Stupid Mistake

It was just a stupid mistake
now I sit here letting my heart break.
Because I was stupid I let you go,
you didn't resist and try to say no.
The pain is slowly killing me,
it's my love you refuse to see.

We are both the stubborn one
hurting each other just for fun.
I wish I could turn back time,
once again to make you mine.
I already miss your silkly lips,
and tracing your face with my finger tips.

Oh why in the world was I so dumb?
to lose the guy that was the one.
My tears just keep falling faster,
hurting from this one disaster.
Breathing easy is hard to come,
my entire body has just gone numb.

I wish I could just make you see,
how much you truely mean to me.
I want this to re begin,
and snuggle in your arms again.
I'm sorry for hurting you,
but I am suffering too.

You will always be the one in my heart,
you have been from the start.
I hope we can still at least be friends,
and not let this be how our relationship ends.

Pain

I want to feel hatred but thats impossible
for you have taken me in.
You hurt me time and again
and forgiving you I must.

The black of my heart is breaking
for letting you go will not ever happen.
A trap that I can not
break free.

And so I continue
to feel so much hurt.
We fight so often
yet my love for you grows.

Please always know
that hate for you I will never feel.
Even when
you twist the knife.

My heart is bleeding
drops of love.
And the heavy pain
is slowly sufforcating me.

And so I take flight
into my world of pain
Days of fights
nights of sorrow.

Fantasy Land

I spread my wings and fly
into a fantasy land.
Where fairy's sing
and unicorns roam.

Into this land I go
to hide away from reality.
With wings of wax
and human feet.

I hide from the world
because of my fear.
A childish fear
that can't be broken.

I fly into the sun
hoping my wings will melt
and fall down into
the dark pits below.

I lay broken
unable to be fixed.
Snakes wrap themselves
around my heart squeezing to death.

I want to break free and try life once again
but is it possible to escape?
I can only sit and pray
time can fix everything.

This fantasy land is my only escape
from the pains I feel today.
A fantasy land with gentle creatures
and those evil creatures I may be safe.

This fairy land I seek to find
something to break the pattern
of broken dreams and wild
fears.