A/N: If you read catagories for what this is under,you will see this is a very very graphic story.Rape,death, drug references, alcohol are just some of the things.There will be cursing (unfortumately) to get my point across but it's not gonna be in every single sentence.

~One

The room was white.The florescent lights reflected off the white tiles on the spotless floor.The door opened and Brittany Reed turned around slowly to see who had just walked in.Her fair face was impassive as she raised a perfectly arched eyebrow.

"McLean?"

"Yep." the tall man said standing in the doorway.Turning around in her chair she smiled inwardly at herself.

"Come on in." she said opening a vanilla pocket folder.Looking up she starred at the man before her.Long blue hair which was interwoven messily with a blue bandana to match the shade.Blue sunglasses covered his eyes slightly.Dark baggy denim and a black wife beater was his dress of choice.A sly,sexy smiled played on his thin pale pink lips.He sported a goatee around his mouth which was black.

Various tattoes decorated his sculpted arms as silver rings adorned his fingers.His nails were a dark blue color and the paint was begginning to chip.He wore a small crucifix around his neck.

"So hello..."

"Alexander...but you can call me Alex or Alexander.Which ever you want baby?" he said making a clicking sound with his tongue.Brittany saw him wink through his glasses.

Grinning she starred down at her paper while rubbing her neck.

"I'll call you Alex." she stated.He nodded while his arms draped over the luxious chair that he occupied.

"And your name is?"

"Brittany Reed.You can call me Brittany."

He nodded in acknowledgement.Sighing she taped the pen she held against her chin.

Pulling a cigarette form his pocket he sighed.

"Can I smoke in here?"

"Sure...be my guest." she mumbled sighing.'Why did everyone have to smoke around her?' She could swear she was gonna get lung cancer eventhough she had never touched a cigarette in her life.

"Good,cause it's one of the things I'm atually good at."

Brittany puzzled at that.

"And why do you think that?" Brittany asked leaning into her desk.AJ took a slow drag from is ciagarette as he looked quietly out the window then removed his glasses from his eyes.

"It started when I was six."

TBC...

A/N: Thankyou everyone for the reviews.I was thinking about posting sometime next week but all the reviews got me excited.Chapter Two I think is alittle bad but it has alot of action to make up for it.

~Two

When AJ McLean walked into the small lake side home of his "mother's" Azley McLean,he pulled on the heavy bookbag alittle to keep it from falling on the floor.Mommy would surely get angry at that.

"AJ hon, go to my room." Azley McLean said drying her hands on a plaid dish towel.

The six year old that had just walked in from school.He walked into her room with a growing feeling of dread.'What did she want?He didn't do nothing yet.'

When Azley walked into her room,she shut the door and locked it behind her.She picked up the small boy with a intangible grin on her face.AJ was beginning to get uncomfortable.

Setting him on the bed,she begin to slowly remove his clothing off his thin frame.

"Close your eyes baby." she whispered sweetly in his ear.He shuddered as her glossed lips brushed his against his tender flesh of his earlobe.He begin to sqirm as she begin to feel provacative parts around his small body.AJ's eyes snapped open as her tongue begin from his stomach and begin to go down.

"Stop squirming you asshole!" she yelled slapping his hard across his face.Yelping,AJ hopped off the bed abd made a dash to the closet but Azley was bigger. And Azley was quicker.

Grabbing his arm,she flopped him on the bed without clemency.AJ tried to scream as Azley begin to smack and punch him.

"Shut up you stupid piece of shit!Shut!Up!" she punched him hard in the stomach.

AJ felt a gush of wind leave his lungs as pain shot through his body like electricity through a wire.Tears begin to stream down his flushed face as she nibbled happily on his body.Next thing he knew,she was on top of him and something was beginning to burn between his legs.

Crying out, he watched his "mom" moan in pleasure with her eyes closed together,She was driving him into jher abd slowly suffacting him with her body weight.

Soon the burning sensation realxed and Azley slowly but suerly collasped on him.Fear gripped AJ's small heart as his breath became short and ragged.He could feel blood trickling from between his legs.

Azley rolled off and walked into one of the joint bath rooms leaving little AJ sobbing on the bloodied sheets.'What had happened?Why did mommy hurt me so much?'

A/N: Alittle short but it'll have to do.Thanks R&R...

~Three

Brittany stared at him.AJ kept his gaze steadily out the window as tears shined in his eyes.His mouth stayed in a tight line.He didn't blink or flinch.One stray tear slid down his face.

"AJ," Brittany said softly swallowing hard.His bottom lip trembled.

"I-It hurt so b-bad." he replied softly.He looked down quickly to the floor.He sobbed once or twice softly.

"What were you thinking...you know about her?"Brittany asked.She refused to say "mother".She wasn't his mother.What mother would unforcefully rape their child.

"I..." he said fading off.Looking to the ceiling he swallowed hard,"I didn't understand." he said softly.Wiping the tears from his eyes roughly of his flushed face by his hand.

"What didn't you understand?"Brittany asked readying her pen.

"Why.Why it was me.Why it couldn't have been Markis or Trevor?Hell,I didn't understand what my purpose was of life."

"Who's Markis and Trevor?" Brittany asked tapping the pen against her chin softly.She had a bad feeling about them.

"They were the ones who made fun of me in first grade.They beat me.The-they always bite me till I'd bleed.Till I screamed. They'd steal my work and use it to cheat.They'd rip it up and I say I did it.The teacher would always believe them."

Britany swallowed hard.This was sick.

"Why do you think the teacher always believed them?"

"I don't know?" he said closing his eyes.She could see he was slightly shaking.

"Think AJ." she said softly,"Think."

"One time I told the teacher my mom was abusing me.So s-she called."

"And what did she do?" Brittany asked taking a deep breath. She was close to tears.

"She tried to kill me with fire."



A/N: Take the hint peps.

A/N: I wasn't gonna update but you guys have been so loyal you deserve the update.;).

~Four

The sky was orange as the remainder of the sun begin to fade into night.In a room which really served as a closet,AJ sat on the blue soiled looking mattress which served as his bed.Reading a Doctor Seuss book to himself for entertainment,he quietly turned the page silently rewarding himself for reading the page correctly.

When the door barged open and he was snatched off the matress by his short brown curls,he yelped and cowered in fear as he was now eyelevel with his "mommy".

She smelled strong of something foreign to small AJ.He didn't know what it smelled like but it it held a sour smell to it.

"Did you shell anyvwon?" Azley slurred and half screamed.AJ shook his head,his eyes filling with tears.'How did she know?'

"How come your 'utching teasher called?" she yelled,her long nails biting into the tender flesh of his scalp.AJ winced.

"I don't know!" I cried,"I don't know!"

Azley stood up and kicked him hard out of the "room".

"You know you shupid pieze of sheet!" she screamed.Dragging him by the hair into the kitchen she kicked AJ into a corner. Cowering there she struck a match behind his back uttering incoherant language.

"I'm teach you a lesson boy." she slurred ripping his shirt off his back.

Crying out,he slid down the wall and curled into a ball.Azley yanked off his pants so that he was only in underwear.Grinning she derided before her face turned dark.Pulling him from the corner she ran the match along his stomach.Screaming,AJ begin to try and escape her by pulling himself into the corner.

Azley growled as his foot kicked her in the face.A thin trail of blood leaked from her nose.Slapping him hard across the face,he ly dazed on the floor.Pain engulfed him as something burned him on his thigh.AJ could hear her menacing laughter echo through his head faintly.His vision soon begin to cloud and darkness engulfed him.

A/N: My apologies for any spelling mistakes if there are some.Check account for updates.What Azley is saying is meant to be interpreted that way.She's drunk and nobody sounds intelligent while their drunk.f you know someone who does.Tell me.I'd like to know everything.

A/N: Thanks awsome R&R's.

~Five

AJ's face was dark.His eyes bled with many tears of the many years of his dark "unseen" torment he was forced to endure.She could see the shell of his former person slowly withering away.

"What happened after you woke up?" Brittany blurted readying her pen. Sighing,he lit a cigarette breifly,then spoke.

"She told me she did it out of love." he said between drags.This time a shaky sigh was heard and Brittany tried her best to cover her face inwhich the several tears absently slipped.She never quite noticed AJ's facial effects soften and concern slipped into his face hiding his pain.He was used to changing personality quickly.He was used to hiding the physical and mental reactions to any thing quickly.

"You okay?" he asked offering a cigarette. She laughed nervously refusing the cigarette politely.

"Yeah,I'm alright...and keep your smokes.I'm sure they cause a helluva lot of money."

Brittany sniffed as she looked down at the clipboard.Various stick figure drawings by AJ right before their session was enabling her to see a better more graphic picture. Although stick figures,their positions and the way they looked and how they feeled (he wrote their feelings next to the stick figures) depicted the sick picture of a man raping AJ.There were two other men also in the picture.The next picture out of ten showed how they brutally beat him smartly avoiding his face.The third out of ten showed how he was forced to remember things to say off a piece of paper to his social worker.Shaking her head,the rest showed either the varies of rapist he encountered and or their punishments afterwards.

As AJ took a slow drag from his cigarette, she peered to see a regular looking AJ like the one she had seen this morning. Curiosity didn't get to her this time.She knew of the personal defense mechanisms and she was going to just leave it at that.'No need to get him all teared up or miserably excited over questions which already had answers.'

Brittany let out a rush of air from her mouth as she begin to construct the questions for the next day of his therapy.She could feel AJ's eyes wandering to the clock and she placed her pen down,folded her hands neatly on the desk,and looked up into AJ's face although avoiding eye contact all at once.

"Is it time to go?"

"Correct."

"I come here at the same time tomorrow?"he asked starring her straight in the eyes.Brittany looked down at the desk breaking the eye contact.She pretended to occupy herself with organizing papers.

"Correct."

"Okay." he replied as he stood.Smoothing his pants,he stood quickly and walked out the door.She then caught a strong wiff of the delicate cologne he wore.

Brittany pulled a small blanket around her as chills ran up her spine.For some reason,his ghosts of the past made him imtimidating when the knoweldge that he layed out infront of Brittany was known as he answered every "difficult" question thrown at him.

A/N:Okies,go back to chapter five and read the extended version.Sorry about the short chapter but Ii didn't think of that yesterday and I thought of that during stupid ISTEP testing and I thought it vital to include all the new information.You won't get lost if you don't read NOW but in the upcoming chapters you're gonna think "Hey that was unexpected!" when really it wasn't.

~Six

Peeking his head in quietly he watched her write down things in the vanilla folder quickly.His eyes strained to see what was written but failed miserably.'If you could go blind from cigarettes," thought AJ McLean,"I guess it's happening to me.'

Brittany didn't need to sniff to smell AJ at the door.Grinning she waved him in and he giggled lightly walking in.Shaking her head she leaned casualy back in her char.

"So, how are you doing today Mr.McLean?"

"Oh just peachy,and you Miss Reed?"

"Beautifully." she said sweetly.She hated to ruin the bouncy mood that had now entered the room but sighing softly she looked up.

"Lets...um get started." she begin.Flipping through a varies of attached pieces of papers to the vanilla envelope,AJ slipped a cigarette from his pocket stuffing it into his mouth carelessy.Lighting it,he took a long drag before he nodded in aggreement at the imediate start.

"Okay,what were you thinking the second time around your mother raped you?Was she your second rape?"

"She wasn't my second." AJ replied shifting his weight onto the left side of his chair.

"Who was your second?" she asked.Taping the pen against her chin waiting for the answer,nothing could prepare her.

"A man named Jeremi Reed...Jeremi Dmitri Reed." he replied looking down playing with the baggy jeans he wore,"I found out his name because he told me as he raped me.It was my second time so I remembered clearly."

"Jeremi...Dmitri.Oh my..."

Looking up AJ starred at her confused by her astonishment.

"What? AJ asked defensively.

"That's my father."

A/N:Ya'll are gonna get to meet Mr. Reed too >-).No killing him yet guys,I need him for the story.

~Seven

Closing his eyes AJ looked away.

"I knew you looked familar." he said softly.Brittany felt slightly disgusting.She looked down.She felt his sharp eyes against her boring into her like a knife.

"I'm sorry..." Brittany whispered. She could hear his ragged breathing.Her breath was coming out soft and slow.He was getting angry and she was getting scared.

What if he wanted revenge?What if he wanted payback?Would he rape her?Right here...right now?No one would hear probably.But maybe it was best that way.Brittany knew she was well known for the many male clients she often had through her work place.She also knew how many of them came back asking things of which would lead suspicions to arise that she was a whore.

"I want to meet him.I wnat to see him." AJ said softly.She could hear the bitterness in his voice and she shook fiercly by a chill that went up her spine.Deciding it was best if she remained somewhat professional and collected, Brittany swallowed softly before looking up,her eyes silently pleading.

"That may not be a good idea.Maybe after all he's someone else.What if he's not my father,There are so many Jjeremi D-"

"He had a scar under his left eye...

Brittany could have sworn that her blood ran cold.

"...that was a star."

She soon came to the conclusion that at the end of this session,she was going to need a therapist of her own.

"Tell me-no describe to me what he did."

AJ quickly slipped a cigarette from his pocket.Putting it in his mouth he lit it lavishy.Taking a deep breath with the cigarette absent from his mouth, he closed his eyes tightly willing against tears of anger and revenge.

"It happened right afer I turned eight..."

A/N: Excuse: Homework,dumb teachers, grade letter in math: F

~Eight

Walking qiuetly in from school,eight year old AJ McLean egnored the handsome looking black man that sat at the table talking to his mother.Light carmel skin with flashing silver eyes starred cruely at the young boy.A sly grin crept to his handsome face.Looking at Azley after AJ had disappeared he grinned brightly.

"What?" Azley askked taking a drag of the cigarette she currently held.

"That's your boy?"

"Yeah sure.What about him?" Azley asked raising a curious eyebrow.Jeremi Reed shot a sly smile her way and she leaned back in the chair letting out a knowing laugh.

"Okay Jeremi.You want some from him?"

"I swear I'll make it quick.In an out.Ten minutes."

"He's got lots of homework Jeremi." Azley giggled.

"Fine.I promise.In and out.One grand."

"Holy sh..." Azley nearly dropped the cigarette between her fingers.

"Done.I want the money first though."

"I can have it to you tomorrow by eleven am."

"That'll do." Azley said.Grinning she looked down the hall where AJ's "room" was," He's yours."

Jeremi nodded and hopped up.Striding quickly into AJ's room,he slammed the door which made AJ jump.

"What you want?" AJ asked defensively.

"You." Jeremi sneered.Snatching AJ up by his shoulders, he slammed him up against the wall.AJ's head was the first to connect making it hard to stay awake.

AJ felt Jeremi's lips against the skin of his neck and throwing him hard against the floor.

"Excuse my manners little one.My name is Jeremi Reed." he said flashing a genuine smile as he appeared over AJ's head," What's your name."