Signed [Report This]
Date: 06/18/17 12:43 am Title: Epilogue

I'm kinda sad to see it end but this was a great story. Reading about Howies funeral brought on a few tears and it seemed fitting that Lauren would be the one to comfort Nick. Nicely done!

Author's Response: Thanks so much! Glad you enjoyed it, and thanks for leaving reviews along the way!

Reviewer: nickslilmami Signed [Report This]
Date: 06/17/17 11:14 pm Title: Chapter 80

No not Howie! Even though I knew this was coming it was still really hard to read. I'm a big fan of slash stories and this one really tugged at my heart. But at least Nick was there with him in the end.

Author's Response: Aww, thanks! I was originally going to have Nick NOT be there when it happened and Brian show up at his house afterwards to break the news, but I changed my mind a few days before I wrote this. I just felt like he needed to be there.

Reviewer: Rose Signed [Report This]
Date: 06/17/17 08:43 pm Title: Chapter 80

Howie! I sort of expected him to die but I kind of hoped for the best. Nick finally acknowledges their relationship only to lose him in the end. The turns this took for Nick to finally get here and the way he handled Howie' s death was so in line with how Nick would be. Loved it.

Author's Response: Thanks! I'm glad Nick's part seemed believable. Yeah, I think everyone knew that in a story where half the characters have HIV, at least one of them wasn't going to make it. At least it wasn't Holden! LOL

Reviewer: Sakabelle Signed [Report This]
Date: 06/17/17 04:26 pm Title: Chapter 80

I have to say I never thought I'd have tears in my eyes when watching a compilation video of Nick/Howie bugging each other, but here we are. This was so sad :( I had thought Howie would probably die, but like Nick I was still hoping that he would make a miraculous recovery. Nick was just heartbreaking in this chapter as well, so Nickish - just overdramatic and yelling and trying to fix the situation any way that he knew how even though it was completely out of his hands. I loved the part where he was yelling that he was that the power of attorney and they were going to keep trying and Brian interrupted him and sort of brought him back to earth. I also loved how much Brian has been Nick's rock throughout this entire story. I feel like a lot of times their relationship is written in a very strained way, so this was nice to read. Either way, it was a very sad ending but I really enjoyed it. Looking forward to the epilogue. (I guess there's no chance of the two of them reuniting in heaven ala 'This is the End' right? LOL)

Author's Response: Thanks; I'm glad Nick's reaction seemed believable. I kept changing my mind on how this was all going to go down and didn't decide for sure until a few days before I wrote this chapter, but I liked the idea of Brian being the one to be there for Nick through this. Like you said, he's stuck by Nick's side throughout the whole story, so it made sense that he would be there in the end. Jeez, how did you know exactly what I had planned for the epilogue? Am I that predictable?! LOL :P

Reviewer: angeb Signed [Report This]
Date: 06/17/17 03:52 pm Title: Chapter 80

OMG even though I felt it was going to go this way I'm still so sad. I wanted them to have a happy ending. I hope there still is 1. If not for both then certainly for Nick. Crying so hard right now.

Great writing. Amazing story definitely 1 of my all time faves and I usually don't even read Nick/Howie.

Thank you again

Author's Response: Thank YOU! I like happy endings too, so this was a hard one to write. But there is still one chapter to go, so it may be at least a bittersweet ending for Nick. Thanks so much for reading this one, even though you don't usually read Nick/Howie. I appreciate your reviews throughout!

Reviewer: KeepThisSecret Signed [Report This]
Date: 06/17/17 02:29 am Title: Chapter 79

Omg! The bit with James and Holden was so sad! As a mom, that totally killed me. I can't even imagine. Ugh! I love that you brought all of the guys back for this; so fitting that they're the only ones there - just the five of them.

I was enjoying all of the updates and now you leave me hanging like this?? Are you trying to give me heart failure?? Where is the update?! Haha

Author's Response: That's the part that got to me the most, too, Howie talking to James and Holden. That "Big Star Little Star" show Howie and James did last week just made it worse! Ahh! You know I had to bring all the boys back before the end of the story. Thanks!

Reviewer: KeepThisSecret Signed [Report This]
Date: 06/17/17 02:15 am Title: Chapter 78

Okay, so I know that this chapter was supposed to be very heavy and serious, but the Ebola bit made me laugh. Nick and his idiotic thought patterns are one of my favourite things about your writing.

Anyways, Howie is totally gonna die. I'm humming that bloody AIDS song now. LOL

Oh! I forgot to mention in my last comment, but thanks for not being overly graphic with the slash sexy bits. I really don't know how you write those without having a permanent cringe on your face or laughing the entire time. I would just give up!

Author's Response: The Ebola bit cracked me up too! I love writing Nick for that reason. LOL Maybe now I can finally stop singing that song all the time... "AIDS AIDS AIDS!" Thanks for the feedback on the sex scene. I hadn't planned on writing another one, but then I felt like I needed to throw one more in there to show Nick and Howie's rekindled relationship before things went south. I tried to include just enough detail that you could tell what was happening without being graphic or gross. I pretty much do cringe/giggle the whole time, LOL.

Reviewer: KeepThisSecret Signed [Report This]
Date: 06/17/17 02:05 am Title: Chapter 77

Well, well, well, Nick doesn't want to be alone, huh?? *looks around to see that no one is surprised* I love that you have kept up with the predictability of his character. The way you write him makes me want to reach through the screen and slap some sense into him!! (That's a good thing btw)

I can't believe that this story is coming to an end!! What am I going to do?? You better start another novel so that I can have something to read and so that we can keep talking through the reviews! Haha

Author's Response: LOL Thanks! I know; I haven't written anything for a week, and it feels like there's this void in my life. I do have a couple of unfinished stories that could use my attention, and I also have like 4 new ideas bouncing around in my brain, and I haven't figured out yet what to tackle first, but I'm sure I will start another one at some point. I've enjoyed our conversations through reviews! LOL

Reviewer: KeepThisSecret Signed [Report This]
Date: 06/17/17 01:52 am Title: Chapter 76

Well, I saw that coming! Dumb ass Nick and his fear of commitment. So, he's going back to be "alone", which really means that he's going to realize that he wants to be with Lauren. However, something will take a turn for the worse in terms of Howie's heath, Nick's desire to please everyone but himself will take over, and he'll probably do something totally stupid like propose to Howie just so that Howie doesn't die alone. Oi! I can totally see his insane logic working away in the back of his mind already.

Author's Response: LOL You called pretty much everything except the part about Nick proposing to Howie. That just felt too cheesy to me. But I felt - and I think it showed in my writing - all through this story that Howie loved Nick more than Nick loved Howie (romantically, anyway), so it just made the most sense to torture Nick by killing Howie and then let him go back to his true love, Lauren.

Reviewer: Sakabelle Signed [Report This]
Date: 06/16/17 11:55 pm Title: Chapter 79

Oh my god this was so sad :( Nick finally acknowledging Howie as his partner was so bittersweet - finally Nick has accepted their relationship and it's all ending. I loved how Howie was describing Nick throughout this, that he was just shutting down. But Nick really did come through here. It was nice that Howie chose him to have power of attorney. And the other guys ribbing Nick about it was funny - though I did feel kind of bad for Nick while that was happening. Like he's not going through enough, lol. Howie talking to his kids and to Leigh was sad too. Ugh, just sad all around! And you ended it with such uncertaintly - is this the last thing Howie's ever going to see? I feel like it probably is, considering we've only got one chapter to go. But maybe he'll make a miraculous recovery! Love it.

Oh also, you'll be amused to know that when I was reading yesterday's update my husband asked me what I was reading, so I told him. This morning as we were getting ready for work he casually says to me, "I feel really bad for Howie's wife and kids in that story. I know they're fictional versions, but still." LMAO.

Author's Response: Thanks for the review! Nick did come through - too bad he might be too late. I'm glad you liked the guys ribbing Nick about being Howie's power of attorney; I had to try to get some comic relief in there while I could. The part with Howie talking to his kids made me so sad when I was writing it! OMG, that cracks me up about your husband! LOL!

Reviewer: nickslilmami Signed [Report This]
Date: 06/16/17 09:26 pm Title: Chapter 79

Aww man! This chapter brought tears to my eyes. You've really played with my emotions with these last few chapters. I was all excited that they were back together and then Howie gets sick. You suck! Kidding lol

Author's Response: LOL That was my goal, to make it a rollercoaster - up... and then down. Sorry for playing with your emotions like that! ;) Thanks for the review!