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There are some grammar errors, but they are supposed to be there to express his thought process a little more.
Dear Auty,
I’m trying. Her mouth won’t stop moving. I don’t like sitting here. I’m getting restless. I don’t wanna be here in this place no more. I stay calm anyway. Nothing is getting through. Shut up! I no like this. Frustrating. Pencil. Paper. Writing. Good. Left hand ready. Fun. Words look weird. I can’t write very good. Coloring. No. Boring. Fun. Mad. I don’t like this anymore. Nothing is coming in. Confusing to me. Sadness. Anger.
Her mouth is still moving. That voice is getting annoying. I want to watch TV. Be alone. In my own world. No, not alone. With Kendall. She is fun and makes me laugh. I like Scooby-Doo. But the glass on top is broke. The lazy bear wearing clothes that is sitting in a comfy chair is broke, too. I didn’t mean too. Teacher doesn’t care. I hate her but I can’t talk it out loud. I play scrabble to say what I need to say I can’t say out loud. I put the letters where I want them to go neat and in order. The words show up suddenly. I feel better. I don’t like out loud saying things I can’t say. I get frustrated. I don’t like being frustrated.
I talk out loud a lot, but with different things. My friends make me laugh. I like their mouths better than my teachers’. I don’t like crowds and people squishing me. I don’t how to breathe anymore. I stand on the side or in a corner by myself. I want to watch TV get a pop out of the cabinet. I drink a lot of pop. I hate water. People talk too much. I can’t see their eyes very long. My head is full of stuff I can’t get rid of. Here and here, it’s like it’s stuffed in the smallest box. It needs to go away and disappear. I don’t know what to do. I like to play basketball. I like to play it with my friends. Reading is very hard for me. I can never get the words write. My writing is hard to read but I don’t care. Sometimes I do.
I am smarter than most people think. Some think I’m stupid and won’t get any better. That’s what my teacher thought. Special Olympics was fun but I got tired of it. I like it more now. It’s fun to race people I don’t know. I like to play on computer. Go on Youtube and watch videos. I love Power Rangers and Mr. Rogers neighborhood. I miss Mr. Rogers.
Autism, you are my friend now. I like being smarter than most people think I am. I can’t talk very well but my friends and family understand me, most of the time. I get angry and sad and happy and excited just like everyone else, except excited and angry is hard to control sometimes. But I manage. I would say now, my life is great.
Sincerely Yours,
Landon B.