Chapter 1: Rescue me tonight, Love me back to life.

“Can I sit here?” A guy dressed in black dress pants, a silk blue untucked dress shirt and a black fedora pulled low over his eyes asked.

“Be my guest.” I was sitting alone at the bar of a trendy Toronto nightclub while my friends hit the dance floor with guys that they had just met.

“Drinking alone I see.” This guy whoever he was had an amazing voice.

“Drinking alone, yes. Here alone, no. My friends are all out dancing.” There was something familiar about this guy.

“And why aren’t you out there with them?”

“No one bothered to ask me.” This was a fact that was a huge blow to my already shaky self esteem.

“A beautiful woman like you and no one asked you to dance. I hate to say anything against my own kind, however, some men are idiots. I am gonna change that, would you care to dance?”

“I’d love to.” There was something about this guy that had me absolutely hypnotized. He had beautiful plush lips and when he smiles I could die. He was confident and gorgeous yet he seemed a little unsure at times.


I placed my hand in his and stood up. He was tall, much taller then me and very well built. We walked close together until we reached the dance floor. A slower tempo song was just beginning to play and we moved closer together. He placed one hand on my satin covered hip and the other on my nude lower back. I placed my arms around his neck and ours hips began to move in a suggestive rhythm. The song ended far too soon and we were still lost in our own little world. He was the first to realize the music had ended and started to blush.

“I think I got a little lost with a girl whose name I don’t even know.”
“Bria”
“Pardon?”
“My name is Bria.”
“Well Bria it is very nice to meet you. I’m Nick.”

We were dancing closer together and I could feel his hips sliding against mine. There was something so erotic about this man. Sensuality and sexuality oozed off of him . We danced for awhile longer until we were both out of breath and in need of a drink.

“Let me buy you a drink.”
“Nick it’s alright I can get my own drink.”
“Not gonna happen, what would you like?”
“A whiskey sour is fine, thank you.” I realized I still had not seen his eyes, he had yet to remove his fedora.

“Nick, when am I gonna see the rest of your face?”
“Later when there are not so many people around.” I could see him tense up and I was curious as to what could make him not want to show his whole face. From what I could see already he was gorgeous. I decided to lighten the mood a little.

“Cool, so what do you like to do for fun?”
“I like to dance the night away with beautiful women. Come on I want you in my arms again.”

I placed my hand in his and once again we made our way to the dance floor. Nick pulled me close to him and that was the way I stayed for quite awhile.

“Would I be presumptuous if I asked if you wanted to get outta here?” I was kind of perplexed because I would normally dismiss this kind of invitation, but I really wanted to leave with him.

“Depends on what your plans are for when we leave.”
“Honestly I just want to get to know you.”
“Fair enough, let’s go.”

We walked to the coat check and grabbed our coats. It was a frigid February night and the snow was falling lightly all around us.

“Where do you want to go?” I was still in disbelief that I was going anywhere with him at all.
“My hotel is not too far from here, we could walk there.”
“Sounds good to me.” Luckily I was smart enough to wear a heavy coat, hat and mittens.

“You look awful cute all bundled up.”
“Thank ya.” My self esteem was certainly improving with Nick around.
“I never realized that it got so cold in Toronto.”
“Oh it does and worse. Where are you from?”
“I’m from New York but grew up in Florida. It gets chilly there but not like this. I live in LA right now though and it’s sort of the same thing.”
“Wow, that’s quite a difference then the weather here.”
“Your shaking.”
“Just a little cold.” I wasn’t sure if it was the cold or my nerves making me shake. Could’ve been a bit of disappointment that the Mysterious Nick, lived so far away.

“Come ‘ere.” Nick had his arm held out to me and I snuggled underneath. I wrapped my arm around his waist and leaned my head against his side. We walked for about ten minutes until we reached the Royal York Hotel.

“You’re staying here?!”
“Yeah I am, it’s pretty nice as far as hotels go.”
“I’ve always loved this building but never stayed here.”
“Well there is a first for everything.”
“It’s beautiful, so beautiful.”
“Not nearly as beautiful as you.”
“You know Nick, you are quite a charmer.”
“And you’re beautiful.” I was blushing and speechless as we walked through the lobby of the hotel.
“You’ve got me curious now.”
“You’ll get answers in a minute.” We walked to a room and Nick unlocked the door. I stepped inside, the room was gorgeous and very very messy.
“Excuse the mess if I had of known I was gonna bring someone back here I would have tidied up.”
“Don’t worry about it.” I stood in front of a dresser awkwardly, my nerves were raging and I didn’t know what to do. I barely knew this guy and yet I was standing in his hotel room.
“Come sit, would you like something to drink? I could really go for a hot chocolate.”
“That’d be nice, thanks.”
“Come and get warmed up and I’ll call room service.”
I sat down on a big comfy couch and Nick wrapped a blanket around me. He looked gorgeous walking around the room in socked feet.
“I am just gonna change real quick, I’ll be right out.” The thought of him getting naked in the room next to me sent shivers down my spine. The mere thought of him undressing was getting to me. When Nick walked back into the room my breath caught in my throat. Everything made sense, the fedora, the voice, Florida, LA, absolutely everything.

“Well that explains a lot.” Nick was just a Nick he was Nick Carter. Backstreet Boy Nick Carter and notorious bad boy. I was in for it now. What I got myself into I am not quite sure.
“Please don’t be mad and please don’t leave. I never get treated normally. Just please treat me like you were. I should have told you but everything felt so good. I am sorry, I just wanted to have some fun and meet someone.”

I kind of felt sorry for him. Granted I was a little dismayed at the turn of events but I guess I could cope. He certainly didn’t seem like the pompous ass that the media makes him out to be. What the hell?
“Come sit. I am just surprised is all. I guess I can treat you normally, if you treat me the same way.”
“I don’t think I am going to get a better deal than that.” Nick sat himself down beside me and I shared the blanket with him.
“So what brings you to Toronto?”
“A little bit of work but mostly vacation.”
“Awesome, it’s a little but cold to be vacationing here this time of year.”
“Yea, I didn’t really think about that when I came up here. What do you do?”
“I am a student and I would part-time at a group home.”
“Very cool, what are you studying?”
“I am studying to become a registered nurse and I already have a diploma in Child and Youth Work.”
“Wow, I always wanted to go to college but that just never happened.”
“What would you have taken?”
“Either marine biology or something in the music industry.”
“Cool, I love the water, I went swimming in Florida when I was a kid and fell in love with the ocean.” When I had gone as a kid I was so mesmerized that still to this day it is one of my favourite memories.
“I know what you mean, no matter how much time I spend in the water, ocean life still amazes me.”

“It must be nice having lived so close to the ocean.” I was a bit jealous and disappointed. It’s not everyday that you meet someone that you have instant chemistry with. Not to mention that he is an international celebrity and a guy that I lusted over for years. My nerves were shot before, now it’s worse. I wanted to treat him normally, however, I wasn’t sure if I could even breathe, let alone continue having a coherent conversation.

“When I am home it’s really nice, but that’s rare.”

There was a know at the door and Nick got up to answer it. Room service came in with two hot chocolates and a plate of chocolate chip cookies, that smelled amazing. I started to relax as Nick brought the hot chocolates over and sat beside me.

“Are you okay?” Nick took my hand in his and looked into my eyes. His eyes are so incredibly blue and his lips looked so soft. He truly is gorgeous.

“I’m okay, this whole night seems so surreal. You, me, dancing, hot chocolate, it’s kinda hard to believe. Good things like this don’t happen to me. I just don’t know what to think. I’ve been a fan for years, I should be hysterical but I am just kinda numb.”

“Well, I thank you for not being hysterical, that saves me a lot of effort. You’re not the only one freaking out. I am sitting and having a normal conversation with someone I just met. Not something that happens to me everyday. Now relax and drink your hot chocolate. And for Christ sakes would you share the blanket, it’s bloody freezing in here. “

I laughed and wrapped the blanket around him.





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Chapter 2: Poor Little Heart All Black and Blue

The sun’s blaring through the window, there’s a hand on my stomach and there’s a horrible kink in my neck. Not my normal morning. No sound of my alarm clock, must still be early. The head that was laying on my shoulder moved slightly over and I could feel air hitting my neck. I turned my head and was shocked at first, then the memories of the night before began to come back.

There was a grumble and shifting behind me, followed by another grumble and a snort. It was obvious that Nick was just starting to wake up and trying to avoid it.

“Good morning” Nick sort of half grumbled half moaned behind me.

“Morning, how are you?”

“Sleepy, you?”

“I suppose I am fine, any idea what time it is?” Nick pulled his arm from around me and looked down at his watch.

“Uhhh... 8:30.”

“Please tell me you are kidding me...”

“Nope.”

“Fuck” I was already a half hour late for class, with no change of clothes and no notes and nothing to even take notes on. Bloody beautiful. Always what any student wants to have happen. Great.

“What’s up?” Nick looked so innocent and he was so comfortable to lay on I didn’t really wanna move.

“My class started half an hour ago and I have no idea what I am gonna do.” I could see Nick thinking and it kinda troubled me. I just buried my head in my hands and sighed.

“Hey, it’s okay, I have an idea. You can borrow one of my sweaters and my laptop. That way you won’t be cold and you can take notes. That way I cam also make sure that I get to see you again.” Nick winked and I blushed and just about fainted.

“Are you sure?”

“Of course, now go freshen up and I will find you a sweater and pack up my laptop. I can call you a cab too. Now go.”

I ran out of the room and got myself freshened up. It was totally obvious that I had not been home the night before but who cares. I walked out of the bathroom and Nick handed me a sweatshirt that I gladly put on.

“There you go, good as new. Your cab will be here in a few minutes, here’s my laptop and your password is chocolate. Take some cookies too, for breakfast. What time are done school?”

“Thanks, I’m done at four.”
“Okay, would you maybe want to meet back here around seven for dinner?” He almost looked nervous it was adorable.

“Sounds good to me. I better go though. Thank you so much.”

“I’ll see you tonight.” Nick smiled and my heart started to pound.

“See ya tonight.”

I ran all the way to the cab, jumped in and told him where I was going. My coat was undone and I tucked my hands into the pockets of the sweater. I pulled out a piece of paper.

Bria,
Thanks for an amazing night. Just so you know, words can’t
describe how beautiful you are. If you need anything my cell # is
555-902-4850. I can’t wait to see you again.
Nick

I folded the note back up and tucked it in my pocket. The cab came to a stop and I paid and got out. I ran to my class and snuck in the back. Luckily my friends were sitting near the door. When I sat down I received questioning glances from each of them. Since I was late it was soon time for break.

“Where were you?” My friend Mardi is always quick to the punch and full of questions.

“I slept in late.”

“Whose sweater is that?” She is so full of questions she is practically bursting.

“A friends.”

“Why do the rest of your clothes look like what you had on last night?” I love this girl but today she’s grating on my nerves.

“Because they are.”

“Where did you disappear to last night?”

“I got bored so I left.”

“Why am I getting the impression that you aren’t telling us everything, or anything.”

“Because I’m not. Listen a lot of weird shit has happened in the last 24 hours and when I figure things out, you’ll know.”

“Are you okay?”

“I’m perfect, anyways how was everyone else’s night?”

School seemed to drag on but I made it through without answering too many questions. As selfish as it sounds, I want to keep Nick a secret. Something that;s just for me, for now. I know he won’t be around long so I want to spend as much time as I can with him. I have no idea what’s happening and I don’t really expect anything. He has a career, I have school and work. It just feels good to spend time with him.

I went home, showered and changed into casual warm clothes. I picked up the phone to call Nick, anxious to see him.

“Hello”

“Hey”

“Bria?”

“Ya, how are you?”

“Good, you? How was class?”

“It was alright.I am just calling to see if you still want me to come down?”

“Of course I do, this may sound strange but I have missed you.”

“I’ve missed you too. I guess I’ll leave now then. I should be there in 45 minutes or so.”

“Alright, bye Bria.”

“Bye” I grabbed my bag and left to meet Nick.


~~~

The trip on the subway downtown had to be one of the most nerve wracking experiences of my life. I was really on my way down to meet back up with the one and only Nick Carter. What the hell am I doing?

I’ve been hurt before, every girl has. This just seems like a sure fire way to get hurt again. It wouldn’t be hard to fall for him and well his reputation certainly precedes him. Yet, I can’t back away yet.

I got off the subway at Union station and took a great big breath to calm myself down. I mean come on it’s not like I am meeting some international popstar that I had an incredible night with last night, oh wait. I am. Funny how that can make me anxious.

I walked down the street and into the Royal York. I called Nick again and told him that I was there. I hopped on an elevator to his floor and met him at his room. How can he look so good in jeans and a t-shirt. It’s so not fair.

“Hey Bria.” Nick was leaning against the door frame casually and then took a step towards me and gave me a quick hug. We did all the formal greetings and went into the hotel room.

“Thanks so much for letting me borrow your stuff, it really helped.”

“No problem, now what do you want for dinner?”

“Have you ever been to Jack Astor’s?”

“Can’t say I have.”
“Well then I know where we can go for dinner and the best part is that it’s nice and close.”

“Sounds good to me.”

We walked literally across the street to Jack Astor’s and waited to be seated. Nick was wearing a semblance of a disguise but once we were seated away from the main area he took it off.

“What classes did you have today?” The ease in which our conversations flowed was comforting. It seemed to feel like we had known each other much longer than the actual 24 hours.

“I had english, general math and anatomy. It was a pretty boring day.”

“I could help you study for anatomy.” Nick winked in sort of a cheesy way and yet I wasn’t all that opposed to the idea.

“There is no doubt in my mind that you could. Moving on however, what’d you do today?”

“I had a boring meeting, that had one single positive outcome, and then just relaxed all day.” The waiter came over to take our order and then left us be.

“What was the positive outcome?”

“I have to stay an extra two days.”
“That’s awesome.”

“I was hoping you would be happy about that. I’m gonna ask you a question that you may not be able to or want to answer but I am gonna ask anyways. With all that you have going for you, why are you single?”

The question kind of shocked me but I was getting used to Nick’s ability to do that. I was gonna answer with sort of my default response of being too busy, but I kinda feel obligated to be honest, with both him and myself.

“I guess you could say I have been hurt in the past and am somewhat guarded. I’ve never really bothered with dating. I guess I have a fear of the unknown and don’t want to be hurt again.”

“I get that. I’ve been through my share of failed relationships. I was just curious and I am glad that you answered.

The rest of our dinner we ate in comfortable silence. After dinner we made plans to meet the next morning for breakfast before I had to go to work. I headed back to the hotel with Nick and then was on my way home. When I was leaving Nick’s room he left me with a warm hug and chaste kiss to ponder over for the night. Dreams would sweet and full of a tall gorgeous blonde.

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Chapter 3: These Arms Are Open All Night

Mornings have always been my least favourite time of day. However, this morning was a completely different experience. I awoke feeling refreshed and content. I got ready for my work day as well as breakfast with Nick. Despite how I had been trying to keep my thoughts in a G rating, I couldn’t help but how sexy Nick is and the way his arms feel wrapped around me.

A normal chaste kiss like the one he gave me last night did amazing things to my body. I think I would like lose my mind if he did much more than that. Obviously I am not keeping my thoughts in a G rating.

I left to meet Nick down at restaurant called the Pickle Barrel. I am surprised that he has been so agreeable to my suggestions and has yet to really live up to his reputation. So far he has been a complete gentlemen. Sure the night we met there was some grinding on the dance floor but that’s to be somewhat expected and I certainly didn’t mind. Otherwise though he has been a really nice guy. Maybe it’s that he seems me more as a friend then anything else. I kind of hope not, I mean it wouldn’t be fair to have a man like Nick dangled in front of your face but be unable to have him. It’d be pure torture.

I spent the entire trip downtown pondering the inner workings of the male brain and was left even more confused. When I arrived at the restaurant Nick was waiting just outside the door for me.

“Hey Gorgeous, how are you this morning?” Really I didn’t see Nick as a morning person. Gorgeous huh? Weird.

“Morning, I’m good, you?”

“I’m great, I only have one meeting and then the rest of the day and night to myself.”

“Awesome, I’d love to hear more of your plans but could we maybe move inside. It’s bit a chilly out here.”

“Of course, let’s go.”

We went inside and got cozy in a big booth. Since I was still freezing I left my coat on.

“Cold?”

“A little.”

“Come closer I’ll warm you up.” No sane hot blooded female could resist. I certainly didn’t. I shifted closer and found myself right snuggled up in Nick’s glorious arms. He better not want me to be able to think. Not gonna happen.

The waiter came around and took our orders and we settled back into casual conversation.

“So, what exactly do you do in a group home?”

“When everything is quiet and normal, nothing. When things are crazy just about anything. I can go from cook to crisis intervention. You never really know.”

“You cook?” The astonished look on his face was adorable.

“Yea I love to cook. In fact I spend a good portion of my time cooking.”

“I don’t want to sound forward or anything, but do you think you could maybe cook for me sometime. I like never get a home cooked meal.”

“Of course I will. In fact, are you busy tonight? We could have dinner at my house and then we could go out and play pool or something. Something fun and low key.”

“That sounds amazing.”

We discussed all the boring details about our plans while we ate. When we finished we headed out immediately since sadly I did have to go to work.

“I’ll see you tonight.”

“For sure. Have a good day at work.”

Then it happened, he leaned down and gave me a kiss. Not normal chaste ones I got before, a real kiss. I’m melting. There is no way I am going to make it through the entire day at work. God he has amazing lips.

“You too. See you” I’m walking on air, this has got to be heaven. If one kiss can make me feel like this, then I can only imagine what something else might do. Nope shouldn’t imagine that. Maybe I’ll try to lead things that way though. Mmm such warm fuzzy thoughts. Whoops almost walked into traffic. That’s the effect he has. A rational grown woman, just walked into on coming traffic. I am so screwed.

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Today at work must have been the longest day of my life. I swear time started going backwards. I called Nick when I left just to let him know I was done and on my way home. I stopped to pick up some groceries and literally tried to run home. I have never been so anxious to see someone in my whole life and I couldn’t stop thinking about that kiss or that body. It’s lethal.

I started dinner and got it in the oven while I went to get myself ready. Normally this is a pretty quick process for me. Tonight, not so much. I could not think straight let alone put together a decent outfit. I want casual, but classy. Do I go for a little sex appeal? What to I do?! Okay I can do this. Nice fitted jeans are a start. Now for a shirt. Hmm, t-shirt, too casual, black lacy shirt, perfect, white sweater. By Golly I think I’ve got it. That only took 20 minutes. Getting the rest of dinner ready was easy and took my mind off of my guest of honour. For a few minutes at least. I’m just proud of the fact that I didn’t burn myself or cut off a finger.

There was a knock on my door. I can do this no problem. Nope not ready yet. Why am I so nervous it is just the same guy I have been hanging out with the past couple days. Must be the kiss. Time to open the door.

“Hey, come in, dinner is just about ready.”

“Awesome you look great.” So did he, this boy is lethal.

“Thanks, so do you. Make yourself comfortable, I’m just gonna put the food out.”

“Can I help with anything?”

“No thanks, everything is finished. Thank you though.” This whole greeting felt so formal. Weird.

“No problem.”

“Alright dinner is on the table, shall we?”

“Of course. It smells and looks amazing.”

“I hope you like it, there is sweet and sour chicken, garlic mashed potatoes, broccoli and biscuits.”

“You definitely out did yourself. I wasn’t expecting quite this much.”

“I told you I love to cook.”

We ate dinner and made idol chit chat. Discussed the highs and lows of our day. The conversation was much more casual and relaxing then the initial greeting had been. I made peach parfait for dessert and we moved into my living room to relax.

“So what else would you like to do tonight?” I couldn’t help but stare at him. He’s gorgeous.

“I really liked the idea of playing pool. Is there somewhere near by?”

“Yea there is there’s a bar just up the street, we can walk there if you want.”

“I’d like that, but first let’s clean up the mess we made.” Watching Nick help me do dishes was the most unreal thing I had seen in a long time. I never would have thought I would see the day that Nick Carter would stand in my kitchen and dry dishes.

When we were finished cleaning up we got our stuff together and headed out to the bar. My sixth sense told me I was in for a hell of a night.

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We arrived at the bar, and split up. Nick went to get us drinks, while I went to find us a pool table. We met back up in front a table in the back corner of the bar.

“Alright we have drinks, now we need games.”

“Shall you teach me how to play pool?” If there was one game that I was useless at, it was pool. Although I always have fun trying.

“You don’t know how to play pool?”

“I essentially know how to, but I am not very good at it.”

“Well, that’s about to change, I’ll teach you and help you.”


“Sounds good to me.” We moved towards the pool table and each picked up a cue.

“Alright, I’ll shoot first and you watch what I do.” I watched him position himself against the table and take a shot.

“Come ‘ere, it’s your turn.” I walked up to him and attempted to mimic the position that he was just in.

“Okay I am going to lean over you and help you take your shot.” He leaned over my back and positioned his hands over mine. His body felt so good leaning over and I shifted against him. We took my shot and I actually got one of the balls in the whole.

We continued to play and of course I lost. However I had never had more fun losing. Every time I shifted against him certain parts of his body felt harder and harder. We continued to drink and play pool until we decided to take a break.

“So I think pool is officially my favourite game.” Being so close to him and being able to breathe in his scent was absolutely intoxicating.

“Yea mine too, want another drink?”

“I was actually going to suggest heading back to my place to relax and have a drink.”

“An even better idea. Let’s go.”

We walked back to my apartment huddle close to each other in the cold. It was a nice romantic walk despite the frigid air. It was a clear Canadian night. We got into my apartment and took off our outerwear. After the walk there was sort of the anxious almost awkward anticipation. Almost as if neither of us really knew what the rest of the night would hold.

“Do you want something alcoholic to drink or something warm?” I knew that I wasn’t so much for more alcohol but I could definitely use some tea to warm me up.

“I would love something warm for now. It’s amazing how fucking cold it gets in this country.”

“Yea well welcome to Canada eh? It’s not a wonder why people think we live in bloody igloos.” Nick laughed and it was definitely a comforting sound. I brought two mugs of tea over to my couch and relaxed into it.

“I am so cold my frigging muscles are aching.” I knew I was hinting but the mere idea of his hands rubbing my muscles, was making my insides turn to Jello.

“I think I could help with that. Turn around.” I turned so that I was sitting in front of him with my back turned to him. He placed both of his hands on my shoulders and started to rub gently. I knew his hands would feel good but I never would have imagined that they would be this good. His hands moved across my shoulders and up my neck towards my hairline. I tried everything to stifle the moan I felt coming on but was completely unsuccessful.

“Does that feel good?” There is no way he is dumb enough to think that this does not feel amazing.

“Oh God yes.” What can I say? I’m incredibly appreciative. His hands moved down my spine towards my lower back. An absolute weakness of mine is having my lower back rubbed. His hands gently caressed the area before he began to massage a little harder my shirt and sweater lifting somewhat in the process.

“Why don’t you take your sweater off so I can reach you better? I promise I’ll keep you warm.” Oh I had no doubts about that, my body temperature had been rising steadily since he began touching me. I removed my sweater.

“That’s better.” He continued needing the muscles in my lower back making me moan again. My shirt must have lifted a little more because he had stopped dead in his rubbing.

“Is that really what I think it is?”

“Depends on what you’re thinking I suppose.”

“Is it possible that right there on your lower back there’s a tattoo.”

“There’s a distinct possibility.”

“Mind if I take a look.”

“Not one single bit.” He moved my jeans down with his one finger and lifted my shirt a little with another.

“There is definitely no doubt about it, there is a tattoo of a skate on your lower back.”

“Well, I think you might be right.”

“That is so incredibly hot.” He went back to massaging my lower back but leaned closer so that his mouth was right against my ear.

“You know Bria, your full of surprises.”

“I like surprises.”

“Me too.”

Nick continued to rub my back moving my shirt up little by little.

“You have the softest skin, I hope you don’t mind me exploring it a little.”

“I in absolutely no way protest your exploration.” I could barely talk and my words come out as a mere whisper.

“Good because I like that you like this.” Oh God did I ever. In fact if he stopped I might kill him. My shirt hitched under my breasts and Nick moved his hands to my sides to lift it over them. I lifted my arms and he rubbed his way up my arms and took my shirt off.

“Turn around.” Normally I wouldn’t approve of someone using a demanding tone with me, but at this point I was incapable of denying him or myself. I turned around. He took me by the shoulders and pulled me closer to him.

“When was the last time you were told you were beautiful.”
“Probably the last time you told me.”

“Hmm I’m sorry that was so long ago, you should be told all the time. You’re gorgeous.” He pulled me closer still and ran his hands down my sides to rest at my waist.

“I’m going to kiss you.” Our lips were barely an inch apart.

“I’m going to let you.” Slowly he brought his lips to mine and sucked my lower lip into his mouth, nibbling gently. I sighed into his mouth and moved my lips with his. The kiss grew deeper until we both ran out of breathe. He must have read my mind because he lifted his shirt up and off of himself.

“You have the most amazing chest.”

“I have to say you do as well.”

“Interested in seeing more?” There was more of a groan than an actual reply. He pulled me flush against him and undid the clasp on my bra. The feeling of my breasts being free was amazing but even better was the feeling of Nick’s hands running down the sides of my breasts and across the front just barely touching my incredibly taut nipples. I couldn’t stop running my fingers across his chest and shoulders. The feel of his skin was driving me absolutely crazy.

“Two choices, my room or this couch?” I’m not normally a bold person but I felt so incredibly comfortable and of course turned on that I pretty much have the courage for anything.

“Bed, soon.” The words were growled in my ear as he literally scooped me into his arms. Now I am not a small person, but it seemed like I weighed no more than a feather. I pointed in the direction of my room. Nick kicked open and closed the door and laid me gently on the bed. I was definitely glad that I had spent some extra time cleaning this evening.

“I think I need to explore a little more.”

“I most definitely agree.” Nick began to kiss my collar bone and moved down across the tops of my breasts. He brought one hand up to gently massage one breasts, while he used his mouth and tongue on my nipple driving me into an absolute frenzy. When I thought I couldn’t take it anymore. He switched and again I was driven into a frenzy. I felt like I could orgasm before my pants were even off. However that situation was soon to be taken care of. Nick moved his lips down my stomach and his hands began working on my belt, once that was freed they were back to work on undoing my pants. When they were undone he so incredibly slowly began to draw them down my legs massaging and kissing as he went along. He pulled off each of my socks, rubbing each foot and then began to move back. He stopped when his head reached the junction between my thighs and just rested there breathing. I could feel his breathe against my clit and it was driving me crazy, which I assumed was intentions.

“You smell so good, do you mind if I get closer?”

“God no, please. Closer mmm.” He moved his hands to the elastic of my thong and slipped it down my legs, pausing to nip and kiss on his way. He moved back up and without warning flicked his tongue across my clit, making me arch my back and scream.

“Sounds like you like that.” I couldn’t respond I could barely nod. He went back to work flicking, licking and nibbling on my clit until I thought I was going to explode. Then he inserted two of his long gorgeous fingers and I did. I came around his fingers whimpering, screaming and arching against him. It had been a long time since I had an orgasm that good, if ever.

“Come ‘ere please.” I whimpered I need to kiss him and feel the weight of his body against me.

“You like?”

“Oh God yes. Best I’ve had.”

“Well you’re in luck there are many more where that came from.”

“I can’t wait. Now it’s your turn.” I shifted Nick off of me and straddled his lap. I kissed my way down his chest and shimmied my body down until my face was flush against his hard cock.

“I think it is time I do some exploring.” I undid his pants and slowly and teasingly dragged them down his long gorgeous legs. I made my way back up kissing and licking in the same manner that he had done previously. I removed his boxers in the same fashion until I was left with nothing but a gloriously naked Nick.

At first I gently placed tiny kisses up and down the length of his cock while I felt it twitch against me. I the took his balls in my hands lightly traced little designs on them until I could hear Nick moaning. When I thought he really wouldn’t be able to stand it anymore simply by the look on his face, I took him fully in my mouth sucking and licking as much as I possibly could. I could feel him shifting against me and it only made me that much hotter.

“You... I need you... I need to be inside you. Now!” There was no way I was going to say “no” to that. I crawled back over him and reached into my night stand grabbing a condom. I rolled the condom over him and was flipped on to my back.

Nick leaned over me and kissed me so deeply I felt like I was drowning. Without warning he began to insert himself in me making me moan deeply. He felt so incredibly good that I began to move against him wanting him so much deeper.

“You keep moving like that baby girl and I am not going to be able to last.”

“God I don’t even care I need you deeper, harder. I just need more.”

“As you wish.” Nick pushed himself the rest of the way in and then stopped for a second. When I thought I was going to scream he began to move. Slowly at first and then faster and faster until my headboard was banging against the wall. I could feel my orgasm beginning and I wanted to make sure that Nick was going to be close to follow.

“I’m going to cum. Kiss me please.”

“Me too baby, me too.” Nick leaned down against me and the feel of his skin rubbing against mine and his lips over mine was enough to send me over the edge. I came screaming his name and he followed directly behind me.

“Good God that was amazing.”

“That it definitely was. Now shh, get some sleep. You’ll need it.”

When Nick returned from the washroom he crawled into bed with me and I curled up against his chest. The sound of his heart beat lulled my into a deep sleep.

Hurt Me, Heal Me, Come on make me feel it.

The morning after is something I have always dreaded. Will he think differently of me in the morning? But after a night like last night, it’s hard to think about anything but him. Watching him sleep, listening to him breathe, it’s like something out of a romance novel. The warmth, the comfort. All out of place to be feeling with someone that I hadn’t know that long. How can that matter though? God, the way he makes me feel. Not just physically, which is amazing enough, but like the center of the world. When he looks at me or touches me, the world fades to black. That’s a feeling I would never want to give up.

It was a feeling that I was scared I would have to. I have a fantasy world right now, but it can’t last forever. He would go back to his life and forget about the Canadian girl. It was inevitable. I knew that it would hurt like hell. What could I do though?

I could feel him stirring beside me. I looked to see his perfect blue eyes staring at me.

“Good God, that was real. Here I thought you were just a fantasy.” And it gets a little harder.

“No, it was real, every glorious moment.”

“That makes this morning so much better.”

“I’ll bite. How does it make the morning better?” I was curious, his logic seemed flawed.

“Because if its real baby, then I can do this.” He pulled my head towards him and kissed my top lip, then bottom and then so softly kissed me fully. My mind went numb and all I could was cling to him and kiss back.

“Fuck, I’m not getting out of bed today and neither are you.” That sounded like the best idea he had come up with. And really who could say no?

“That’s an amazing idea, I love kissing you already.”

“That works well, if I have my way. I’m not gonna stop. God, come here.” I inched closer to him. I really didn’t trust my breath or myself that early. I let him kiss me anyways, I wasn’t going anywhere fast.

The morning in its entirety was spent laying in bed, kissing and talking. Not as exciting as maybe planned, but so good. I need a shower though and I wasn’t going to be distracted longer.

“Nick, I don’t wanna move, but I really need a shower.”

“Me too, we could have one together.” Again with the good ideas. I was suddenly shy though. Laying under covers and having sex in the dark was one thing. Shower sex was exposing. Almost like he could sense my hesitation he drew my lips in again.

“You’re beautiful, I want to see all of you. Please, let me.” I wasn’t sure how he knew me that well but I did know that I wouldn’t turn him away.

“You win, let’s go.” I got up and ran to the bathroom, laughing as he chased me. I got scooped up again and sat on my counter. Kissing me passionately I lost my breath and the world around me.

“Shower, you, wet, now.” Panting before anything even started I broke away and got the water ready.

Nick followed me in and I allowed the warm water run down my hair and face, relaxing me immediately.He ran a finger from my neck to my navel giving me goose bumps. Next it was his turn and watching him naked and wet was making me delirious. I felt bad for every woman that was not seeing this and glad that it was me with him. I reached out to touch is hip and just let my hand rest there.

He looked at me like I was the only person in the world and pulled me under the water. Running his hands across my body I lost all senses but him. I placed my hands on his chest and just leaned in for a moment savouring time. I kissed where my head rested and began to move my kisses around. He tasted sweet. I heard him moan and I looked up at him. He looked down at me with water cascading down his face. Never was there a sight like him. I kissed him as hard as I could, standing on my tippy toes pressed hard against him. I wanted to devour him. He put his hands in my wet hair and held my mouth to his.

Finally needing air we broke apart and smiled. He dropped to his knees scaring the hell out of me and he just smiled. He dragged kisses from my stomach to hip and back and across. He was driving me crazy, he was everywhere but where I wanted. He knew it too, finally he gave in. He dragged his tongue across my clit and sucked it into his mouth. My knees buckled and he had to hold me up. I needed him, now, more than ever.

Not knowing how to get my point across any better, I grabbed his hair and tugged him up. He stood and kissed me. I could taste myself on his lips and it didn’t bother me in the least. I dropped in front of him this time, just for a quick tease before standing again.

“Fuck, I didn’t grab a condom.” I couldn’t believe I had been so dumb. I knew it was gonna happen.

“You beat me here because I did remember.”

“Thank God.” And with a quick movement he reached out the curtain, grabbed it, opened it and rolled it on.

“In a hurry baby,” I laughed. It was cut short by the feel of him slipping inside me. I grasped his shoulders and moved against him. Lifting one leg to wrap around his waist, I ground into him the best I could. He thrust inside me, carefully but with so much power my head was spinning.From all the morning activities neither of us could hold out long and heard him groan my name.

“Bria, baby, cum for me.” That was all it took and I came hard, holding on to him for all I had. He came next with the same grip. God, there was nothing like this. We collapsed to the floor of the tub letting the water rush against us. We laid there for what seemed like an eternity before Nick mentioned actually getting clean. This seemed like the best idea, despite not wanting to move.

As I showered and cleaned I kept thinking of how much ability he had. He could hurt and he could heal and made me come alive.

“Welcome to wherever you are.Welcome you’ve got to believe that right here right now, you’re exactly where you’re suppose to be...”

I knew that I needed to spend sometime studying and doing homework that day. I really and truly didn’t want to but I had to be responsible. Weekends were wonderful because I didn’t have to work and I had no classes but they were still always busy. Then there was the Nick issue. I really didn’t want to waste time doing homework all day when I could spend time with him. I suppose I would just tell him my dilemma and hope that he understood.

I walked out of my room and over to the couch sitting beside him.

“Hey, feel better?”

“Much. You?”

“Great.” This conversation seemed to be a little strained.

“ I have to go for a bit. I’m sorry I need to change and do some work. I need my laptop. I really don’t wanna go but I have to.” That made everything easier.

“That’s okay, really. I have homework and studying to do.”

“Well, that works out well. How’s this? I’ll go get changed, grab my things and come back up and we can study and work together. Then tonight, we’ll go to a movie.” He always had the best ideas. I was starting to learn that and wasn’t so sure how I felt about it. It always worked to my advantage though, so it couldn’t be too bad.

“That sounds awesome, I can only think of one thing better. We rent movies, I make dinner, popcorn. Cuddle on the couch. Simple relaxing night. How’s that?”

“You’ve got it. That sounds perfect. I’ll be back as quick as I can.” With that he stood up and kissed me soundly on the lips. I could really get used to that but shouldn’t. I needed to stop thinking so negatively. It didn’t matter what would happen, that was inevitable. I needed to focus on now. That’s what I intended to do.

“Okay, I’ll see you soon.” I smiled and sighed as he left.

I figured that my friends would be dying to hear from me, so I called and conferenced them both. No sense in having the same conversation twice.

“Okay, explain.”

“Thanks Mardi, how are you? Well, I hope. Weekend going well? That’s fantastic.”

“Don’t fuck around. Just explain.” I knew that there was no hope for me now.

“ Okay, I met a guy. He’s sweet, he’s funny and I really like him.”

“We knew it. Finally, thank God. We have been waiting for this to happen. She is human.” I loved my friends, why? No idea. I did though.

“What’s his name? What’s he look like? We need more details than that. Come on...”

“His name is Nick. He’s tall, blonde and gorgeous. He has these deep blue eyes, I don’t even know how to describe them. Only problem is, he doesn’t live here. He lives in L.A. He’s here on vacation and work.” I didn’t really want to tell them about the whole famous thing. That would make everything way more complicated than it needed to be.

“Well, I’m glad he’s gorgeous, but that situation kind of sucks.” Mardi, always obvious.

“ It does, but, whatever. I like him, we’re hanging out. It’s nice. Not much else I can do.”

“Did you sleep with him?” Ainsley always wanted to know about sex. Mardi was always boisterous, and Ainsley always wanted to know about sex.

“Ainsley!”

“Well, I’m just asking. Jeez.”

“Okay, kinda, really maybe.”

“You did! Was it good?”

“It was amazing. And it was more then once.” I knew that would indulge her.

“Ugh, you’re so lucky. I’ve always wanted a short romantic affair...” Mardi and I both just laughed at her. It was nice knowing that my friends knew something. Girls like to talk, what can I say? We chatted for a few more minutes before saying goodbye. I would see them both on Monday anyways. I knew I would get interrogated more.

After getting off the phone I grabbed my school stuff and settled in on my couch. I was impatient for Nick to return but I wanted to get as much done as possible. I knew I would be distracted, it would be impossible not to be.

After what seemed like an eternity the buzzer rang and I let Nick up. He must have gotten lucky the night before and slipped in behind someone. I neglected to even be curious about that yesterday. I knew I had been nervous, but jeez.

He knocked lightly on my door and I yelled for him to come in. He had a duffle bag and laptop bag with him. I should have been put out by him bringing so much, it did seem a bit presumptuous but I think we both knew that I didn’t want him going anywhere anyways. He seemed to dash across the room before I even had the chance to move my stuff and stand up. He was standing directly over me, just staring at me.

“I forgot something today.” His eyes looked directly into mine and he smiled.

“What’s that?” I was curious. I couldn’t help it.

“I forgot to tell you that you were beautiful.” And my heart melted, my breath caught and all I could do was sigh.

“Nick Carter, that’s a line if I have ever heard one. Not that I don’t like it, but come on.” I laughed and smiled.

“Okay, busted, it might be line. I won’t lie. It is true though. I haven’t told you that you are beautiful and I do think you are. So line or not, still beautiful.”

“You’re a suck up but I like it.” I tried to give him a mean look but could really only burst out laughing. He laughed too and then leaned down to kiss me. It was a sweet and gentle kiss but it ignited a small fire just the same.

“Okay. Let’s work. Then play.” I kinda giggled at that after I said it, but then went to looking at the papers in front of me.

Nick went to work on his laptop and I could see him out of the corner of my eye concentrating with his tongue stuck out. I twisted just gently so I could reach and quick as I could moved and bit his tongue.

“Hey! What the fuck?” I just laughed.

“Sorry, I had to.”

“That calls for payback.” With that he put his laptop on the end table, tossed my books on the couch and pulled me to the floor, pinning me under him. He kissed my forehead, my cheeks and my nose and then just looked at me. He smiled and it seemed like his eyes were searching for something. I was getting a little self conscious.

“Whatcha lookin at?” Obviously the answer was me, or the fibers on my throw rug. Likely me.

“You.”

“Well, I guessed that. Why?” I was really kinda nervous now.

“I want to remember you this way. Smiling and beautiful.”

“Oh, you’re leaving, aren’t you?” My heart sank at the thought of saying goodbye so soon. I knew that was going to happen but he had another week and the two days extra. If there was a God, he wouldn’t make him go yet.

“No baby, not yet. I will have to eventually. When I do, I want to remember everything about you. Where your freckles are, how your mouth creases when you smile, how brown your eyes are. I need to remember everything. I need to remember you.” I tried not to cry, I really did. The tears spilled over my cheeks and I reached my arms out to him. I needed his touch.

When I could breathe again and the tears stopped, I looked at him. Never had I seen such sincerity.

“I need to remember you too. God, I’m such a sap. I’m sorry, I cried like a baby. You just mean a lot to me, already.”

“I know baby girl. I can’t say this has happened to me before. Usually I have to sift through too much bullshit to bother with most girls. I never really let myself get attached because I know they don’t really want me. That’s why I hid my face and begged you not to freak out. I thought I saw hope in your eyes and knew somehow you’d accept me. I don’t know where this will go or what will happen, but I thank you for that. I get to be just me. Sitting on a couch, working, teasing, making love. It’s new. It’s all because of you.” I was crying again. No one should have to hide themselves out of fear, it wasn’t fair. Especially such a good person. He wasn’t what the media made him out to be, and I knew that before meeting him. Now, I know it more.

“Nick, I had no choice but to accept you, I like you. Not popstar you, just the guy in the fedora. No one knows what will happen, that’s okay. We have now, who needs any more. And hey, I’d given up on bothering to find someone too. Maybe it was fate, or luck. Doesn’t matter. We’re here, and you’re gonna kiss me and that’s what’s gonna matter.”

With that I pulled him down on me and kissed him passionately. I knew that hardships would follow but I knew that right then and right there on my floor, there was nowhere else I was supposed to be.

“That’s where I wanna be...”

Today I knew that I should be responsible and get more work done, but surprisingly I got a lot done the day before. Nick was a good distraction but he also had an amazing work ethic. I wanted to do something fun for the day. Monday would be back to school and Tuesday would be work, so I was gonna take the time. I laid in bed contemplating what I wanted to do and waiting for Nick to wake up. I thought that it might be fun to go skating and get hot chocolates but that might be a little public. I could feel stirring beside me so I decided to jump on him.

“Wake up!” I jumped on his chest, I stuck my head over his. I got flipped and squished. He won this round.

“Umm, I love the body contact, but I need to breathe. Just sayin’, please?” I would give up breathing for this, but I feel like it wouldn’t be the best choice. He flipped us back over and I laid my head on his chest.

“Does life actually get better than this?” I knew that it couldn’t.

“If it does, I’m not sure I can handle it.”

“I could stay like this forever.”

“I would love to let you, really and truly. I gotta pee though.” I laughed and let him up. A few minutes later, he walked back into the room and laid back down beside me.

“I’ve got a question for you.” Nick looked awful cute.
“What’s that?”

“I wanna be part of your world. I wanna do something normal and random.”

“I can do that, mostly. Random might be hard, since we’ll likely make a plan.”

“You know what I mean, smart ass.”

“ I was thinking about going skating and getting hot chocolate.”

“That would be amazing.” I loved the look of excitement on his face.

“I thought so, I was just worrying about the whole privacy thing. I don’t want to start a riot.” I wanted to go so badly. I had skated for years and it was always my favourite thing to do.

“I’ll make it work, scarves, hat, mittens. It’s so worth it. I can’t skate worth crap, but it would be fun.”

“I’ve always skated, I’ll hold your hand and help you.” This idea was getting better by the minute.

“This is gonna be awesome.”

“How do you want to get there? You really wanna be part of my world? Ride the subway?” This day could turn bad, but could also be epic.

“We should definitely do that. I haven’t be on a subway in years.”
“Alright, breakfast, showers, skating. Let’s do it!”

We made breakfast and got ready for the day. We made sure to bundle up the best we could and get our stuff together. Nick was right, he was hard to recognize with a scarf pulled up to his nose, and a hat pulled down.

We walked out to the bus and down to the subway station. It should be a pretty quick ride downtown. Sometimes the trip from Sheppard to Dundas could be a long one. Not usually though. We got on the train and sat in the back corner. I let Nick sit on the inside and I sat on the outside facing into him. He pulled my legs up and I curled into him with my head on his shoulder. I wished every commute could be this good. When they announced our station, we stood and got ready to get out. When the train began to slow, Nick stumbled and knocked into me. All I could do was laugh, he looked so upset.

“It’s okay Nick, I have stumbled into complete strangers.” It was his turn to laugh at me.

We walked out to Nathan Philips Square and rented skates for Nick. I had luckily brought mine along, so I didn’t have to wear rentals. Ick. We laced up, which I kinda had to help Nick with. It takes practice. Luckily it wasn’t too busy and I stepped out onto the ice first. I held my hand out to Nick and he looked back at me like a deer caught in the headlights. I laughed and encouraged him on.

“Come on, you can do this. It’s not hard.” I skated around a little in front him, just to prove it. Finally he took my hand and got on the ice.

We skated around in circles for what seemed like forever, hand in hand. Laughing when one of us would stumble. It was so much fun. Shortly after getting there the ice cleared and I had a bit of an idea.

“Wanna see something cool?” I decided that I wanted to show off a bit. I had always skated and loved to entertain.

“Sure.” I let go of his hand and gathered some speed. I turned backwards and angled into an enabauer. I held it straight across the ice and tried to be as graceful as possible. I skated back up to him and smiled. I felt kind of shy now.

“That was awesome, keep showing off. I wanna see more.” There wasn’t a whole lot I could do anymore, I hadn’t skated like that in years.

I gained some speed again and did a forward spiral into a backward spiral and then a single axel out of it. I laughed when I was done because I almost fell on my ass.

“I think you lied when you said you just always skated. I think there is a bit more to it then that.” I laughed.

“You might be kinda right. I skated for 16 years, coached and judged. It was kinda a big part of my life for a long time.”

“That’s awesome. Why didn’t you pursue it?”

“Well, college for one and really my family didn’t have the money for me to become really good. Coaching and ice time is expensive, not to mention the skates and dresses. It can get ridiculous. It just wasn’t an option. So I always just fooled around, skated whenever I could, in front of whoever I could.” I drifted off for a minute, remembering all the times I skated and how much fun I used to have. I did truly love it.

“I’m sorry. That’s terrible. You seem to really love it.”

“It’s not your fault, it happens sometimes. My parents struggled to support me as is and I always had what I wanted. I just couldn’t burden them for more. I loved them too much. I enjoyed it though. I can show you more... If you want that is.” I knew I wanted to but I was a little unsure if he would want to stand in the cold and watch.

“Go for it baby, show me your best.” I skated off and launched into a double flip. It was always my favourite jump and the one thing I figured I could always land. It was the hardest jump but once I mastered it, it was in my blood. After that I thought I’d give spinning a try and did a layback. I always loved the artistry involved in spins like that. The beauty that you could make your own. I kept doing everything I could think of until I tired myself out. I skated over to Nick and wrapped my arms around him.

“Thank you for this. You have no idea how much it means to me to share something I love like this.” I didn’t want to let go of him and I just buried my head into his chest. We stood there for a few minutes, him just holding me and me just taking it all in.

“You know you’re welcome, I understand the feeling. That’s why I love to sing and love my work. You looked beautiful out there. The smile you get, it’s breathtaking. You’re breathtaking.” He pulled my head up to look at him and kissed me. There in the middle of Nathan Philips Square, Nick Carter was kissing me and I was in heaven.

“How about that hot chocolate baby girl? I’m starting to freeze.”

“Let’s go. Me too.” We took off our skates and cleaned them. Putting mine away and giving his back.

We went to the Starbucks across the street and sat in the back sipping hot chocolates and sharing a quiet conversation.

“So how is your ‘normal’ day?”

“It’s better than I could have asked for. I think it’s the company.”

“I’m sorry that my life isn’t glamorous. I just do simple things and spend time with people.”

“Baby, where ever you are, that’s where I wanna be. Don’t apologize. I’m jealous. I love your life. You get to have it the way you want, no worries. You can just do the things you want. I envy you. You don’t know how much I appreciate you sharing this with me. It never happens to me.” I took his hands in mine and smiled at him.

“You’re welcome where ever I am. I love having you around. Where ever you are is where I wanna be. It’s always a good time.”

“Have dinner with me?”

“Of course.”

“I have another question.” The look on his face got serious and I was a little worried.

“I don’t wanna seem presumptuous but I was wondering if I could cancel my hotel room and come stay with you. I’m not here a lot longer and I don’t wanna miss a moment. I know you have to work and have school. I won’t be in your way, I promise. I just wanna be with you. Please?” The look on his face broke my heart. He looked so hopeful and yet a bit unsure. As if I could say no.

“Of course, I want you there. You’re more then welcome in my home. Always.”

“Thank you so much. I was so worried, I didn’t want to intrude.”

“No problem, you can grab your stuff whenever.”

“I’ll drive down after dinner. I’ll be there tonight, that way I can hold you in my arms all night.”

“Jeez, you’re so sweet you might make sick. My mom always warned me about smooth talkers. Good thing I never listen.” We both laughed and continued talking. After awhile, we headed to dinner and back home. Nick did grab his stuff and was back at my house. Ready to stay and sleep in my bed. My own little slice of heaven.

“Just another mundane Monday…”

Monday mornings suck. They always do, I hate early classes and lots of work. Nick in my bed worked out quite well. He was definitely better to wake up to than the empty pillow. Last night was amazing in it’s own right. There was no sex, or anything like that, he just held me like a gentleman and we slept cuddle. Sickening I know, it was kinda nice, mind you the feel of his body this morning was definitely a turn on.

His hand that was resting on my stomach slid to my hip, I could feel his breath on my neck and myself get turned on.

“Bria?”
“Nick.”
“You’re awake?”
“I’m answering you.”
“Smartass.”
I got a smack on my bum for that. Truth be told, I got a whole lot more than just a smack on the bum. Nick definitely gives the best wake up calls. Now significantly late for school, I grabbed my backpack like a good little schoolgirl and ran out the door.

Being gone the whole day, knowing Nick was in meetings and then resting at my house killed me. I just wanted to be home. My focus was off for sure. I started blushing at the mention of penis, sex or anything that was a reminder of my morning. I called Nick at lunch to see how he was to find out he was bored in between meetings and wanting to be home. We decided that who ever was first back to my apartment would make dinner. This concerned me a little as I wasn’t sure how good Nick’s cooking would be. Turns out that his cooking is absolutely fantastic. We sat down for chicken, grilled vegetables and rice.

“How was your day?”
“It was pretty boring, classes, lunch, time to study, more classes. Pretty much the usual.”
“That doesn’t sound so bad to me, I always wanted to go to school.”
“Sometimes it’s not all its cracked up to be. How was your day?”
“It fucking sucked, I hate this weather, I miss my sun and sand and I wanna be home. I hate meetings, I always feel retarded even though I know I’m not.”
“Oh, I thought you liked being here, the weather…” My heart sank. He didn’t want to be here. I guess I kinda always figured that but it still sucked.
“ I like being with you, things are just stressful.”
“But you said you didn’t like being here. I am here.” I know I was being a little whiny and obvious; it just stung.
“I know, I’m sorry, they were just really hard on me today, and I friggin froze. I am really sorry babe, I didn’t mean it.”
“But you said it and it sucks.” Here comes the petting whining.
“And I told you I sucked with words, that I like you and want to be here with you. It’s just a change is all. I am looking forward to being home, but I am happy here with you. It’s gonna suck when I leave, I’m gonna miss you. But babe? Please can we forget I am stupid and just hang out, I don’t wanna think about leaving. I’m an ass, I’m sorry.” Now it was my turn to feel guilty.
“I’m sorry, I’m an ass. My heart just kinda sank, thinking you didn’t want to be here near me. I was being a dumb girl, and I hate those. I’m sorry.”
“Bria, if I didn’t want to be near you, I wouldn’t have asked to stay at your place and make love to you in the morning, and hopefully at night.”
“I know, I’m dumb. Kiss for forgiveness?”

I leaned over the table for my kiss. When we were done cleaning from dinner, I made my lunch for work. It was all so domestic. We decided on more movies. I always preferred a low-key evening before work. We laid in bed watching movies and stealing kisses.

“Nick, what happens when you go home?”
“I don’t know baby, my life isn’t easy to plan.”
“I wanna be in it.”
“I want you to be too.”

The amount of whining I had done was sure to turn him off. I just couldn’t seem to turn my brain off. That was until I felt Nick’s hand slide down my shoulder to rest just at the side of my breast. He had a way of making my throat go dry with the simplest touch. His finger swayed from side to side at the edge of my breast, his other hand sliding to do the same thing near my thigh. I reached over to do the same to the side of his neck. A well-known sensitive spot. This got the Nick seal of approval has he quickly flipped me onto him. He pulled me down to lie flush to his chest. Nick kissed across my face, my chin, and the corners of my mouth and all the way across my jaw. Everywhere but my mouth. He flipped me back over and crawled on top of me. This had a slight resemblance to an acrobat performance. Nick took the longest time removing my clothing, inch by unbearably torturous inch. Finally I was naked and Nick was stripping, just the way it should be. The lovemaking was just as slow and passionate as the foreplay until neither of us could stand it any longer.

Basking in the after glow made me realize that there was not a point in worrying about the future, I knew the risks. The days simply had to be filled with as much passion as we could. It was definitely something worth fighting for, but definitely not worth fighting over. Sometimes when you hold on too tight, you miss the importance of having it in the first place. I was definitely not about to let that happen.