My Final Bow by rebellious_one
Summary:

They can all stand up and leave, the show is over now
But they all sit there and wait for me to take my final bow


Categories: Poetry/Songs Characters: None
Genres: Angst, Drama
Warnings: Death
Challenges:
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Completed: Yes Word count: 658 Read: 536 Published: 11/22/07 Updated: 11/22/07
Story Notes:
*WARNING* It's a suicidal poem I wrote. Has NOTHING to do with me, I'm more of an observational writer when it comes to poetry and when I write poems I tend to captivate other people's emotions, ideas, pain, anguish, feelings, etc.

1. My Final Bow by rebellious_one

My Final Bow by rebellious_one
Author's Notes:

 

Before I take my final bow, I look up just to see
The faces of the whole crowd, who's staring back at me
They followed me my whole life, tormented me with pain
Nothing I do is ever right, and I'm the one to blame
Daddy said he loved me, but he would always hit me hard
Mommy never believed me, and now I'm bruised and scarred
Daddy would go into my room at night, he wouldn't leave me alone
He told me to be good and quiet as he removed me of my clothes
Each and every night was the same, and I had nowhere to go
I tried to tell mom, she wouldn't believe me, because she loved him so
But yet she cried every night, and cried to the Lord above
She took all the beatings he dished out, and to think that's what she called love
In school I always kept to myself, but no one would let me be
I could hear their silent words, that was their form of mocking me
Why I was considered weird and different was still a mystery
Maybe because I kept to myself, and no one knew my history
If only they knew my life, what my father would do when I was a child
Maybe then they would understand why I wouldn't find my life worthwhile
But I refused to tell anyone, and I tried to hide from the world
For I was disgraced and shamed by being called "Daddy's Little Girl"
No teachers or counselors would help me, they just couldn't see
How people were turning my miserable life into some form of mockery
So I had enough, I'm fed up with it, this just wasn't right
To continue dwelling within this world and live with what's called life
So here they all are before me, and I just want them all to know
That I want them to stay and watch me as they see my final show
For years I've been teased and pushed around, I was the one they picked
But for once they all shall be in awe, when they see this final trick
I took a knife and raise it up as the crowd fell silent and gasped
I smiled as I held the knife up, all eyes on me at last
Without regret or thinking twice, I thrust the large knife down
The crowd only sat there and stared at my body, which crumbled to the ground
Sudden tears flooded all eyes, but there's nothing left for me to say
It's sad to know I took drastic measures and only receive attention this way
To my mother, I am sorry that I departed you for the Lord above
But you chose your husband over me, you chose his "so-called" love
To my father who had no emotion, who was stern and stiff as a rod
I'll be sure to show all my bruises and scars you left me, I'll show them all to God
To all my friends, who weren't my friends, but were disloyal and not true
Thanks for everything you did to me; I'll tell God what you put me through
You can all save your tears, why is it now that you all care?
You all came to see this show, but when I needed you, you weren't there
My eyes are growing heavy, and my heartbeat is way too weak
The air is leaving me quick and I have no power left to speak
Crimson blood flows freely as my body is growing stiff
I take a final look at all your eyes: I can see you caught my drift
Beofre I take my final bow, I look forward just to see
The faces of the whole crowd, who are now crying for me
They can all stand up and leave, the show is over now
But they all sit there and wait for me to take my final bow
I smile and close my eyes; don't they realize that I am done?
They're waiting for a final bow, which will sadly never come.

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