It Had been two weeks Since the accident and Nick had yet to wake up. The doctors said that he would be fine but that he was in acoma and Only God knew when he would wake up that it could have been days which we had past that, that it could be weeks, months or even years that it was up to nick to when he woke up or even if he did, WHich had killed me. Nick Was my life line so was my son, But with out Nick i dont know what i would do he had become my heart beat every thing i did or said was for him an Nicoloas, i couldnt breath with out on of them, if he didnt make it out of this how could i take care of my son how could i live the rest of my life with out nick, i would lose my life, thats when i realized i had made i big mistake when he aked me to marry him the night befor the accident i told him that some day i would but not now, now i wish that i would have siad yes, maybe thats why he wasnt waking up now cause i didnt wnat to marry him now, i was finding every reason to blame this on my self but no one would stand for that i quickly realized, But what hurt the most was that i was having a rought time being around the guys with out nick and most of all i was having a hard time taking care of Nicoloas with out seeing his father in him, lets face it Nicoloas was the spitting image of Nick, there was no dening that wasnt his son, you couldnt see a climpse of me in him, the only thing that my son got form me was the love that i had for his father, he loved his dad, granted he hadnt been around nick much after i had him but during the pregnance you couldnt pull nick off of my stomach, he was always singin or talking to his son, i felt so bad when i could barely look at my son cause i would break down every time, if it was bad now i couldnt image what i would do if nick didnt make it if he died what would i do how could i look at my son that was the spitting image of the man that i loved with all my heart.. these was the thoughts that went threw my mind while i layed in bed at kevins home where we was all staying,, it was the cloeset to the hospital. i wanted to be at the hospital but i had been there every night an day for the past 14 days, Brian and Howie made me come here and they promised to call if anything happen or if he woke up, that they would look aer him. i didnt want ti admit that i did need to go home and get a proper shower and sleep in a realy bed or just one night at least. Liegh had took nicoloas for the night saying that i needed sleep that she needed practice so i let her take him for the night..now it was up to me to get that sleep
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"Come on Nicky you need to wake up, you jus have to, you have a son to ake up for you have ashley and the backstreet boys, What will we do with out you nicky, i dont think that e could live with out you buddy, i cant image my life with you gone you have became such a big part of me and the rest of the guys lives how are we suppose to go on with out you here, with out hereing you talk or sing or laugh when you pull pranks on us, or even with out are pranks nicky,, God im so sorry Nicky for yelling at you for getting mad at the pranks the truth is i love you nicky i hope you know that buddy, your my little brother how could this happen, god and to think what you did for him, you saved my wifes life and my unborn childs life, and you took the hit nicky you have to wake up how am i suppose to thank you for that if you dont, so you have to wake you hear me nicky you have" Howie cryed out,,
:Howie calm down hes going to get threw this hes a tought kid" Kevin pulled howie in to a hug trying to to hide his tears also. but he failed when he felt brian and ajs arms snake around him and howie,
"Kev,?" Aj asked
"Yeah Jay"
"How do we get threws this, i dont think i can, i mean look at him" jay looked over his shoulder " I cant bare to see him like this, thats my little brother laying in that bed and i cant do a god damn thing to help him"
"Jay this is out of our control all we can do is be here try our hardest to wake him pray for him be there for each other and most importantly be ther for ashley and for bubby" Kevin referring to Nicoloas, everyone had started calling him buddy it just seemed easyer cause nicoloas would confuse them on who they was talking about.
"Yeah, cause nick will make it threw this you guys he has to i mean come on hes Nick Carter hes the strongest person i know" brian said wiping the tears away
"Not as strong as you Frick" a husky voice shuttered threw the slince in the room thats when their heads snaped to see if it was, Yes it was
"Nicky" they chimed
"I need water" Jay nodded and got a cup and filled it with water and helped nick take a drink,
"Brian Go get a Doctor" kevin asked brian did as he was asked
"My son, Ashley, Leigh, the baby they okay" Nick crocked
"they are fine Nicky" Kevin said sitting next to him "How about you how do you feel"
"My throat is sore, my body is stuff and sora"
"Do you remember what happen" howie asked
"Yess every moment"
"Nicky" howie asked
nicks head snaped at howie to see that man standing in tears "Thank you nicky how can i ever thank you enough"
"You dont have to" He shock his head : i love leigh and my newphue thats shes caring"
Howie hugged nick "I love you nicky and im so happy your okay i dont know what i would have done if you didnt make it i dont know what any of would have done" he told nick
"love you guys to" he hugged howie back
Brian walked back in the room and nick looked up at him and seen the older man that he had seen as his best friend in the world. he seen brians face was swollen which had been form how much he had cried. jay had told nick that brian was the one who had been doing cpr on him and he couldn't Imagen how hard that had to be on him to do that'
"brian" nick cried out brian rushed over to the younger man in tears and leaned down to give him a hug in tears
"thank you brian you saved me, im so sorry you had to do that, "
It was the hardest thing i have ever had to do, But if it was what i had to do to keep you alive i would do it all over agian nicky im glad your okay."
"thank you,, can you call ash"
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I had finally got to sleep i dont remeber when or how but i was woken by my phone ringing
"Brian Is he okay"
"Hes awake Hun Hes awake"Brian Cryed in to the phone
"Okay im coming now" i jumped out of bed
"Okay the doctor is in with him right now"
"okay ill be there soon" i paused "thank you brian thank you"
we hung up i got my shoes on and ran down the hall to liegh and howies room and started banging on the door
"Ashley!! is everything okay"
"Wheres bubby, Nicks awake"
"Omg okay hes in his crib grab him and ill get my shoes on" i nodded
i ran to the crib and picked up my sleeping son "Bubby daddys awake"
"okay im driving you are to emotional to to drive" i nodded to liegh
we ran to the car and i got the baby buckled in and we was on our way the hospital was only about 10 mins away so it was no time befor we got there, liegh found a parking spot and the crowd of paprazzi in front of the entrnce was crazy,, it was hard to believe they was out there at 7 am..we walked threw the crowd of people and the flashes we're blinding..
"do you think they know" i asked liegh
"its possable but i dont see how cause the doctors and nurses cant tell and the guys wouldnt tell with out your permission, i think they just here cause they know nick is here"
we stepped out of the elavater and in to the hall was i spotted the guys talking to a doctor so i sped up my walk and reached them
"Hi Im Ashley Scott im nicks Girlfriend" i said to the doctor
"O hi Miss, Scott i was just telling them that nick seems fine everything is working right but he may have lost some memorie but form the looks of it nuthing important, and if he has forgot things he will remember them in time, but other then that he seems complete fine he will be sore tho"
"really o thank god , thank you sooo much doctor, can we see him"
"yess you can, i like to keep him a day or two to make sure everything is fine"
"Okay, and thank you again" with that he walked away
"omg, " I cried and brian hugged me
"Its okay Ashley hes fine see i told you he is tought he now lets go in and see him" me and brian had became very close the past two weeks lieghanne had left she had meeting to go to and she had took baylee with her, So me and brian had leaned on each other alot threw the whole thing , cause we didnt have anyone every one else had some besided Aj but when he was going threw these kinds of thing he kept to him self he did like to show people his emotional side,
"Guys can i have a minute with him befor you guys come in"
"yeahh here ill take bubby" brian said
"thanks you guys" with that i turned around and opened the door to nicks room he didnt notice it at first, there he was laying there with his black berry of course i chuckled
he looked up at me and smiled "Hey baby"
"Hi" i shut the door and walked over to him
"come here and sit with me" he moved to give me room
"are you sure its your bed nick"
"Yes baby its my bed so that means i need you in it" he smiled i got in and grabed his hand in mine and brought it up to my mouth and plased kisses all over it and then i looked up at him and my lips soon covered his and i placed kisses all over his face
"baby baby as much as i would love to do this, i dont thing its very romantic" he held my face in his hands
i laughed "Its not that i just never thought i would ever kiss you again or hold your hand" i rasied out interlocked hands up
"Im sorry baby, im sorry youhad to go threw that, but i got news for you i told you i wasnt going anywhere and i ment it and plus you know i have the end of the tour in feb i cant miss that" He laughed
"O soo thats why you came back not for me or your son" I joked
"well yeah i mean yeah i woke up for my son and you of course but you know why i couldnt go anywhere why i had to wake up"
"Whys that" i asked
"Im hoping this isnt a dream but i recall being told that if i got threw this, that this girl you might now her" he smiled "That she would would marry me when and where ever i wanted"
"O really i think i need to meet this woman cause shes a very lucky girl"
"Nah im the lucky one cause see this girl she gave me a son and now shes giving me the family that i always wanted"
"Wow,, So when our you planning on marring her and where"
"well see i was thinking that i could marry her in the keys on the beach"
"At night" i added
"See that would be perfect, But i dont know if she wants to"
"I think now im just saying but i think She couldnt picture it any other way, No pun intended" he laughed
"really'
"yeah" i kissed him
"I hope so" i kissed him again he took the ring of my right hand and placed it on my left ring finger
"there now its offical"
"God i love you"
"I love you too baby"
"Sorry to break up the love fest in here but i have someone that wants to see his daddy i dont think hes to happy with Uncle Brian right now"
Nicoloas was crying a little
"you guys can come in" nick told him, thats when they all came in Brian handed the baby over to nick
"Hey Son i missed you" the baby smiled "Let me tell you about that smile son it will take you places, Dont break to many hearts with that smile"
"Yeah you can tell hes a carter boy, Blonde hair Blue eyes and that famous grin" Liegh said half crying hal laughing
"Come here lee B" Nick held out his free arm and she walked over to him
Nick pulled her down in to a hug "Are you okay hun" he asked her
She nodded "Thanks to you, God nick im just glad your okay"
"im glad your okay and how bout my newpue in there he doing okay" He touched her stomach
"Yeah hes great thanks to uncle nicky" he smiled at nick
"Well its all in a days work" everyone laughed
" Umm Lee can i talk to you in the hall way theres a favor i need form you"
"Yeah sure" She nodded
"Nicky i think you need to ask them a favor to"
"Gotcha" he leaned and kissed me i got up and walked with lee out in to the hall way
"what was that about" Kevin asked
"Umm Well I need a favor form you guys" they all nodded
"Me and Ashley... We getting.. Married"
"Wow congrats little brother" kevin leaned and hugged nick the rest of the guys foloowed suit
"What do you need us to do" Jay asked
"well i cant choose just one of you guys that would be impossable to do so i was wondering if you guys would be my best men" Nick asked shyly
"We would love to"
"I call Baclor party rights me and howie will have that sooo covered" Aj shouted the rest laughed
"thanks guys"
"Umm Nicky i wanted to talk to you when you are feeling alright?" Jay asked
"Sure Jay"
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"So whats going on" Liegh asked
"Well Me and Nick are getting married
"omg"
"Yeah i know but i almost lost him and i cant do that again and i want to be his wife"
" you guys are ment to be so i guess it really dont matter"
"Thanks but like Lee your like my best friend and i wanted to know i you would be my Maid of Honor" She smiled
"Omg i would LOVE to Omg" She hugged ashley
"o thank god,, You can help me plan the wedding right i dont want nuthing big i just want what family nick wants on his side my parents and my brothers and of course me and nicks real family the backstreet family"
"Of course but you got to get more brides maids do you know who else your going to ask cause im pretty sure nick will have the four guys be his"
"Um yeah after you will probably be lieghanne and then Jen and then Kristen"
"okay good so we got that but lets just go back in spend some time with nick and then we will figure out the rest when hes out of the hospital"
"yeah good idea, thanks so much lee"
"no problem i love you and nick and nicoloas you know that" they hugged one more time and walked back in to the room
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"Sooo Umm deff hungery" Nick Annouced
"What did you want hun"
"Umm Deff some Grilled Chicken form KFC" everyone laughed
"Okay ill go get some" Brian annouced
" Umm how bout everyone go get some food and stuff, Umm Jay can you stay tho"
"We can do that right" Kevin looked everyone they all nodded "okay we will be back in like 20 mins"
"Love you baby"
"Love you to" i leaned in to kiss Nick "you wnat me to take him or just leave him she looked at the sleeping baby in the protable crib
"O hes fine" he kissed me again and i left the room after saying bye to aj
"Soo you wanted to talk"
"Umm yeah. I know like im being selfish and what not but i was just wondeing with you getting married and then with Bub, i was wondering if...maybe..."
"If i was going to leave Backstreet?" nick finished jays sentence
"Yeah" he siad shyly
"Jay i would never leave Never and i mean that Backstreet has been my life for 15 years thats all i know and i love it so much"
"What about ashley and nicoloas"
"Yeah at first i was worried that she would want me to do what kevin did but you know what she said to me right after we found out she was pregnant"
"What"
"That i was not going to leave you guys, She knows that i love this and that i love you guys and i love my fans ashley knows that and she knows that all that is very important to me just like her and my son is, Jay im not leaving i would never dream of it, i told you guys i was in this forever and i ment that I promise jay, and for my son he will be ine i know i dont want my kid to live on the road but you know what he wants to then i wont stop him, if he wants to come and go then he can but i wont leave i swear ashley wouldnt let me even if i wanted to"
"i was worried"
"Its okay jay i worried at first to, But befor i even asked ashley she told me that she didnt want me to quit she knows what you guys mean to me she knows this is my family you dont ever have to worry about me quiting"
"good to hear that, you know ashley is good for you"
"Yeah i really do love her you know"
"Yeah i know its good to see you happy nick it really is"
Thanks Jay, Hey Jay?"
"Yeah Nicky"
"I wish you would have talked to some one"
"What are you talking about" Aj asked
"Jay you forget i have known you forever iknow when something happens like this you shout yourself off to everyone it scares me when you do that"
"i know nicky but you know i dont know how to deal with these things i really didnt think you were going to make it you know"
"And im really about that jay but you should know better then anyone that you cant get rid of me that easy but what scares me jay is that when you do that im scared taht your going to relasp and i dont wnat that i cant see you like that again jay i just cant it hurt so bad last time and i dont think i could bare to see that again"
"Im sorry Nick ill work on it i promise"
"I hope so jay i really hope so" nick looked over at his son who had started to cry
"can i hold him, i havent yet well not since he was born" aj asked
"Sure Jay you are is uncle, its not like you have to ask" He laughed
Aj picked him up "you know with my luck ill have a girl" he laughed
"Yeah but your be the most protective father out there"
"Well not after what you did two weeks ago, you know you saved ashley your son and lee and her baby"
"yeah well i had to do what i had to do"
"Yeahh"
"Jay do they know who was the driver"
"Ashley didnt tell you"
"No i asked but she didnt tell me, Who was it jay"
"Its was mark"
"Oh" Nick knew it wasnt Ashleys fault but he still had anger at her he didnt know why but he did,
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Chapter End Notes:
review plz. theres two chapters left i might just end up posting them tonight not sure, o and i have another story called destoryed. but im going to erase it and make it in to a story on nicks addiction.. that will probably start to night so thank you
