Date: 11/17/15 09:30 pm Title: The Stubborn
My little sister suffers from panic attacks. I usually sit with her and breathe when I catch her in the middle of one. My mom is not very sympathetic because she says it's all in her head and she needs to get over it. But that makes it worse honestly.
How do you convince someone that feels like they are having a heart attack when they are not? She usually passes out from them too. No fun.
From how I read it, Howie seems a little too nonchalant about the situation. But, viewers perspective right? Afterall, he did not find Brian passed out. Nick did, so he is scared. AJ has experienced them, so he can relate.... And Kevin is eating meatballs LOL.
Great update, I'm scared of rock bottom, but anxious to find out who will help pull him out.
Author's Response: Somebody's gotta eat them meatballs before they're completely cold. And even though a lot of it IS in his head, that doesn't mean it's not bad. It actually makes it worse, in my opinion, cause if it was just his body, you could perhaps easily find a medical way to deal with it. Psychologically, it's far more tricky. One of the following chapters will eventually crash into rock bottom, I suppose. So hang on ^^
Date: 11/17/15 08:56 pm Title: The Stubborn
Oh boy love this stubborn men lol
Author's Response: Who doesn't? haha XD Being stubborn at exactly the wrong moments is not a very good trait, but it does make an interesting fictional character :) Thank you for reviewing ^^
Date: 11/17/15 08:24 pm Title: The Stubborn
*I hate that there isn't an option to reply XD*
*shivers* Yep, it was during the press conference of the documentary. I was watching and my heart literally stopped when he said that he thought about quitting. It was more than a year ago, more likely September because I remember seeing this photo of him on holiday and he had this look in his eyes (and this is why I can't stand fans who judge and think to know what he should do. We almost lost him and if he did quit we won't ever be here talking about a new album). I think panic attacks are most likely to be real: he already had them in the past (I remember him telling how he almost thrown up on stage during "Boys will Be Boys" and Aj had to cover him) and facing a tour in those conditions. *shivers*
I suggest that the designed driver to bring Brian home should be Nick. XD
Author's Response: *DID YOU MEAN DESIGNATED DRIVER?*
haha
You have some mad research skills, because I had no idea he had had panic attacks in the past (is there a video of him saying that?) I did see the press conference though, and all the while he was talking about it and kept getting more and more tensed up, I was like, ohhh hun, come here, it's alright. It's quite funny actually, the *fans* saying what he should do and that the group isn't doing enough to cover it up and that they don't care about their music and about their fans anymore. They found it very strange when I suggested that they should care more about Brian at this point than about the fans. I mean, I'm not going to be any less of a fan if he misses a note on live TV or not, it actually makes him seem more human, more relatable, I think. Not that it is not still horrible what's happening to him.
And yeah, the lack of a reply button kinda sucks, but if you want to keep the conversation going, just leave a new review, I guess. (that's the only way to do it here)
Date: 11/17/15 07:57 pm Title: The Stubborn
I swear... These boys... *shakes her head* one has just had a panic attack to the point of passing out and what they do? They let him go home alone! lol Let's add car accident to the list of problems that Brian has, right! lol
No one will ever be able to change my mind about the fact that we will never know how really bad and low Brian got during those months. Those dead eyes still haunts me (and inspire me to write, but that's another story! lol) and I think it scared the shit out of all of them. Especially Aj and Nick because it must be hard to be on the other side, to watch someone else (someone like Brian, especially) going through that self destruction they had lived through.
Author's Response: I should send somebody after him, shouldn't I? (to make sure a car accident doesn't happen)
I completely agree with you though, it was fairly shocking to see a whole different Brian in the documentary than the one we get to see during concerts or on tv shows. I think I did read an interview where he admitted he was in a particularly dark place that period his voice went out completely (which was only little over a year ago from now, if I'm not mistaken) That's kinda scary to know, to be honest. I don't know about the panic attacks though, let's hope that remains fiction in this story, although it doesn't seem too far fetched, judging by the situation.
