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The plane ride seemed like forever instead of only 6 in a half hours. I had listened to music, slept, read a book, wrote a story, and slept more, and we still had an hour to go. We don't even know if Nick is still alive..

I suddenly lost my train of thought as the captain came on over the speakers. "Welcome to Tampa Bay, Florida. It is 40 degrees here, partly cloudy. We will be landing in the next 15 minutes. Thank you." I sighed a sigh of relief. I looked at Brian, who was still asleep. Maybe I should wake him up. I tapped on his shoulder and he budged, but didn't wake up all the way. I tapped him on the head, and he woke up. Wow. How strange. "Hey, we're 15 minutes from landing." He suddenly sat up and started getting his things together. "Finally. I thought this plane ride would never end." I laughed. "Same here." I looked back at Howie and AJ. AJ was still asleep, but Howie was getting his things together. I nodded my head at Aj, and Howie knew that he should wake him up. He lightly slapped him on the arm, and he shot up awake. "What was that for?" Aj asked. "We're here, landing in 10 minutes." Aj suddenly sat upright and started getting his things together, also. Finally, we felt and heard the landing gear come out from under the plane. After a few minutes, we landed. Our security guards got up, ushered us off the plane, and we hurried to the main area to get our bags.

After we got our bags, there was a limo waiting for us. My dad must have ordered it to wait for us outside the airport. We got in, and were very restless on the way to the hospital. When we got there, I practically jumped out of the limo, and told the guys to hurry. They hurried, and we ran in to the waiting room. Our security guards tried to follow us, but it didn't really work. Some fans were already going nuts. "Oh no," I heard Brian say. We hurried to the front desk and asked for Nick Carter. The lady looked up and gave us a sad look. "I..I'm sorry, we just heard a few minutes ago that he passed away."


OH MY GOSH. We were too late! I turned around and ran out the door, crying. I couldn't believe this. He was gone! I didn't even get to say goodbye! I can't even see him one last time! He's gone! I sat down on the curb outside of the hospital and cried. I just couldn't believe it. The love of my life, the man of my dreams, he was gone. Suddenly, I felt someone's hand on my back. I looked up, but I couldn't make out who it was. It was a girl. "Hey, it's Beej, you okay?" I wiped my eyes and said, "No, I'm not. I can't believe he's gone." She hugged me tightly. "I know, I know, neither can I. All of us can't imagine it. We feel really bad, too, because of the way we've treated him the past few years. All we ever did was fight, and now we regret it. We wanna apologize, but we can't. It's too late." I let go and looked at her. "You must feel awful." She nodded. "But you, you must feel terrible. He was the first love of your life, and you're the first girl he's actually loved for who she is and not for what she does. He never even tried to get you in the bed. He really loved you." A tear ran down my cheek. "I..I know. I really loved him, too. But I mean, you guys are his family. I was just his girlfriend. Family is so much more important, and I bet you guys were more important to him than anything." She looked down. "Actually, I really doubt that. We only saw him for about 2 weeks a month, and that was it. Then we were watching him on tv, or hearing him on the radio. He spent more time with you, the guys and your dad more than us." I sighed. "Yeah, I know, but if he had a choice, he would have gone with you guys. Believe me. He would have." We got up and walked back into the hospital. The guys were nowhere to be found, but we saw Leslie, Aaron, and Angel. They ran towards us and gave us a giant group hug. "Shannon, I'm so sorry!" Angel said. Even Aaron said sorry. Leslie just hugged me, not saying anything. She was probably too sad to say anything. Suddenly, Brian ran up to us, smiling. "How can you smile at a time like this?" I said. "He's back."