Date: 11/28/15 05:06 pm Title: 14. The Friend
Aw, a happy chapter. Yes, I call this a happy chappy. The hug at the end makes my heart swell with happiness.
It was good for the people around Brian... But Brian just may be getting better at hiding things. Seems that way. Don't think the happiness will last long.
What are the pills for? Ah! You do have me wondering what will happen next. As always, keeping me on my toes. A wonderful read.
Author's Response: yes, let's call this a happy chappy, shall we? Or maybe not.
I'm assuming the pills are for his throat, what else?
Date: 11/28/15 02:59 am Title: 1. My Love
I can't wait for the next chapter! Your story is so realistic, I can easily imagine it really happened. Good work ! :)
Date: 11/28/15 12:02 am Title: 13. My Failure
I love the stories that have the Howie Brian relationship. Howie was so sweet without being over protective. He was caring without telling him what to do and making him think about what is happening in his life. U made the right choice having Howie go after him Kevin and nick are to close. Aj is trying to stay nutural.so Howie was perfect. Grate chapter. Can't wait to see how the others react to what happen in the bathroom.
Date: 11/27/15 11:11 pm Title: 13. My Failure
You keep revealing details and I'm getting more and more anxious and worried.
I appreciate howie's kind words. They are a family and you don't just kick out family. I'm not sure if Brian is listening at this point. Especially if he is dead set on a pity party and having rage blackouts. I'd be probably doing the same thing if I was in Brian's shoes though.
Shit is hitting the fan and fast.
Great update as always!
Author's Response: I agree that it is extremely hard to change someone's mindset when they're so deep into it. It's probably why interventions barely ever really work. Shit is going to hit the fan faster than you can say Backstreet, I promise that. (We've had enough build up in the story, I presume)
Date: 11/27/15 10:56 pm Title: 13. My Failure
I knew it.
Sadly, I knew it. Although I do kinda hope it's just a side effect of his panic attacks than something much more sneaky and serious. Something that it kinda stucks with you for all your life.
I did love the Howie and Brian relationship. Both of them have stated that they weren't close in the beginning but I think that being left alone dealing with Aj and Nick's problems after Kevin's leaving kinda brought them closer.
And the whole "you don't kick someone out when he's weak or sick" is why I love the group those past years with Brian.
Author's Response: Well, stress DOES some funny things to people (that's all I'm gonna say about it for now) And yes, the group sticking by his side has scored major points in my opinion as well. I did wonder who to come into the bathroom after Brian, but in the end Howie seemed the only one capable of approaching it from a calm, rational state of mind, if that makes sense.
Date: 11/27/15 11:00 am Title: 12. The Relative
Hey, I just wanted to let you know that I'm really glad you're continuing with this story recently. It's great that you've taken on the challenge of this recent (and ongoing) subject matter of Brian's voice. I'm enjoying seeing the speculative back-story on the various performances and events that we know of or could guess probably occurred; seeing it all woven into one storyline is really satisfying. Of course, it's good to know that this is your own take on things, so just about anything could happen behind the scenes... Looking forward to learning more about the foreshadowed events / Kevin's realization. I hope we get some more chapters from Brians pov since he's so hard to get through to at this point. Great job and keep writing!
Author's Response: Love hearing that you still enjoy the story. Yeah, I do think I've added enough additional drama to make it more fictional, otherwise it might get boring (or maybe not, who knows what really goes on there anyway?) I try to take the most realistic route, but it tends to overdramatize a little as it gets further into the story.
Date: 11/26/15 12:37 pm Title: 12. The Relative
Add mood swings to the mix. Scary. You never know what you are gonna get.
What do you do in that situation? An intervention could go either way. Need to bring a doctor in,I would think.
I guess we will see what the boys do. I know as a fan, I could sometimes see this flash of disappointment you are talking about. But there were great crowds that would cheer Brian on, and you can see how grateful he is. I think it helps.
I think I mentioned rock bottom before... It's coming.
Great update!
Author's Response: Yep, I can totally imagine Brian was not the most fun or easy person to work with in that period. Indeed we will have to see what rock bottom looks like, and if the boys even let it go that far.
Date: 11/26/15 02:38 am Title: 12. The Relative
Oh boy sounds like they have a much deeper problem then they first thought. Gratis chapter. Can't wait for more
Date: 11/23/15 02:10 pm Title: 11. The Conquerer
The shiny nipples! LOL
That was one of my favorite interview ever (and just another great memory in my Frick and Frack files) lol And yes, Nick, I know you are very jealous that he doesn't seem to gain weight no matter what (leading me to always being worry when he looks too skinny. Always, basically.)
And I know some people (some fans too) had something to say about Brian stripping but most appreciated and are so damn proud that he found the courage to show his beautiful scar. It's because of that scar that he's still with us.
Oh, I guess I have to prepare myself for more Briangst coming in the next chapters. But I do like how Nick is way more observing than before. U.U
Date: 11/22/15 09:30 pm Title: 11. The Conquerer
That's my favorite video! Hehe
All kidding aside, that song is one of my favorites.
The shiny nipple comment though. I remember that vh1 interview. It was so funny.
I see that Nick is keeping a close eye on Brian. It's all in the details right? A misstep here and there.
A calm before the storm.
There were a few weird pics from twitter that had me a bit paranoid as a Brian girl from a while back. For example, the oxygen mask pic and the bruise/cut on his head pic. I'm like dang Brian, you alright!?!
Anyway, great to see an update this Sunday. Awesome work
Date: 11/18/15 08:57 am Title: 10. My Break
Thanfully, especially in real life, Brian has an amazing source of support inside his family. It hasn't been easy for them too, especially for Baylee who had to witness his father going through this and not being really able to help him.
Poor Brian. He places too much pressure on himself, especially when he's with the Boys. He wants to be better with them, he wants to prove them that they can rely on him once again and, mostly, I think he doesn't want for them to constantly worry about him. And that's why he keeps faltering with them: if he just let himself go like he did at home... Oh Bri! I feel for you even if this is only a story. *goes inside the story and hugs him tight*
Author's Response: Yeah, I think a good support system is one of the most important things in this situation, I'm so very glad he seems to have that in real life. Don't really know how much Baylee is informed of these issues though. I don't imagine he knows nothing about them, but yeah, how much of this do you discuss with your son? I suppose the pressure is the biggest negative factor too, in terms of expecting way too much, way too fast. Maybe if he just pretends he's in his own house, in his own studio, things could be a little better, but I guess that's just very difficult to do. You wish this was just a story.
Date: 11/18/15 03:11 am Title: 10. My Break
Poor Brian this story is so real I could see this really happening to him and just the thought makes me sad. Great chapter can't wait for more.
Author's Response: I try to get as much details right and to leave as little as possible up to my own interpretation. I can actually see him smashing an empty glass on the floor in frustration, as it's perfectly understandable in a situation like this. Not really sure though, cause I've never really seen him raging or anything.
Date: 11/18/15 02:43 am Title: 10. My Break
How frustrating! Just when he thinks he is better. Crashes and burns. I'm glad for the support of his wife. In real life, she seems supportive and has loads of faith in Brian. I think she is misunderstood... And sometimes people want to find the bad in others.
I do feel bad that his family is feeling his wrath. Yikes, poor Baylee.
Gosh, he didn't even get to have his bourbon. That's a blessing though. Sometimes drowning your anger, stress, sadness in alcohol can be bad. Not something you want to get into a habit of.
You are a great updater! Yay
Author's Response: I imagine it has happened a lot, actually. I notice it a lot on forums too. Brian can sing a song almost perfectly, and then makes one mistake which erases all he has accomplished and people still bash him for it, even though the rest of the song was good. It's just terrible to see happening. Yeah, in these types of situations, you need all the support you can get and I'm glad he can rely on his family for that. Don't really know how much Baylee is informed of these things though. MOST of the times drowning problems is bad. But we'll see if he can get his bourbon on a later date. I'm only a great updater when I am inspired, and since I recently rewatched the documentary and it rebroke my heart, I wanted to pick up where this story left off.
Date: 11/17/15 09:30 pm Title: The Stubborn
My little sister suffers from panic attacks. I usually sit with her and breathe when I catch her in the middle of one. My mom is not very sympathetic because she says it's all in her head and she needs to get over it. But that makes it worse honestly.
How do you convince someone that feels like they are having a heart attack when they are not? She usually passes out from them too. No fun.
From how I read it, Howie seems a little too nonchalant about the situation. But, viewers perspective right? Afterall, he did not find Brian passed out. Nick did, so he is scared. AJ has experienced them, so he can relate.... And Kevin is eating meatballs LOL.
Great update, I'm scared of rock bottom, but anxious to find out who will help pull him out.
Author's Response: Somebody's gotta eat them meatballs before they're completely cold. And even though a lot of it IS in his head, that doesn't mean it's not bad. It actually makes it worse, in my opinion, cause if it was just his body, you could perhaps easily find a medical way to deal with it. Psychologically, it's far more tricky. One of the following chapters will eventually crash into rock bottom, I suppose. So hang on ^^
Date: 11/17/15 08:56 pm Title: The Stubborn
Oh boy love this stubborn men lol
Author's Response: Who doesn't? haha XD Being stubborn at exactly the wrong moments is not a very good trait, but it does make an interesting fictional character :) Thank you for reviewing ^^
