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The New Guy by freedomwriter Rated: G Liked [ - ]
Summary: Past Featured Story

He watched the newcomer from a distance, and hated him instantly. He didn’t just dislike him, no, he hated him with his whole being.  Who'd ever thought the one you once hated, would be the one thing you would be missing dearly some day?

a story about friendship, betrayal, forgiveness and saying goodbye. About Kamille tea, an interesting fear of elevators and what actually means to be a brother.


Categories: Fanfiction > Backstreet Boys
Characters: Brian, Nick
Genres: Angst, Drama
Warnings: None
Series: None
Chapters: 63 Table of Contents
Completed: No
Word count: 96197
Read Count: 124763


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02/11/13 » Updated: 06/20/16
Reviewer: rokstar Signed
Date: 02/26/13 Title: Chapter 1: 1. In the beginning

ok now I think my assumptions about why they made Brian leave the group were totally wrong . . . .what is wrong with him? He's not acting right :( Please update!

Author's Response:

haha, I'd love to know what you thought :)

update is coming soon! thanks for reading and reviewing, you rock!

Reviewer: rokstar Signed
Date: 02/27/13 Title: Chapter 13: 13. Stand By You

I see Brian and Nick being JUST like this back in the beginning . . . you've got them DOWN! lol Cute chapter!

Reviewer: rokstar Signed
Date: 02/27/13 Title: Chapter 14: 14. Black Mind

Oh my God :(
I thought in the beginning of the story that Brian had been forced out of the group by the other guys because his voice had deteriorated(sort of reflecting somewhat on his real life vocal issues)but now I fear that it is his mind deteriorating(Alzheimers) or maybe memory issues from some kind of brain trauma. Those are my guesses now :(

Author's Response:

ah, you see, my guess is that if it had just been his voice that was screwed up, they would have kicked him out a long time ago (in real life at least) it's more complicated than that. 

Almost finished another chapter. I don't think I've ever written a story this quickly. 

thanks for reading and reviewing, hope you still enjoy the story. You're awesome!

Reviewer: rokstar Signed
Date: 02/27/13 Title: Chapter 15: 15. The Good Life

This chapter made me teary, as you kept shifting from '93 to '15, because it shows the way everything has drastically and tragically changed. However one thing still remains - the love that Nick has for his "big brother" and hopefully Brian can still feel that too. The other thing that makes me emotional is the gentle love and devotion of a son for his father *sob* Great story! Please update!

Reviewer: rokstar Signed
Date: 03/19/13 Title: Chapter 32: 32. Seeking What Was Lost

Haven't been able to catch up on this story until today, but I kept thinking about it, and wanting to get back to it, and you surely did not disappoint. You write so well, and really have made Brian's illness feel so real with your descriptions of what it is doing to him. I'm so upset to see that Leighanne seems to have cheated on Brian when he is so desperately ill. It seems inexcusable, but maybe that is how she copes when faced with the almost certain death of her husband, by acting out recklessly. Who knows(well, YOU do, since you are writing it lol)but it is sad to think she might be uncaring. Poor sweet Baylee, my heart just aches for him and for Nick, who has such love for his "brother" :(
Wonderful story! please update!

Reviewer: rokstar Signed
Date: 04/10/13 Title: Chapter 41: 41. Kill It With Fire

You DID get it right . . .it was worth the wait! That was so intense and I just wish they could have made him feel a little less alone in that moment . . . just hugging him and telling him how much they wished he didn't have to go, but that he needed to, for himself. My heart is just aching for Brian :(
Thanks so much for updating. Great job! Can't wait for the next chapters.

Reviewer: rokstar Signed
Date: 04/16/13 Title: Chapter 42: 42. Long Way Down

Aww, Brian needed to feel that hug and to hear those words sooo much! Thank you, Nick!
As for Leighanne, are any of them going to confront her about what she is doing? I hope they do!

Reviewer: rokstar Signed
Date: 07/08/13 Title: Chapter 52: 52. When Frick Met Frack (1)

Yay! You are back! I love how Nick is intent on being there for his "hero", even in the face of hostility coming from him. It seems that Brian is angry and hurting to the core and he is taking it out on his little brother. Sometimes you treat the ones you love most the worst when it is really someone else who has hurt you. Brian is so lucky to have that person who will love him enough to take the misplaced screaming, yelling and blaming and still not leave. What a beautiful thing to see. Frick and Frack

Crash and Burn by mamogirl Rated: PG-13 [ - ]
Summary: When you feel all alone
And a loyal friend is hard to find
You're caught in a one way street
With the monsters in your head

If you need to fall apart
I can mend a broken heart
If you need to crash then crash and burn
You're not alone

Categories: Fanfiction > Backstreet Boys
Characters: Brian, Nick
Genres: Dramedy
Warnings: None
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes
Word count: 2149
Read Count: 862


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02/18/13 » Updated: 02/18/13
Reviewer: rokstar Signed
Date: 02/24/13 Title: Chapter 1: * You're Not Alone *

Aww, I just loved this story - So heartbreaking AND heartwarming all at the same time. Seeing Brian so incredibly sad made me want to jump right into the story somehow and wrap him up in a big warm comforting hug. However, since that obviously is impossible, lol thank you Nick for doing it for me.
P.S Great job, hope you'll write more Brian stories.

Author's Response: Awww, thank you! And yes, I will def write more Brian stories. Brian deserves some love after all. lol

Summary: In the fall of 2013, Brian and Nick find themselves in a similar position. For the first time in years, they are both desperately trying to redefine themselves as single men. The situation intensifies for Brian when he finds himself embroiled in a bitter custody battle involving Child Protective Services. During an on-the-road visit, the unsettling background of one C.P.S. worker results in a disappointing revelation for Nick and ultimately forces Brian to make a potentially life-changing decision.
Categories: Fanfiction > Backstreet Boys
Characters: Brian, Group, Nick
Genres: Drama, Romance
Warnings: Sexual Content
Series: None
Chapters: 40 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes
Word count: 88177
Read Count: 91693


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12/04/13 » Updated: 02/26/14
Reviewer: rokstar Signed
Date: 01/13/14 Title: Chapter 1: Chapter 1

I just read all the chapters tonight, and you definitely have my attention.... Great story! I'm always a sucker for well-written Brian stories(there are way too few of those)and this one truly is. I am sad to see Brian going through a hard time with his divorce, and just the thought of him losing Baylee makes me want to cry. The chapter where AJ confronts Brian on his drinking actually DID bring me to tears . . .very powerful. I was not happy when you had Kayla seemingly interested in Nick. It didn't match up with what I had perceived as little sparks of feelings between her and Brian lol I am NOW happy, though, reading chapter 19 and how Kayla felt when Brian hugged her. She was feeling ALL the feelings! Not sure what is going to happen in Montreal, but guessing that maybe the father of Kayla's baby might possibly live there? Can't wait for next chapter!

Author's Response: WOW! Thanks so much for the wonderful review! I've always been a Brian girl and I fully agree that there are not enough stories out there about him. I really appreciate the fact that you think the story is well-written. It means so much to me when people say things like that!! Thanks again. :)

What the Ocean Can Do by cadance78 Rated: R [ - ]
Summary: Kicked out of the band, kicked out of their lives. But when AJ really needs someone there for him, who can he turn to? Will the brothers that have always stood by come to the rescue, or will they leave him stranded?
Categories: Fanfiction > Backstreet Boys
Characters: AJ, Brian, Group
Genres: Angst, Drama
Warnings: Death
Series: None
Chapters: 14 Table of Contents
Completed: No
Word count: 19747
Read Count: 20847


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08/12/14 » Updated: 01/04/15
Reviewer: rokstar Signed
Date: 11/09/14 Title: Chapter 12: Chapter 11

Great story! I am really interested in finding out more about what happened in the past with Brian and AJ. Their relationship is most intriguing to me. What did Nick mean when he told AJ that Brian didn't blame him? Why had Brian stopped praying/believing? Hope to find out more soon.

Author's Response: Thanks for the review! Hopefully I'll be able to update over Christmas break!

Summary:
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Can you just be friends? What happens when you are in love with your best friend? Follow this group of friends figuring out if what they have is more than friendship.
Categories: Fanfiction > Backstreet Boys
Characters: Brian, Group, Nick
Genres: Drama, Romance
Warnings: Sexual Content
Series: None
Chapters: 54 Table of Contents
Completed: No
Word count: 72671
Read Count: 81292


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09/04/14 » Updated: 06/10/15
Reviewer: rokstar Signed
Date: 09/20/14 Title: Chapter 12: Chapter 12

Great story! All I can say to Alexia is: Girl, are you blind?? Go to Brian! Go to Brian!! He is already making her feel things physically and yet she is seemingly oblivious to it. I just want to shake her and tell her "It isn't Nick you love, just listen to your body, listen to what your heart is trying to tell you."

Author's Response: Thanks!!! Glad you are enjoying it. Alexia seems to be a little dense when it comes to seeing what is in front of her. Maybe Brian needs to make a move. LOL.

Killing Me Softly by freedomwriter Rated: NC-17 [ - ]
Summary:


Nick and Brian had been missing for three days, then one of them came back. Will they ever find the other back in time? It's fighting in vain when you know that with each day that passes, hope is diminishing. It's a race against time. It's being stuck in a nightmare that has a close resemblance to reality. It's hell.
Categories: Fanfiction > Backstreet Boys
Characters: AJ, Brian, Group, Howie, Kevin, Nick
Genres: Angst, Horror, Suspense
Warnings: Graphic Violence, Violence
Series: None
Chapters: 38 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes
Word count: 50500
Read Count: 10276


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Published:
12/06/14 » Updated: 04/21/16
Reviewer: rokstar Signed
Date: 11/08/15 Title: Chapter 1: Prologue: date Unknown

When I realized that you had resumed writing "Killing Me Softly", I was ecstatic, because no story on here had affected me so deeply as this one had. I decided to read it all from the beginning and then the newly added chapters. I just spent the better part of my day reading and just finished. I am sitting here blubbering like an idiot. Crying. You are an excellent writer, has anyone told you that? You brought this story to life in a terrifying way that I can't describe. Everything that Brian experienced was described in such horrific detail, it felt like I was there, seeing it. It cut me like a knife. When you wrote in first-person, from his eyes,in his mind I felt like I WAS him . . . terrified, helpless, hopeless. The chapter when he is rescued was so full of hope, then despair, back to hope, back to despair. My heart was beating out of my chest. Nick and AJ's emotions were my emotions. The "Life" chapter . . .omg. Leighanne visiting Brian in the psychiatric ward. I cannot even tell you how much this chapter has affected me. So fraught with overwhelming feelings from both Brian and Leighanne. I was riveted, frozen just as Leigh was. Brian closed his eyes and reopened them, and she was still there! His realization of that, and her realizing he knew her, her coming closer to his outreached hand, it all was spellbinding, I could not move. I cried right along with them.
I am so grateful you have come back to writing this, and don't understand why this isn't getting more reviews. Your should win awards. You are a damn good writer. Please don't abandon this, keep writing. Hopefully, it will get the attention it deserves.

Author's Response: oh god, you can't believe how much I appreciate this review! Thank you so much; I am so glad that the story was able to stir some kind of emotion, because that is what it's for :)

Reviewer: rokstar Signed
Date: 01/14/15 Title: Chapter 5: 5. October 13th. Eye for an Eye

Just read this story now and I must say that it is truly riveting! Finding myself tearing up already in the prologue, I thought I might have a hard time reading any more of it, but you just pulled me in. I hope you will choose to continue on with what I consider to be a very well written, frightening and heart wrenching story line.

Reviewer: rokstar Signed
Date: 01/15/15 Title: Chapter 6: 6. October 16th: No Mercy

I just want to kill these monsters myself for what they are doing to Brian and find myself yelling "Leave him the f**k alone you sick bastards!" It breaks my heart that he grieves for Nick and believes he deserves all that is happening to him :(