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Can't Save You by Pengi Rated: R [ - ]
Summary:
You're not the one I used to know
That made the stars so jealous in the night of my soul.
You won the war I can't get in
But the battle that you're dying from is underneath your skin



Sometimes, we can't save the ones we love...
The only way Brian knows how to salvage and pick up the pieces of his and Baylee's lives after losing Leighanne is to return home to Kentucky. But Brian's not the only one who has returned home - so has Emma, the girl who has come to collect on the promise Brian once made her...

Categories: Fanfiction > Backstreet Boys
Characters: Brian, Nick
Genres: Angst, Drama, Romance
Warnings: Death, Sexual Content
Series: None
Chapters: 54 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes
Word count: 64954
Read Count: 86779


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08/01/11 » Updated: 10/21/11
Reviewer: rokstar Signed
Date: 10/20/11 Title: Chapter 51: Chapter Forty-Three

Oh no . . . . .where is she going? She's not leaving is she?? My question is: were Brian's words meant for Emma? I think they were, I HOPE they were! Update, please!

Reviewer: rokstar Signed
Date: 10/23/11 Title: Chapter 54: Epilogue

Ohhh how I loved this story, and so happy for Brian and Emma finding their way into each other's arms. It made me so happy I kind of forgot about the shadow that is hanging over them still. You reminded me at the end when you wrote "no matter what the days would bring, they already knew that even if they couldn't save each other from the battles they were fighting- they could be there for one another through it all". I remembered that Emma is still fighting cancer and in the end, might lose her life. It made me sad to think that Brian (and Baylee) might have to face another devastating blow (listen to me - acting like this is real - I got so emotionally involved with this story lol) Great job!

Stay With Me Tonight by Simple Sue Rated: R [ - ]
Summary: Five bedrooms. Four couples. Two married. One engaged and the other has a good girl trying to hide the bad one deep inside. After one night without him, Jen throws caution to the wind.
Categories: Fanfiction > Backstreet Boys
Characters: Brian
Genres: Romance
Warnings: Sexual Content
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes
Word count: 1453
Read Count: 1066


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10/13/11 » Updated: 10/13/11
Reviewer: rokstar Signed
Date: 10/13/11 Title: Chapter 1: Chapter 1

Brian +HOT Sex = my kind of story! By all means continue to be attentive to your favorite boy! I sure won't mind ;) I've missed you writing Brian stories.

Author's Response: thank you & yeah I kinda miss writing them. thanks for the review.

Ladies Night by Simple Sue Rated: R [ - ]
Summary: Photobucket



Sometimes all you need is a little push in the right direction....
Categories: Fanfiction > Backstreet Boys
Characters: AJ, Brian, Nick
Genres: Romance
Warnings: Sexual Content
Series: None
Chapters: 10 Table of Contents
Completed: No
Word count: 11175
Read Count: 13781


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10/19/11 » Updated: 11/17/11
Reviewer: rokstar Signed
Date: 10/21/11 Title: Chapter 4: Chapter 4

To me, the choice is clear . . . . . .BRIAN! I hope she didn't mess up the possibilities with him by running off and dancing with Donnie.

Author's Response: *adjusts halo* Maybe she did, maybe she didn't. Thank you for the review!

Reviewer: rokstar Signed
Date: 10/27/11 Title: Chapter 8: Chapter 8

Oh dear Lord! I knew there was a reason I love Brian in a tie! Whew! Sexy stuff!

Author's Response: Thank you & me too. I was watchin the homecoming concert & it inspired me. Again, thank you for the review

Author's Response: Thank you & me too. I was watchin the homecoming concert & it inspired me. Again, thank you for the review

Severed Identities by Purpura Lipstick Rated: PG-13 [ - ]
Summary:

 

They tried to keep them apart, but a chance encounter and one single touch brings back a lifetime of memories they were meant to forget.


Categories: Fanfiction > Backstreet Boys
Characters: Brian, Group
Genres: Action, Science Fiction, Suspense
Warnings: None
Series: None
Chapters: 44 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes
Word count: 76107
Read Count: 74220


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12/22/11 » Updated: 06/11/13
Reviewer: rokstar Signed
Date: 03/02/13 Title: Chapter 1: Prologue

I came to this site, wanting to read a good Brian story, and wow, did I find it! I couldn't stop reading until there was no more to read lol. You have me on the edge of my seat to find out what happens! Very different idea for a story, quite OUT THERE, but really riveting! Kudos to you for a great job taking your idea and turning it into a story well worth reading. Brian being tortured is KILLING me, by the way so please make it stop, ok? Lol Please update soon.

Author's Response:

Thank so much for reading and reviewing.  I had this idea for a story and wasn't sure how well it would be received once it got to the OUT THERE part of it.  I am glad it is riveting enough to keep people interested despite that factor.  I almost made this a Kevin story but Brian just seemed to fit better and I'm glad I went with him. :)  Thanks again your review made my day and I hope to end Brian's torture soon. :)

Borrowed Time by Pengi Rated: PG-13 [ - ]
Summary:


"Shortly after I was born, the doctors figured out that I was broken. I had a hole in my heart..."


Ever since he was a child, Brian was well aware that he was living on what he's always referred to as "Borrowed Time". He always believed that he'd overcome it, like Batman overcoming darkness. But in 1998, when Brian was on top of the world, the moment came when it all could come crashing down...

Categories: Fanfiction > Backstreet Boys
Characters: AJ, Brian, Group, Howie, Kevin, Nick, Other
Genres: Angst, Drama
Warnings: None
Series: Backstories
Chapters: 41 Table of Contents
Completed: No
Word count: 118594
Read Count: 66718


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06/18/12 » Updated: 07/30/12
Reviewer: rokstar Signed
Date: 01/20/15 Title: Chapter 1: Prologue

Hi, I ran across this story and remembered how much I loved it. I was so sad it never got finished :( Is there a chance you will ever come back to it?

Summary:

Brian just got divorced and is picking up his life. He doesn't know it yet but is he falling in love again?


Categories: Fanfiction > Backstreet Boys
Characters: Brian
Genres: Drama, Romance
Warnings: Sexual Content
Series: None
Chapters: 16 Table of Contents
Completed: No
Word count: 23857
Read Count: 21321


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08/28/12 » Updated: 11/30/13
Reviewer: rokstar Signed
Date: 12/01/13 Title: Chapter 1: Chapter 1

Hi, I read the whole story today, and enjoyed it very much! Looking forward to seeing what happens. Thanks for writing a Brian story, as there are not enough of those, and I love him as the main character :)

Hello? It's me. Again. by mamogirl Rated: R [ - ]
Summary: Past Featured Story"Hello? It's me, Nick. Again. Please... don't be dead.



That was all left. That was all that he had. There had been no goodbyes or words full of pain and heartache. Or regret. Regret for what he had just lost and for all the things he would never have the chance to get. No more dreams.
All that was left was a voicemail. And words that Brian wouldn't be able to say out loud, face to face.
Categories: Fanfiction > Backstreet Boys
Characters: Brian, Group, Nick
Genres: Angst, Drama, Suspense
Warnings: Death, Slash M/M
Series: None
Chapters: 32 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes
Word count: 46982
Read Count: 48930


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10/16/12 » Updated: 03/10/15
Reviewer: rokstar Signed
Date: 11/09/14 Title: Chapter 25: § Message #28 §

Your story has moved me so much. I feel like I am inside Brian, feeling every emotion he feels as he goes through each stage of grief. He was so desperately in pain and I could feel him sliding into a deeper and deeper abyss until he hit bottom, trying to end his life. From that point on, it seems to me that he has been clawing his way out of the darkness and trying to find the light of life. He is seeing glimpses of it, but it gets covered up with grief again and again. I hope he sees more and more light and sunshine and less darkness and pain, as he tries to move on with a life without his love. I admire how well you write and then translate into English . . . that must be so difficult and tedious. Thank you for all the work you do. I appreciate that you write Brian stories, as there are not nearly enough of those being written. Thank you so very much!

Author's Response: No, thank you so much for your words! *__* First, I agree with you. There's a serious and sad lack of Brian's stories in this fandom. =( And yes, translating can be a little bit difficult and, sometimes, boring but it's so worth if it means that people not only can read but can understand and get my words. *__* Sometimes I struggle, yes, but sooner or later I'm gonna have up all of my stories. I don't give up so easily. As for the story, that is my goal: showing how Brian can go through totally being shattered and covered with pain to being able to live and, hopefully, be happy even without Nick by his side. Yes, there will be more light and hope for Brian in the next chapter, though the downs are still waiting in the corner. But that's life, no? Again, thank you so much for your words. *__* They meant the world.

Reviewer: rokstar Signed
Date: 01/19/15 Title: Chapter 29: § Message #31 §

It makes me smile to see this spark of life come back to Brian, to see him want to start planning, having goals, wanting to give back through teaching, and keeping Nick's legacy alive. Most of all, accepting that he needs to be happy in this new life without Nick and taking those first steps towards that. Thanks so much for updating, and it is much appreciated that you take the time to translate the story into English, that must be difficult. Also, please feel better soon. :)

Author's Response: Thank you so much! <3 I really loved writing these last chapters because it was exciting for me as well writing Brian as he finally sees that he can be happy without Nick. I loved planning his future, trying to understand what he might do if he's not part of the group and I've always thought that he would have been a perfect teacher. Hot as well. lol Thank you so much *__*

Summary: When a nightmare starts with a failed suicide attempt by one of his closest friends, Howie is determined to find out the answers to a story that doesn't make sense. What happens when suicide is not really suicide, but a murderer gotten loose? Howie is about to find out.

 


Categories: Fanfiction > Backstreet Boys
Characters: Brian, Group, Howie, Kevin, Nick
Genres: Angst, Drama, Suspense
Warnings: Sexual Assault/Rape, Violence
Series: None
Chapters: 33 Table of Contents
Completed: No
Word count: 58449
Read Count: 57825


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12/12/12 » Updated: 08/28/15
Reviewer: rokstar Signed
Date: 02/02/13 Title: Chapter 1: Prologue

I just read this story tonight and couldn't stop! What a great storyline, very well written and I can't wait to see what happens next. I just KNEW that there was something weird about him trying to kill himself - there had to be more to what happened. Thank you for writing a Brian story . . . .there surely aren't enough of those. Please update soon, I want to know who this "Peter" guy is and see how this mystery plays out. Brian, don't leave us.

The New Guy by freedomwriter Rated: G Liked [ - ]
Summary: Past Featured Story

He watched the newcomer from a distance, and hated him instantly. He didn’t just dislike him, no, he hated him with his whole being.  Who'd ever thought the one you once hated, would be the one thing you would be missing dearly some day?

a story about friendship, betrayal, forgiveness and saying goodbye. About Kamille tea, an interesting fear of elevators and what actually means to be a brother.


Categories: Fanfiction > Backstreet Boys
Characters: Brian, Nick
Genres: Angst, Drama
Warnings: None
Series: None
Chapters: 63 Table of Contents
Completed: No
Word count: 96197
Read Count: 124784


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02/11/13 » Updated: 06/20/16
Reviewer: rokstar Signed
Date: 05/10/13 Title: Chapter 46: 46. Room With A View

I totally get why Brian feels enough is enough, but I'm glad Nick made him see that he should at least try the treatment. As for Leighanne telling him, YES I think she should. Brian deserves to know the truth, and the truth always outs itself if you try to hide it. Go for it . . . this is fiction, you can do whatever you want and you KNOW it'll be hella dramatic!

Reviewer: rokstar Signed
Date: 05/27/13 Title: Chapter 50: 50. A Small Crime

Oh god my heart is just crying for Brian . . . *sob*. . . This was the ONE person he trusted to love him and ONLY him, through bad and good, and she destroyed that trust. . . she shattered his heart. I can see him staring at her in my mind's eye. I want to feel some sympathy for her right now, to understand where she is coming from,I really do. I know that it is painful beyond measure to see the person you love most in the world being so devastatingly ill, but her kind of escape was just wrong. Wow, great work on this chapter! PLEASE update soon~

Reviewer: rokstar Signed
Date: 03/21/13 Title: Chapter 34: 34. Just For You

Oh my God, what a heartbreaking chapter *sob*

Reviewer: rokstar Signed
Date: 02/24/13 Title: Chapter 8: 8. Greater Than Sex

Now I see what happened. At first I thought Brian had died, but now it is clear they made him leave. I'm pretty sure I know why, but won't say so as to not ruin it for others who don't. It makes me so sad. Great story, please update soon!

Author's Response:

ah, I dearly hope you're right :)

thanks for reading and reviewing!