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Hello? It's me. Again. by mamogirl Rated: R [ - ]
Summary: Past Featured Story"Hello? It's me, Nick. Again. Please... don't be dead.



That was all left. That was all that he had. There had been no goodbyes or words full of pain and heartache. Or regret. Regret for what he had just lost and for all the things he would never have the chance to get. No more dreams.
All that was left was a voicemail. And words that Brian wouldn't be able to say out loud, face to face.
Categories: Fanfiction > Backstreet Boys
Characters: Brian, Group, Nick
Genres: Angst, Drama, Suspense
Warnings: Death, Slash M/M
Series: None
Chapters: 32 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes
Word count: 46982
Read Count: 48811


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10/16/12 » Updated: 03/10/15
Reviewer: GrunAugen Signed
Date: 03/14/15 Title: Chapter 32: § Last Message §

Of course I loved this story! I just don't think that it can end this way. I certainly did wish throughout the fic that Nick could come back, and that Brian's brief moments of connection with Nick could be in the present rather than in the past. However, now that he is back, there are so many issues to be addressed. Why did Nick do this--what were his motivations? If he thought it would make Brian a stronger, more independent person, does he still expect to return to his relationship with Brian and, if so, on what terms? Can Brian ever trust and love Nick the same way as before knowing that he could hurt him in such a deep and deliberate way. Or are therein fact other circumstances that prevented Nick from coming back until now?
All of those questions (or any of them) would I'm sure form the premise of a sequel to this story, which I urge you to write! :)
So... please keep writing, and thanks again for this wonderful story.

Author's Response: Aw thank you! Yes, there are a lot of issues that need to be addressed. Nick's backstory and motive why he did all of this have already been planned before I started this story. That is why there are going to be two stories in this same arc: one is a oneshot form Nick's pov, a sort of companion of Hello that is going to explain why and where Nick was during this year. And then there is the sequel, which will be mostly about Brian and Nick trying to get back together and find a new way to stay together. Cause you're right, how can Brian trust Nick again over this? Thank you so much for reading and for the patience! Cinzia

Summary: When a nightmare starts with a failed suicide attempt by one of his closest friends, Howie is determined to find out the answers to a story that doesn't make sense. What happens when suicide is not really suicide, but a murderer gotten loose? Howie is about to find out.

 


Categories: Fanfiction > Backstreet Boys
Characters: Brian, Group, Howie, Kevin, Nick
Genres: Angst, Drama, Suspense
Warnings: Sexual Assault/Rape, Violence
Series: None
Chapters: 33 Table of Contents
Completed: No
Word count: 58449
Read Count: 57693


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12/12/12 » Updated: 08/28/15
Reviewer: GrunAugen Signed
Date: 05/27/14 Title: Chapter 23: 23. Make Him Pay

Well, good move by Howie to move his investigation forward, but probably not so good for Brian's help. I do hope he's not seriously damaged... that was a pretty intense seizure. Try to fix Howie's hand for me, okay? ;)

I wonder if this will set back Brian's release from hospital (I imagine). I have the impression that was one thing that prompted Howie to ask him this now; if he went home, he'd be too protected for the opportunity to present itself.

I wish someone would bring in one of Brian's favourite things, like his tuque or maybe play him some music. It's known that sensory experiences like that can help trigger memories. Maybe some Brian/Nick time could be upcoming?

I had to go back and reread the other chapters because it had been too long since I started reading your story. It hangs together better than I implied in my earlier review. It also reminded me of some things. It seems like Howie could either team up with AJ since he has some contacts or maybe call up Caroline and ask her to try to find Peter.

Looking forward to what you decide to do next.

Oh, and I think Howie could get in some good punches if he had the element of surprise! With his hand that's not broken, that is... :(

Reviewer: GrunAugen Signed
Date: 05/25/14 Title: Chapter 22: 22. Not A Good Day

I'm starting to really enjoy your story, and I'm glad you're continuing.

It's been a bit confusing with the various flashbacks at different points, but lately your storyline seems to be coming together and I can see the relationship between the scenes in the past and what is happening in the 'present'.

I think your deliberately introducing elements of inconsistency (depending on the narrator) is an interesting approach. It does cause some problems in terms of knowing what is going on, but I think it's an excellent exercise in subjectivity of points of view. I'm hoping that Brian's memories/flashbacks will turn out to be the most accurate, because so far I'm inclined to believe that is the case. I just hope he can somehow convey his thoughts before it's too late...

As far as what's wrong with Brian's phone that Harold finally revealed to Howie, I would say it has been altered/tampered with because why else would he not have answered it when (I surmise) they were trying to find Brian at the start?

I really like the way you've written the scenes of Brian's recovery... they're so poignant and heartbreaking/warming, depending on what's happening. This one was particularly good in how we get into Brian's head and understand the difference between what he's thinking and what he's able to commmunicate. His interaction with Baylee is the best, of course.

I have to say I hope this latest development (the reaction to Howie's question) doesn't cause a major relapse for him... hopefully Brian can in some way communicate that it's Peter.

Well, great work and please keep writing!

Reviewer: GrunAugen Signed
Date: 06/01/14 Title: Chapter 24: 24. Destroy

Well, despite your reticence to comment on this chapter, I really liked it!
I'm glad you chose Nick to do this scene with Brian--they know each other so well and have been so close that it makes sense for Nick's instincts to guide him in comforting Brian. I also think you did a good job of describing, though Nick's eyes, how Brian manages to communicate without any words.
It seems to me that this is in fact a 'beginning of progress' chapter for Brian--before his mind was protecting him from what had happened, but now that Howie's question forced him to relive it, at least somewhat, now he can begin to try to face it and deal with it, and to my mind this was the first step.
All thanks to Nick's wonderful hug! Hey, I think you need some fluff in this story. ;)
I can't decide if I want to know more about what Brian's thinking or how Howie is doing. I'll leave that up to you. :)
Great work!

Author's Response: I am so glad you liked this one. Yes, Nick seemed the only person capable in the situation. He could very well be a great key in any further progress in the story ^^

Reviewer: GrunAugen Signed
Date: 06/04/14 Title: Chapter 25: 25. Unmistakable

Well, even if the Brian part of the storyline is my favourite, it was a good change to catch up with Howie's investigation. :)
I'm glad you've brought Caroline back into this. She must really like Howie, to be so cooperative. Their interaction is quite entertaining.
Based on that missing person report, I can only surmise that Peter has since been operating under a new identity. In fact, I think we've already met him, in chapter 10. I noticed that none of the internet search results yielded photos, so Caroline still doesn't know what Peter looks like. To expand on my theory, it also makes sense that he'd be with the press, as a way to keeping tabs on any news and information even before it becomes public. Maybe Howie and his new sidekick can track down this Seth Mackles...
In the meantime, I'm looking forward to the next chapter!

Reviewer: GrunAugen Signed
Date: 06/08/14 Title: Chapter 26: 26. The Most Fascinating Thing

I felt so sorry for Brian in this chapter. He's more like an obstacle for Leighanne than anything else, although it was nice to see, through her eyes, how in some ways he's getting a bit better, and she does seem to be concerned for him.
I was a bit surprised that he would be discharged when still too weak to walk, although I suppose they might arrange for physiotherapy once he gets back home. I assume he can at least get into his wheelchair...
I expect that in this chapter you are trying to show how Brian has become simply an object of curiosity to the world at large, precluding any consideration for him as a human being. I really hope Leighanne has it in her to tell off the crowd and get her family out of there. I also wonder what Brian will be thinking about the people staring at him and if he remembers why that might be...
So, I guess I'm voting for a Brian POV chapter next! I hope you write more soon. :)

Reviewer: GrunAugen Signed
Date: 06/11/14 Title: Chapter 28: Chapter 28

I'm liking where you're taking this story right now. To try to address the facets of Brian's rehabilitation/recovery is quite a challenge, and I thought this chapter was quite detailed and realistic. I like how we have Brian's character re-emerging at the same time as symptoms of his trauma continue to manifest themselves, reminding us of what hasn't been dealt with. Now that you've mentined them, I hope we get a peek into the phychotherapy sessions at some point...

I'm really glad you have everyone helping and Nick's assisting with the physio provided for a great dynamic with Brian. While it's easy to understand why he's often dejected with his situation, it's good to know it isn't without hope. I like the progress he's made with talking, too--he seems to be finding his words better, even if the sentences are short.
This was a nice contrast to the previous chapter, where Brian thought he had nothing to look forward to. The car trip provided a good transition, though.
Well, can't decide what I'd rather know about next, but I suspect it's a Howie-related chapter. ;)
Great work!

Author's Response: aaah you read my mind you! Howie is certainly going to appear in the next chapter. And I think Brian deserves some progress with all that is going to happen next... dun...dun...DUN!

Reviewer: GrunAugen Signed
Date: 06/27/14 Title: Chapter 29: 29. To Make Sense

Well, this is definitely intriguing. I'm really glad you're continuing... this is much more subtle than your other story. ;)

I'm also glad that Howie will (hopefully) be joining everyone soon, and that we will get some insight into Brian's therapy sessions. A chapter on one of them from Brian's point of view would be great... then we'd get to see the difference between what he says and what he's thinking... if indeed there is any difference. Maybe Howie or someone will be able to help him communicate. From the rating change, I gather something will soon be revealed...

Alright, I'll stop speculating.. and go back to waiting patiently for the next chapter. Good job on this one!

Reviewer: GrunAugen Signed
Date: 07/01/14 Title: Chapter 30: 30.The Bumps Along the Way

This chapter was definitely very effective at portraying the current situation and various characters' roles in it. I liked the changing points of view, but I think enough information could have been incorporated into the body of the chapter itself to set up each shift so that you wouldn't have had to make an explanatory note at the end. Same goes for the other notes--I think that Harry's visiting and Baylee's absence could have been described seamlessly in the narration.

That said, I really enjoyed your writing in this chapter, both stylistically and in terms of the direction you're taking this plotline. I'm glad that Harold told Brian exactly why he needs help, since even if it's not exactly the truth in terms of intention. Perhaps it will, and has, helped Brian get out of his self-pitying state. Certainly the fact that he's playing music at the end of this chapter seems to hint at such a development. :)

I wasn't too clear on whether Nick was in this chapter or not, but I suppose he's just trying to stay on Brian's good side, if such a thing exists. I think it does, somewhere, and I hope you'll give him the opportunity to show it to someone. Maybe when Howie arrives?

Great job, and I'm looking forward to the next update!

Reviewer: GrunAugen Signed
Date: 07/31/14 Title: Chapter 31: 31. Irresponsibility

You really have me wondering what exactly Howie has proposed... and convinced the doctor and Brian to do. I do hope we find out next chapter.. and get more from Brian's p.o.v.

It's good to see that he's getting back his speaking abilities and seems to reason more clearly. It would be devastating to have a relapse, but at the same time, it seems Brian's not making any progress like this as far as dealing with (or even knowing) what happened.
I'm glad Nick's in a protective role, trying to make sure Brian doesn't get himself into a harmful situation. But at the same time, I really think that Howie's plan -- whatever it is -- to nudge Brian's memory along is the best way to go.
Hope to read more soon!

The New Guy by freedomwriter Rated: G Liked [ - ]
Summary: Past Featured Story

He watched the newcomer from a distance, and hated him instantly. He didn’t just dislike him, no, he hated him with his whole being.  Who'd ever thought the one you once hated, would be the one thing you would be missing dearly some day?

a story about friendship, betrayal, forgiveness and saying goodbye. About Kamille tea, an interesting fear of elevators and what actually means to be a brother.


Categories: Fanfiction > Backstreet Boys
Characters: Brian, Nick
Genres: Angst, Drama
Warnings: None
Series: None
Chapters: 63 Table of Contents
Completed: No
Word count: 96197
Read Count: 124459


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02/11/13 » Updated: 06/20/16
Reviewer: GrunAugen Signed
Date: 04/26/14 Title: Chapter 59: 59. Regrets and the Sorts

I'm so glad you decided to update! This is one of the most fascinating and intense stories out there right now, imo, and I'm truly wondering where it will go. These flashbacks/flashforwards also add a nice element of suspense to the story, so I like your technique a lot. Was mad that Leighanne was allowed back in, but after this chapter I like it and wonder what Nick will do next. Hope that he remains the most present for Brian, though, since the strength of their friendship is what's gotten them this far. Hope you feel inspired to write more soon!

*Like A Prayer* by mamogirl Rated: R [ - ]
Summary: People were watching him. Only him, not the other person that was with him. "Brian, why do those people keep staring at me?"
"Well, what would you do if you see someone talking to himself?"
"But I'm talking to you!"
"Yes. But only you can see me, Nick."
Categories: Fanfiction > Backstreet Boys
Characters: Brian, Nick
Genres: Angst, Drama, Supernatural
Warnings: Slash M/M
Series: None
Chapters: 6 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes
Word count: 23833
Read Count: 9212


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09/10/13 » Updated: 08/02/15
Reviewer: GrunAugen Signed
Date: 06/20/15 Title: Chapter 4: * Third Chapter *

Thanks for continuing to write... I've been finding this story frustrating because of the strange (nonexistent) logic of Brian's ghost, but I'm glad that Nick finally got through to him. I really like the way that the way you write reflects the state of mind of the character (such as Nick's confusion about who he actuallly called at the nd of this chapter) although that's frustrating, too, since we don't even know if help will soon be on its way. I hope so! Please keep writing... and don't let Brian die. ;)
Thanks!

Author's Response: Thank you for keeping reading and reviewing. I know I'm a little bit bad with posting but I will and I intend to keep writing and, hopefully, translating of all my stories. Just a matter to actually find the time. And I'll try to be quickier and not leaving stories incomplete anymore. Now, for Brian... you'll have to wait and see if help will come and if he will be alright. Thanks!

Dodging the Daylight by KeepThisSecret Rated: PG-13 [ - ]
Summary: Past Featured Story"You gain strength, courage, and confidence by every experience in which you really stop to look fear in the face. You must do the thing which you think you cannot do." - Eleanor Roosevelt

When the unthinkable seemingly happens to one of their own, the remaining members of the group must work through their pain in order to piece together what is left. The result is an inexplicable turn of events that leaves each of them fighting to save themselves, as well as each other.
Categories: Fanfiction > Backstreet Boys
Characters: Group
Genres: Action, Angst, Drama, Suspense
Warnings: Death, Violence
Series: None
Chapters: 47 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes
Word count: 107927
Read Count: 116948


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02/28/14 » Updated: 08/20/14
Reviewer: GrunAugen Signed
Date: 05/24/14 Title: Chapter 27: Chapter 27: Howie

Well, I'd say that getting threatening messages directly is much better than receiving them through the police!

I'd surmise that whoever is looking for the Boys got wind of the 'new gay couple in town' story, but I'm sure it would have been one thing, if not another. And this lends credence to AJ's suspicion that there was someone actually creeping around outside, i.e., aside from the bodyguards. If whoever it is has followed them from the house, or will follow them back since Kevin and Howie are evidently being watched in the diner, then this should get interesting pretty fast. Too bad about the lack of cell phones to communicate in situations like this.

Otherwise, I liked Howie's attempt to address his issues about his role in the group, and Kevin's assurance that he is on 'team Howie'. I wonder if this will stave off any future meltdowns... but I doubt it. ;)

Hope you'll write more soon!

Author's Response: Poor Howie. I liked how you used the word "attempt" because, once again, he has tried and essentially failed to express how he feels. I really do feel bad for him sometimes, and not just in the context of this story. Things are about to pick up in terms of the action. I am a couple of chapters ahead of what I have posted, so I have a good idea of what is going to happen next. Thanks so much for all of your comprehensive reviews!

Reviewer: GrunAugen Signed
Date: 05/24/14 Title: Chapter 26: Chapter 26: Brian

Wow, this was great!

I thought Brian's reaction and way of dealing with the situation was spot on, but I was pleasantly surprised when you had him own up to what he was doing... and I like the fact that Nick had to stand up to him to get him to do it. I think you're doing a wonderful job developing/evolving their friendship.. heck, of all of them. ;)

I'm also liking the plan to go out and get weapons, however wise or not that might be. I guess we'll find out. Maybe they should wear disguises, with this being all over the news, and even people in this small town doubtless having at least some idea of who the BSB are.

Well, I'm off to read your latest chapter. So glad you're continuing to write!

Author's Response: I enjoyed flipping their roles during that exchange. It felt nice to write Nick as the reasonable one and Brian as the whiner. The idea of Kevin and Howie trooping into town in disguises just made me crack up. Knowing the two of them, their disguises would probably be super lame and not do a thing to conceal their identities.

Reviewer: GrunAugen Signed
Date: 07/24/14 Title: Chapter 40: Chapter 40: Nick

This was definitely a very scary chapter, psychologically speaking. It certainly made perfectly clear the danger the Boys are in and, in particular, emphasized the fine line between a devoted fan and a fanatical lunatic like Sarah. I think it brings home the theme you've been exploring in this story of the fan-celebrity relationship-how it's already a bit messed up and has the potential to develop into something very ugly.
So, I really hope that Howie and the other guys will be okay... you're definitely scaring me a bit, here.
This chapter was great, but I'll admit I had to take a break from reading until you posted more of the story. ;)

Author's Response: Yes, I do feel that some fans are borderline crazy in their infatuation with their favourite celebrities. I know that Sarah is pretty extreme, but I don't think it's unrealistic to think that one day some nut-bar of a fan could go completely off of the deep end. (If that ever does happen, hopefully the fan in question is not obsessed with our boys - Haha!) I've slowed down a bit on the posting, because I barely have time to write in the summer with everything else that I have going on. Fingers crossed that I will be able to get the next chapter up soon. :)