Summary: AJ McLean loved his girlfriend with all his heart, but he needed something more from their relationship than she could give. That's why Stephanie was there. She was there when and where Rachel couldn't be. It was supposed to be a noncommittal arrangement, but a surprise visit from Rachel throws all their plans for a loop - causing Stephanie to realize she deserves more than what AJ can give her. And AJ learns a vital lesson in love - that you don't appreciate what you've got till it's gone. Can he win her over before she finds somebody else - or has she already moved on?
Rated: NC-17
Categories: Fanfiction > Backstreet Boys
Characters: AJ, Brian, Group
Genres: Drama, Romance
Warnings: Child Abuse, Death, Domestic Violence, Graphic Sexual Content, Violence, Sexual Assault/Rape
Challenges:
Series: None
Chapters: 9
Completed: No
Word count: 23418
Read: 1534
Published: 01/21/08
Updated: 04/11/08
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Story Notes:
Disclaimer: I do not know any of the celebrities mentioned in this story. I am not associated with them in any way, shape or form. Their lives are their property. Their personalities in this story are my perception of their actual selves (with a mix of my imagination), making it completely fictional. This story is a work of my imagination, making it my intellectual property. No copyright infringement is intended.
2nd Disclaimer: YES, this is a Backstreet story. NO, it does not involve N'Sync, unless they are mentioned in passing. I'm sorry to disappoint all you N'Sync fans, but I just needed a story title and the song fit.
1. Chapter One: Wanton Desire by Sinara [ - ] (3294 words)
This story is a little different than my usual writing style, but I am extremely excited about where this story is headed. It is also my first attempt at a third-person POV. Feedback is GREATLY appreciated. Thanks for reading.
- Sinara
2. Chapter Two: Experimentation by Sinara [ - ] (3666 words)
3. Chapter Three: Repressed Memories by Sinara [ - ] (3186 words)
AN: This chapter contains graphic material (ei. rape and domestic violence) that may not be suitable for all people. You have been forewarned.
4. Chapter Four: Takin' Care of 'Business' by Sinara [ - ] (2686 words)
Sorry it took so long to update. I ended up getting writer's block over the last half of this chapter, and I couldn't seem to pull myself out of it. I still think it needs work, but I think you have all waited more than long enough for an update - so here it is. Hope you like it.
P.S. Trust me, after this chapter, the story REALLY starts to get good.
5. Chapter Five: An Unexpected Visitor by Sinara [ - ] (2223 words)
I know it has been awhile since I last updated, but I have been totally uninspired to write. But being in one of the most magic places on earth has inspired me. So here is the next chapter in the phase of Alex, Stephanie, Brian, and Rachel.
6. Chapter Six: A Night of Passion by Sinara [ - ] (2716 words)
This is an extremely sexual chapter. If reading about the boys' sexual experiences bothers you, please skip this chapter.
7. Chapter Seven: Broken-Hearted and Departed by Sinara [ - ] (1517 words)
I know this is a short chapter, but it was so action-packed, you won't miss the extra half of the chapter.
8. Chapter Eight: Someday by Sinara [ - ] (1483 words)
9. Chapter Nine: A Lover's Embrace by Sinara [ - ] (2647 words)
