Shout At The Devil by bjnkha9192
Chapter 12 by bjnkha9192
I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long


"I'm almost ready, I'll be right out!" Vicki yelled from the hallway, Brian sat on her couch in a daze, staring blankly ahead.

"Hey, you okay?" Brian asked kneeling down to her level.

"Yeah I'm okay" Vicki said to him "Oh my god ow" she said trying to move her foot.

"Okay maybe I'm not that okay" she said to him he grabbed her hands and carefully pulled her up, she fell against him.

“Hi" he said as he looked down at her.

“Hi" she said as her face turned red.

"I uh...I'm Brian" he said to her.

"I'm Vicki" she said to him.

"Vicki, pretty name" he said to her.

"Yeah? I always thought it made me sound like some snotty rich girl or some evil old lady" she said as they laughed.


"Okay I think I have everything, ready?" she asked coming into the living room, a large overnight bag slung around her shoulder, she grabbed her jacket from a coat rack. He remained silent, she then went to his side “Hey” she said putting her hand on his shoulder.

“Huh? Oh, sorry” he said.

“You okay?” she asked.

“Yeah I guess I just spaced out there for a sec sorry” he said.

“That’s okay, you know before we go back to the house, I could use a drink, want one?” she asked setting her bag down on the couch and throwing her jacket over a chair.

“I could use several” he said to her he pulled his jacket off and threw it over the arm of the couch and sat down, Her heels clicked on the kitchen floor. She brought a large wine bottle and two glasses over to the couch, setting them on the coffee table.

“This the hardest stuff you got?” he asked.

“Unfortunately” she said “What’s got you spacing out?” she asked.

“As if I didn’t already know” she said filling the glasses.

“Just thinking” he said “Thanks” he said taking the glass from her.

“Do you uh…remember the night we broke up?” he asked.

“Uh…I think so” she said filling the glasses.

“I know it was Bradley’s birthday” she said she said handing him a glass.

“Yeah” he said.

“What made you think of that?” she asked.

“It’s been on my mind for a while now” he said taking a drink.

“Really?” she asked.

“I’ve been thinking about us a lot lately” he said looking at her.

“You have?” she asked.

“Yeah…that’s actually one of the reasons I came home early, I really needed to talk to you about something” he said setting the glass down.

She looked at him surprised “I know you said you came home to take care of something important, I just didn’t think it was just to talk to me” she said.

“Well I've been putting it off long enough, it can't wait any longer" he said “Besides what I want to say sounds better in person” he said.

“Okay” she said setting her glass down “What is it?” she asked.

He turned to face her, smiling softly and taking her hands in his, brushing her hair away from her face.

“The first moment I ever saw you I knew I would love you forever" he said. "Vicki you are one of if not the most beautiful women I’ve ever met, you’re so incredibly smart which is probably the sexiest thing in the world, you're sweet, you're kind and you're generous, you have the most amazing heart of anyone I know" he said. “for months now I’ve just been thinking back about our time together, all the years we spent together, have been the best years of my life, I don't remember a time in my life when I was happier than when I was with you” he said. “And then we spent that night together at our reunion last fall and all those old feelings that I had for you…they just started to come back” he said.

“And then I realized that maybe all those old feelings never really went away” he said “I’m in love with you Vicki…I'm probably more in love with you now than I ever was before, I always have been, I always will be and all I want, is to be with you, I want you back" he said to her.

“Oh uh…wow” she said “I don’t…I don’t know what to say…” she said.

“Yeah” he said.

“I know this is all...unexpected and I probably sound completely insane...but it's the truth and I'm not saying it out of grief or vulnerability or anything else.”

“I just can’t believe all of this ” she said.

“When I let you go I thought I was doing the right thing, I know now that it was probably the biggest mistake I’ve ever made” he said.

“What are you talking about?” she asked “What do you mean the right thing?”

“It just didn’t seem fair of me to ask you to put your dreams on hold while I went off to chase mine” he said.

“Our life together was way more important to me than a career” she said.

“A career you had been dreaming of since you were a little girl, I didn’t want to take that away from you” he said. “I didn't want you to be waiting around for me, you were a young, beautiful woman you deserved so much more than a part-time boyfriend…I just wanted you to be happy…it’s all I ever wanted for you” he said.

“I was happy…I was happy with you” she said.

“Up until that point the life I wanted was you, me and Bradley, the three of us being a family” she said “I thought that’s what you wanted too” she said. “It was, it still is” he said “I don’t know, maybe I just felt guilty somehow” “wasn’t just me, I felt like you were pulling away too” he said.

“I kind of had to didn’t I?” she asked “You guys had an image to uphold, remember?” she asked No girlfriends, no wives and especially no kids” she asked. “Can you imagine what the fallout from that would’ve been like if the fans found out that you had not only a girlfriend but a son?” she asked. “You guys were so talented and you were working so hard to be successful I didn’t want you to lose that, you guys deserved to be famous…and you are” she said.

“I guess in trying to protect each other, we kept ourselves away from what we really wanted” he said.

“I guess so” Vicki said.

“I know that I just sprung all this on you and if you don’t feel the same way and you still just want to be friends…I’ll understand but I want you know that, I’m not going to stop fighting for you, I meant what I said, I love you, I want to be with you and I’m not going to stop until I have you back” he said. “I’ll uh…take your bag out to the car” he said standing up.

“No wait” she said standing up to face him “This is all…a lot to take in” she said.

“Yeah I know…I’m sorry” he said.

“Please, don’t apologize for how you feel” she said.

“Look if you need some time to think about everything, I understand and I’ll be waiting once you decide” he said.

“Yeah…except I don’t” she said.

“What?” he asked.

“I don’t need time to think” she said “You are the love of my life, you always have been…it took me a while but, I finally realize that now…all I want is to be with you” she said to him.

“Listen, I know I can't get the years we missed together back for us...and maybe we won’t have what we used to” he said.

“But maybe this time…it can be better, we can have a brand new beginning, as adults and I can give you the future...if you want it" he said.

She nodded emphatically “Yes” she said “It’s all I ever wanted” she said tearfully.

“I love you so much” he said.

“I love you too” Vicki said as they kissed deeply.


~*~



"Come on, come on” Kellie said, her phone pressed to her ear. “Vicki’s still not picking up, where are they?” she asked.

“Yeah neither is Bri” Kevin said hanging up, the front door opened, Nick rolled in two large suitcases behind him. “What’s all this?” Kellie asked as Sasha came in behind him toting a large bag on her arm.

“My stuff” she said to Kellie.

"You're never going to believe this" Kellie said to her.

"What's going on?” Nick asked.

"We think we know who took the boys" Kellie said to them.

"Who?" Sasha asked.

"Derek Winchester" Kevin said.

"Who's he?" Sasha asked.

"Wait, Winchester? You mean like that Damien kid?" Nick asked.

"Yeah, it's his dad, he called me from Kyle's cell phone" Kevin said to them.

"What?" Sasha asked.

“Yeah” Kellie said to her.

“Well what did he say? Are the boys okay?” Sasha asked.

“No, he was basically just taunting us” Kevin said.

“Did you call Dean?” Nick asked.

“Yeah he’s going to look into it” Kellie said to him.

"Why would he do this?" Sasha asked.

“Revenge obviously for sending Damien to prison” Kevin said angrily.

"What is wrong with this guy?!" Nick asked angrily.

"The point is we finally have a lead” Kellie said.

"You don't think this guy would hurt the boys do you?" Sasha asked.

"He sent us Bradley's shirt covered in blood I think it's safe to say he's not too concerned about their wellbeing" Nick said.

“Where is everyone?” Nick asked.

“Howie and Chris went to pick up some dinner and AJ took Melissa to get some of her things” he said.

“What about Brian and Vicki?” Nick asked.

“We don’t know, they said to were heading over to Vicki’s house but they’re not back yet and they’re not answering their phones” Kellie said.

~*~


“We have to…we have to get back…to the house” Vicki said panting as Brian kissed and sucked on her neck.

“We’ll get there” he said kissing her once more, He put his hand on her waist, pulling her in even closer, she could feel him through the fabric on his jeans. His fingers becoming tangled in her long dark locks as he ran his hand through her hair, their kissing intensified when suddenly he hoisted her up, her legs wrapped tightly around him.

The door to her bedroom slightly opened as he carried her inside. They disconnected briefly as she reached for the buttons on his shirt and pulled it open, ripping it off him. He reached up to pull at the buttons of her sweater, he slipped it off her shoulders, letting it fall to the floor. Her eyes closed as he buried his face into the crook of her neck, softly sucking and nipping on her soft flesh.

His fingers snaked under her tank top pressing into the small of her back drawing her in closer to him. He reached up sliding the straps of her tank top and her bra off her shoulders, his lips moving from her neck to her bare shoulders, kissing them softly. He backed her up towards her bed, when she felt the back of her legs hit the mattress. He pulled her top over her head and pulled her back into him, she quickly shed his white tank top. She sat on her bed, looking up at him, smiling seductively at him as she slid backwards.

He looked down at her, his eyes becoming dark with lust as he crawled over her, she finally lied down letting her head hit the pillows. He pressed his body tightly against hers as he lied on top of her, capturing her mouth once again in a hungry wanting kiss. She ran her hands over his strong arms, squeezing him gently, placing small soft kisses on his bare shoulder. He slid her bra straps from her shoulders as he kissed her cleavage, She then reached down, grabbing for the button and zipper of his jeans.

She pushed his jeans off his hips and he kicked them off, landing on the floor. He ran his hands down her legs, pulling her jeans from her, softly kissing her thighs and lightly sucking as they fell to the floor.
He wrapped his arms around her, fumbling for the clasp of her bra in the back, he pulled it, letting it fall loose. She sat up, holding it to her chest before pulling it off and letting it fall to the floor, he felt himself become harder at the sight of her bare breasts.

He nuzzled his face into her neck, sucking softly at first, biting down on the soft flesh and made his way downward. His thumb brushing across her nipple as he fondled her breast, cupping it in his hand and gently squeezing it while swept his tongue across the other, gently sucking on it, biting down on it slightly. She ran her hands up and down his sides, slipping her fingers underneath the band of his boxers, pushing them off his hips and letting them slip down his legs and fall to the floor.

He pulled at the lacy fabric of her panties, slowly sliding them down her legs, he then pressed his fingers into her thigh, gently pulling her legs apart as he slipped between them. He then thrusted his hips forward, entering her, she moaned, a feeling of pure pleasure reverberating through her body. he started off painfully slow, almost in a teasing manner. Their lips connected once more and shared deep passionate kisses. Their slow rocking began to pick up speed as his thrusts became harder, grunting and groaning with each one. She wrapped her legs around his waist.

“oh god” she gasped, She ran her fingers through his hair, gently pulling at it every time he would hit that right spot. His hands once again found her breasts squeezed her breast, biting down on it softly, teasing her nipple with his tongue. He cupped the other in his hand, flicking her nipple back and forth with his thumb. Her soft whimpering becoming moans of ecstasy, her nails trailing up and down his back, digging into his flesh.

They kissed softly, once they parted their foreheads fell together, gasping for air and just gazing into each other’s eyes now dark with exhaustion and satisfaction. They then lied there together in her bed, the sheets twisted around them, she trailed her fingertips lightly across his chest. He took her hand and kissed it softly, she dragged her fingertip across his lips, they then kissed softly.

“I can’t believe I finally have you back” he said playing with her hair.

"Believe it” she said “because I'm not going anywhere this time” she said looking up at him, smiling "I love you" she said.

He smiled and pulled her into another, more forceful kiss “I love you so much” he said before they kissed once more.


I love you
I have loved you all along
And I forgive you
For being away for far too long
So keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me and, never let me go


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