Journal Entry #17
seeing brian made me want to get outta here worse then ever. i hate it here and even though im talking about stuff i dont think its helping me any. nobody understands why im doing what im doing. including brian and dr haseltine. i am not what they think i am. im having a relatively easy time here compared to the others that i see. theres a girl who screams bloody murder all night because shes coming off X and cant handle not having it. i dont feel that way. i did the night my family came but thats what im saying. its not about the alcohol or the drugs. it never was. but seeing brian finally made me very happy. i thought he would never come visit me. it felt good just to be in the same room as him. i had so much i wanted to tell him about but dr haseltine wouldnt leave us alone for 5 seconds so i couldnt tell him. i'll have to wait and tell him when i get out of this place if i remember by then.
Journal Entry #18
kevin says the fight was not the reason he quit the band. i dont fully believe him. i do however believe that it was not the only reason he quit the band which is a
Journal Entry #19
ill be free in 9 days. i realized that today and i got really excited because i really wanna go home. i miss my house and my stuff and my space. it was a okay experience here. kinda like being at a hotel too long though. the foods still gross. the guy next to me needs a shower by the way. i dunno his name but he really does. hes about 5'4 inches and hes drawing a horse in his journal. yeah tell that guy to take a shower mk?
Journal Entry #20
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(here he's made a drawing of the goldfish in dr. haseltine's office)
Journal Entry #21
i was reprimanded for not putting substance in my journal entries again. dr haseltine was all pissed he says im "taking 2 steps back" which is ghetto. they said i could write whatever i want. how come this smelly ass putz next to me can draw fucking hroses and not get into trouble but i do? seriously someone please for the love of god tell this guy to shower. please. its disgusting. hows that for substance?