'What am I doing?'
She asked herself as she made her way to the elevator.
Howie had let the bodyguard and the person at the desk know she was coming. She had to make her way past the fans outside. They all gave her evil looks as she went in. She just shrugged it off as she headed up to their floor.
15,16,17,18...
God did they have to get a room so far up. The elevator stopped and opened as she stepped out. Now she stood in front of Kevin's room ready to knock. She was shaking and man was she ever scared. She hadn't seen or heard from Nick in over a year. She had talked to him while she was pregnant with Melanie. Then she stopped answering his calls altogether.
"Ok here we go," she said taking a deep breath and knocking.
The door opened and there in front of her stood Howie.
"Hey D," she said giving a small smile
"Hey girl!," he said embracing her in a tight hug
"I missed you." Howie and the guys have grown to love Dee as a friend and as a sister.
He let her go and let her come in. The other three stood up making their way to her hugging her.
"It's so good to see you again," Brian said letting go of her
"It's good to see you too Bri. Umm...Where's Nick?," she asked as Kevin pulled out a chair asking her to sit
"Dee we need to talk," he said pulling a chair in front of her sitting down
"I knew this was coming," she said sighing
"Before we get Nick we need to know one thing. Why did you leave him?," Kevin asked as she looked down at her hands in her lap not daring to look at him
"Ok," she said taking a deep breath "The reason that I left is because I...," she looked up to find all four men staring at her waiting for her explanation "I left because I got pregnant," she said as the room fell silent
"Let me know if I heard this right. You got pregnant?," AJ asked
"Yes AJ that's right."
"And you didn't tell Nick?," AJ asked looking at her
"No...," she said looking down at her hands again "I...I...couldn't."
"May I ask why the hell not?"
"AJ!," Kevin yelled making him shut up
"Dee?," Kevin said returning his attention to her "Why didn't you tell him?"
"Because of your group it was doing so well, I just couldn't see ruining his dream, your dream, or worse ruining his image. Everyone would probably think I trapped him and that I did it to get his money," she said looking up at him to be met with his green eyes
"Dee how could you say that? You know damn well that Nick doesn't care about his so called 'image' what he cares about is you, it's always been you. Nick couldn't care less about what the media or the fans may think because as long as he's happy theres nothing else to worry about."
"Yeah I guess your right."
"No I know I'm right. Dee, he deserves to know," Kevin said placing his hand on hers "Do you really think Nick cares about what other people think?," he asked kneeling down in front of her
"Do you?"
"Well no but....."
"No buts Dee you have to tell Nick. He's miserable without you, he's not the Nick we know without you. You're all he thinks about, talks about. He loves you. Now you stay here I'm going to get Nick ok?," he said getting up making his way towards the door
"I'm not going anywhere," she said as he left the room to get Nick.
Author's Chapter Notes:
What Am I Doing?
