Footsteps echoed with each and every puddle they came in contact with. Rain kept pouring down, faster and thick while wind blew away its drops, dragging behind what was left of leaves and branches. Only a solitary figure dared the forces of nature in that particular moment of the day. That figure was walking very slowly, with only a goal and a destination in his mind.
Once the highest point of the bridge had been reached, the man took a cellphone out from the pocket of the thin jacket he was wearing.
«This is my last message. A few moments, I hope it won't take that much time, and I will be able to see you again and tell you all the things I haven't been able to say in these past weeks. I should be sad, I should feel some kind of remorse and regret for what I'm about to do, for all the people I'm about to leave behind and how much I'm about to hurt them. But this... this is the only solution, the only way I have to escape all this pain and heartache.
Each morning is harder and harder to get up and pretend that nothing had changed: the world is still running, the hours still change along with days and months. I can't. While everything still live, I'm paralized since that night. I have nowhere to turn, there is no thought or sight that doesn't bring me directly or inderectly to you.
Why keep hurting, then?
Why do I have to live a life that has lost its centre?
Frick and Frack.
But how can I be Frick without my Frack? Honestly, Nick, I don't want be. I don't wanna be without you.
I'm not afraid. I'm here, observing the river below me and I don't feel any fear. I was so scared of heights and, yet, I don't have any vertigo. Maybe I'm still hiding inside that cocoon of numbness that held me captive since your death.
I'm not afraid to die. I'm already dead so this... this is only a fall into another life. A life where there is you and everything that we should be.
Us.
Me and you forever.»
The grip around the wrought - iron railing tightened up while the back came to rest against it. A look below and then they eyes raised up, to the sky, where his only hope to survive was looking down on him.
«I left silently. I spoke with everybody, I even call my parents and your mom. Isn't this what people do? Isn't this what people do when they decide that it's time to go? It's even more cruel when you think about it, Nick, 'cause I wasn't given that honour. I don't have any last words to hold on to. Just that quick kiss on the tipnose and the reassurance to come back soon. I think, I believe, it's more than appropriate that I'm the one who has to come to find you. It has always been our fixed point, after all.
I couldn't condemn Kevin and the others to my same and cruel fate. I left a note, a few line that I know won't be able to soothe the pain but I wanted to leave a brief explanation. Even though I fear that kevin capted something. I'm not sure, I don't know what left me think this but... he had that strange look in his eyes like he knew.»
Brian let out a steady breath as he started to unhook his fingers.
«Wait for me. And see you soon, Nick.»
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