This is going to be an incredible roundabout answer to this question but bear with me.
I'm currently unpacking my new apartment and since my stuff was in storage for nearly a year and a half, I haven't seen a lot of this stuff in a while. I had been thinking about the fact that all of my old fics were lost when my car was broken into and external hard drives were stolen so when I stumbled upon some of my old school workbooks I got nostalgic and decided to read them.
When I was a teenager I had several poems published in magazines and newsletters and part of my AP English class involved putting together a portfolio of all your completed works to date. Each one of the poems, short stories, etc has a grade and a comment from my teacher. Skimming through I could see that not a single grade was below 95% and the comments from my teacher talked about how I had real potential as an author. On one in particular he talked about he never wanted me to stop writing because the world needed "more writers, more poets, more people to tell our stories for the children of the next generation."
I read that story and, not to be conceited, was genuinely surprised by my talent at 17 years old. I don't know what happened to that writer but she's not me anymore. I think my decision to go into journalism after high school fundamentally changed the way I write. These days, I don't consider myself a writer at all outside of a work capacity.
I have struggled writing BSB fiction for the last couple years, as most of you know. I just can't keep focused long enough to flesh anything out so I start something with the best of intentions, but as soon as the plot gets complicated I just lose it. Hence, why I have a dozen stories with 10 chapters or less just sitting in my Google Docs account.
I would really like to at least finish the stories I have incomplete but like Steph said, after that I'm not sure. Unless I find out how to get that mojo back that I had before, it's just sort of gone. Long answer... but I got there.
