It was the last day of the tour nov 23, Nicoloas was born on sept 23 he was now 2 months old and Nick and Ashley was still not talking Nick had only got to see his son a couple times, Ashley was on leave for the rest of the U.S leg and would return when they with to south amarica at the beganing o the year and with nicolaos she would be staying in howie and lieghs bus, Ashley wasnt on tour she went and stayed with liegh at her and howies house and took care of the baby, but since it was the last date in the U.S liegh wanted to be there ashley decided to go. she was worried this would be the first time she would face nick, but she knew it would have to happen soon She still loved nick with all her heart and wnated nothing more them him back but she didnt knwo if her heart could do it so soon. Brian had talked to her like he promised nick he would, and if Brian was telling the truth maybe she could forgive him, but that scared her, that if she took nick back will that show that he can do it again and get away with thos things. Did nick still even want her back,
"Let me hold my God son/ newphue i havent seen him in forever" Brian held out his arms
"howie do me a favor dont tell nick we are here please and tell the rest of the guys not to tell him kay"
"i promise but he will find out sooner or later,, are you going to watch the show back stage"
"I dont know it might be to loud"
"Nah it wont if your backstage,, and you might want to stay and watch"
"why"
"Just promise me you and nicolaos will stay and watch you wont regert it"
"okay howie i will"
"alright i got to get going we have to go pray the show starts in 5 mins" brian handed nicolaos back and hugged ashley.
"she caught sight of nick but he didnt see her he was caughting really bad she had heard that he was really sick that he had to go to the hospital and they even had to cancel a show two nights ago, they said he was still a little sick but that he was feeling better all she really wanted to do was go confort him but she stoped her self it wanst the time or place. the guys went on stage and rocked the house, they palyed many songs then came nicks solo, she knew he would sign I got you like he alwasy did that was his favorite song that was on his solo album.
"hey where you going"
"looking for you guys" she smiled at the three guys standing befor her they had became brothers to her and she missed them very much
"Well we are here and you should probably stay and listen to him you know" brian spoke up
"why hes just going to sing i got you"
"Just stay okay" aj said which surprised her he had been mad at nick when she left
"okay okay fine"
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"So you guys injoying the show" nick asked the fans
"yeahh" they all screamed
"well im going to sing a song you guys all know"
People tell me, you stay where you belong
But all my life I've tried
To prove them wrong
They say I'm looking for
Something that can't be found
They say I'm missing out
If my feet don't touch the ground
Nick sang the rest of the song
"okay so my next song now ones realy heard i have only been singing it the past month in a half the guys are letting me sing it cause it gose out to some one very speaicl to me and in my heart so i need you guys to be very quite, i want this song to be heard and im going to do it acustic so im going to have brian come out and play guiter for me.. Yo brian get out here"
"Told you it would be a good idea" brian siad be for he took of in to the screaming girls
"whast going on" i looked at the other two men
"just watch" howie said
"Okay this is called dont walk away and it gose out to Ashley Scott i love you,, here we go brian"
Nick began to sing
There's no winners
And there's no losin
All we got is what we are
One mistake and I got you breakin
This time I think I've gone too far
Baby tell me why we don't speak
open your heart to me, love me tonight
Don't walk away, baby
You gotta hear me say, I'm sorry
You know I'm not afraid
to say that it's me
Don't walk away
I'm sorry, I'm sorry
thats when it hit her nick still wanted her and still loved her, and he was truly sorry for what happen with out even thinking she pushed back the curtian and began to walk on the stage behind nick with nicolaos in her arms
Why's it hard to, get inside you
Is it too late to make a start
You know I need you
Because I breathe you
And with every breath I fall apart
Baby tell me what's left of me
If your not right next to me
Baby I'd die
when she had came in to veiw the screams got loud seeing nicks son on stage, nick didnt think nothing of it he thought the sreams where for him, she was now right be hind him she reached out and grabed his hand he looked around and he seen the woman he loved and right there his son, brian stoped the guirter. The place was silient all nick could do was stare at her with his hand interlocked with hers.he turned and looked at brian brian nodded he turned to look at ashley again
"Hi nicky"
"is this real" he pulled the mic away
"yeah honey its real"
"what dose this mean"
She looked at brian and waved him to come over, he did what she askd and handed the baby over to him
"stay right there brian" brian nodded
"it means this" she jumped up in his arms and her lips covered his
"God i missed you ashley and i just love you so much and im so sor...." he said when he pulled away
"Shhh,, I ofrgive you nicky but dont do it ever again"
"I swear" he kissed her again and put her down
"You guys this is Ashley and this" waved at brian to come over he was playing with Nicolaos on the stool he was sitting on brian brought him back and handd him nick
"Thanks brian" he kissed his sons head "This is My Son Nicolaos Brian Carter"
The crowd "awwwd"
"He looks just like nicky which scares us" brian joked
"Well now we have a second genration of Frick and Frack"
The crowd screamed
"Well lets get on with the show" brian said in a sing - a - long
"take him baby and ill se you guys after the show" nick siad to ashley and kissed her one more time ashley walked off stage when howie and aj passed her
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The show was over and nick was trying to find ashley,
"hey leigh wheres ashley and my son" he smiled to him self
"she went to your bus to get Nicolaoses protable crib set up and feed him"
"K thanks Lee" he took off running to his bus
"Baby! where are you" he asked befr he heard crying form the back of the bus we walked in the back and seen ashley pasing back and forthing bounsing the baby, he smiled at the sight, he leaned against the door frame and watched
"Aww come on honey, you dont want to bother daddy when he gets back do you," she hadnt seen nick standing there,,"here honey you want to here daddy sing you love that dont you" she went to her radio and fliped in on
Nick smiled when he heard His voice come out of the spearkers it was who needs the world, when it came on the baby calmed dawn almost instantly he was shocked
"There we go is that what you wantd to hear daddy sing, Yeah it was," she layed him down in crib and stood there watching him, Then she felt hands wrap around her waist and jumpd at the feeling but melted she had missed that she missed feeling his arms around her and his touch
"I love you," he whispered in her ear then kissed her bare shoulder
"I love you two nicky" she whispered back "you know thats the only thing that calms him done and the only thing that gets him to sleep" she said rubing her fingers down his arm to his hand interlocking their fingers
"but how i wasnt around baby" he frowned
"i know and im sorry about that nicky i really am, but when was when i was pregnant always at your shows and sound checks and when you would sing out of now where"
"he heard that"
"Yeah honey, your voice sooths him and your singing he loves that,"
"wow, so you let him listen to my songs and the bsb songs?"
"yes of course nicky i was hurt and pissed at you but i would never neglect you form your son or him form his father"
"thank you ash that means so much."
"that song ment so much" she turned to look at him "but how did you know i was here"
"I didnt ash i wrote the song after you left one night and the guys let me sing it every night since then" he confessed
"Really," he nodded she leaned up to him and kissed him deeply " God i missed you and thos kisses and theses" she pulled his hands to her mouth and kissed his hands
"baby i know what you mean, i missed you and our son and i just missed everything about you, even our stupid ass fights which brings something up" He pause and looked her in the eyes "We need to talk about what happen ashley"
"Yeah we do, but you know i hate that"
"Sorry" he smiled "now come on sit down and i want to talk to you about this" they went to the bed and they layed down on there sides and faced each other "Okay now i want to explain everything to you okay and im sorry if it hurts you i dont want that i okay i just want to tell you everything okay"
"Okay, and thank you for that"
he smiled "Okay so it started when the guys left and you wasnt around and i was just really upset you wasnt there and i didnt wnat to go to a empty hotel room so i decided to stay and i wasnt drinking" He puased " At first, well the girl started to talk to me adn she was flirting with me and i wasnt falling for it at i stayed away then she asked me if i wanted to take a shot and i thought you know one wont hurt, but i ended up taking six.."
"WAIT, NICOLKAS you drank, Are you stupid" i cut him off
"Baby?"
"NO nick, im more pissed about you drinking then what you did with that girl, YOu know you cant drink you have a heart condition Nick and that could have hurt you and even worse kill you, what was you thinking you had me and our child to think about, and you didnt" i sat up and got off the bed and walked to the front of the bus
"Ugh Baby i know i was stupid but i wasnt planning on drinking more then one shot" He walked up behind her
"yeah but you did nick"
"i know and i was just stressed i wanted some of the stress gone ashley you was at home on rest and i was worried about you and the baby and i wasnt sleeping good i just needed something"
"Did you do any drugs Nick,, and you better tell me the truth.."
"No" He shook his head "Baby the achola is one thing but the drugs i forbid to take that back up and plus i couldnt do that to you and Nicoloas or the guys, im staying clean of of that shit i swear i have worked to hard to get back to that point and pick up that again"
"Okay but nick you cant drink anymore you understand i need you, you know that and so dose nicoloas, and the guys need you to," he nodded his head and i walked up to him and wraped my arms around his waist and looked in to his eyes. "Nick i love you so soo much and you know this but nick you cant do this anymore okay no more drinking and no more CHEATING do you understand me cause one more time me and nicoloas will be gone"
" I know baby i just wish i could take it all back and i know i cant but i wont do it again, i cant risk losing you or my son again but i should tell you the rest" He put his head down
" Hey look at me nick, Look howie told me what happen so i know what happen okay so dont worry about it okay juts never again"
"Yes baby, remind me to thank howie" he leaned down and kissed me "o one more thing"
"Whats that" He pulled the chain around his neck out form under his shirt, there on the chain was her pomise ring
"Can i give this back to you" She nodded and put her hand up so he could put the ring on "Listen baby befor i give this to you?.. I want to know if umm you have gave any thought to maybe... you know marring me someday?" he asked nerves
"Nick are you asking me to marry you?"
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