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I turned to look at the crowd when I saw someone familiar. She was leaning on the wall, and it looked like she was crying. We made eye conact. "I love you," I saw her mouth, . . . and she walked away. It was Ally.

"I . . . I . . . I-I can't," I said, looking at the priest and back at Isabelle.
Everyone gasped.
"What?" Isabelle said, her voice breaking.
"I-I'm sorry," I said, letting her hand go and running away towards the door, not looking back. Brian stopped me.
"Nick, where are you going?" he asked.
"To find the woman I love," I told him and ran off.

20 Minutes Later . . .
I was back at my house trying to find anything; any type of clue that would help me find her. I heard music playing down at my studio. I ran towards it and listened to the song . . .

There's another world inside of me that you may never see
There's secrets in this life that I can't hide
Somewhere in this darkness, there's a life that I can't find
Maybe it's too far away, or maybe I'm just blind, maybe I'm just blind

So, hold me when I'm here; right me when I'm wrong
Hold me when I'm scared, and love me when I'm gone
Everything I am and everything in me
Wants to be the one you wanted me to be
I'll never let you down, even if I could
I'd give up everything, if only for your good
So hold me when I'm here; right me when I'm wrong
You can hold me when I'm scared, but you won't always be there
So love me when I'm gone, love me when I'm gone

When your education X-ray cannot see under my skin,
I won't tell you a damn thing that I could not tell my friends
Now, roaming through this darkness, I'm alive, but I'm alone
Part of me is fighting this, but part of me is gone

So hold me when I'm here; right me when I'm wrong
Hold me when I'm scared, and love me when I'm gone
Everything I am and everything in me
Wants to be the one you wanted me to be
I'll never let you down, even if I could
I'd give up everything, if only for your good
So hold me when I'm here; right me when I'm wrong
You can hold me when I'm scared, you won't always be there
So, love me when I'm gone

Maybe I'm just blind

So hold me when I'm here; right me when I'm wrong
Hold me when I'm scared, and love me when I'm gone
Everything I am and everything in me
Wants to be the one you wanted me to be
I'll never let you down, even if I could
I'd give up everything, if only for your good
So hold me when I'm here; right me when I'm wrong
You can hold me when I'm scared, you won't always be there
So love me when I'm gone, love me when I'm gone


I realized what the song meant. I realized what was on her mind . . . Suicide.