Sitting the last box on the floor of my new room. i stand straight and just breath in the
air hoping to myself this will be the new start that i need. See Im 20 yrs old and my
names Ashley and i just got out of a 6 year abusive relationship. it finally came to an
end when my oldest brother walked in and witnessed My ex beating me. i lied to my
brother for six years about what was happening but i think he has always known but
wasnt sure. most of the time i was really good at hiding the marks. I finally ended things
with Mark. My brother helped and plus i was finally living with my brother which helped
me not take mark back i always had a weakness for mark but i was very happy to get away
form him.

"Sis. how do you feel about being a personal assistant"? he broke her form her thoughts
"haha. Depends whos it for?"
"Ooo. well you might know this group of guys the Backstreet boys"
"WHAT!!! omg you know i love them are you for real?"
"would i lie to you? You know that i know their manager Jen. i was talking to her and she said they
was looking for one and i told her about you and she didnt even want a interview she said that would
be great if you could do it. So what do you think"
"Umm Of course Omg god i love you so much bub" i jump on him with a hug"
"I love you to baby, God I missed my baby sister" He said when he warped his arms around me.
" i missed you to bub!"

See me and My brother use to be so close but when i turned 18 me and mark moved out of state and
he wouldnt let me call or see my family so i only got to talk to my brother when i knew mark wouldnt find out.
My family they never called me Ashley instead they always called me Baby since i can remember i was the youngest and the only girl
they only called me Ashley was when i was in trouble.
My brother showed up that night at my house because he was in town and i called him. mark walked in and heard me on the phone
so he beat me and Jeremy heard it so he came over and he found me on the floor bloody and mark over top of me punching and choking me.

"so when do i start?" i broke my self form the thoughts
"tomorrow so you better be ready"
"ill never be ready come on bub you know how obsessed i use to be with them my room
was covered in Bsb posters and Nick and Aaron Carter posters"
"Ooo Yes"
"Now baby im doing all this cause your my sister and i love you and i dont want to lose you and i dont need you going back to that bastard do you hear me. this is what you need now are you going to stay away form mark?"
"Ugh bub i will no need to be so protective anymore im safe now'
"yeah now you are but you spent six years not safe and i couldnt do anything and now im making up on that and im going to do anything and everything i need to do to keep you safe, now dont get mad but i told Jen everything and she told the boys so they will be watching out to"
"Jeremy how could you do that to me. Now thats all these guys are going to think when they meet me is all thos scars on me form that guy and think many things"
"I know baby but they need to know i know the boys and you will be safe with them and if they know the truth they will know what to look for and who to look for to keep you safe when im not around to do so. this is for you now thats the end of it i dont want to hear it baby"
"Ughh"

I have never been so nerves in my life driving up to the gate.
"Name Please" the voice said in the intercom
"Ashley Scott"
"thank you go on threw"
The gate opens and i began to shake im so nerves. I probably wouldnt be so nerves if they didnt know my past. I would be nerves because come on its the BACKSTREET BOYS but not as bad as i am. I really wish my brother hadn't told them but i can understand that he wants me to be safe. Jen meets me outside.
"You must be Ashley"
"yes thats me you must be Jen ?"
"how you doing Hun"
"Umm Nerves but yeah im okay i guess you can say"
"thats good well you ready to meet the boys they our inside recording"
"yeah sure they are recording the new album but its only Jan.? Unbreakable has only been out for little over a year"
"yeah but the boys they like to move fast and get things done"
We walk in the studio and there sits Howie on a laptop chatting with some fans. Aj was on the phone. Brian was dancing around trying to mess up Nick while he was in the sound booth recording. I couldnt help but smile.
"hey...hey...HEY BOYS!!!" Jen trying to get their attention
She waved at nick to come in the room with all of us.
"hey boys this is Ashley. Shes your guys new personal assistant"
i raised my hand and waved. "Hi"
"Well if your going to be apart of our wonderful family we HUG" Brian says while he swings his arms out.
"yeah" all the boys say at once
As i hug Howie i can hear Aj whisper something in to nicks ear
"Nizzle shes deff your type man"
"Tell me about it but she looks a little to young"
I get to nick and he gives me a kiss on the cheek and hug. Which i was in shock he was always my crush but at the time all i could think
was i hope he didnt mess up my make up that was hiding some bruising.
"So do you have a nick name or do we got to make you one cause if you know us we have nick names for everyone" Aj says laughing
"Umm well my family and most of my friends call me Baby"
"well then Baby how old are you" Nick asks with his lift eyebrow cocked.
"i just turned 20 in June"
"wow then you are the baby"
"i always seem to be"

*******************************************Nicks POV************************************************


Jens standing there with this Beautiful girl shes just my type shes about 5' 5 with Brown hair a little past her shoulders, Crystal Blue eyes, Tanned skin,
she had amazing curves. the only bad thing was she was almost 9 years younger then me. she was younger then my baby brother and baby sister. it would be weird. Where i had kissed her you could see a little darkness. Which had me thinking about the meeting Jen had with us yesterday about Ashley. Jen said that she had just got out of a abusive relationship at the time i didnt think it was that bad but that mark looked
bad. i felt bad that she had to go threw that. It also augured me that a guy could touch a woman like that and think it was okay. He gave us guys a bad name. so i decided to take the boys in the other room while Jen was showing Ashley around.
"Did you guys see the bruising on her face"
"yeah man i didnt want to say anything or look at it to make her feel uncomfortable but is that what Jen was talking about?"
"I believe it was Aj." Howie said sounding sad
"I didnt think it was that bad but damn"
"yeah Nick. I mean we will be going alot of place so boys shes apart of our family now we need to make sure this guy
that did this to her dont come around it will be hard work but we need to keep her safe guys" Brian said in a demanding voice
we all agreed.
"If you guys dont mind i would like to take her to dinner and talk to her about stuff you know"
"Nick do you think its a good idea to get into a relationship with her right now"
"Man not like that i just want to get to know her be friends you know so she can trust me. besides shes to young
which sucks if she was a couple years older i would"
"Alright just let her know we are all her for her just like big brothers"
"Done"

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Im sitting there listening to Brian in sound booth when nick comes up to me and sits down
"Hey Baby so how you like it so far"
"its pretty cool i like it and you guys sound amazing but that aint nothing new"
"Well thanks and it sounds like you are a fan?"
"yes very much so since 97"
"wow thats amazing. well i was wondering Um would you come to dinner with me"
"Umm i dont know nick i mean out in public and like we work together"
"Yeah we do but it will be just a friends dinner and we dont have to make it a public thing
you can come to my house and we can order in or something i just want to get to know
you before i start bossing you around" nick says while he laughs
"Um okay i guess but just friends"
"Just Friends Promise"
"okay sounds fun"
"O but i do have to warn you i have a annoying brother that lives with me and he might be there making loud music"
"O..Okay thats fine" i say as i laugh
"okay come over around 7"

I was running late it was 15 mins before i was suppose to be at nicks. I was still putting on make up to make sure my marks were hidden.
i finally leave my house 5 mins before i was to be at Nicks. i live a good 10 mins away. My mind ran a mile a min still thinking i was in a relationship with mark thinking im going to be in so much trouble when i get to nicks hes going to be so mad. What am i going to do?
i finally get there 3 mins late. I knock on the door. The door opens i was excepting Nick to answer but the door open and a younger look alike
of nick opened the door. He only stood about 6 feet tall, his hair was a little longer then nicks, Dark brown eyes, he was gorgeous.
"Hi! is nick here"
"Ummm.. O yeah hes in the living room. Come on in ill take you to him, So whats your Name?"
"Aa..Ashley" i could barely breath around him let alone talk or even remember my name.
"well Ashley im Aaron" he said with that famous Carter smile
"Aaron Carter!!"
"you sound surprised"
"Oo.. Just you dont look the same."
"yeah i get that Alot. I guess its a bad thing"
"No Not at all you look AMAZING" my mouth opens in shock that i just said that aloud
"Well Thanks. your not bad your self" he flashes another smile
"Baby! i thought you was standing me up" nick bursted out as soon we walked in to his view"
"Um no of course not nick why would i do that" i looked over at Aaron and he didnt say another word and walked out of the room

**************************AARONS POV**************************


I heard a knock at the door i open it and this Beautiful girl is standing there. It figures shes looking for my brother. Shes so nerves to be around me i dont know if she likes me or is its just cause im Aaron Carter. which always seems to be the case theses days. i walk to her to find my brother he said a girl was coming to dinner tonight but he didnt tell me anything about her which is weird he always tells me everything he knows
if everything goes good tonight maybe ill ask her for her number. but that thought quickly leaves my mind as soon as nick calls her baby,
Which pisses me off cause more then likely he always has about two other girls on the side. and hes just going to play this one and she will
be hurt just like the others before.

***************************************************************


Me and Nick and Aaron sit down and have dinner Aaron dont say much but we keep catching each other eying one another.
Aaron quickly finishes and asks nick if he can go and nick tells him yeah that he wants to talk to me in private anyways.
"it was Nice to meet you Ashley"
"you to Aaron"
"Baby can we go on the porch and talk?"
"um sure" confused on what about. worried that i probably did something wrong.
i follow nick to the porch he pulls a chair out for me.
"So i need to talk to you about something and it probably wont be easy for you"
"listen im really sorry for being late i understand if your pissed and want to fire me or whatever i will take what ever punishment
you find fit"
"No No No.. Baby im not mad at you at all. you was late no big deal"
"O really then what is it did i do something else wrong"
"No baby listen. You did nothing wrong what so ever your great! but there is something really important we should talk about
i just want you to know you can trust me"
"Umm... Okay "
"I want you to know that me and the other guys and jen our here for you when ever you need us and we will keep you safe no matter what"
At that very moment i knew what he was talking about.
"Is this about what my brother told you guys"
"Yess. But i also seen it on your cheek when i kissed your cheek"
"i was worried that you guys seen it. I promise ill hind it better form now on."
"Ashley thats not what im saying at all we dont want you to feel that you have to hide it form us at all we want you to feel conformable around us
and we wont always be thinking about your scars or marks. Baby thos dont make you who you are. your beautiful with them and with out them"
"well i dont think so"
"well me and the guys do and form the way my brother was acting he likes you to"
"Haha i wish"
Me and nick continued to talk and talk for a couple hours more. i told him most of everything. But not the biggest secret
the one that i hid form the world the only two people that knew was me and mark and i would like to keep it that way
one because i didnt want my brother to go to prison for murder. Second i didnt what to go threw the pain of everyone finding out and
the third it would make it real and i didnt want it to be real or true. right before i left nicks that night nick invited me to his birthday party.
i gladly accepted the invite.

The next day i made it to work and everything seems so much easier. with everything out in the open and the talk me and nick had. i wasnt so worried about what everyone was thinking. it was a very big wait of my shoulders. they treated me for me and not for my scars and marks that
was all over me. even tho i still wore enough make up to hide it, i dont think anyone i talked to would make me comfortable enough to go out in public not hiding them.

few days pass

I was so Excited to go to nicks party. i couldnt believe i was going. i wanted to go to support nick But i really wanted to see Aaron
and see if what nick had said was true. i show up at nicks house, he wanted me to ride with him and the rest of the boys and his newly found girlfriend, Aaron, and his sister angel. I see Aaron and he has a girl with him which hit me right in my face. how could i even think he liked me. I should have known that nick was trying to make me feel better.. Ugh mark was right No other man would want me besides him. i thought to my self.

"Heyy Baby, Come here hun" Aj Shouted over everyone waving for me to come over
"Hey, Aj whats up"
"Excited? its going to get crazy"
"Of course i am i bet it will get crazy"
"So you going to sit with me in the limo" Aj said as he put his arm around me
"Umm of course i will where else would i sit" i said as i looked up at Aaron
"Well you look Beautiful tonight" a Mans Voice says behind
I turn around and there's nick with Lauren his New girl friend.
"I dont think so but thank you, you dont look bad your self"
"Shut up you do look beautiful tonight, as for me i try" Nick replied as he tugged on his AC/DC
shirt.
"So do i get a hug"
Before i even reply he threw his arms around me and picked me up hugging me.
"Baby stop putting your self down you do look good to night" He whispered in to my ear during the hug
"Thank You Nick" i whispered back
"MHM UHH" Lauren cleared her throat nick put me down
"Ooo.. Lauren this is Ashley but we all call her baby, Baby this is lauren my girl"
"nice to meet you"
"Nice to meet you to Ashley" She leaned in to give me a hug
"So did you bring a date" Nick asked
" Umm well..."
"shes my date tonight uhh baby" Aj interrupted me
"umm yeah sure"
"What!!! What happen to Umm You know"
"Nothing happen with that cause its not true"
"Okay what ever you say, you will see i am right"
"O shut up Nicky you always think your right" lauren hit him in the arm.
"thank you lauren" i said laughing

We all pile in to the limo. Howie got in with his wife Leigh, then Brian and Leiaghanna, they sat in the front towards the driver
then aaron and the girl he was with sat on left side, then aj, me, Nick, and lauren sat on the right side and then Angel her date sat by the door of the limo, just my luck i was sitting in between nick and aj and right in front of aaron who kept looking to me and aj and then nick. like he was
trying ask me something, everyone was talking but it was very uncomfortable for me.

"Hey want to dance" Nick asked
"Umm will lauren be okay with that"
"sure she wont mind she knows your to young for me"
"okay then yeah"
"so you like Aj?"
"What!! No i mean i dont think so"

As me and Nick talk and dance Aaron goes up and has a conversation with Aj.

"hey man"
"hey was is up little bro"
"So you and Ashley together, She your girl"
"Who Baby, O no! She hot tho right!"
"You got that right well then is she nicks second girl"
"Nah bro Baby shes are Assistant and Nick and her just talk alot cause of her past"
"Baby? why do you guys keeping calling her that"
"Aaron chill out man thats her nick name.. WAIT!! ReRun do you have a thing for Baby"
"Yeah but i probably fucked that shit up. i thought she was with nick and then i seen her with you tonight so i thought she was with you
so i been ignoring her and giving her dirty looks all night damn man"
" well listen aaron you might still have a chance go see go cut your brother off Im sure he will love that"
"haha Alright man thanks"

"Hey Nick can i cut in"
"sorry bro ill dance with you later i dancing with baby right now"
"I ment i want to dance with ashley"
"O yeah sure"
"hey Bro save me a dance for later" Aaron shouted at him.
"Wow i bet you and nick are great dancers together"
"yeah you know me and my brother we get in to thos slow dances"
"haha yeah. I blush"
"Why you blushing for baby"
"O you see it o god now im more embarrassed"
"Dont be"
"so may i ask why you wanted to dance with me when you have a beautiful girlfriend"
"Me Have a beautiful girlfriend, i didnt know i had a girl let alone a beautiful one"
"then whos that girl your with"
"O thats just a Friend she likes me, but i dont have a connection with her like that, But i wanted to dance cause i wanted to tell you that im sorry for giving you all thos dirty looks"
"why did you give me them?"
"cause i thought you was with my brother then i thought it was Aj, and i mean aj is pretty much a brother, and i thought you was playing them and then i like you and i was jealous as he quickly mummed on and on"
"Wait Wait WAIT!!"
"What!!"
"what did you say. YOU LIKE ME?"
"O that um yeahh i mean who wouldn't look at you"
"I aint much to look at aaron and YOU LIKE ME?"
"haha YES ME AARON CARTER LIKES YOU ASHLEY AKA BABY"
"O wow"
"Heyy You guys its time for Cake get over here" Aj Shouted

"So can i get your number baby"
"Umm yeah sure"

We exchange Numbers and we spend the rest of the party hanging out.

How could Aaron Like me. I mean look at me. the bruises the marks i know he dont see them but if he knew he would
be disgusted with me. he would probably think i did something to deserve them. which i did so i couldnt fight him back on that. Why dose nick
think that i was good and that it was mark that was the bad guy. He was Clearly just trying to teach me how to be a good girlfriend. The only time he got out of hand was that night that he beat me so bad I........

RING RING!!!!!

"Hello."
"Hey Baby whats up"
"hey nick nothing going out to a club tonight with Aaron, are you coming"
"Um yeah thats why i was calling cause me and the other guys wanted to come hang out but we was making sure that it was okay with you.?"
"As long as your going to have fun and not watch me"
"Nahh we just want to have fun"
"alright its fine with me have you talked to aaron?"
"Yeah but hes busy, but i can get him for you?"
"Ooo no No i dont want to upset him thats fine"
"You wont upset him he would love to talk to you"
"NO!! Nick Please i dont want to make him mad"
"it wont but clam down i wont"
"Okay thanks ill see you later okay"
"Bye baby"
"bye"

NICK AND AARON

"hey Bro who was you on the phone with"
"O that was Baby" Nick says as he looks at the phone confussed
"O i would have loved to talk to her?"
"i told her that but she like freaked out she didnt want to make you mad"
"Ughh.. I dont understand that girl. the only time she makes me mad is when she acts like that. she always thinks that im going to get mad at her and like gets to the point of tears. some times i just want to shake he and tell her to sto......."
Befor Aaron could finish "stop" Nick had grab him by his shoulders.
"You listen to me aaron you dont ever touch her or act like you would do you understand me" Nick shook aaron slintly
"NIck I would never,"
"Good i dont even wont to hear that come out of your month ever again"
"Nick.. Whats going on, Is there something i should know or do you like her"
"No Aaron i dont like her like that shes like a little sister to me thats all yeah thats all"
"Damn it!!! Nick dont lie to me, Shes My girl friend Now tell me what the hell is going on between you two"
"Your two are dating?"
"well we havent talk about it but we talk all the time and i see her everyday and i love being around her so i would like to think shes my
girl friend"
"Ooo"
"Nick Tell me theres something going on with you to now tell me,"
"Nothing i told you shes like my little sister"
" Damn it nick your lying to me, you guys have something going on damn it im sick of this shit i swear to god nick ill get to the truth"
"DAMN IT!!! Aaron just leave it the fuck alone okay its not what you think okay"
"So there is something i knew it" Aaron grabs his keys and takes off.
"DAMN IT!!!" Nick screams when he hears aarons tires sqill out of the drive way.

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I show up at the club. i was trying to find Aaron but i couldnt till i spotted him. My heart hit the floor along with my jaw i couldnt believe it,
he was sitting there making out with some blond bimbo on his lap how could he do this to me, i went back to flashbacks of mark telling me he was the only one that would ever want me. God how could he be right. Hands garbing my waist and pulling me back in to a hug stopped my thoughts.

"hey baby want to dance"
"no not really" i said as i wiped the tears away
" Whoaa wait whats wrong" Nick turns me to face him keeping his hands tightly on my waist
"Look straight ahead what do you see"
"God Damn it Aaron. Listen to me you dont need that any guy in this club would love to dance with you and be your man. dont let my brothers stupidity put you down, now. lets make some of these guys jealous and you dance with me." Nick said as he flashed that Carter smile.
"Ugh Fine" i couldnt say no to that smile to be honest i dont think any girl could ever say no to that. thos carter boys were blessed with that
smile.
After me and nick was done dancing we decided to get something to drink we walked over to the bar, we was talking when i felt a hand touch my lower back

"We need to talk Ashley" A mans voice whispered in to my ear.
"Aaron no i seen it okay you dont have to explain your self okay i understand now just please leave me alone"
"No!! i want to talk now please" He garbed my arm"
At that very moment i was scared not that aaron would hit me all i could see was marks face, it was no longer aaron all i could hear was mark and see him.
"okay okay just calm down please" we walked in to a corner by the bar he had me up against the wall.
"How could you ashley"
"How could i what aaron what did i do. im not the one that was making out with some slut that was you"
"Dont you see i did it cause you have something on the side with my brother" his voice became louder i seen nick behind aaron i didnt say anything but nick got the message i guess with my eyes to stay back.
"I dont have nothing going on with your brother nick is my boss aaron hes like a big brother a best friend thats it"
"Bullshit ashley quit lying you dance with him all the time you guys always flirting. YOUR A FUCKING LYING BITCH!!!" His hand hit the wall behind me.
"Aaron i swear im not lying theres nothing i swear please aaron" I was crying and all i could see was mark and hear mark. i could feel my knees began to buckle when all of a sudden. nick grab aaron by his shoulder and pushed him out of the way. nick caught me as i began to fall. he picked me up.

"its okay baby im going to get you out of here" nick whispered. all i could do was cry
"Ill take care of Aaron" I heard Aj say in to nicks ear.
"Aaron Charles Carter you know i love you like a little fucking brother but do i need to whoop your fucking ass what the fuck do you think your doing."
"Aj Shes fucking nick on the side of me what else am i suppose to do"
"One i dont care what a woman is doing to you, you dont speak to any woman like that let alone almost hit her like that. and two are you fucking kidding me aaron she aint fucking nick or anything like that. they are just friends all she talks about is YOU AARON. NOT NICK JUST FUCKING YOU"
Right then aaron ran out the club and towards nick who was putting me in the car.
"ASHLEY Ashley..." Aaron shouted while running towards me and nick.
"No aaron stay the fuck away form her go back in to the club and just leave her alone'
"nick.. Ashley Im sorry" i didnt even look at him all i could do was cry in to nicks jacket that he had given me to wear
"Shut the fuck up aaron an just leave NOW!!" Nick shouted and pointed for aaron to leave.

The whole car ride was silent not one word just me crying and nick held my hand with his thumb rubbing my hand. the crazy thing was, is that, thats all i needed i didnt need him telling me things or anything like that, nick holding my hand and that rubbing was all i needed to show me he was there. we pulled in to my drive way.
"i fucked up didnt i nick"
"what no you didnt do a damn thing wrong baby aaron fucked up not you"
"i dont know nick"
"listen baby aaron mess up he messed with that girl almost hit you, yelled at you, you didnt do a thing to make him do any of that please stop thinking it was you. okay"
"okay but i dont want to be here alone i keep seeing him"
"who aaron"
"NO!! i know that aaron wouldnt hurt me but i keep seeing mark everytime i close my eyes hes there and i hear him and the things he said"
"o baby im sorry listen how bout you come stay with me at my house okay"
"are you sure."
"very sure i want you to feel safe and i want to know that you are safe"

"Baby do you need something to sleep in?"
"Umm yeah if it aint to much trouble!"

Nick went in to his dresser and found me a Tampa Bay Jersey to wear.

"Will this be okay"
"Umm yeahh it will be fine"
"okay go jump in my shower its threw this door" Nick pointed to the door in the back of his room"

Nick walked back in to the kitchen. was going threw the frig. When Aaron came threw the door he walked in to the kitchen and found Nick making Hot Chocolate.

"Hey Bub, Can we talk?"
"Aaron i really dont care what you have to say right now i told you to leave it alone and you didnt and now look what you have done"
"Is she okay"
"And you would care why Aaron"
"O come on Nick you know i care for her ALOT"
"well thats not what you was showing when you was making out with your ex at the club and when you was in baby's face yelling at her, for something that aint happening, and when you almost hit her."
"Nick you know damn well i wouldnt hit her, i wouldnt hit any woman"
"Yeah Aaron i do know that but, I would NEVER try and steal your girl form you and i thought you knew that but instead you wouldnt trust me when i told you there was nothing going on between me and baby but, you wouldnt drop it and you kept going and now look what you have done, you have lost my respect, and most of the boys respect, you have lost baby, and that shit will be all over the papers tomorrow. so i hope you got your point a crossed."
" I know im just sorry i was just hurt and didnt know what else to do"
"so you decided to hurt Baby"
"I thought she was hitting it off with you so i didnt think it would hurt her"
"I really dont even want to hear that shit you know damn well that is straight Bullshit, you was looking to hurt me and her and you disappointed me and hurt her"
"i know nick im just really sorry is ashley Oka..."
"listen Aaron I really just dont give a shit anymore how you feel you should have trusted me and you didnt, and as for baby dont shes in my shower right now you scared her so bad she couldnt stay alone tonight so she will be here tonight and you better leave her alone i mean it aaron"
"But Nick"
"No Aaron i dont want to hear you leave her be, You have fucked up enough to night"


I get out of the shower and hear aaron and nick yelling at each other. i felt so bad it was my fault they was fighting.
ugh what have i done i thought to myself. I slowly walked down the hallway. my marks and bruise where gone i did have one scar on my face on my jaw line. to me it was big and ugly but most people said that you couldnt really see it inless you was looking for it. but anyways i listen to some of the fight. i decided to walk in to the kitchen.

"Hey nick?"
"O hey baby is everything okay?"
"yeah um is it okay that im out here?"
"baby you dont need to ask to be out here you know i dont care, Now get your ass over here i have a seat for you" Nick patted on his knee"
I took a look over at aaron he was staring at me, he must have seen the scar ugh i knew it was ugly. i thought to my self"
I walked over to the table and went to sit in a seat.
"hey i dont think so i have a seat right here for you" Nick garbed me by my side and pulled me to his lap.
"NICK!!" out of shock i yelled while wrapping my arms around his shoulders thinking i was going to fall
"What? Im cold and me and aaron already started this game so you cant play so you can help me"
"They have things called blankets for being cold, As for me helping you isn't that cheating?"
"Aaron Do you Mind?" Nick asks
"Not at all" He says in a angry voice
"Fine ughh" I mumble
"Is it that bad for you to be sitting on my lap" nick looks at me with his hand on his heart acting as hes hurt.
"Noo! its not bad just idk its fine dont mind me."
"okay" Nick says while laughing
i start to slightly blush.

Couple hours later they was finally done with their game, Nick shows me to the guest room thats right next to his room.
"if you need me baby just yell or come right in to my room okay"
he leans to give me a hug but i stand to my toe and wrap my arms around his neck as his arms wrap around my waist
"thank you nick, you have really helped me i dont think i could repay you for all this" I whisper in to his ear
we lean away not breaking our holds on each other.
"you can repay me by keeping that beautiful smile on that beautiful face!" he smiles
he leans to give me a kiss on the cheek, at the very momment aaron appears at the top of the steps and i turn to look at him forgeting that nick was leaning to give me a kiss on my cheek and thats when nicks lips hit mine.
at first i wanted to lean out of the kiss but when nick didnt and kept his lips on mine, my eyes closed. and i began to injoy the kiss
i knew it was wrong but it felt so right. it felt that this was suppose to happen. Nick slightly pulled away and kissed me cheek .
"Goodnight baby" He whispered
i gave him a shy smile and he opened the door to my room and led me in
"remember im right over here If you need anything"
"thanks nick"
As soon as he shut the door my hand flew to my lips.
Omg did that really just happen, did we really just kiss me, omg Ashley are you falling for nick, Ugh you cant have feeling for both aaron and nick
what are you going to do? i asked myself. when the door opened i smile thinking it was going to be nick.
"Nick!" with my back still to the door and the man standing at the door
"Wrong Brother" i hear a mans voice
i swing around in shock, i see aaron standing there with his arms crossed around his chest.
"o god aaron im sorry i thought you was...."
"My Brother" he cut me off
"Umm.. yeah"
"Ashley.. i cant believe you, you knew i really liked you and you did that, i really thought about asking you to be my girl tonight,"
"Really Aaron REALLY!! you was going to ask me to be your girl when your making out with some Bitch. Aaron dont give me that bullshit im not stupid im so sick of you turning this shit on me Nothing was going on between me and nick"
"Nothing well what i just seen in the hall way there was something going on with that kiss so dont fucking lie"
"Im Not FUCKING LIEN AARON.. there was nuthing going on and that kiss i dont know what it was it just happen"
"O CUT THE FUCKING BULLSHIT ASHLEY!!"
There was mark i began to cry only seeing mark and hearing his words.
"DONT START THAT CRYING SHIT, YOU DO THAT TO MAKE ME FEEL BAD IM NOT GOING TO. CAUSE YOU FUCKED UP YOU LEAD ME ON JUST TO GET TO MY BROTHER YOUR JUST A LIEN WHOR.........."
"WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON IN HERE" Nick swung the door open seeing me in tears and aaron standing by my bed screaming at me
"Nice to see you join the party nick" aaron says to nick as he walks to me and wraps one arm around me and the other hand stroking me hair as my head is baried in his white Tshirt. one of my arms wrap around him griping on to the side of his shirt and the other at his chest also griping at his shirt.
"aaron didnt i tell you to leave her the fuck alone you have fucked up enough tonight"
"Me i fucked up" I dont think so you two are the ones lien to me and kissing in the hall way so i can see"
"Grow the fuck up aaron we wasnt lien to you, and as for the fucking kiss it was a fucking MISTAKE okay. Now get the fuck to your room and LEAVE BABY THE FUCK ALONE"

I dont know why but when nick said it was a mistake my heart sunk

Aaron stormed out of the room to his room. it was complete slince untill we heard aaron door slam shut.

Nick pulled away slighly "Are you okay baby"
i couldnt speak i couldnt find anywords all i could do is shake my head No
He pulled me close and shoked my hair once more he let out a loud sigh Then pulled away slightly
"How about you come sleep in my bed?"
"Umm.. Are you sure?" i found my words
"Yes im completely sure i wouldnt ask if i wasnt"
I just nod my head yes and he leds me to his room
"Your room is beautiful at night nick"
"yeah the moon hits my bay window just right dosent it"
"Yeah its amazing" i say as i touch the window with my finger tips
I felt his hands slid to the front of my waist. " Im sorry about aaron he can be a real ass hole" he says as he puts his chin on my shoulder
"No its my fault. i guess he was kinda right but he was also wrong"
"What do you mean?"
"i havent been leading him on at all i did honestly like him, but after all this yelling and his temper i really dont have feelings for him anymore now everytime i see aaron i see mark, dont get me wrong i know he would never hit me i dont know his temper"
"yeah i know what you mean and he was still wrong, i was wrong to"
I turned around to face him. "what do you mean you was wrong" I asked with a confused face
"I said that when i kissed you it was a mistake, Umm.. i know it was an accident and it was wrong but it was NO mistake, it kinda felt right and i..i liked it" He said with his head down but i could see a slight smile.
"Hey!! i said when i poke him in the stomach he looked at me. "you want to know something" He nodded his head yes. "I felt the same way"
"really" he replyed
"Yeah i mean i know its soo wrong conceding you have a girlfriend, and my job, and aaron, and i feel so safe and con.... He stoped me when his lips pushed on to mine. My hands went to the back of his neck my fingers playing in his hair.
I pulled away slightly and put my head down.
"ughhh" he let go of his hold and turned around with his hands on his head. "I dont know what it is but how can soemthing so wrong feel so right and feel so good.. Ugh is it even wrong i mean i know i have a girl but..."
"But what"
"That can change" he looked up at me.
"You would break up with lauren for me." i put my finger to myself
He was silent for a few moments and walked towards me and looked in to my eyes. "Yeah i would, cause when im with you, you make me feel like im worth something you know"
"Yeah. So this is for real?"
"Yeah as soon as i break up with Lauren tomorrow"
he leaned down and kissed me sightly
"Have i ever told you that you look sexy as hell in my jersey?" he whispered in my ear
"Have i ever told you that you look sexy in my make up HAHA" He looked at me confused i pointed at his shirt he had make up on his shirt form where i was crying.
"Haha your funny"
"im sorry bout your shirt"
"O its fine baby" he sliped it off and i felt my jaw hit the floor
"Damn!!"
"haha you like"
"O did i say that out loud" I said as i put my hand to my mouth
"yeah and i liked it." He said in mid yawn
"haha lets get in bed"

********************Nicks POV********************


God Lauren is such a good girl how am i going to do this, I really dont want to hurt her. Nick thought to him self as he waited on laren to show up.
His thought was interrupted when he felt a hand on his shoulder. he snapped his head to look up and there she stood.

"Hun? Are you okay?"She looked at him with concerned filled eyes
"Umm yeah im fine!" He stood up and gave her a hug and a kiss on the cheek.
"So not that im not grateful to spend time with you but this just aint like you, is there something wrong?" she asked trying to read his thoughts
"Umm no there's nothing wrong really Umm.. I just need to talk to you" he wouldnt look at her and looked around instead
"Ooo.. Umm.. Okay what about?"
"I Dont know how to say this Lauren but...."
"O God your breaking up with me Or Cheated?" She cut him off
He looked at her shocked, why dose everyone always thing that im fucking cheating yeah i kissed baby but that really dont count as cheating dose it? nick thought to his self. "Umm No i didnt cheat on you, But Umm.... I really am sorry lauren this.. me and you.. just aint going to work its just not what i want you know and im really really sorry i hope we can stay friends?" he asked in almost a whisper
"Ummm........ Okay Can i ask why" She asked him with an attitude
"Like i said its just not something i want right now. But i would..." He snapped his head up
"Be friends" Lauren Questioned in a soft voice. Then got angry "So this is something that you dont want so im guessing what you do want is just to be able to mess with other girls right"
"What the Fuck Lauren im not like that any more and i really didnt think you was going to be like this. Im sorry if you think im still that kind of guy cause im really not, its just this, Me and you, Us its just not what i want and im sorry Can we be friends?"
"Ughh.. Im sorry Nick i didnt mean what i said i just kinda in shock i thought things were good thats all and yeah we can be friends" She faked a smile,
"Good now that we are friends do you think that we can still have breakfast as FRIENDS?" He asked with a Smile
"Umm... Yeah sure" she said with another fake smile

The rest of the Breakfast with fine they made small talk. laren still faked every smile she made, Nick all his smiles were real he was truly happy, he thought that laren was fine and he really did want to be friends with her he dose care for her, But he just wanted to get home and see if baby was still there and tell her the good news that they could now be together. Everything felt right till he remember there was one more person he would have to comfort, Aaron, this was going to be way worse then Lauren cause aaron was his little brother he would never want to hurt aaron in anyway, but he wanted to be with baby, and aaron was no good for her and aaron just wasnt right for baby he had to much of a temper. granted nick was known to have one to but over the past few years he learned how to control it.


an hour later he found him self walking in to the front door of his house
"Aaron?...Angel?...Baby?..Anyone home?"he was confused cause most of the time when he got home Maxy would be running to him as soon as he walked in but there was no sign of Maxy so he kept walking. finally as he walked in the kitchen he spotted aaron
"Hey Lil Bro"
"Hey bro where you been all morning?" Aaron asked while making himself a sandwich
"o i had something to take care of. Hey where is everyone at?" nick asked concerned baby had left already
"Oo.. Umm angel is in her room still passed out and Ashley shes on the beach with Maxy, hey bro umm i really am sorry about last night i should have never did any of that"
"right yeah you shouldn't have but its all good just make sure it never happens again, i still love you little brother" He said while patting aaron on the back. "but hey listen get angel some Advil shes going to need it and ill be on the beach with baby alright need me just call" with out even waiting for a response he was out the sliding doors heading down for the beach. Spotting Baby sitting close to the shore line with her knees to her chest and her chin resting on one knee. he walked up right behind her .

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I was sitting on the beach watching the waves crash watching Maxy paying in the water it seemed like she was playing tag with it. i sat there wondering where nick had went if he had regretted what had happen the night before, if he couldnt face me this morning so left as early as he could so he wouldnt have to deal with what happen, or if.. her thoughts where interrupted by a mans voice

"You Okay Baby?"
i turned my head sightly to make sure it was who i thought it was. "Yeah im fine, where have you been all morning" i asked trying not to sound so upset. then i felt him kneel down and sit be hind me i watched as each one of his legs stretched out one on each side of me,
"Ooo Breaking up with laren?" Nick said as he pulled her back so that her back fit perfectly in his chest and he head rested to the side and warping his arms around her.
"Oo really what for" She said trying to hide the smile and shock in her voice pretending to play stupid just cause she wanted to hea him say it
Nick looked at her confused wondering if she had forget or regret last night. "Umm..i guess.. well i thought...last night..."
Baby began to giggle "your cute when you dont know what to say"
"Ooo you did it on purpose you know what thats just mean i thought maybe you regretted or forgot"
"Nope of course not its just pay back for you just leaving me this morning not telling me anything i thought you regretted it"
"O so thats how we play on payback well see how you pay me back for this one" he began to tickle her sides as she wiggled to get out of his grip
Giggling "ooo im sooo going to get you back ahhh stop or else"
he stopped. "Or else what" he made the mistake of stopping so she took advantage and wrap he arm around to the back of his neck and pulled him down. soon her lips covered his and the kiss deepen he sightly opened his mouth and her tongue took full access, so did his

pulling away sightly his lips still hovering over hers still sightly touch "O i love your kind of payback" he said with a smile and out of breath
"O you do" she asked then he nodded in approval she gave him a peck then turned her head forward, he rested his head against hers
"i love the beach at this times" he said softly
"i know its beautiful aint it" baby still staring off in the distance
"Soo i got this big question i kinda got to ask you"
She looked up at nick confused."Whats that?"
"So i was wondering if we was you know sorta dating now" nick looking down at her acting shy
"Dating uhhh"
"yeah you know boyfriend.. Girlfriend kinda stuff"
She looked forwarded she knew her answer but she loved to watch him squirm. then she looked down seeing his hand laying on her stomach she put her hand on top of his and interlocked their fingers. "I guess you could say that"
"o you guess huh?" he began to tickle her sightly
"Okay...okay...OKAY yes we are.. i mean if thats what you want to" she looked up at him and he stopped to look down at her
she loved to watch him squirm so he thought it was time to see her squirm. bent his head down and kissed her lips "I guess you can say that" he said while kissing her
"Ughh your such a jerk."
he pulled away "hey now you started it you said it first."
"o stop acting five and just kiss me"
"Fine" He kissed her again. then pulled away "But Honestly yes thats what i want"
"well good cause now your stuck with me Mr. Carter"
" Ooo Yes i am Mrs Scott" he bent his head to kiss her again but this time longer


As Aaron stood on the the patio watching everything that had just happen he didnt hear anything that was said but he seen all the kissing and touching and lets just say he wasnt pleased. he was going to get to the bottom of it all and was going to make sure they never was to date. but little did aaron know that they was already dating. and nick was going to do what ever he could do to keep baby safe and his

"Hey D row whats up" nick says over the phone
"Hey Nicky Nothing much you on your way to the studio?"
"O yeah me and Baby are on our way aright now we about five minutes away did you need anything before we get there" he asked his older brother and who he had come closet to in to group
"O good we been trying to get ahold of her but she wasnt answering her phone, and yeah me and the guys were just talking bout getting some Micky dees if he want to stop that would be great"
"O we never heard her phone going off, sorry bout that bro but yeah it aint no problem ill stop you guys want what you guys always get" He heard Howie asking Brian and Jay what they wanted
"Yeah what we always get will be good well we will see you when you guys get here love ya lil bro"
"okay great love ya to man" nick closed his phone

After listening to nick and Howie phone call i layed my head back on the head rest and smiled to myself. then i felt nicks hand grab mine and interlocked his fingers with mine.

"what you smiling bout Hun?"
I turned my head to see him looking at me with his left eyebrow arched i couldnt help but let out a little giggle.
"O nuthing i think its just cute how you and the boys are so close and so much like a family"
"Well Babe I know i have my sisters and brothers and my dad in my life and dont get me wrong i love them with all my heart, but the boys have been pretty much been my family since i was 12 years old, they have been by my side for it all the past 15 years even when we was on break, i dont know what i would do alot o the time if they weren't in my life to save me alot of the times. when aj went in to rehab it killed me, when me and Brian and Kevin broke in to his house and found him..." He paused and swolled hard "Seeing him like that hurt me so bad i was very mad at him but i knew he was hurting with everything going on, i had so many feeling going on when all that happen. it was the first time i was emotional in live TV when we was on TRL, and it was also the last time i have been emotional at all i haven't cried on tear since that happen" he stared forward at the road blankly
i had never seen nick look like that, he had look like he seen a ghost. i felt bad but i was happy that he had told me how he felt about what happen so long ago.
i squeezed his hand slightly he looked over at me as he stopped in line at McDonald's, "You know nick i love that you shared that with me, Im sure Jay went threw alot knowing that you had seen him that away i mean you his little brother and im sure the last thing he ever wanted was for you to see him like that, but now look at him hes sober and is doing great you wont have to ever go threw that again" i leaned in and kissed him
he kissed me back then pulled away and put his for head to mine and looked me in my eyes. "you know your amazing right"
"haha i try" i dont know what it was about nick but he made me feel amazing and made me worth something
"well you dont have to your already are" he smiled at me right before he started ordering the food for the guys
"Baby you want anything?"
"Ummmm.. Yeah 10 piece nugget small fries and a large Sweet tea" he repeated after she told him

We waited on our food and arrived at the studio we was just about to walk in when nick stopped dead in his tracks and turned around to face me which scared me at first when i almost ran right in to him
"Whoa..nick...why did you stop?"
"Umm should we tell them about us?" he looked at me concern
"Umm yeah we should i mean we mise well be honest upfront cause people will find out and they our who we are both closet to if its okay with you"
"Yeah your right....i do want to talk to you tonight about some other stuff regarding everyone finding out."
"umm..what do you mean do you not want other people to know" i began to get worried that he was embarrassed of me or something "Are you embarrassed?"
"WHAT!!..ugh come on" he grabbed my hand and pulled me inside, i began to panic it was true he was embarrassed of me and now he was mad at me for calling him out on it.God what have i done.

"HEYY" aj, Brian, Howie, and Jen chimed at the same time as me and nick walked in. nick walked over put all the food on the table.
"heres your guys food be right back" nick snapped
"Nicky what the hell are you doing" Brian looked him confused while nick walked back to me and grabbed my hand and pulled me
"Im going to have a talk with my girlfriend!!" nick snapped again
"whatt!!!" they all shouted and looked at each other
he pulled me threw other rooms of the studio we went threw two rooms and finally he pulled me in to the bathroom he shut the door and locked it. my eyes were wide and had fear in them and one tear escaped my eye he turned around and his eyes soften when he seen me

"Aww baby dont cry" nick wrapped me in his arms
"Im sorry you scared me"
"Damn baby i didnt mean to be like that i shouldn't have been like that im so sorry baby forgive me"
"Nick its okay i forgive you, i pissed you off i dont blame you for doing it you had every right"
"Ughh what am i going to do with you here sit up here" he put his hands on my waist and lifted me to sit on the edge of the sink.
"Now look me in the eyes Ashley so you understand that im tell you the gods honest truth" he left my face by my chin in his and and our eyes locked "Ashley now you listen to me okay.. Im am no where near EMBARRASSED by you at all if you want me to go on TRL here so i can tell the world that i have the most beautiful and amazing girlfriend a guy could ever wish for i will. all i meant by what i said out side was that i know what your going threw with your ass of an ex boyfriend and i know how my fans can be so i didnt want to tell the world until you was ready to deal with the media following you around and always taking pictures of us. and all the drama and tabloids that come with being with me Ashley thats all i meant Ashley please you have to believe i would never ever be embarrassed of you Ashley, im PROUD that your MY GIRL"

All i could do was smile i could tell he was telling me the truth cause the look in his eyes.
"Nick can you do me a couple favors"
Nick looked at my confused. "Of course anything for you"
"Dont ever call me Ashley unless your mad at me, and nick please just kiss me" he smiled and then his lips covered mine. his tongue taped over my bottom lip until i opened my mouth so he could slide his tongue in. we was in to the passionate kiss until there was a knock at the door
"dammit" Nick mumble against my lips, i giggle a little bit "yeahh"
"you guys okay" Jen asked worried
"Yeah,, everything's Perfect we will be out just a minute" i seen nick smile to himself when i said perfect
"okay" Jen said before walking away, i leaned in and kissed nick again
"God Damn girl, you keep this up i wont be abale to walk" he smirked while kissing me
i pulled away and kissed his neck and i placed kiss all the way to his ear "one more favor nick promise to make love to me tonight' i kissed his neck one more time and i jumped off the counter and putt my hand to his chest and slide it across his chest while i walked past him to leave the
"You can answer me when you can talk again" i grinned towards the mirror when i seen his shocked face in the mirror then i walked out and shut the door behind i turned around and came face to face with Aj

"damn it jay scare the shit out of me please" i lightly slapped his arm
"Im sorry Hun didnt mean.. Sooo you and nick Huh?"
"Yess me and Nick" i smiled ear to ear
"About damn time but listen he screws up let me know and me and D row will take care of Blondie"
"Will do McLean"

********MEAN WHILE********

Nick placed his hands on the sink to help hold him self up after Ashley left the room

"Damn That girl. She is the first one to ever do that to me" talked to him self in the mirror
"Okay Carter pull your self together and get out there" he reached down and adjusted him self

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I was still talking to jay when nick walked out the bath room
"Whats good nick" aj asked
nick didnt say nuthing all he did was give aj a thumbs up
"Im impressed baby you got Mr.Nick Carter speechless what in the world did you do to him"
"Ooo Nothing" i said before i walked away
"Damn Nick what did she do give you a blow job"
"Haha No Shes telling the truth she didnt do anything really just kissed me" nick said as he watched her walk away
"Damn lucky man that you are"
"Man do i know. Look at her shes fine as hell"
"What have you done to her"
"what do you mean" nick asked in confussen
"She seems like she has more self- esteem you know what i mean"
"yeah i noticed that to,, well we better get in there before Jen cuts our balls off or something"


i was sitting there in one of the roll around chairs when nick and jay walked in the room.

"Nicky you better have not got your cum all over that bathroom" Jen said as nick walked up to me
"Up" he pointed for me to get up
"what Noo im sitting here get your own seat"
"Im am now up"
"ugh jerk" i said as i got up and nick sat down
"Hey hey hey" nick garbed me by my waist "i didnt say that you wouldnt get a seat" he pulled me down in his lap
"Who said i wanted to sit here" i told him as i got up
"where else would want to sit" nick asked
i walked over and sat in Jays lap "Oooo Score" jay shouted i laughed
"Fine whatever I dont give a shit" nick said pretending to get mad but he did make it convincing he turned around and pulled him self up the the sound board messing with who knows what i began to feel bad. i got up and walked behind nick and slid my hands down his shoulders on to his chest and interlocked my fingers with my other hand and kissed his neck

"dont be mad babe you know your all i want" i kissed his neck again
He smiled to himself knowing his plan worked "O i know thats why i pretended to be mad to get you over here" he told me while i kissed his neck and he had tilted his head to the right to give me more access to his neck.
"oooo your sneaky as i slapped his chest"
"damn straight i am" he smiled again
"Nick you have completely ignored my question that i asked you like twenty minutes ago i need to use the restroom.. so your cum better not be any where in that bathroom"
"Haha im not making any promises you might want to stay away form the sink area" He joked
"Nickolas!!" i slapped him even heard in the stomach.
"OWE damn it" he couched over a little "baby why would you hurt me like that"
"o shut up your fine, Jen there is none of his cum in that bathroom at lest there better not be" i said sternly while sitting down in his lap
"I was joking there is none in there what so ever" he laughed wile he wrapped his arms around me
"Ashley make sure he keeps working hes next to go in to the booth" Jen said as she walked away
"Baby I promise" Nick whispered in my ear i looked at him like he had two heads
"umm baby what you talking about"
"your last favor you asked me in the bathroom" he said with a smirk
"Ooo well then im holding you to that promise" i said as i leaned in and kissed him "baby roll over there so i can get my food that i still haven't ate"
"baby are you kidding me get up and get it"
"but nick im con fey i dont want to get up please baby"
"Nope i got to keep working"
i moved my hand down his chest and his stomach and to the brim or his jeans i slid my finger in just barely and ran along his pelvis bone.
"please baby" i asked again
"o i see how you play,,Fine,,but just remember baby i can play this game to"
"he he i knew you would see it my way" i leaned and kissed him "and for the record im looking forward to it" i said against his lips
"yeah im sure you Hun now here eat your food while i work you can stay in my lap." he kissed my temple

when i began to eat my food when it was nicks turn to do some harmony's so i sat on the couch with Howie while he was on a live chat with some fans and they decided to put up a live video. they got it up and running but before they did Jen asked me if i was okay with being introduce as as nicks girlfriend and there P.A.
"yeah im fine with it"

Jen started up the camera.

"say hi everyone" we all waved and said hi
"okay so BSB fans you know Howie, then theirs Ashley , then we have Aj, Brian dancing, there's taxi, and hi im Jen if you already didnt know, now if you have any questions about what you see just ask and we will try our best to answer as many questions as we can"

"Okay first question howie says, Where is Nick?" he asked jen
"Nick is here but hes in the sound booth here ill take you guys to see him" she walked over to the window and waved at nick and he waved back
"okay there's nick he should be back out soon"

Jen and howie and aj and brian answered alot of questions about 10 minutes later nick came out and told jay it was his turn. she he left to his harmony's, Nick came and sat next to me

"hey baby so did you tell the fans you was my girl yet?" he whispered in my ear
"No i really dont want to bring it up but if they ask we can tell them"
"okay thats fine with me"
"Haha Nick you better watch out look at all this" howie pointed at the screen
"Dude look ashley all these guys think your hot"
"Okay we have got like 20 of these so mise well answer it since nick is back" he looked at nick "this is the question, Hi so who is that sexy chick sitting in between howie and nick, is she single"howie asked jen
"Haha Okay so this is ashley and Ashley would you like to interduse your self to the wonderful BSB fans."Jen brought the camera close to me
"Hi Im ashley"i waved "Well Im the guys P.A which is there personal Assistant amazing job by the way" I smiled "Am i single Hmmm Well sorry to disappoint you but i do have a boyfriend ..Now all you girls dont try and kill me but im dating this wonderful man" I wrapped my arms around nick
"isnt she hot guys haha" he laughed "yes i know im a lucky guy". he lean in and kissed me softly
"Ugh makes us all sick.." jen said in to the camera
"They make sexy time in the bathroom" howie said in an accent
"omg you guys are crazy" i laughed against nicks lips
"okay next question, What happen to frick and frack?"
"What do you mean Yo Frick come here" Nick yells
"yeahh nicky," brian asked
"They want to know what happen to Frick and Frack?" nick said standing up
"Ooo Well frick and frack are still here you just got to come to the show and you will see them just like this" Brian Jumped on nicks back
"There was rumor that you to began to hate each other is that true" Howie asked another question form a fan
" Me and Nick HATE each other Not in a million years hes one of my best friends My little brother, My Video game buddy" Brian said as he got of nicks back
"you okay baby" I asked nick
"Ooo yeah im fine" He pulled my down on his lap
"then why did you walk all the way over here so they didnt have the camera on you anymore, you look upset baby"
"No im fine baby"
"Okay whatever you say"
"Ashley listen ill tell you about it when its time okay, not many people know everything one the boys okay so please"
"Yes Nickolas" i snapped as i got up
"Baabyyy dont be mad at me please"He grabbed me and pulled me back down
"im not mad at you Nickolas"
"Yess you are cause you using Nickolas, Now baby please dont get mad over this i promise ill tell you somebody"
"Ughh.. Nick listen im not mad at you for not telling me what ever is wrong i understand.. i have things nobody knows besides me and one other person, cause its to painful, nick im not mad at you at all okay"
"okay then why do you keeping calling me that"
"cause you called me ashley so i called you nickolas" i smirked at him
"Ooo im sorry baby, im not mad at you i just called you that to get you to realize that im being serous im sorry"
"its okay hun" i kissed him "now get back to work"
"im working just fine with you here, Just cuddle up here on me and relax" he pulled my legs on to his lap with me.
"Oo con fey" i rested my head on his chest and yawned i smiled to my self. and feel asleep

****MEAN WHILE****
>>>Nicks POV

"Babe is Aaron or Angel here tonight"
"Umm no angels staying with Leslie tonight, then aaron is stay with some girl he met why?"
"just making sure i got you to myself tonight, Im going to bed you coming"
"Umm yeahh" nick shut the tv off and followed Ashley up the stairs
"im going to change real fast okay" i walked in to nicks closet i took my jeans and t shirt off and bra and slipped on one of nicks over sized shirts
on i walked out and nick was sitting in bed with gym shorts on and a gray wife beater watching tv
"Whoa baby you look better in my shirts then i do" nick shollowed the lump in his throat
"Nahh you look much sexier in them if you ask me" i walked over to his side of the bed
"I beg to differ on that baby you look sexy" i straterled him his hands went up to my sides. i smiled and began to kiss him passionately
nick was acting weird he wasnt in to it like i was i began to worry
"Nick is something wrong, do you not want to do this" i asked quietly
he put his head down and i got the message." o okay well ill leave im sorry nick" i began to get up but he pulled me back down
"baby its not that i dont want this, cause god i want this more then you know, but Im scared" he confessed
"Scared! scared of what?"
" i dont want to bring it up baby i dont want to upset you"
"Nick please just tell me cause if its me ill change what ever i need to"
"No no baby its nothing like that, okay if i ask you this promise you wont get mad and like leave okay if you dont want to answer i completely understand okay"
"I promise nick just please"
"Did Mark ever umm....Force you ...to..you know.....have sex" nick asked hoping ashley wouldnt freak out
i put my head down then looked up at nick and looked him in the eyes as tears ran out of mine
"awww baby please dont cry" nick pulled me in to his chest "im sorry that he did that to you" he kissed the top of my head
"Why are you scared of that nick"
"huuu..im scared cause i dont know what to do i dont want to remind you of him while we are having sex or im scared i might get to rough or i dont know im just scared to hurt you baby"
I lifted up and looked him in the eyes and he looked away
"look me in the eyes nick," he looked up at me "YOU will NEVER remind me of him do you understand that your not forcing me in to anything and i know you will never hurt me okay this is something i want if you dont want to i will understand. but just understand you dont and will never remind me of Mark"
"Okay" he nodded and kissed me "i want it" he said against my lips

I tugged on his shirt to pull it off, he put his hands up while i pulled it off, i ran my hand all over his chest, he began to pull my shirt off he came to a shock when he seen me with no bra he swallowed hard. he layed me back kissed me once more before making his way to my breast. He rolled his tongue around my nipple, i reached down and untied the string to his shorts and pushed his shorts down and he had a surprise for me he had no boxers on i giggled
he looked up at me "whats so funny"
"No boxers huh?"
"well you had no bra"
"are you complaining"
"are you"
"Noo Never big boy" i giggled again
"Big boy huh"
"well you aren't you ..i mean look down" i smiled looking down at his Crotch
He Smiled to him self "i guess so" we began to kiss again
he reached down and rubbed against the fabric of my panties. he finally reached in to them and began to rub my clit, i felt instant passion
"Mmm god nick" i moaned
"baby i got to get inside"
"Please"
"okay"
He reached over to the night stand and pulled out a condom and ripped it open and rolled it on to his shaft. he reached over and slid my panties off. he took him self in his hand and rubbed it against my clit once more
"O god nick please"
"You ready"
I nodded, he put his tip to my opening and slid in slowly we both gowned when he filled me
"you okay baby"
"Perfect"
he smiled and reached down and put my leg around his waist so he could go deeper. so i put both legs around his waist and granted him more access he slowly moved in and out. "look me in the eyes ashley"
I Snapped my eyes open and seen his blues eyes looking right in to mine
"I promised i would make love to you and thats what im going to do so look me in the eyes Please"
"okay" i nobbed he kept a steady pace at the slow rate he was going for few minutes
"Baby im going to start moving faster cause im going crazy here" he smiled
"Yess" he started to moving faster and faster my nails griped in to his shoulders and back
i put my hand on his sweaty chest "Nick stop"
He froze "Did i hurt you"
"No not at all baby just pull out for a second"
Nick nodded and pulled
"lay back baby" i asked him pushing him back
"okay what are you doing" he looked at me confused
I layed him back and got over top of him. he instantly knew what was going on he grabbed his shaft and held it so i could slid down on him until he filled me. I started slow but picked up my pace
Nick pushed his head back in to his pillow and grabbed my hips and dug his fingers in to my skin
"God Damn baby girl you feel so damn good" he moaned

Hour later after an amazing climax i collasped to the bed after me and nick hit are climax and rode it threw.
i looked over at his sweaty body and watched his chest breath in and out fast. he looked over at me and smiled
"God nick that was amazing" i smiled at him
"yes it was now come here" he pulled me in to him "lets get some sleep" he kissed me
I turned my back in to his chest he put his arm over my stomach and i interlocked our fingers
"nick"
"mmhmm"
"thank you" i confessed
"for what baby" he asked confused
"making love to me and not just having sex and making me look in her eyes" i confessed again
"Baby you dont have to thank me for that i wanted to, i dont just want to have sex with you or fuck you and make you feel like your just like any other of my ex girlfriends cause your something different to me" he kissed the back of my head
"really! you know what else"
"yeah"
"This is the first time i haven't took a shower after wards"
"haha and whys that"
"cause i dont feel dirty, when mark had sex with me i would take like a 3 hour shower just to get him off of me and i would feel so so dirty and now i dont want a shower i really feel good and just happy and i dont want to wash you off of me" i confessed
"Im really sorry baby that you had to go threw that, and im glad you feel different with me you dont know how happy that makes me and i hope to god you never have to do that with me and you never want to wash me off of you.
I turned me head slightly to kiss him "ill never want to, now lets get some sleep"


THE NEXT MORNING

I woke up to the the feeling of nick tucking my hair behind my ear my eyes fludder up.i was in a different pastion then i was when i fell asleep
"hey baby"
"did i move to much" i questioned
"No not at all you moved once and that was it im going to go get a shower okay" nick pulled his shorts on and stood up to tie them and i looked up at his back and giggled "whats so funny" he turned to look at me
"your back sorry bout that you have scratch marks form your shoulders to your lower back even on your sides and on your neck" i giggled again
"Thats probably why my back was stinging last night"
"Im sorry nick"
"Baby its fine i like it acturally it shows how much you injoy last night" he gave me his cocky smile
i got up and slipped his t shirt on "guess what?" i walked up to him and put my arms around him "I think its sexy as hell"
"Really keep that in mind next time" he leaned in and kissed me
"hehe well go get your shower and ill make us some breakfest,"
"Mmm sounds good but do me a favor throw on some shorts or something who knows whos down there and i dont want them seeing more then they should of my baby girl now get going" i turned to find some shorts and nick slapped my ass
"Now now Mr. Carter"
"sorry couldnt resist" he threw his hands up

While nick went to get a shower i found some short jean shorts and pulled them on. and got two hair ties and ran down the stairs i was walking in to the kicthen and also trying to pull nicks shirt in to a knot in the back and tie . and then i went to put my hair back when i looked up and seen Aaron and some blonde girl sitting at the Breakfest Bar it was the same girl he made out with the night we got in to the big fight,

"O hey Aaron" i finished putting my hair up
"Hi"
"So do you guys what some breakfast" i turned and looked at them
"Yeah sure why not,"
"okay" i nodded "Hi im ashley sorry aaron didnt interduce us" i stuck my hand out to her
"O Hi Ashley im Marie" and shock my hand
"well Marie its nice meeting you i hope i see you around more, is there anything you would like for breakfast" i smiled at her she seemed nice
"O i hope so to, and anything sounds good im starved" Aaron looked at me with a dirty look seeming mad that i wasnt jealous why would i i mean look at my boyfriend.
"Okay How bout Waffles" i looked to marie and aaron
"Sounds Good" marie answered
"what about you Aaron is that okay" i asked
"yeah Perfect"
"Do you want any help i love being in the kicthen" she asked
"Umm yeah if you want you can cut some fruit that would be nice"
"okay great" She slapped the bar and stood up and kissed aaron and walked around to help me
"So Aaron whats up with you you seem mad or something" i asked
" Nothings wrong im Happy" he faked a smile
"O okay Good" aaron got up and walked out the room
"Sooo Whats for Breakfast" Nick came jogging in to the kitchen
"Waffles and fruit is that good"
"Mmm sounds good and Smells Great" He came up behind me and kissed me "Mmm i hope they taste as good as you do"
"Be good and ill let you taste me again to night" i kissed him again "aarons here thats why marie is here"
"Hey Marie sorry didnt see you there, So wheres my little brother"
"He ran to the bathroom and Ashley why didnt you say you was Nicks Girl Friend"
"O i thought you might have guess or something sorry"
"o well i should have guess your wearing his shirt sorry I think you guys look totally adorable together"
"whos likes adorable together" aaron walked in to the room
"O Nick and ashley you should have told me that ashley was his girlfriend"
I looked up at nick with Fear in my eyes thinking shit was about to hit the fan he just sqeezed my hands lightly reassuring me everything would be okay.
"O well i would have told you if i had known"
"Sorry bro i would have told you we just been busy you know recording and then me and the guys are bout to go on our U.S leg of the tour just been busy and you havent been around"
"Well they have phone but its all good, So when dose your tour start back up, Ashley you going with them"
"Umm yeah i kinda have to go im their P.A and it starts back up the day after tomorrow, and im so excited i cant wait to go"
" O Which reminds me Jen Asked yesterday do you want to share a Bus with her or with me its all up to you baby"
"Hmmm Jens bus or My boyfriend I wonder" I pretended to think while nick pouted "O come on yours of course if you will have me" i smiled
"Of Course baby"
"okay good Now lets eat"

We all made small talk while we ate
"So aaron me and the boys are throwing a little party tonight you want to come" nick asked
"Umm yeah can i bring Marie with me"
"sure why not" nick was happy to see that his brother didnt flip out or wasnt mad about him and ashley at least he thought aaron wasnt mad
"You going Ashley" Marie asked
"Of course"

After breakfast i went and got a shower i got out and warped a towel around me and walked out in to nicks room i was going threw my bag trying to find

"coming up next on Es top ten celeb new at number 2 Backstreet boys Nick Carter in Another love triangle is Nick going back to his old partying ways and breaking hearts with it we will have all the details after this break"

"Nickolas!!" i yelled
Nick coming running threw the door "Ashley baby whats wrong"
"Do you have something to tell me Nickolas!"
"Umm no not that i know of why is there something wrong" he asked Just then E came back on

"Partying, Love Triangle, and Breaking hearts is Back Street Boys Nick Carter back to his old days at number 2, We have the Details Nick was spotted 2 weeks ago partying it up with his girlfriend Lauren and his other Brother and other members of the backstreet boys on his birthday, He was also spotted the next day with laren having Breakfast, everything seemed to being going good for the Youngest of BSB until they did a live broadcast form there the bsb studio where nick was cuddled up with another young ladie Ashley who is also reported as there Personal Assistant, during their broad cast they where cuddled up with one another and making out and declaring their relationship. we have a clip of the broadcast >>Played

"Lauren listen ...." he was cut off
"Lauren i suggest you leave" Brian cut in
"Brian this is known of your business"
"Yess it is You need to leave the crap your pulling becomes my business when your trying to ruin my friend and brothers career and it aint going to happen so i suggest you leave before i have some one escort you out"
"fine whatever" lauren walks out of the club
"Umm Thanks Bri" nick nodded
"No problem Nicky, you know if you ever need any help you can always ask me" brian said as he patted his shoulder
"Yeah sure" nick said but wasnt sure why brian came and stood up for him, where things finally going back


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"Aaron who the fuck do you think you are" i walked up to him and pushed his shoulder
"What the hell you doing"
"How dare you aaron mine and Nicks relationship is none of your business how dare you go and invite lauren and try to get shit started" i yelled
"How dare i ashley how dare you walk in my house acting like you want me then turn around and jump on my brothers dick what did you do just use me to get to nick"
"ugh omg No i liked you aaron i really did till your temper got in the way and i cant deal with your temper and it made me dislike you, and now thanks to you im really starting to hate your pathetic ass, I WANT TO BE WITH NICK NOT YOU, do you understand that you just need to stay out of my life"
"your such a fucking bitch" he nudged me and i screamed when i tripped and fall backwards i hit the floor hard aaron had a look of shock on his face when i screamed nick, brian, howie and aj heard and came running

"Ashley baby you okay" Nick went down to his knees to help me sit up
"Aaron i suggest you leave before you get your self in more trouble" Howie turned back to me and nick
"Nick i didnt mean to hurt her i swear" nick looked at him in the eyes, nicks eyes were filed with disappointment in his younger brother he didnt speek one word to aaron
"Aaron just get out of here before we have to pull nick off of you NOW AARON" Aj yelled aaron walked out of the club in shock of the event that had just took place.

"Baby you okay can you stand up" Nick asked again
"yeah nicky im fine i just need help up" Nick got on one side of me and brian on the other and they helped me up
" Nicky listen he just nudged me he really didnt mean to knock me over" i told nick
"Ashley he may have not ment to knock you over but aaron knows better then to even nudge you its no excuse for what just happen" Brian spoke up
"Yes baby aaron was raised not to touch a women like that he learned form me my father and the guys to never hurt a girl or touch her in a way to hurt her"
"okay can we just go sit down and eat please im a little dizzy" i asked hoping the dizziness would go away, nick and howie helped me to the table we all sat down and ordered food nick kept his arm around me at all times. we had a very good rest of the night..

It was only around 10 so we all decided to go to the studio, i could tell that something was on nicks mind, and it worried me was what happen with lauren or aaron or could it be brian, i could tell that he was heart broken over what aaron had done that was his little brother but i could scene that he was also heart broken by one of his older brothers and once his true best friend. i decided to get it out maybe if he could open up about his past with brian i could open up about my past with mark.

"Nicky" i almost whispered
"Yeah baby" he nearly jumped "is very thing okay, you feeling OK" he stood up as i walked toward him
"Yeah hun im fine still in shock but im not worried about that im worried about my boyfriend you see" i leaned and kissed him and grabbed his hand to ask him to sit.
"come here baby, i just need some one to hold" he pulled me in to his lap and wrapped his arms around me,"now you say your worried about your boyfriend whys that"
"I can tell his was heart broken and granted yes maybe over his baby brother, but i can tell hes also was heart broken over maybe one of his older brothers brian" i told him
"How do you know me so well baby" he sighed looking in to the darkness
"i dont know really i can just tell, you want to tell me about it"
"I dont know baby its a long story" he ran his hands threw his spiked hair
"Well im con fey, and im sitting here wanting to listen" i said matter-a-factly
"baby i am heart broken, Brian was My best friend and i mean we was frick and frack, we was suppose to be unbreakable, the friendship that would last for ever, granted yeah hes still my friend and my brother but its not the same brother and its not my best friend, dont get me wrong i love how close i have got to howie and jay, They supported me threw everything, Howie went to some of my shows and was there to pull me threw the whole paris thing, Kevin was their i mean kevin has always been their to keep me standing hes like a father pretty much he was the one that went off on that dumb bitch when she started the shit of me beating her, But there was one person that wasnt there that i need the most" He paused and took a deep breath. "Brian he wasnt there and it hurt so much, i mean when he got married yeah me and Leigh Anne didnt always see eye to eye but he still was my best friend and he was there for me, and then When we took a break and left the record company and i stayed on to do my solo tour and he just stopped being there, it was like he thought i was breaking us up or something," He sighed "I never intended on that baby, Yeah i was Nick Carter the Solo Artist but i was Still Nick carter the Backstreet boy. The boys and this group mean the world to me and they come first, i would never put my fame or solo career before the Backstreet boys i just wish he understood that or even believed, Yeah im doing another solo album and so are the other guys even brian so why was it so wrong for me do it, i dont even work on it much im to busy putting BSB first and i will always do that. I just dont understand" he took a breather " I never new he was that mad at me or what ever happen until i found out that he was about to be a father, and what hurt the most was that he wasnt even the one that told me i had to find out by a reporter. Baby do you know how much that hurt to find out that my best friend was about to be a father in 4 months and he didnt even bother to pick a damn phone up and tell me, the other guys thought i knew but i didnt. That was just a knife in my heart. And god do i love bay, i mean thats my nephew i love that little boy i would do anything for him. " he paused and smiled. "I love when he runs up to me and yells Uncle Nicky it makes my day i just wish brian knew that...He trilled of
"have you ever told him that" i asked
"No, it hurts to much to talk to him about bay sometimes it feels like he dont even want me to be bays uncle. he looked down and wiped his eyes. was he really crying was Nick Carter really getting Emotional about this. "I just wish he was proud of me, Him and Kevin where the two i wanted to make proud of me the most and hes not. Trust me i know i have fucked up enough in my life for him to not be proud of me, but baby i have changed so much so much, just to make him proud of me, God i guess its my fault for betraying him..."
"wait what do you mean betray him" i cut him off
" I stayed with the record company when BSB left and granted yeah we are back with them but they are different now, I dont regret my solo album or the tour but i do regret it for what it did to me and brians friendship, i bet he dont even own my solo album. the other guys do. I just wish i could have my best friend back again you know, I even moved to Nashville to be closer to him to see if that would help but nuthing god baby i just miss the old Frick and Frack, i hate this act we have to put on, on the stage why cant it be always like it use to be, why cant i teach bay all my pranks so he can drive howie nuts and me and brian can kick back and laugh" He pause and laughed at the idea and whipped a tear away
"Im so sorry baby i had no idea that it was that bad that you was that hurt but baby i think you should talk to brian about all this maybe he feels the same way maybe hes misses Frack like you miss Frick, and baby if you ask me i think he is proud of you, sometimes the way he looks at you when you suggest something in a meeting or in the studio. its that look that a father gets when he sees his son graduate, nick you wont know how he feels until you talk to him and i know its better said then done, but its something that needs to be said" i confessed
"you really thing hes proud of me" he asked
" Yeah i do" I smiled at him "baby just try and talk to him, Okay?"
"yeah ill try" he leaned and kissed me "you know how did i get lucky to get a girl like you"
"you know i wonder that myself," i giggled
"yeah your funny" i leaned and kissed him again
"now lets get in there and get home we need some sleep before are very long day tomorrow" he nodded and we walked hand in hand to go say by to every one

Unknown to Ashley and Nick, he wouldnt have to talk to brian about what him and ashley just had talked about. Brian over heard nick confessed and was stoned by all of what nick had said and Nick was right brian didnt know how strong he felt about baylee and the friendship him and brian had had, and Ashley was right Brian was Proud of nick very much so, and he did feel the same way about nick he missed nick and their friendship and he died to have their friendship back, there was something brian had to do to get it back he didnt want to see his brother like that anymore for no reason at all they both sat back thinking the other hated the other when they both just yearned for their friendship back, brian would fix this, and he knew how he could do it to.

******************Brians POV

I was at home i was walking to my office, i had to find what i was looking for to prove to nick that i was proud of him, and i was proud of his solo album, and that he wasnt ashamed of him, and that he did love the fact that nick loved baylee so much and that he loved that his son was close to nick. A female voice broke his thought

"brian are you okay" Leigh anne asked worried
"Umm yeah hun im fine" brian mumbled as he searched threw his CDs
"You looking for nicks CD"
"How did you know" i turned around in shock that she knew, Leigh anne loved nick as a brother dont get me wrong she did love him as family to her nick just didnt see eye to eye at times, but she did see him as a brother which meant alot to me that my wife seen him like that.
"Cause Brian this is how you get when you look for it to listen to it when your upset about something says something about your and nicks friendship brian you need to talk to nick" she confessed
"Yeah i know i need to, thats why im trying to find it," He paused "leigh?"
"yeah"
"Do you think that i could have helped prevent nicks Heart Condition"
"What!! Brian dont blame that on your self nick is the only one who could have prevented that and you know that, Hes getting better anyway"
"No Leigh, He was my best friend i should have been there threw all that shit with his parents and with Paris and his solo, I should have been there he was MY BEST FRIEND FOR GOD SAKE and i just drooped him like that for no reason sure at the time it seemed like a good reason but now i look at it was soooo stupid," He paused to take a breath "Leigh If i would have been there for him when he needed me the most he would have had me to run to for a shoulder to lean on, and would had stayed away form the drugs and achool but no what did i do, i dropped him and ran to the liqueur."
"Brian listen to your self you dont know that i mean look he had Aj and Howie and Kevin and he still ran to other things he probably would have done the same thing with you, you cant blame your self brian"
"Yeah he had howie and Aj and Kevin but Leigh i was HIS BEST FRIEND i should have been there, i hurt him worse then he ever did me, and you know i never told you this but you know i didnt tell him about you being pregnant with baylee" he sighed and looked down
"what i thought you did how did he find out one of the guys"
"No" he shook his head "A reporter asked him what he thought about me being a dad, and you was already 6 months pregnant at the time" he looked down ashamed of him self
"Aw Brian, Nick will forgive it will be okay i promise and i will even get along better with him cause hun i dont want to see you like this anymore it hurts me to see you broken up like this"
"yeah leigh but dont think its your fault that me and him aint friends okay i know he was at the wedding but i should have been IN the wedding and he wasnt even in the Wedding pictures maybe one or two, and now that Howie and Liegh are getting married you know nick is one of howies best men"
"yeah it will be okay dont put your self down any more brian just fix it okay and it will be fine and then you and nick can go back to frick and frack just dont let him teach our son to many pranks" she laughed
"yeah" he chuckled

"Nicky wake up baby you have to get a shower and get going to the airport" i tried waking him up
"ugh do i have to" nick mumbled in to his pillow
"yes baby now get up now" i slapped his ass
he shook his head in to pillow "five more minutes"
"No Up now" I straddled his waste "before i make you get on that plane with blue balls" i smirked
He swings the pillow of his face" Now thats mean baby"
"Hey when did i say i was nice" I leaned in and kissed him
"True" he mumbled against my lips
"Up now Carter we have a plane to catch" i got up off and him grabbed his hand to pull him up
"Fine god your pushy"
"and you love it"
"that i do"

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"Hey little brother" me and nick turned around to see who was yelling
"Hey Brian whats up" i squeezed nicks hand to reassure him
"Umm Can i talk to you about something,?"
"UNCLE NICKY" a small voice yelled threw the airport baylee ran to nick and threw his hands up
"Hey bay" he picked up baylee "hey Leigh anne" he smiled and was shocked when Leigh Anne leaned in to hug him
"Umm Brian can you watch him i need to go to the ladies room"
"umm well i was going to talk to nick in private"
"I can watch him" i smiled
"that would be great thank you ashley"
"no problem Brian"
"Okay Bay Auntie Ashley is going to watch you while me and daddy go talk is that okay" he smiled at me and then to baylee
"yeah" nick handed the 5 year old to me and leaned and kissed me "ill be right back" i nodded


"So whats up Brian"
Brian reached in to his duffel bag and pull out a case he handed it to nick, nick looked down at the case and back at Brian
"Open it its the 7th Cd in their" nick unzipped it flipped to the 7th Cd and was took in back.
"Now or Never, Why are you showing me this Brian" he looked back down at the CD
"Cause i do own it nick the first day it came out i ran to the store and bought it, I am proud of you weather you believe i am or not. im so proud of you and who you have become, im proud to be your older brother and im proud that my son can call you uncle"
"You herd didnt you"
"Yeah i was out side and i heard you talking to ashley" he paused "you know shes right"
"About what" nick looked up at the older man
"That when you suggest something in a meeting or in studio or you write these amazing song, i am proud of you, i mean come on its my little brother MY BEST FRIEND nick, your grown up look at you your 29 years old your not that 12 year old that i taught how to play basketball, and it kills me that i missed out on the biggest thing that made you grow up, and i wasnt there to watch it, i wasnt there for you to lean on when you Paris put you threw all that shit, i wasnt there to keep you off drugs and liquor i should have been there and you wouldnt have this heart condition, i should have been there, and i dont want you to ever think that im not proud of you and that i hate you or am mad at you, the reason i haven't been there since we made or come back was cause i was mad at myself i was disappointed in myself that i let some stupid shit come between you and me and that i let you go threw all that stuff one your own and i know Howie and jay and Kev was there but i should have been and im sorry im so sorry nick, i love you little brother and i love that you love baylee as much as you do and im VERY proud of you i want you to know that" Brian bit his lip nerves of what nick would say or how he would take his confession
Nick looked in shock he stood there in silence taking in all of what Brian had just said nick couldnt seem to say anything all he could do was pull Brian in to a hug he pulled back
"Brian you dont know how happy that makes me feel Ive waited so long and done so much to want you to be proud of me, But Brian please dont ever blame your self for my heart condition i choose to do the things i did for that shit to happen and it would have happen weather you was there or not, you know how hard headed i am" He smiled "Now lets put all this in the past and get back to frick and frack cause i miss them you know"
"Yeah i know what you mean i miss Frick and Frack to"
"Best friends"
"Always" Brian Smiled he was great full to have his best friend back and so was nick
"Lets get back to our women" nick laughed
"YOu should keep that one you know"
"what!"
"ashley you should keep her around she makes you happy"
"yeah she dose, i dont know what it is but she always knows what i am thinking, you know i almost told her i loved her last night"
"Wow, Do you"
"I dont know you know how i feel about marriage and all that but i feel like she may be the girl that will change my mind on that" nick smiled at the thought
"Wow nick carter might change his mind on marriage now you better keep her around cause you know we will need a two generation for frick and frack"
"haha ill keep that in mind," he smiled when he looked up and seen ashley holding baylee and laughing with Leigh Anne "that cant be good"
"what our women our getting along"
"you know what that means right, Story's"
"ahh storys thats never good" we laughed together

"well well boys are we back to frick and frack" Leigh Anne smiled
"Yeah we are" nick patted Brian's shoulder
"thats good" leigh hugged both man "Ashley im sorry but now you have to go threw the wrath of frick and frack its rough but you learn to love them"
:"Hey dont scare her away im thinking about keeping this one you know" he and Brian laughed
"o your thinking about it huh?" i smack his stomach
"Hey man with heart condition"
"O please, i guess we cant have sex anymore"
"I guess i like making love to you better anyway" He smiled
"Aw how sweet and disgusting at the same time" Leigh Anne laughed

We stood in a group waiting on aj and Howie and Leigh to show up nick was standing behind me with is arms wrapped around me and his and mine hands where in the pocket of my hoodie with his head resting on my shoulder he had a ball cap on trying to hide Brian also had a ball cap on hiding they didnt want fans bum rushing us,.

"heyy guys" aj and Howie and Leigh walked in together
"Finally you guys are late"
they all hugged everyone
" So how are you doing ashley" Aj asked me
"im doing good" i smiled and hugged him
"Nicks here so im guessing he didnt kill aaron"
"Nope he didnt, i took his mind off of things" i smirked and nick smiled to him self
"Yeah she did" nick smiled ear to ear
"But hes only thinking about keeping me around" i pouted
"Well baby ill take you when nicks done with you" aj joked
"Hey Uhuh I am keeping ashley shes all mine" he kissed my neck
"really now mr carter"
"yes forever mrs scott"
Even know it wasnt the right place or romantic or anything like that i felt the need to tell him

I leaned my head back and to the side to look at him and kissed him
" I love you nicky" i kissed him again
" I love you too baby" He looked me in my eyes

"du du dutu du" Brian made wedding song noises
We all laughed the laugh was cut short when five girls walked up and all shouted omg, we all looked at them
"its the Backstreet boys" the girls all chimed
"God" nick mumbled in to my neck
"hey hey be nice they are your fans" i scolded him
"I know baby and trust me i love my fans very much, i just dont want to be rushed right now"
"i know baby go see your fans tho"
"okay your coming with me tho"
"are you sure they will ask questions" i looked at him
"yes baby im sure but are you ready to be known as Nick Carters Girlfriend" he Smiled
"well nicky i kinda made that known on the live broad cast the other night and then it was on E" i laughed
"okay so quit complaining and come" he pulled me with him
all the guys where talking to the girls and signing things and taking pictures, when me and nick walked up the first girl to talk to nick was a taller blonde hair blue eyed girl, some would say nicks type she kept giving me dirty looks and it made me nerves very nerves.

"Hey Nick can you sign this for me" nick let go of my hand to sign her white Mp3 player
"yeah sure" he smiled at her
"so you guys leaving or did you guys just get back"
"We are about to leave here soon to start our US tour" he said while he was signing the other girls things
"When do you guys get back"
"our US tour last about 8 months" he was done signing things and now we was all talking to the girls
"Wow thats a while good thing your single" she touched his arm
"O im not Single Im very much taken" he smiled at her and grabbed my hand and squeezed it
"O really" she shout a dirty look at me nick must have seen it cause he lifted my hand and kissed it i smiled up at him
"O so you must be Ashley the girl form the video thing"
"Yeahh thats me" i smiled at her
"well your very lucky girl how old are you"
"Yeah i am and ill be 21 one in a few months"
"No im the lucky one" he smiled
"20 your a little young arent you" She ignored nicks comment
"Yeah im young but.."
"Uncle Nicky, Aunt Ashy" Baylees little voice cut me off
"yes bay bay" nick picked him up
"That girl said bad things about aunt ashy when i told her that you love aunt ashy" baylee pointed at one of the five girls
"O well you know what when people say things bad about someone you love what do you tell that person" nick asked
"I dont know" baylee shrugged
"well do you love aunt ashy even tho she said bad things"
"yes" baylee nodded
"and i love aunt ashy even if people say bad things about her cause they dont know her like we do, do they bay"
"Nope"
"then you know what you say to her, you tell her or any body that You and Uncle nicky love aunt ashy regardless of what anyone says" He pulled me to him
"Seeeeeeeee Uncle nicky loves aunt ashy, Thats why she my aunt ashy" Baylee nearly shouted the girls shoot me dirty looks
"Guess what bay" i took him out of nicks arms " i love uncle nicky to thats why your my bay bay" I smiled at him
"yaay" baylee cheered
"well sorry to break up the love fest but i need my son our flight is boarding" brian came up beside me he took baylee
"Nicky the plane is borading" i told him and started to walk away when i seen the girl hand nick her number and he put it in his pocket
"okay, buy girls" he said and grated his book bag "wait for me baby" he ran up beside me and went to inter lock our fingers when he grabbed my hand but i pulled my hand away form his. "baby?" i ignored him. and went up to Leigh Anne and talked to her and left nick at the end of the line so he could figure out what he did wrong i know it was mean for me not to stay with him and tell him what was wrong but i was to mad about what he had just done to even speak to him or even look at him

We boarded the plane "Here baby ill put your bag with mine" he took my bag
i sat at the window seat looking out the window so i would have something to look at since i still didnt want to look at nick
he sat down and sighed i didnt even budge to look at him and see what was wrong i knew what was wrong he wanted to know why i was ignoring him but i didnt care i just wanted to sleep and not speak or look at him for awhile till i knew what he was going to do with that number
"O god, Come on carter you have done this a million times your be fine just breath" nick spoke to him self
I felt bad 'okay ill hold his hand just till we get in the air then once we all hes cut off' i thought to my self
"here take my hand" i said to him "and close your eyes and think about something that makes you happy like being on your boat or on stage or something and fuses on that and just breath" he nodded and did what i told him the plane started to take off, when we lifted up his grip on my hand got tight but not to tight to hurt when we was steady i took my hand back form him and turned to the window and layed my chair back some since no one was behind us and covered myself up.
"Baby whats wrong" he asked putting his hand on my should
I shock my shoulder to get his hand off "Nickolas just leave me alone i really dont want to speak to you or look at you right now" i said with my eyes closed
"what ever ashley have a good fucking nap, love you to" he snapped

"Baby, you got to wake up we landed" he pushed a piece of my hair back and kissed my forehead, my eyes fluttered up
"Nick please not right now" I stood and folded my blanket and put it over my arm nick had my suit case and his bag i sighed i wasnt as mad at him as i was when i feel asleep, i just needed to know what he was going to do with that number, but i found my self needing his touch. even tho i was mad at him, i needed it and i felt a little bad at the look of hurt in his eyes, his eyes were no longer that bright blue that i loved so much.
i walked behind as he pulled my suite case as soon as we was out of the terminal and i walked up behind him and putt my hand in to his free and interlocked our fingers. he looked down at me in surprise and leaned in to kiss me.
I put my hand to his lips "Before you kiss me i need to know what you did with that girls number"
"Is that why you have been mad at me cause that girl gave me her number" he asked as we walked
"No i didnt care that she did that but it bothered me that you kept it" i told him as he smiled to himself
"Baby here this is the number that you our so mad at me for keeping" he pulled at the paper and spread it i blushed as i seen a piece of his gum wrapped up in the paper that held a scuffed up right that once was the girls number
"Im so sorry Nick" i looked down at my feet
"hey hey kiss me and ill forgive you Maybe!" he smriked i wrapped my arms went up around his neck and my lips soon covered his and i deepened the kiss when my tongue when into his mouth
"Forgive me"
"Do it again" i repeated what i had just done
"O i forgive you" he mumbled against my lips, i smiled
"Hey Love birds come one got to get to our buses" Brian shouted
we picked up our stuff interlocked hands and started to walk."Baby when we get in to the bus i need to talk to you okay"
"Okay" i said worried
"baby dont do that okay every time i talk to you dont mean that im bout to break up with you okay, i dont plan on breaking up with you anytime soon okay, i meant what i said at LAX you hear me i meant that"
"I did to" I smiled at him we was referring to when i we out of the blue told each other they we loved one another, granted we had only been together for 3 weeks there was something there and i couldnt put my finger on it, i didnt want it to end anytime soon if ever..

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We got two our buses and we was assigned buses me and nick and aj was assigned the orange and silver buss. Brian and howie along with leigh and leignanne and baylee was asigned the black and gray buss, then management had a all sliver buss. i didnt mind having aj as a roommate i sure it would be fun i was closest to him and howie cause nick seemed to be closest to them but form the looks of Brian and nick they had finally talked out there problems and where getting along better then ever which was very fun to watch them joke around and plus i had came close to lieghanne and baylee, so i was happy with that, aj had went to check out Jens bus and howie and brians so me and nick had a little time alone and he took it as a chance to talk to me

"baby come sit back here with me so we can talk okay?" i walked to the back of the bus where there was a room, it had a sectional couch in there and a big flat screen tv with game systems hooked up i walked over and sat next to nick on the couch
He took my hand "baby now im not mad at you okay just rememeber that okay" i nodded
"Baby girls are going to hand me their numbers and yes i may put them in my pocket but that dose not mean in anyway that i plan on keeping them i always throw them away when im out of sight, cause i dont want to like throw it on the ground in front of them that would hurt them and i dont want to hurt my fans okay, I love you baby i really do i know its soon but idk i just do okay but i also love my fans very much so to okay, cause they have made me who i am so please baby dont get mad everytime one of them give me a number or hug or kiss me okay cause baby it dont mean anything to me okay and yes baby they will talk shit about you but dont listen to them they are just jealous" He paused and grabbed my hand in his and brought it to his lips and kissed it softly, "Please just remeber that you mean more to me then them okay and i love you more but i do love my fans and care for my fans okay"
"I know nick i overreacted and im so sorry i was just upset and i wasnt thinking right im very sorry i promise it wont happen again" i told him almost in tears
"No no baby dont do that dont act like im punishing you cause im not baby i dont care that you got mad i knew it was going to happen it was no big deal and you can get mad baby but please just dont take it out om me okay, cause i really miss my baby girl when shes mad at me okay"
"yess nick i love you too and i know what you mean its been three weeks but its something" he leaned and kissed me again

he layed me back against the bed and he deepened the kiss and before we knew it our cloths were flying off and we got lost in it all

It had been 1 month since the tour had kicked out and me and nick had our talk and everything was going good me and nick hadnt fought since and i was growing closer to the guys and the girls every day.. i had seen many girls flirt with nick but i never took it to heart again after we talked, sure yeah i got mad an wanted to rip the girls head off at first but, at the end of the night i was the one he was snuggled up to and i was the one he said he loved you to at night, i hadnt been this happy in a while,

"Nick Ashley getting sick again" Aj shock nick trying to wake him it was the third time that week that i had woke up around 6 in the morning throwing up
"Aj please dont wake him im fine just go back to bed" i shouted over the toilet flushing as i leaned against the wall
Me shouting over the flush had woke up nick he snapped up and looked at aj "She getting sick again" he asked aj as he rubbed his eyes
"yeah Man im worried about her shes been getting sick alot man i dont want to freak you out but it seems like she might be pregnant" sure the thought had crossed nicks mind but they had always used protection she couldnt be could she
"I know but we use protection every time man she cant be can she"
"Nick i hate to break it to bro but i condom is not 100 % effective, they do break and they do get small ass holes in them man thats while you always need the girl on the pill"
"Shit!!" nick rubbed his face, then they heard Ashley getting sick again they went in to the bath room, this had be came a routine for Aj and Nick, Nick would lean down on his knees and hold ashleys hair for her and rub her back while she vomited and Aj would get wet rags and give them to nick so after she was done nick would help clean her self a little then aj would get a tooth brush out and tooth paste so when she was finally done she could brush her teeth then he would go in the kicthen and grab some cracker and 7 up so she could go lay down with nick and it would help alot, must people would think that aj was annoyed by being woke up the past three days buy this and helping nick and ashley out but he really didnt mind he was truly worried about ashley and ashley had be come like a sister to him and nick was his brother so he was worried and if ashley was pregnant by nick then that would also mean that ashley was caring his niece or nephew, Nick would tell aj to go to bed after ashley was laying in bed but aj would go back to sleep till ashley was back to sleep. he was truly worried,

Aj and nick had helped her in to bed.
"thanks jay for everything" Nick told
"No problem bro it aint a problem i just want to make sure ashleys okay be for i go to bed love you guys now go back to sleep"
"love ya to bro you get to sleep to" Aj got in to his bunk

"Baby can i ask you something" nick asked
"yeah sure hun"
"Are you Pregnant"
"Umm Noo babe there's no way, i just got a stomach flu or something ill be fine okay"
"how do you know your not baby" nick pushed the subject
"Cause im not OKAY NICK" i snapped
Nick sighed "okay im sorry, get some rest okay"
"Okay you to"
"Nick"
"Mmmhmm"
"I love you"
"I love you too baby girl" he pulled her close to him

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Nicks stirred in his sleep when he felt the bed was empty "Baby" he called

Silence

he got up and pulled his jeans on and walked out the room "ashley baby where our you"

Silence again

He decided to open the bathroom door and he sighed when he seen her laying on the bathroom floor 'aw baby you must not feel good' he thought to him self he bent down and shook her "baby come on wake up" she didnt move "baby" he shook her harder and nothing again
"ashley come on wake up" Nothing again he began to panic he smacked her and still nuthing he pulled her in to his lap and cuddled her
"AJ Call 911" he screamed
aj jumped out of his bunt and run in to the small bath room and gasped as he seen his little brother cradling ashley he was crying
"CALL 911 NOW AJ" nick screamed again
Aj grab his phone and called 911 he gave them all the information they needed they stayed on the phone with aj and they asked aj questions he had to get nick to calm down and do what they asked
"Baby come on wake up"
"Nick you got to calm down okay now you have to do as they asked till the ambulance gets here okay now please for ashley you have to calm down"
"Okay give me the phone and go get Brian and Howie" Aj did what he was told
"Sur"
"yes ma'am please help me"
"okay sur i am the ambulance is one its way right now okay they should be there shortly but sur i need you to calm down so we can help her okay" "yes"
"Okay can you check her pulse sur"
"Yes" he put his fingers to her wrist to find her pulse
"She has a pulse ma'am"
"okay sur thats always a good sign"
" can you put your ear to her mouth and make sure shes breathing"
"Yes" He did what he was told again
"yes she has shallow breathing"
"The ambulance is hear ma'am" nick told the woman as he hung up

"IN here in the bath room" Nick heard Aj telling them
two guys and a woman came to the bathroom
"Okay sur we need you to carry her out here in to front of the bus so we have room to work on her okay can you do that"
Nick couldnt find his words all he could do was nod he slowly stood up and kissed Ashley's forehead he walked in to the front of the bus and he saw the rest of his band mates and there wife's standing there he heard the wife's crying.
"sur she has a pulse and she has shallow breathing"
"Okay!!" they all knelt down at ashley as nick layed her on to the stretcher "Do any of you know what happen"
Nick had went to his knees after he had put ashley down howie went down next to him with his arm around his younger brother
"Umm Shes been waking up ever morning around 6 vomiting alot the past three days and she did it again today and everything went good she went back to bed around 6;30 and i found her like that at 7 im not complete sure what happen but umm" Nick paused and looked around "I think she might be pregnant she says shes not but i think she is"
"okay whos riding with her" the guy asked
" I am" Nick told him
"Can he have some one for support" leigh asked
"umm Yeah we can let two of you go with us but the rest of you have to drive there okay"
"Nick ill go with you okay" Leigh went up to him and Howie
"thank you Leigh" he hugged her

Nick and leigh jumped in to the ambulance once they had ashley in. Leighanne went and got baylee shoes on and they all jumped in the suv and followed the ambulance

they had put an IV in to ashleys arm and they had also took blood form her so they could test her for a pregnancy, they couldnt test it until they got to the hospital tho, they put a oxygen tube on her nose to help her breathing nick sat there holding on to her and leigh sat there with her hand on top of nick and ashleys sodding.

"Ashley you listen to me now okay you got to wake up okay for me and if your pregnant you have to wake up for our family okay please baby if you dont wake up i wont forgive you i wont love you anymore so you have to wake up i mean it ashley you have to" nick and bent down and whispered in to her ear and kissed her softly "I love you baby girl"

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Nick was passing the floor in the private waiting room while Brian and Howie sat consoling their wives, baylee played with the toys
and aj sat in a chair and with his head in his hands. Jen was on the phone postponing interviews until further noticed.

"god what is taking so long" nick sighed looking at the clock
"Nick sit down please okay you need to calm down okay" Howie begged the younger man
"i cant calm down Howie, im dieing not know what going on"
"nick shes going to be okay and if she is pregnant the baby will be okay shes strong, come on little brother let pray okay"
Nick nodded and knelt down in front of Brian" everyone took hands
"Dear heavenly father we need you help right now we need you to put your protecting hands around ashley and the baby she may be caring and protect them form any harm, give the doctors the help and courage to help ashley and this baby please lord help nick and his family our family lord give nick the courage to get threw the bad time he our fathers name we pray Amen" Brian cooed
"Ahem" the rest chimed
"thank you Brian" nick told him as he stood up
"You guys here for Ashley Scott" a woman in a white jacket walked in to the room with a folder
They all stood up "yes"
"which on of you are Mr. Carter"
"thats me im her boyfriend" nick stepped forward
"Sur would you like to talk in private or do you want them around to" the woman asked
"Here fine, Is ashley okay" He asked worried
"i have good and bad new, the Good new is that Ashley and the baby are fine, she had went in to distress form getting sick as much as she did i gave her medicine that will help her for that" nick was so relieved that he hadn't noticed that she had said baby
"and the bad news"
"Shes still sleeping its nothing that you should worry to much about she should wake up soon tho but after she wakes up, she has to keep on the medicine that i put her on which will help her with her vomiting but she will sleep alot okay and she needs to take this medicine on a daily bases cause if she dont sure she can run a risk of distressing the baby again and can very well lose the baby" Nick finally realized what she was say that ashley was indeed pregnant
"hold on wait She pregnant"
"yes she is" the woman paused and open the folder "she just about 6 weeks pregnant"
"O wow.." he paused "So her and the baby are going to be okay right"
"yes as long as she stays on the medicine i prescribe her when she wakes up"
"Can we see her" nick blurted out
"yes you can all can in as soon as you want" she walked out the room
Nick sat down on the cheer and putt his hands on his face and breathed loud
"You okay nick" Howie walked over to nick
he nodded "Im going to be a father"
"Is that bad or good" he asked not knowing
"Its scary"
"Nicks going to be okay, your be a great father okay"
"you think so"
"Yess man look at you, you have grown up more then and of us hell more then i have: Aj confused
"i hope so, Lets just go see her try and wake her up" he said as he stood up, they all stood up and followed nick in to her room she was sleeping and she had alot o wires around her and monitors for her and the baby, the room was silence all that could be heard was a faint but steady beat
"What is that" nick look at his friends
"Well nick the is the heart beat o your son or daughter" Brian said in a proud voice
"Wow thats amazing" nick hand was on his mouth, he sat down on the bed next to ashley and put his armed around her and grabbed his hand in his "baby girl you hear that, you hear that notice if you can you need to wake up baby cause thats our baby, and im holding you to what i told you in the ambulance so you have to wake up baby"

They all gathered around and prayed one more,

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Leigh and lieghanne sat in the room with ashley she still hadn't woke up, the guys went to get food form Subway. they had took baylee with them
it was later in the day

"Soo Ashley you know nick is so in love with you i didnt think i would see the day where nick carter would be crazy in love with a single girl and be happy that he was about to be a father in 9 months or so, i think you should really wake up or him and this baby" She paused "we are worried about you ashley you got to wake up"

they sat there for a little while when the guys finally got back with the food nick came in and sat down in the bed with her. and kissed her forehead
"Nick..?" a crackly voice said
"Ashley baby..?" Ashley opened her eyes "Brian go get a doctor" nick told him
"Nick whats going on" She looked around wide eyed
"You dont remember baby"
"the last thing i remember was laying down on the bathroom floor and that it, Am i okay nick whats going whats this on my stomach" he looked at the baby monitors wrapped around her stomach

The doctor came in and exam ashley she seemed fine but still wanted to know what the things on her stomach was and the faint beating on in the back ground in the room.

"Shes fine Mr carter, i still want to keep her over night just to make sure everything's fine with her in the baby and if everything goes well over night i will release her first thing in the morning"

"Will i be able to stay the night"
"yeah but only you"
"okay thanks for everything"
nick turned around to everyone can you guys give me and her a minute and then ill tell you guys when its good to come in okay.
they all nodded


Nick walked in the room he had his food and he had got her some subway to>
"baby you hungry" he asked her holding it up
"yeah" she nodded " Nick am i....."
"pregnant" he finished her sentence "yes baby your 6 weeks pregnant"
"Im so sorry nick i swear i didnt mean to get pregnant i really mean it i swear i would never do that to you, if you dont want it we dont have to have it nick im sorry" She began to sobs
"Aw Baby No dont cry" he walked over to her and sat in the bed facing her and put his hand in his and kissed it softly, "Baby please dont be sorry, Please Im not mad i swear, of course im scared ashley but i want to keep the baby, you want to keep it dont you"
"You dont hate me for getting pregnant?"
""Not at all baby i could never hate you and i love you and this baby" He put his hand on her stomach "you hear that beat" She nodded
"thats our baby's heart beat" He smiled at her
"Our baby's Heart beat?" she smiled "wow"
"that what i said, Are you okay having a baby with me Mrs. Scott" he raised an eyebrow at her
"Are you okay with have a baby with me Mr.Carter" she copied him
"Hell yeah i am" he leaned in and kissed her
"You are"
"Yea baby i mean if we had a boy he will be just like me" He gave a cocky grim " if we had a girl she would be just as beautiful as her mother, but which could be bad cause then i would have to threaten like a million guys that if they touched my daughter i would kill them which could be bad" he laughed and kissed her again "are you okay with it"
She was quite for a minute, 'how could he be happy to have a baby with me, maybe mark was wrong' she thought to her self "Of course i am i would love to have a little nick carter running around" she kissed him
"that could be bad to you know a little me running around" he smirked
"god i know have a little heart breaker"
"hey i am not"
"where is everyone baby, and well you use to be"
"O ill go get therm" he got up and walked in and went and got the group

everyone walked and grated her and they spent the rest of the talking and laughing until everyone had to leave she looked at all of them and when she looked at nick sitting with her on the bed she realized that everything that mark had told her and beat in to her was wrong and she was finally was about to have the perfect already had the perfect family with the backstreet family and they was about to add one more . she couldnt wait ti have nick baby.

it had been two months since me and nick found out that we were going to be parents, i was now 14 weeks pregnant which was 3 and 1/2 months i was beginning to show only a few select people knew the boys and their wives of course knew, they was not only pretty much nicks true family and they had become my family to i became very close with them, My brother knew, tho he wasnt very happy that i had fell in to the arms of nick not that nick was a bad guy jeramy didnt like the age difference, to me it and nick at first it was weird but we had came to find out that the age wasnt that big of a deal cause granted it was almost an eight year difference, but when you looked at nick you would never guess he was a day over 25 and we both acted that age as well. Nick had told kevin he had always seen kevin like a father figure and he always seeked his approval and he always wanted kevin to be proud of him, and Kevin was very proud and approved of me, kevin was proud to see his younger brother finally get his life together, Then Nick also wanted to tell Angel his baby sister he was closet to her out of all his sibling yes he was close to aaron and always would be but nick always felt that he had to protect angel and be more of a father to her then a brother, he didnt want that but he felt he ha to. Me and angel hadn't got along at fist she felt that i was only after nick for his money, but the more time we spent together the closer we had got, Pretty soon me and Angel had became best friends, and i had also became best friends with Liegh and Lieghanne, i was closer to Liegh then lieghanne not because brian and nick cause brian and nick was close again, But Nick was still closest to Howie so we spent alot of time together on tour and even on a breaks. it was nearing the beganing of june only a couple days away form y 21 birthday, and i was beganing to show in my pregnancy, and the due date was Nov. 10th and the boys we're still on their North Ameaican leg of the tour the last date on this leg of the tour was Nov 23. most poeple didnt think that it was a good idea or me to have the baby during tour and then at the beganing of the year go over sees with the baby for the last leg of the boys unbreakable tour, To me and nick and the guys we didnt see much of it as a big deal brian had done a great job with baylee granted baylee wasnt that young but the way the guys we're doing me and nicks child would be touring for a very much of her life, it wasnt a big deal to us..

"baby you going to sound check with us" Nick called form the front of the bus
"Nick came here please" she pouted
"Yes baby girl what do you need" he came to the back to the door
"Do i look fat in this" she pointed at her pink t shirt and white bamuta shorts and pink flip flops
" No baby not at all"
"you can see the baby bump tho" she touched her stomach
"Yes baby you cant hide it forever you know hun" He walked up to her and placed his hand on her bump "I think its sexy"
"Well of course you do its your child in there" she leaned up and kissed him
"Damn straight baby" he kissed her again " Sound check now please" he slapped her ass
"Okay okay lets go" she interlocked their hands
"You got everything, Qs out there waiting for us"
"Umm yeah i got everything, lets go" i smiled at him and i slid my sun glasses over my eyes as we walked off the bus Q was standing there waiting for us. there were fans standing out side waiting to get a glimpse of their favorite backstreet boy
"OMG NICK I LOVE YOU" girls were screaming Nick waved at them,
"Nick they are going to find out that im pregnant soon wont they" He nodded
"yes baby but i dont care im not ashamed of you or this baby"
"Yeah but your fans are very protective of you and they will flip when they find out that im have your child Mr. Carter" i told him when we walked in to the building
"God i love when you say that" he smiled
"What"
"when you say something about you carrying or having my child"
"Im just telling you the truth you know" i kissed him "now get out there" i slapped his ass
He looked back at me when he put his ear piece in "i love you baby girl"
"Love you too carter" he walked on the stage and the girls screamed

"Hey hey ladies what is up" he said in to the mic
"About time you get here Nicky" howie said
"hey five minutes late i had to tell the girlfriend she wasnt fat" he laughed "girls i swear i will never understand you people"
everyone laughed "Oooo Ashley Scott" Aj sang-a=long in the mic "come on out here please" he smirked
"Shes going to kill you dude" Nick laughed
"Uh oh your in trouble" brian oooo'ed
"Yes Mr McLean" i asked
"Last name Mrs.Carter" aj snapped back then laughed at the shock on nick and my face
"I Dont see nicks mom around so i dont know who your calling that" i snapped back, Nick laughed
"Sorry Mrs Scott, Okay anyways ashley can you get us some waters and towels," he laughed
"Jay shes going to like kill you, did you forget she knows where you sleep at night" Nick told him
"O shit i forgot"
"Hey family show here, Its Poop" brian laughed
"Sorry"
I walked back on on stage with 4 waters and 4 towels and their packet of aotugraph picture and 4 different colored sharpies their favor colors
I handed aj a water and a towel "Thank you Ashley" he smiled "O and your not fat" I smacked his arm playfully "Oww" he pretended to pout
"I still love you jay"
"Uh oh Nick jay is stealing your woman" Brian said in the mic to nick i handed howie his things i handed him the packet of pictures he usually like to sign them first
"thanks Ashley" i nodded at him and walked to nick.
"Nah im not worried about Jay he cant get this girl shes kinda stuck with me" He grabbed the water and towel and kissed "Arent you" he had the mic to his mouth
"Unfortunately" I laughed
"That hurt" he put his hand to his heart and acted as if he was in pain
i walked over to brian and handed him his stuff
"thanks ashley"
"anything else guys i asked"
"Are you pregnant a voice came form the audience"
nicks head snapped back to look at me and the guys head snapped to look at nick, He looked at me and he didnt have to say a word i knew he was asking if he should tell them, i didnt say a think i just nodded and smiled and stood there waiting for him to say something he turned to look at all the people.

"Ashley come here" he waved for me to come to him he was sitting on the stool and stood up and patted on the stool for me to sit down.
i sat down and he stood behind me.. he put his hand on my shoulder
"Okay so ummm.." i put my hand on his and rubbed it
"you can tell them if you want i whispered" i smiled at him
"Okay so Yeah i will be joining brian as a Backstreet Dad in november " he kissed the top of my head
"Awws" filled the air even the guys did it
"So do we hear wedding bells anytime soon" brian asked
i spoke up befor nick could. "Um we are having this baby and we are dating" i smiled at nick " and i love nick with all my heart but marriage and im sure nicky agrees with me is just not a step i want to take and i dont know if i ever will when im i might change my mind. we will see"
"I couldnt have said it better" nick spoke up
"okay well i have to get back to work, nice to see all you guys" i told the audience "rock their sucks guys" i told them
"Be careful okay dont stress your self to much" he leaned down and kissed " i love you with all my heart to" he whispered in my ear
i looked in the audience one more time and waved. i took a double look to see if who i had seen was really who i seen but i couldnt spot him
i walked off stage
"you okay Ash" Jen asked
"umm yeah"
"you like you just seen a ghost"
"I think i might have"
"what do you mean" she looked at me weird
"you cant tell nick you have to swear please jen" she nodded "Now im not completely sure but i think i seen mark out there"
"WHAT!! your ex the one that beat you" i nodded "Ashley i have to tell nick so he or Q can be with you all the time"
"No please dont okay i dont want him to stress over it okay besides i dont go anywhere with out Q anyways"
"Okay but if anything happens im telling him and the guys okay"
"okay, Thanks Jen"
"no problem, now get back to work" she smiled "ANd keep Q or Marcus and Big Rob with you at all time you hear"
"Yes mom" i laughed

30 minutes later the guys were about to start answering questions."okay so befor justin takes the floor and we answer questions. we have a birthday in acouple days an we will be a a short break then so we are going to sing miss Ashley happy birthday, So nicky C go get your girl"
"will do" he walked off stage to ashley "come one baby girl"
"What! No you didnt tell me about this" i smacked his hand away
"Oh shut up baby it was a surprise since your helping me plan your birthday party i had to get you some surprises so now get you pregnant ass out there now" he grabbed my hand
"Ugh fine but im so getting you back for this"
"i look forward to it" he laughed and pulled me out on stage
"Sit up here babe" Howie patted nicks stool and they all stood around me
"I hate you guys i hope you know this" Nick handed me an extra mic
"dont let her lie to you guys she loves us" Jay told everyone
"Okay i one two Happy birthday to you, Happy birthday to you, Happy birthday dear Ashley, Happy birthday twoo Yooooouuuu" the guys sang while jen brought out a cake "okay make a wish" brian said i blew out my candles
"thanks guys" i siad as i laughed, my smile ended when i met the eyes of him, 'No it cant be no i thought wouldnt have to deal with him ever again theres no way, O god it is him, ' i thought to myself "okay you guys get back to your fans" i leaned up and kissed nick one more time and walked off stage with jen
"hes deff out there jen"
"okay well hun we will keep you safe okay you and the baby"
"thanks jenn just please dont tell nick inless you have to okay"
" I promise"

The guys had finished up there questions and had only five more fans to take pictures with.
"hey Jenn Im going to the bus okay the guys should be done in 5 or 10 minutes so im just going to head back now okay tel nick ill right and the rest of the guys and you still coming to our bus"
"yeah we will be out there in about 10 mins"
"kay" i hugged her and walked out of the building and to the bus i was almost to the bus when i felt a hand grab my arm "dang that was fast" i said and turned then was pushed to the side of the bus
"What did i tell you"
"Get off me mark i dont have to listen to you anymore you dont own me"
"I WILL always own you bitch have you forgot everything i told you"
"you dont own shit" I yanked my arm away
"Oooo are you getting brave, you should know better then to get brave with me, you know ill stomp you in the ground, Baby o no baby you should know that baby"
"Dont call me that you son of a bitch"
BAM!!! it stung at first then it went to a sting my hands when up to my face."What did i just tell you, Now you need to get your shit and come back with me now and i mean it baby, He dont love you he never will and he want love this bastarded thats in side of you"
"You better get out of here mark i mean it be...." i was cut off when a hand went on to marks shoulder and whipped him a around, the man instantly shocked mark right in the eye and he went to the ground i looked up to see Nick he was shaking his hand.

"Nick!!" i cried
"come here baby" he pulled me in to his chest, the guys where running towards the scene that had just happen
mark was standing up with his hand on his face there was blood "you just fucked up ass hole ill sue your ass"
Q and marcus and big rob and the rest of the backstreet boys and jenn came to a stop beside nick and i
"Do it i dear you, you can try and sue me for every dime i have but ill tell them what you did they will to they seen everything and im sure ashleys brother would love to tell them what he walked in on, to show you have a past with beating her, i was protecting my girlfriend and my unborn child" he looked to the three body grauds standing near "would one of you please get this piece of shit out of here" big rob took the job and pushed mark to get him moving "and if i see you even 100 feet near ashley me or my child ill have your ass put in jail"

"come on baby let get on the bus you guys coming" he asked the group

"Okay How the hell did he find you Ashley" Nick Snapped
"I...I..dont know nick im so sorry" I cryed
"Nicky Dont yell at her its not like she told him where she was or anything" howie spoke up
"Ugh...your right, Baby im sorry" he bent down on his knees infront of me "I didnt mean to yell at you.. Im just mad that he found you and he hit you and your pregnant im sorry baby i shouldnt have yelled and im not mad at you okay so dont think that im mad at him" i nodded at him
"Why didnt you have Q or big rob or marcus with you Ashley i told you to have them with you" jen yelled
"Im sorry i wasnt thinking i thought he was gone when i didnt see him anymore" i cried
"Wait What, You knew he was here" he asked i nodded yes "DAMNIT!!! yes What the hell was you thinking, you knew he was here and didnt bother to to tell me or Q or any of Ashley damn you Why the hell" he paused and looked at jenn "And you Knew Jenn you should have told me damn it , Ashley your fucking pregnant with my child and your going to put the baby and your self in danger like that do you even care"
"Im sorry nick i should have told you" jen spoke softly
"DO I CARE NICK,, DO I CARE,, YOU MAKE ME SICK" i yelled at him and took off out the bus
"Baby Please" he grabed my arm
"DOnt call me that" i yanked my arm away
"ill go talk to her" aj spoke up and took off
"Damn it how could she do that"
"Nick, She didnt tell you cause she didnt want you to stress out about it, she said that you been stressing out over her and the baby and that you was barely sleeping and she didnt want to pile on more problems, Nick She loves you more then life its self you need to realize that, You saved her life and now your giving her something he took away form her and she wants to be with you for the rest of her life," Jen spoke
"Wait what do you mean im giving her what he took away" he asked confused
"nuthing nevermind" jen shock her head
"whatever"

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"ashley wait slow down please you shouldnt run" aj said runing
"Ugh jay please" i stoped
"Ashley, i know he should have yelled at you or said what he siad but, He loves you ashley and your the mother of his child and it scared him when he seen mark, Hes scared to lose you and the baby, you have to give him some slack"
"Hes scared, jay im scared, im scared that he aint going to want me or this baby after i have it and he realizes that its more work then what it seems, I didnt tell him cause i didnt want to add to his stress thats it i swear jay"
" I know that ashley but you have to tell him that he loves you ashley and hes hurting right now, and when you told him not to call you baby, i think you might have broke his heart in to a million pieces" Aj laughed
"I know i should have said that but i was pissed, but if it broke his heart why did you come and not him"
Aj smiled and pointed nick was walking over to him he leaned in and hugged her "See i told you he loved you and his heart is braking please dont let it brake all the way" he whispered she nodded he walked past nick and put his hand on his shoulder and nodded and then took off back to the bus.

Nick stood there looking at her, her back was turned to him.
"Ashley Im sorry" he said as he shoved his hands in his pocket she turned and looked at him
"Its okay nick" now regretting telling him to call her baby she hated when he called her ashley
"No its not, i know you care and im sorry i shouldn't have yelled at you and said what i said but" he paused " Im scared out of my mind ashley and then when i seen him i was scared that he would hurt you or our baby and then when you didnt tell me that you knew he was around i was hurt that you didnt trust me to keep you safe" he confessed
"Oh, Nicky" she walked up to him and warped her arms around his waist. " I feel the safest with you, i didnt tell you cause you been going threw alot of stress and i didnt want to add on i thought that maybe if things got to stressful that you would just walk away form me and the baby"
"Never ashley i dont care how much sleep i lose or how much stress is built up i will NEVER walk away form you or our baby do you hear me" he looked in her eyes
" Yess, im sorry nicky"
"you have nothing to be sorry about ashley"
"Ughh..." she leaned up and put her hands on his face and kissed him deeply
"Whoa what was that for" he asked breathlessly
"For you to stop calling me Ashley" i smiled
Nick chuckled "good i hate calling you that and im not going to lie when you told me not to call you baby, it was like a knife when my heart, Stung"
"im sorry i was just mad i always want me to call me baby"
"good now lets get back to the bus befor they get to worried kay" i nodded and leaned in and kissed him deeply again

"Hi Nick" a fan said
"Whats your name" he asked
"Jessica"
"Hi Jessica"
she giggled "So my question was How do you feel about being a dad and if you knew the sex of the baby yet and i you guys have picked out names yet"
"Well No we dont know what the sex is yet we find out tommorw, so im very excited about that but when we do find out we want telling not even the guys" he smirked "And as for the names yeah we have picked out names and they are a surpirse to so yeah" He paused "And honestly being a dad scares the crap out of me dont get me wrong i cant wait and i love the baby and Ashley very much, but as you all know i didnt have the best family life and these guys have pretty much took the roll of my family, and i just hope that i can be a good father like brian here"
"Awe nicky" Brian pretened to cry
"nick will be a great dad you should see him with baylee, But i cant wait till i get a niece or newohue form nick so i can teach them how to put nick threw hell like he did us back in the early days payback is coming Nicky" howie laughed

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"Nicolaos Gene Carter if you dont get your ass out here right now i will leave with out you" i yelled
"okay okay im coming damn baby"
"lets go" i wobbled a little out of the bus.. i wasnt very big but i had gained 20 pounds i was 5 and half months pregnant, and was very moody and had craving, they want werid ones thank god, really only subway and pickles and sometimes cookies, so nick or one of the guys was always running and getting me one of them. I was not the only girl that was now pregnant Liegh was pregnant now and we was so excited about that.

"Baby i wanted to talk to you about the baby" nick told me as he pulled out the lot
"Okay go a head"
"I think we need to do a Will"
"What!!"
"well if something happen to us all of all stuff will need to go to people and Our kid will have to go to somebody"
" Umm nick not to make you mad but all the money and stuff in the house is pretty much all your stuff, and yeah i see what you mean about the baby tho"
"Ash, Baby My stuff is yours okay married or not, ill being spending the rest of my life with you and we have a kid together"
"Nick you know how much i love you" i smiled at him
"I know i know i love you to" he laughed
"so did you have Someone in mind to be The babys God Parents" i asked already knowing
"Brian and Lieghanne" he smiled at the thought that he had his best friend back "what do you think"
"That will be prefect nick" He put his hand on my thigh, i smiled at him and leaned in an kissed him as we pulled in to the doctors office
"You ready to find out what we are having"
"God yess" i answered

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Knock Knock!!!

"coming" i yelled and went to the door
"hey Sweetie how was the doctor appointment go yesterday morning" Lieghanne asked as her and brian came on to the bus
"Great!!" i smiled remember the sex of the baby
"Soooo you found out" Brian asked
"yess but we aint telling remember" I smiled " me and nick are being very secretive i mean even with our selves " I picked out the boys name and he dont know what it is and he picked out the girls name and i have no idea what it is"
"WOW" they chimed "So you and nick wanted to talk to us" brian asked
"Yeah, Nick!! Brian and liegh are here" i yelled to the back of the bus
"Heyy Frack hey L.A" he hugged them
"so you guys want to sit down" nick asked
"O god why am i scared"
"Haha there aint no reason to be scared Rok" nick laughed we all sat down

"Okay so we didnt have to do much thinking about this cause when the subject came up nick came up with it immedantly" i started off brian and liegh leaned back worried about what was going on
"Yeahh Brian i want you to know that Im sure of this and this is what i truly want that we both want and if you dont want to i completely understand , but i just want you to know that we came to this desision cause i have learned so much form you and when we was younger you took pretty damn good care of me and i just love ya man we both do" he put his hand on mine which was resting on my stomach
"that why we want you to sign this" i pushed a paper in front of brian and liegh they leaned over and began to read it
"N"Nicky i love you to little brother and you know that i will always stand by your side threw everything me and liegh both will"
Nicky dose this say what i think it says" brian asked
"Yes rok we want you guys to be the babys God parents and if anythings happens to me and ash we want you guys to gain full custdy, you dont have to decided now i know its a big desision and everything we can give you guys time if you need"
brian looked at liegh and she nodded "We dont need time nicky we would love to be the god parents"
"really"
"of course nicky as long as we still get to be Uncle and aunt"
"of course you guys will" he laughed
"then wheres a pen" he picked up a pen and him and liegh signed the will
"brian i have one more favor to ask"
"Anything nicky"
"Can you not tell howie or jay yet i want to talk to them about it and tell them why i decided on this"
"i understand nicky"
"thanks bri" we all got up and hugged,

jeramy slow down woman carring child here in the fornt seat" i told my brother
"Sorry you just want to get you threw befor 2:00 in the morning dont you"
"yeahh but slow down a little please"
"no problem, So you Surprising Nick"
"yeah you know the story i had to go on leave for a months they wanted me to rest up, so i havent seen nick in almost a month i miss him" i Frowned
"Yeah i bet so 8 and 1/2 months prenant my baby sister god thats scary"
"It will be okay your going to be there when i have the baby right"
"yeahh i still think its unfair your not telling anyone the sex of the baby"
"well you will find out soon enough"
"yeah yeah, well its 2 more hours befor we get there so rest up"
"good idea" i rested my eyes and began to all alseep

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Nick and Aj and Howie were at their after party,

"Nick when you heading back to the hotel" howie yelled over the music
"ill be leaving in about 30 minutes or so youa nd jay can get going im fine here"
"alright see you tomomrow"
"ight later guys" The guys walked out the club

"Why are your friends leave" A blonde asked nick
"O howies pregnant wife is at the hotel and aj wasnt felling good"
"O why didnt you go"
"Aint tied mise well hang out some more have fun you know"
"So you dont have anyone waiting for you" she asked touching his arm
Nick looked at her hand go down his arm "Umm yeah but shes not at the hotel shes at our home" he shrugged
"how could a girl leave her fine ass boyfriend alone like that"
"She has good reason" he decided not to get in to detail about it
"O well i guess then soo.. what you doing to night" she asked again
"Umm well hang out here a little more then go back to my hotel and chill out probably.. what about you"
"I was hoping i could hang with you"
"ummm" nick began
"How bout a shot"
"umm i guess one wouldnt hurt any"
they ordered one turned in to 6 shots nick wasnt drunk but he was feeling a little tipsy he was out on the dance floor dancing with the blonde
She leand up and kissed him, with out thinking Nick deepen the kiss with the blonde.she began to rub up against him, his heart was telling him this was soo wrong but the guy in his mind and his body was telling him different he hadnt had a womans touch in over a month and she was driving him crazy so with out thinking again he siad the words that would end up ruining his life and his family

"What to go to my hotel" nick asked
"Sure" she grabed his hand walked out the club
they called a taxi they was all over each other in the the taxi
they came to a stop and realized they was at nicks hotel they jumped out of the cab and nick paid the fee adn they took off to his room once they got in fornt of his door, nick finally hit his since

"shit! what the hell am i doing"
"about to get laid" she giggled
" i cant do this im sorry"
"what!! yes you can, ill rock your world honey"
" i cant i have a girlfriend and im so totaly in love iwth her and shes over 8 monsth pregnant with my child i cant do this to her or to my child or to myself,, im sorry for leading you on"
She frowned" Well i guess shes pregnant i wouldnt want to be a homewreaker i guess but one more kiss" She pulled his head down to him and her lips covered his befor he could protest

" NICK!!" a voice shreaked threw the hall, Nicks head snapped to the side and his heart sank there before him stood what he claimed to be the love of his life the mother of his unborn child watching him make out with another girl a girl he only met 2 hours ago
"O god Baby you got to listen to......"
"what the hell is going on out here" Aj swung his door open to find ashley standing there with her over sized pregnant stomach and nick standing in shock with a blonde standing beside him 'this cant be good' aj thought to him self
"JAy can i stay with you tonight" ashley turned to him in tears
"Um sure ash he opend the door more so she could come in befor she did she let go of her suitcase adn walked over to nick, nick was still in utter shock when ashley walked in fornt of him
" Here i wont be needing this anymore" She slid the promise ring off her finger that had 10,000 Promises craved in to it it was his promise to her adn it was also nicks all time favorite BSB song Tears rolled down her face "thanks for ruining our family" she wobbled back,
"Ash baby No dont do this baby i love you and its not what it looked like, baby what about our child"
"Nick yoy blew it so just do me and my child a favor and stay the hell out our lives" she walked in to ajs room aj went to close the door
"Jay dude let me in to talk to her" nick begged
"Nick man just leave her alone for tonight" aj shook his head "damn nick what the hell why did you have to fuck this up for christ sake shes almost 9 months pregnant with your child and you go and pull the cheating card. Nick im sorry but im dissapointed in you know just go to bed or go get laid do what you do best" aj shut the door
Nick stood there in shock, He just lost everything he lost the love of his life his child ajs respect and he knew in the morning this would all get to the other gusy and they would lose respect for him to, nick walked past the blonde and didnt even speak or look at her he clitched the ring in his hand and walked in to his room layed the ring on the night stand. then Anger hit he grabed the lamp and threw it across the room he began distoring everything in his path

Ashley and aj sat at the end of the bed aj had his arms wraped around ashley trying to sooth her sodds, She jumped everytime they heard a smash in the next room, the smashing slowed down and had finally stoped a half an hour later, and aj had fianlly got ashley asleep on the bed he ended up falling alseep in the couch..

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BAM BAM!!!

"Aj whats going on" howie asked the loud noise had brought brian and lieghanne out in the hallway to
"Ashleyss water broke im taking her to the hosptail you guys need to come to but dont tell nick till we get to the hospital we will call him form there"
"wait what!! he needs to know now" Brian spoke up
"Ashley dont want him there okay, He chested on her last nighta nd she caught him okay, now lets go" they all stood there just like nick had the night before, they all snaped back and got there things and took off to the hospital

Ashley had got in to the hospital, her water did brake but her body was not ready to give birth she wasnt dielating

"Brian I need him here please get him here" she cried out he nodded an ran out the door
"everythings going to be okay baby i promise he will get him here in time" lieghanne

he got ther in a racord break 5 mins
"NICKKKK" brian banged on the door when it opened
"whats going on" nick said rubbing his eyes
"ashleys she went in to labor but somthings going wrong she needs you nick"
"O god.. i got to get there now" he grabed his things and took off out the door brian following
"brian why didnt anyone tell me her water broke"he looked over at the older man driving
"she asked us not to nick u really fucked up, but she needs u right now nick im not saying she forgives u nor will she take u back that i do not know but i do know that there is something wrong her water broke but the doctor says her body is not ready to give birth"
"i know i did but brian i swear i told the girl to leave an she kissed me an thats when ashley walked up. I love her brian and my child they are everything to me.. god i need them to be okay" Nick broke down
"i know nicky i know" he patted him on the back

"hey where is she" nick ran up to the group standing in the waiting room
"they took her back the doctor will be out here to get you when they are ready".. leighanne hugged the sobbing man
"Mr Carter?" a nurse walked in with scrubbs
"yes thats me" nick walked up
"put these on and follow me" she handed nick the scrubs and put them on while he was walking to the room "here wash ur hands hen put these gloves on dont touch anthing after and then ill come get you as soon as they have her layed down and ready" she almost demanded
"yes mama. can you tell her im here"
"yes" her eyes softed

"okay Ashley your boyfriend is here do you want him to come in" the nurse leaned over ashley she had already been given her epadorl
"yes yes i need him" she cryied out
"bring him in" the nurse looked over her shoulder as nick walked in

"Baby areyou okay" nick took her hand in his
"No nick im not, my water broke a couple hours after i seen you cheat on me and now there is something wrong and im worried about my child. and for some reason i need you more then anything right now even after the cheating. how do you think i am" she looked up at him and seen the tears running down his cheaks
"im sorry baby girl. and im worried bout are child to"
"okay are you ready" the doctor asked
"more then ever" nick spoke up. i looked up at him an seen the tears rolling down his face i was very upset with him. but i didnt want him to miss his childs birth cause i knew he screwed up but i knew he loved are child more then anything... threw my thought i was so in a daze i didnt hear anything till i heard my child crying i began to cry i couldnt help it. i was so happy my child was okay
"o my god baby your mommy and im daddy can you believe it" he kissed me and i didnt reject i needed it
"okay mr. Carter i need to finish this so you can go in to the nursey with you baby." he nodded and looked down at me
"are you going to be okay" i looked up at him and smiled and nodded
he nodded and leaned done to me and kissed me
"i love you baby girl" he whispered and kissed me more time
" i love you to nick" i said barely over a whisper

nick heald his child and its new fluffy blanket and walked down to the privte waiting room he opened the door and all eyes was on him

"Oh My nick" brian said rubbing the babys small head
"Everyone meet Nickolas Brian Carter. Bubby meet your family he held his son up "
"hes beautiful nick" leighanne cryied out "can i hold him" nick nodded and all the guys hugged nick all at once

the next day
"nick we need to take a brake" i looked form my son to the older look alike
"Baby if you need that i will give you what you need as long as im in my childs life and you will give me another chance to show you how much i love you"
"you will always be in nickys life i promise you this. and nick you know i love you more then life its self. i need you and my son to surive, i just need a break but i promise you, you will have another chance,"

It was the last day of the tour nov 23, Nicoloas was born on sept 23 he was now 2 months old and Nick and Ashley was still not talking Nick had only got to see his son a couple times, Ashley was on leave for the rest of the U.S leg and would return when they with to south amarica at the beganing o the year and with nicolaos she would be staying in howie and lieghs bus, Ashley wasnt on tour she went and stayed with liegh at her and howies house and took care of the baby, but since it was the last date in the U.S liegh wanted to be there ashley decided to go. she was worried this would be the first time she would face nick, but she knew it would have to happen soon She still loved nick with all her heart and wnated nothing more them him back but she didnt knwo if her heart could do it so soon. Brian had talked to her like he promised nick he would, and if Brian was telling the truth maybe she could forgive him, but that scared her, that if she took nick back will that show that he can do it again and get away with thos things. Did nick still even want her back,

"Let me hold my God son/ newphue i havent seen him in forever" Brian held out his arms
"howie do me a favor dont tell nick we are here please and tell the rest of the guys not to tell him kay"
"i promise but he will find out sooner or later,, are you going to watch the show back stage"
"I dont know it might be to loud"
"Nah it wont if your backstage,, and you might want to stay and watch"
"why"
"Just promise me you and nicolaos will stay and watch you wont regert it"
"okay howie i will"
"alright i got to get going we have to go pray the show starts in 5 mins" brian handed nicolaos back and hugged ashley.
"she caught sight of nick but he didnt see her he was caughting really bad she had heard that he was really sick that he had to go to the hospital and they even had to cancel a show two nights ago, they said he was still a little sick but that he was feeling better all she really wanted to do was go confort him but she stoped her self it wanst the time or place. the guys went on stage and rocked the house, they palyed many songs then came nicks solo, she knew he would sign I got you like he alwasy did that was his favorite song that was on his solo album.
"hey where you going"
"looking for you guys" she smiled at the three guys standing befor her they had became brothers to her and she missed them very much
"Well we are here and you should probably stay and listen to him you know" brian spoke up
"why hes just going to sing i got you"
"Just stay okay" aj said which surprised her he had been mad at nick when she left
"okay okay fine"

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"So you guys injoying the show" nick asked the fans
"yeahh" they all screamed
"well im going to sing a song you guys all know"

People tell me, you stay where you belong
But all my life I've tried
To prove them wrong
They say I'm looking for
Something that can't be found
They say I'm missing out
If my feet don't touch the ground

Nick sang the rest of the song

"okay so my next song now ones realy heard i have only been singing it the past month in a half the guys are letting me sing it cause it gose out to some one very speaicl to me and in my heart so i need you guys to be very quite, i want this song to be heard and im going to do it acustic so im going to have brian come out and play guiter for me.. Yo brian get out here"

"Told you it would be a good idea" brian siad be for he took of in to the screaming girls
"whast going on" i looked at the other two men
"just watch" howie said

"Okay this is called dont walk away and it gose out to Ashley Scott i love you,, here we go brian"

Nick began to sing

There's no winners
And there's no losin
All we got is what we are
One mistake and I got you breakin
This time I think I've gone too far
Baby tell me why we don't speak
open your heart to me, love me tonight

Don't walk away, baby
You gotta hear me say, I'm sorry
You know I'm not afraid
to say that it's me
Don't walk away
I'm sorry, I'm sorry

thats when it hit her nick still wanted her and still loved her, and he was truly sorry for what happen with out even thinking she pushed back the curtian and began to walk on the stage behind nick with nicolaos in her arms

Why's it hard to, get inside you
Is it too late to make a start
You know I need you
Because I breathe you
And with every breath I fall apart

Baby tell me what's left of me
If your not right next to me
Baby I'd die

when she had came in to veiw the screams got loud seeing nicks son on stage, nick didnt think nothing of it he thought the sreams where for him, she was now right be hind him she reached out and grabed his hand he looked around and he seen the woman he loved and right there his son, brian stoped the guirter. The place was silient all nick could do was stare at her with his hand interlocked with hers.he turned and looked at brian brian nodded he turned to look at ashley again

"Hi nicky"
"is this real" he pulled the mic away
"yeah honey its real"
"what dose this mean"
She looked at brian and waved him to come over, he did what she askd and handed the baby over to him
"stay right there brian" brian nodded
"it means this" she jumped up in his arms and her lips covered his
"God i missed you ashley and i just love you so much and im so sor...." he said when he pulled away
"Shhh,, I ofrgive you nicky but dont do it ever again"
"I swear" he kissed her again and put her down
"You guys this is Ashley and this" waved at brian to come over he was playing with Nicolaos on the stool he was sitting on brian brought him back and handd him nick
"Thanks brian" he kissed his sons head "This is My Son Nicolaos Brian Carter"
The crowd "awwwd"
"He looks just like nicky which scares us" brian joked
"Well now we have a second genration of Frick and Frack"
The crowd screamed
"Well lets get on with the show" brian said in a sing - a - long
"take him baby and ill se you guys after the show" nick siad to ashley and kissed her one more time ashley walked off stage when howie and aj passed her

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The show was over and nick was trying to find ashley,
"hey leigh wheres ashley and my son" he smiled to him self
"she went to your bus to get Nicolaoses protable crib set up and feed him"
"K thanks Lee" he took off running to his bus

"Baby! where are you" he asked befr he heard crying form the back of the bus we walked in the back and seen ashley pasing back and forthing bounsing the baby, he smiled at the sight, he leaned against the door frame and watched
"Aww come on honey, you dont want to bother daddy when he gets back do you," she hadnt seen nick standing there,,"here honey you want to here daddy sing you love that dont you" she went to her radio and fliped in on
Nick smiled when he heard His voice come out of the spearkers it was who needs the world, when it came on the baby calmed dawn almost instantly he was shocked
"There we go is that what you wantd to hear daddy sing, Yeah it was," she layed him down in crib and stood there watching him, Then she felt hands wrap around her waist and jumpd at the feeling but melted she had missed that she missed feeling his arms around her and his touch
"I love you," he whispered in her ear then kissed her bare shoulder
"I love you two nicky" she whispered back "you know thats the only thing that calms him done and the only thing that gets him to sleep" she said rubing her fingers down his arm to his hand interlocking their fingers
"but how i wasnt around baby" he frowned
"i know and im sorry about that nicky i really am, but when was when i was pregnant always at your shows and sound checks and when you would sing out of now where"
"he heard that"
"Yeah honey, your voice sooths him and your singing he loves that,"
"wow, so you let him listen to my songs and the bsb songs?"
"yes of course nicky i was hurt and pissed at you but i would never neglect you form your son or him form his father"
"thank you ash that means so much."
"that song ment so much" she turned to look at him "but how did you know i was here"
"I didnt ash i wrote the song after you left one night and the guys let me sing it every night since then" he confessed
"Really," he nodded she leaned up to him and kissed him deeply " God i missed you and thos kisses and theses" she pulled his hands to her mouth and kissed his hands
"baby i know what you mean, i missed you and our son and i just missed everything about you, even our stupid ass fights which brings something up" He pause and looked her in the eyes "We need to talk about what happen ashley"
"Yeah we do, but you know i hate that"
"Sorry" he smiled "now come on sit down and i want to talk to you about this" they went to the bed and they layed down on there sides and faced each other "Okay now i want to explain everything to you okay and im sorry if it hurts you i dont want that i okay i just want to tell you everything okay"
"Okay, and thank you for that"
he smiled "Okay so it started when the guys left and you wasnt around and i was just really upset you wasnt there and i didnt wnat to go to a empty hotel room so i decided to stay and i wasnt drinking" He puased " At first, well the girl started to talk to me adn she was flirting with me and i wasnt falling for it at i stayed away then she asked me if i wanted to take a shot and i thought you know one wont hurt, but i ended up taking six.."
"WAIT, NICOLKAS you drank, Are you stupid" i cut him off
"Baby?"
"NO nick, im more pissed about you drinking then what you did with that girl, YOu know you cant drink you have a heart condition Nick and that could have hurt you and even worse kill you, what was you thinking you had me and our child to think about, and you didnt" i sat up and got off the bed and walked to the front of the bus
"Ugh Baby i know i was stupid but i wasnt planning on drinking more then one shot" He walked up behind her
"yeah but you did nick"
"i know and i was just stressed i wanted some of the stress gone ashley you was at home on rest and i was worried about you and the baby and i wasnt sleeping good i just needed something"
"Did you do any drugs Nick,, and you better tell me the truth.."
"No" He shook his head "Baby the achola is one thing but the drugs i forbid to take that back up and plus i couldnt do that to you and Nicoloas or the guys, im staying clean of of that shit i swear i have worked to hard to get back to that point and pick up that again"
"Okay but nick you cant drink anymore you understand i need you, you know that and so dose nicoloas, and the guys need you to," he nodded his head and i walked up to him and wraped my arms around his waist and looked in to his eyes. "Nick i love you so soo much and you know this but nick you cant do this anymore okay no more drinking and no more CHEATING do you understand me cause one more time me and nicoloas will be gone"
" I know baby i just wish i could take it all back and i know i cant but i wont do it again, i cant risk losing you or my son again but i should tell you the rest" He put his head down
" Hey look at me nick, Look howie told me what happen so i know what happen okay so dont worry about it okay juts never again"
"Yes baby, remind me to thank howie" he leaned down and kissed me "o one more thing"
"Whats that" He pulled the chain around his neck out form under his shirt, there on the chain was her pomise ring
"Can i give this back to you" She nodded and put her hand up so he could put the ring on "Listen baby befor i give this to you?.. I want to know if umm you have gave any thought to maybe... you know marring me someday?" he asked nerves
"Nick are you asking me to marry you?"

"Yess Nick i have thought about it but you need to gain al my trust back befor we can get to that level again, but i swear i will marry you someday soon" i smiled at him
"Promise?"
"Promise" i leaned up and kissed him "now lets get to sleep" we got in to bed adn he pulled me against him, it felt good to be in his arms again, what i idnt know was that might be the last time.

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*Baby come on everyone waiting* nick yelled to the back of the bus where me and a pregnant lee was and nicoloas was we walked out to the front of the bus.
"Here we are" i walked up to nick and kissed him softy me and Lee and nick and howie walked out the bus to go meet brian and lieghanne and bay and kevin and kristen and thier son mason they was out side waiting on us. Me and Lee was on each side of nick i was holding the baby and howie was on the side of Lee When a car come speeding threw the parking and was headed right towards us, we didnt see it at first

"guys look out" kevin yelled we all looked to the side and seen the car
"MOVE!!!" Nick yelled then pushed me and Lee and thats when The car slamed right in to nick he went up in to the windsheild and off the car
Everyone else came running me and lee were screaming, JAy was holding us back brian and howie and kevin was over top of nick
"call 911 hes not breathing" Brian yelled at Howie. howie got on the phone, Brian began CPR on nick i was screaming nicks name and lee couldnt stop crying lieghanne was holding us both so was jay when we heard howie yell at kevin to quit we looked over and there was howie trying to pull kevin off of the driver
"YOU SON OF BITCH" Kevin kept screaming while puching the driver thats when i seen him
"MARK!!" I yelled
"what" AJ said
"thats mark" i pointed at the man howie had just pulled kevin off of nick
the abulance pulled up and took over what brian had been doing i walked up beside kevin and seen mark
"Its him" i said i handed the baby to lee i began to kick him "How could you,, How could you do this to ,,,, UGhhh,,, I HATE YOU"
"hey hey thats enough ma'ma" a cop pulled me of o him
"He did it on purpose" i said crying
"What!!" the cop looked at me
Howie walked up to me and wraped his arms around me "calm down hun just calm down"
"Thats mark Hes My Ex he beat me and he tryed to come after me months ago but him and nick got in a fight he siad it wasnt over,, He was driving the car he tryed to hit all of us but nick pushed us out the way he hit nick on purpose" i told the cop,
"Okay we need to get going ASAP" the EMT yelled
"Im coming Lee can you watch Nicoloas"
"sure, but you need someone to come with you"
"Ill Go Howie you should stay with lee and nicoloas make sure they okay ill go" Brian siad
"No Brian let me go" kevin said
"No Kevin you need to get your hand checked out okay and Please just let me do this i need to" Brian begged kevin
"Okay sure go, Take care of our baby brother"
"You know i will" me and brian climbed in to the abulance as soon as we took off i looked at brian he was crying
i grabed his hand and nicks "lets pray Brian" he nodded he began to pray "AMEN"
I leaned in to nick remember what he told me , Yet i never told him i heard him that day but i did i heard every word he siad to me in the abulance thats why i pushed myself to wake up to make it and i had to do it to him.. i had to push him
"Nicoloas Gene Carter i swear to god if you dont get threw this i wont forgive you i wont love you, neither will Your son so you have to make it threw this you hear me Nick i promise nick if you make it,,,,, Ill Marry you nick as soon or when ever or where ever you got to make it threw this you hear me,"

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They rushed nick threw the doors and told me and brian we had to stay back that they would come get us.
"im so sorry Brian" i looked at the older man that was crying
"O baby dont do that this isnt your fault mark did this not you hun," he put his arms around me and held me. we walked back to the waiting room and if things could not get worse the chennal that was on the tv was a specail on the boys, and at that momment is when i seen a grown man just break down, Brian lend againest the wall and fell to the ground when they showed him and nick goofing around. i seen how much nick really ment to brian it broke my heart to see brian this way i walked over to him and kneeled down and put my arms around him and he copied me,
"hes going to be okay brian" i whispered in to his ear
"i know i just never thought i would have to do CPR on him, god baby my heart stoped when that car hit him when he went up and i ran over there and seen him laying there me and his child hood went threw my head i seen it all even our fights, and its like some one killed me the only two ppl that mean more to me then nicky is lieghanne and baylee," brian pulled back and looked up at me " we cant lose him baby i cant live with out him thats my best friend my little brother what do with out" tears wouldnt stop flowing out of his eyes
"hes going to make it we dont have to think about that okay hes going to be okay i promise we wont lose him brian"

It Had been two weeks Since the accident and Nick had yet to wake up. The doctors said that he would be fine but that he was in acoma and Only God knew when he would wake up that it could have been days which we had past that, that it could be weeks, months or even years that it was up to nick to when he woke up or even if he did, WHich had killed me. Nick Was my life line so was my son, But with out Nick i dont know what i would do he had become my heart beat every thing i did or said was for him an Nicoloas, i couldnt breath with out on of them, if he didnt make it out of this how could i take care of my son how could i live the rest of my life with out nick, i would lose my life, thats when i realized i had made i big mistake when he aked me to marry him the night befor the accident i told him that some day i would but not now, now i wish that i would have siad yes, maybe thats why he wasnt waking up now cause i didnt wnat to marry him now, i was finding every reason to blame this on my self but no one would stand for that i quickly realized, But what hurt the most was that i was having a rought time being around the guys with out nick and most of all i was having a hard time taking care of Nicoloas with out seeing his father in him, lets face it Nicoloas was the spitting image of Nick, there was no dening that wasnt his son, you couldnt see a climpse of me in him, the only thing that my son got form me was the love that i had for his father, he loved his dad, granted he hadnt been around nick much after i had him but during the pregnance you couldnt pull nick off of my stomach, he was always singin or talking to his son, i felt so bad when i could barely look at my son cause i would break down every time, if it was bad now i couldnt image what i would do if nick didnt make it if he died what would i do how could i look at my son that was the spitting image of the man that i loved with all my heart.. these was the thoughts that went threw my mind while i layed in bed at kevins home where we was all staying,, it was the cloeset to the hospital. i wanted to be at the hospital but i had been there every night an day for the past 14 days, Brian and Howie made me come here and they promised to call if anything happen or if he woke up, that they would look aer him. i didnt want ti admit that i did need to go home and get a proper shower and sleep in a realy bed or just one night at least. Liegh had took nicoloas for the night saying that i needed sleep that she needed practice so i let her take him for the night..now it was up to me to get that sleep

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"Come on Nicky you need to wake up, you jus have to, you have a son to ake up for you have ashley and the backstreet boys, What will we do with out you nicky, i dont think that e could live with out you buddy, i cant image my life with you gone you have became such a big part of me and the rest of the guys lives how are we suppose to go on with out you here, with out hereing you talk or sing or laugh when you pull pranks on us, or even with out are pranks nicky,, God im so sorry Nicky for yelling at you for getting mad at the pranks the truth is i love you nicky i hope you know that buddy, your my little brother how could this happen, god and to think what you did for him, you saved my wifes life and my unborn childs life, and you took the hit nicky you have to wake up how am i suppose to thank you for that if you dont, so you have to wake you hear me nicky you have" Howie cryed out,,

:Howie calm down hes going to get threw this hes a tought kid" Kevin pulled howie in to a hug trying to to hide his tears also. but he failed when he felt brian and ajs arms snake around him and howie,

"Kev,?" Aj asked
"Yeah Jay"
"How do we get threws this, i dont think i can, i mean look at him" jay looked over his shoulder " I cant bare to see him like this, thats my little brother laying in that bed and i cant do a god damn thing to help him"
"Jay this is out of our control all we can do is be here try our hardest to wake him pray for him be there for each other and most importantly be ther for ashley and for bubby" Kevin referring to Nicoloas, everyone had started calling him buddy it just seemed easyer cause nicoloas would confuse them on who they was talking about.
"Yeah, cause nick will make it threw this you guys he has to i mean come on hes Nick Carter hes the strongest person i know" brian said wiping the tears away
"Not as strong as you Frick" a husky voice shuttered threw the slince in the room thats when their heads snaped to see if it was, Yes it was
"Nicky" they chimed
"I need water" Jay nodded and got a cup and filled it with water and helped nick take a drink,
"Brian Go get a Doctor" kevin asked brian did as he was asked
"My son, Ashley, Leigh, the baby they okay" Nick crocked
"they are fine Nicky" Kevin said sitting next to him "How about you how do you feel"
"My throat is sore, my body is stuff and sora"
"Do you remember what happen" howie asked
"Yess every moment"
"Nicky" howie asked
nicks head snaped at howie to see that man standing in tears "Thank you nicky how can i ever thank you enough"
"You dont have to" He shock his head : i love leigh and my newphue thats shes caring"
Howie hugged nick "I love you nicky and im so happy your okay i dont know what i would have done if you didnt make it i dont know what any of would have done" he told nick
"love you guys to" he hugged howie back
Brian walked back in the room and nick looked up at him and seen the older man that he had seen as his best friend in the world. he seen brians face was swollen which had been form how much he had cried. jay had told nick that brian was the one who had been doing cpr on him and he couldn't Imagen how hard that had to be on him to do that'
"brian" nick cried out brian rushed over to the younger man in tears and leaned down to give him a hug in tears
"thank you brian you saved me, im so sorry you had to do that, "
It was the hardest thing i have ever had to do, But if it was what i had to do to keep you alive i would do it all over agian nicky im glad your okay."
"thank you,, can you call ash"

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I had finally got to sleep i dont remeber when or how but i was woken by my phone ringing

"Brian Is he okay"
"Hes awake Hun Hes awake"Brian Cryed in to the phone
"Okay im coming now" i jumped out of bed
"Okay the doctor is in with him right now"
"okay ill be there soon" i paused "thank you brian thank you"

we hung up i got my shoes on and ran down the hall to liegh and howies room and started banging on the door

"Ashley!! is everything okay"
"Wheres bubby, Nicks awake"
"Omg okay hes in his crib grab him and ill get my shoes on" i nodded
i ran to the crib and picked up my sleeping son "Bubby daddys awake"

"okay im driving you are to emotional to to drive" i nodded to liegh
we ran to the car and i got the baby buckled in and we was on our way the hospital was only about 10 mins away so it was no time befor we got there, liegh found a parking spot and the crowd of paprazzi in front of the entrnce was crazy,, it was hard to believe they was out there at 7 am..we walked threw the crowd of people and the flashes we're blinding..

"do you think they know" i asked liegh
"its possable but i dont see how cause the doctors and nurses cant tell and the guys wouldnt tell with out your permission, i think they just here cause they know nick is here"
we stepped out of the elavater and in to the hall was i spotted the guys talking to a doctor so i sped up my walk and reached them

"Hi Im Ashley Scott im nicks Girlfriend" i said to the doctor
"O hi Miss, Scott i was just telling them that nick seems fine everything is working right but he may have lost some memorie but form the looks of it nuthing important, and if he has forgot things he will remember them in time, but other then that he seems complete fine he will be sore tho"
"really o thank god , thank you sooo much doctor, can we see him"
"yess you can, i like to keep him a day or two to make sure everything is fine"
"Okay, and thank you again" with that he walked away
"omg, " I cried and brian hugged me
"Its okay Ashley hes fine see i told you he is tought he now lets go in and see him" me and brian had became very close the past two weeks lieghanne had left she had meeting to go to and she had took baylee with her, So me and brian had leaned on each other alot threw the whole thing , cause we didnt have anyone every one else had some besided Aj but when he was going threw these kinds of thing he kept to him self he did like to show people his emotional side,
"Guys can i have a minute with him befor you guys come in"
"yeahh here ill take bubby" brian said
"thanks you guys" with that i turned around and opened the door to nicks room he didnt notice it at first, there he was laying there with his black berry of course i chuckled
he looked up at me and smiled "Hey baby"
"Hi" i shut the door and walked over to him
"come here and sit with me" he moved to give me room
"are you sure its your bed nick"
"Yes baby its my bed so that means i need you in it" he smiled i got in and grabed his hand in mine and brought it up to my mouth and plased kisses all over it and then i looked up at him and my lips soon covered his and i placed kisses all over his face
"baby baby as much as i would love to do this, i dont thing its very romantic" he held my face in his hands
i laughed "Its not that i just never thought i would ever kiss you again or hold your hand" i rasied out interlocked hands up
"Im sorry baby, im sorry youhad to go threw that, but i got news for you i told you i wasnt going anywhere and i ment it and plus you know i have the end of the tour in feb i cant miss that" He laughed
"O soo thats why you came back not for me or your son" I joked
"well yeah i mean yeah i woke up for my son and you of course but you know why i couldnt go anywhere why i had to wake up"
"Whys that" i asked
"Im hoping this isnt a dream but i recall being told that if i got threw this, that this girl you might now her" he smiled "That she would would marry me when and where ever i wanted"
"O really i think i need to meet this woman cause shes a very lucky girl"
"Nah im the lucky one cause see this girl she gave me a son and now shes giving me the family that i always wanted"
"Wow,, So when our you planning on marring her and where"
"well see i was thinking that i could marry her in the keys on the beach"
"At night" i added
"See that would be perfect, But i dont know if she wants to"
"I think now im just saying but i think She couldnt picture it any other way, No pun intended" he laughed
"really'
"yeah" i kissed him
"I hope so" i kissed him again he took the ring of my right hand and placed it on my left ring finger
"there now its offical"
"God i love you"
"I love you too baby"
"Sorry to break up the love fest in here but i have someone that wants to see his daddy i dont think hes to happy with Uncle Brian right now"
Nicoloas was crying a little
"you guys can come in" nick told him, thats when they all came in Brian handed the baby over to nick
"Hey Son i missed you" the baby smiled "Let me tell you about that smile son it will take you places, Dont break to many hearts with that smile"
"Yeah you can tell hes a carter boy, Blonde hair Blue eyes and that famous grin" Liegh said half crying hal laughing
"Come here lee B" Nick held out his free arm and she walked over to him
Nick pulled her down in to a hug "Are you okay hun" he asked her
She nodded "Thanks to you, God nick im just glad your okay"
"im glad your okay and how bout my newpue in there he doing okay" He touched her stomach
"Yeah hes great thanks to uncle nicky" he smiled at nick
"Well its all in a days work" everyone laughed
" Umm Lee can i talk to you in the hall way theres a favor i need form you"
"Yeah sure" She nodded
"Nicky i think you need to ask them a favor to"
"Gotcha" he leaned and kissed me i got up and walked with lee out in to the hall way
"what was that about" Kevin asked
"Umm Well I need a favor form you guys" they all nodded
"Me and Ashley... We getting.. Married"
"Wow congrats little brother" kevin leaned and hugged nick the rest of the guys foloowed suit
"What do you need us to do" Jay asked
"well i cant choose just one of you guys that would be impossable to do so i was wondering if you guys would be my best men" Nick asked shyly
"We would love to"
"I call Baclor party rights me and howie will have that sooo covered" Aj shouted the rest laughed
"thanks guys"
"Umm Nicky i wanted to talk to you when you are feeling alright?" Jay asked
"Sure Jay"

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"So whats going on" Liegh asked
"Well Me and Nick are getting married
"omg"
"Yeah i know but i almost lost him and i cant do that again and i want to be his wife"
" you guys are ment to be so i guess it really dont matter"
"Thanks but like Lee your like my best friend and i wanted to know i you would be my Maid of Honor" She smiled
"Omg i would LOVE to Omg" She hugged ashley
"o thank god,, You can help me plan the wedding right i dont want nuthing big i just want what family nick wants on his side my parents and my brothers and of course me and nicks real family the backstreet family"
"Of course but you got to get more brides maids do you know who else your going to ask cause im pretty sure nick will have the four guys be his"
"Um yeah after you will probably be lieghanne and then Jen and then Kristen"
"okay good so we got that but lets just go back in spend some time with nick and then we will figure out the rest when hes out of the hospital"
"yeah good idea, thanks so much lee"
"no problem i love you and nick and nicoloas you know that" they hugged one more time and walked back in to the room

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"Sooo Umm deff hungery" Nick Annouced
"What did you want hun"
"Umm Deff some Grilled Chicken form KFC" everyone laughed
"Okay ill go get some" Brian annouced
" Umm how bout everyone go get some food and stuff, Umm Jay can you stay tho"
"We can do that right" Kevin looked everyone they all nodded "okay we will be back in like 20 mins"
"Love you baby"
"Love you to" i leaned in to kiss Nick "you wnat me to take him or just leave him she looked at the sleeping baby in the protable crib
"O hes fine" he kissed me again and i left the room after saying bye to aj

"Soo you wanted to talk"
"Umm yeah. I know like im being selfish and what not but i was just wondeing with you getting married and then with Bub, i was wondering if...maybe..."
"If i was going to leave Backstreet?" nick finished jays sentence
"Yeah" he siad shyly
"Jay i would never leave Never and i mean that Backstreet has been my life for 15 years thats all i know and i love it so much"
"What about ashley and nicoloas"
"Yeah at first i was worried that she would want me to do what kevin did but you know what she said to me right after we found out she was pregnant"
"What"
"That i was not going to leave you guys, She knows that i love this and that i love you guys and i love my fans ashley knows that and she knows that all that is very important to me just like her and my son is, Jay im not leaving i would never dream of it, i told you guys i was in this forever and i ment that I promise jay, and for my son he will be ine i know i dont want my kid to live on the road but you know what he wants to then i wont stop him, if he wants to come and go then he can but i wont leave i swear ashley wouldnt let me even if i wanted to"
"i was worried"
"Its okay jay i worried at first to, But befor i even asked ashley she told me that she didnt want me to quit she knows what you guys mean to me she knows this is my family you dont ever have to worry about me quiting"
"good to hear that, you know ashley is good for you"
"Yeah i really do love her you know"
"Yeah i know its good to see you happy nick it really is"
Thanks Jay, Hey Jay?"
"Yeah Nicky"
"I wish you would have talked to some one"
"What are you talking about" Aj asked
"Jay you forget i have known you forever iknow when something happens like this you shout yourself off to everyone it scares me when you do that"
"i know nicky but you know i dont know how to deal with these things i really didnt think you were going to make it you know"
"And im really about that jay but you should know better then anyone that you cant get rid of me that easy but what scares me jay is that when you do that im scared taht your going to relasp and i dont wnat that i cant see you like that again jay i just cant it hurt so bad last time and i dont think i could bare to see that again"
"Im sorry Nick ill work on it i promise"
"I hope so jay i really hope so" nick looked over at his son who had started to cry
"can i hold him, i havent yet well not since he was born" aj asked
"Sure Jay you are is uncle, its not like you have to ask" He laughed
Aj picked him up "you know with my luck ill have a girl" he laughed
"Yeah but your be the most protective father out there"
"Well not after what you did two weeks ago, you know you saved ashley your son and lee and her baby"
"yeah well i had to do what i had to do"
"Yeahh"
"Jay do they know who was the driver"
"Ashley didnt tell you"
"No i asked but she didnt tell me, Who was it jay"
"Its was mark"
"Oh" Nick knew it wasnt Ashleys fault but he still had anger at her he didnt know why but he did,

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"Ugh are you kidding me" i held the phone up to my ear listening to the male voice on the other end "what ever nick"
"Sorry ashley tell bubby i love him bye" He hung the phone up
"I love....." i looked at the phone and seen where it read 'Call Ended' "you nick"
"you okay hun"i heard my best friends voice behind me i turned to look at her with tear filled eyes " Ooo Ash dont do that to ur self, he still just dont know how to react to mark running him over"
"I know leigh but he has no right to take it out on me, I thought that he had lost me once and he would never take the chance in losing me again i think hes cheating" i look at my dear friend
"Nooo hes not, Listen i think i might know something that will work"
"okay im listening" i listen to what she thinks i should do

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I looked around once more to make sure i wasnt forgetting anything "Okay ashley this is it its time" i look over the note once more

""Dear Nick,
I guess i was wrong your not stuck with me after all, Im Sorry i dont make you happy any more. and that i have made you so sick to the point you have fell out of love with me. If you ever really did love me maybe you just thought you did, well anyways Im sorry,

Good Bye,
Ashley Scott

P,s I'll Miss you Nickolas Gene Carter

i layed it back on the counter and took off the ring again, and sat it on the letter i walked to the door and befor i shut the door behind me i looked behind me for the last time, "I Love you Always," with that i shut the door and jumped into my packed car and drove off

I had finally pulled in to the drive way i remembered all to well and his loving face frowned when i stepped out of the car and shut the door
"Im so sorry baby girl everything will be okay nick will come threw" my older brother said in to my ear as i cryed in to his chest
" i hope so, Just god jer i love him so much and our son and why does he have to put me threw this why doesnt he love me enough"
"he does ash he does" he said to me as i carried my son in to the house
"I dont know but i guess we will find"

A few hours had past we had just got done eatting and i had just put bubby down to sleep and i walked out to the living room and seen my brother putting a movie in
" Like old times he said" he said with out even looking up at me
" How did you know i was standing here"
"your my baby sister i know things" he said looking up and smiled " so When dose he get home"
i looked up at the clock " about 5 mintues ago i would say he got home" i said as i sat down
"well lets forget about it and just watch this and see what happens"
i smailed up at my brother and i felt phone start to go off i knew who it was but i just wanted to see his name
"nick" i heard my brothers voice
"yep" i touched the ignore botton "ill give him a couple days" i said to my brother he just nodded
five mins had pasted when my brother spoke up "you know he loves you ashley"
"i dont know jer just he is different i have not seen him in a month me nor nikolas nor the new baby deserve this form him"
"i know i agree baby girl but i know he loves you he has changed so much because of you" he pointed at me
" i think this might be the end of it all jer i cant do this. off and on shit and then mark doing stupid shit and ughh i had nothing to do with that jer you know that right" i said tears started to fall
"yes i know that, its just hard for him, its just nicks way of getting threw things he has always pushed people away"
"well we will see he dont even know im preganat"

NICKS POV

"Im HOME" i yelled when i walked in but there was no sign of anyone, So i sat my things down, and walked in the kicthen to get a water when i turned away form the frig, thats when i seen it my heart sunk, Its her ring sitting on a paper i picked it up and i read it to my self, i ran up the steps in to our room every pic of me and her was knocked over i opened the closet doors her side was empty all expect for on thing her wedding dress, i ran to my sons room everything was gone, I took off back to what was once me and ashleys room i pulled my phone out of my pocket and called her it went to voice mail
"Baby girl where are you baby im sorry if you think i dont love you i love you more then anything you and our son is everything baby please come back I need you i cant live with out please"

I grabbed the picture of me and ashley at a sound check when she was pregnant and put it to my chest and slide down the door, praying she would come back,"im so sorry baby girl never ment for you to leave i need you pleace come back home i need you" i cryed to my self

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Days later

"Hey d row have you heard form nick" brian asked the man as he walked in to the studio
"No come to think of it i havent"
"should we go see if he is okay" brian asked
"yeah that would be best" they grabbed there things and took off to nick and ashleys house

They had knocked on the door for a good half hour and there was no answer but nicks Bmw was in the drive way
"lets go in" Brian opens the door and walks in they began to worry when there was no sign of anyone they finally reached nicks room and heard a whimper
"hello" they knocked no one replyed just the same whimper they opened the door slowly and there was nick in the corner of the room cuddled up to a picture frame they ran to him
"nick buddy whats wrong" howie asked
"She...She.. she left" he whimped out
"who ashley left"
"she thinks i never loved her, I did did did i cant live without her i need her" he said trying to stand up when he clampsed in to brians arms.
"howie call 911 he dont look to good"

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"Ashley?"
"Yeah Leigh"
"you need to come home hes in the hospital hes in deep depression he stavered him self and didnt have one thing to drink since the day you left howie and brian found him this morning in the corner of your guys room cuddled up to a picture of you guys,"
"omg is he okay leigh"
"if you come home he will be'
"okay im on my way can you watch bubby"

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"Is he okay brian" i walked into the room and asked brian who was sitting next to nick while nick was asleep
"ashley omg he will be why did you leave" he asked
" i didnt think he loved me anymore he wasnt coming home i had not seen him in a month and he hasnt told me he loved me since the last time he was in the hospital"
"trust me after what me and howie walked in to he loves you"
"can i have some time"
"as long as you promise to not leave i cant lose my baby brother ashley or my baby sister" brian looked into my eyes
"i promise" i smiled and hugged the man in fornt of me

I layed down in the bed once brian walked out and turned to face nick and i feel asleep

"Ashley get up" i heard a voice i looked up and it wasnt the bright blue eyes i wanted to see they were dark full of hate
"im sorry" i got up and straighted my cloths and looked back in to his eyes
" why are you hear" he said coldly
"cause leigh called and said it was bad i was worried and i still love you nick do you think i wouldnt come" i said little above a whisper
"well i dont want you here" he said full of hate
"Okay ill just come back when your ready to see me" i said wiping the taers and picking up my beg
"NO!! ashley i dont want you here i dont want to see you ever agian you was right i dont love you any more i hate you or what you have done and i just want you gone" he said then turned his head and would dare to look back at me
"Okay nick im very sorry that i have ruined your life ill be sure to get the rest of mine and bubbys things out of your house before you return home" i turned around and opened the door and right befor i left the room i turned to him " ill let bubby know that you love him very much and will miss him and ill be sure to let your child that im caring know the same good bye nick " and with that i shut the dorr i heard him yell my name but i couldnt go back there, i couldnt look at him because of the the things mark had done to me only one that, that had hurt worse then what nick had just done was take my first child that had ever carried away form me,

I had never thought it but that was the last time i saw the man i truly loved more then the world the father of my two children