"I hate this place....no one understands me or even tries to." I mutter to intangible silence. Pain has picked me as it's permanent home...a home that I know of nothing else. It consumes me....defies me...controls me. I suppose there once was a time when love shined it's warmth on me but such days are long gone, gone with it's hallow laugh as I play the fool over and over again. "I don't know how to love...." People who have come are gone and I'm left here..."Where is here?" I'm not sure, all I know is I'm all I have..."Pick up the pieces," my brain begs but I can't...there are far to many.

I have lost the will to live Simply nothing more to give There is nothing more for me Need the end to set me free Tune... It's an old tune that plays and plays..."One more day...just one more day." I can't take this...I want to end this. I can't take the pressure on my own..I can't live like this...I have nothing to live for...no one will miss me...I'm sure no one will even notice. AJ McLean...a name, nothing more but a name. A name i'm sure will be lost...just as I am. I sigh as a tear falls down my cheek followed by another till I'm drowning myself. "What d-did I do to deserve this?" I cry to the stars and their ill-faded light. Whip away the pain! Take away the sorrow that has grown on my broken soul! "I'm to far gone..." I can't reach myself...I can't feel myself...I can't breathe.

Deathly lost, this can't be real Cannot stand this hell I feel Emptiness is filing me To the point of agony Blade... The light reflects off the blade as a gentle friend so long forgotten. "Your the only one that can save me from myself." I study it for a while, a small smile claims my face. No longer will I be trapped under the ice of this world. I bring the blade down to greet my wrist. "Ah." Is let out in a whispered sigh. I bleed...I bleed pain...relief. I lay here in a content haze as the life is slowly drained from me, my smile grows and my only friend, darkness, comes to take me. "Fade to black...."

There was no reason Left for me to try Death greets me warm Now I say good-bye The End AN: Please review me and let me know what you think, thank you.