~*3 Days later*~
Anna stood in front of Nick with tears in her eyes he was yelling at her for keeping secrets it’s not her fault that she couldn’t tell him that her dad beat the crap out of her every night and that her mom knew and never cared she had been getting nightmares about it Nick noticed this and would ask what it was about Anna never said a word about it.
After he stopped Anna looked up at up at him “you done now?” she asked
Nick nodded
This world
This world is cold
But you don't
You don't have to go
You're feeling sad, you're feeling lonely, and no one seems to care
Your mother's gone and your father hits you
This pain you cannot bear
Anna sighed “look, let me just say this you have no right to get angry with me for not telling you about a nightmare did you ever think I don’t feel like talking about what we’ve been through...about the hell we’ve gone through I have to relive it through my nightmares and when I’m awake and I see you I just don’t wanna talk about it I don’t need or want to relive it again” she said with tears coming down her cheeks
Nick sighed and ran his fingers through his hair “I understand that but there’s more I don’t know what it is but there’s something you’re not telling me” he said he looked at his little brother who’s been witnessing the fight
Aaron held up his hands in defence “hey man, don’t bring me into this I’m just listening but just hurry up and finish the fight before it gets too late to play basketball” he said
Anna smiled at Aaron “then you’re in luck cause we’re done” she said as she grabbed her coat then left
Nick looked at Aaron “sorry man, but I’m too pissed to play maybe tomorrow” he said as he left for walk
But we all bleed the same way as you do
and we all have the same things to go through
~*4 hours later*~
Aaron walked up to Anna’s house he was worried about her about her after seeing the fight she had with his brother he rang the doorbell and smiled when she opened the door “hey” he said Anna smiled “hey” she said as she stepped aside to let him in
They went down to her room Aaron saw the big comfy chair in her room both of them went for it but he got there first he sat down with a slim smirk on his face Anna laughed and sat on the floor
Anna looked up at him “so tell me, why are you here with me instead of being with your brother?” she asked
Aaron smiled “well....you see Nick was too pissed to play and well after a while of being bored and nothing good on TV I came here to check on you to see if you were okay” he said
Anna smiled “you don’t need to worry...really.....I’m fine” she said praying that would be enough to convince him please, please, please let this convince him that I’m okay when I’m really not she thought to herself
Aaron stood up and sat beside her “you sure about that?” he asked “cause you just so you know you can tell me anything and It’ll stay between us I won’t tell anyone I promise” he said trying to get her to open up to him a bit more
Anna smiled up at him “I know” she said then went on thinking ‘but can I really trust you with my secret? And trust that you won’t tell anyone?’
Aaron took a hold on her hand “I swear I won’t tell a single living soul......or a dead one for that matter” he said with a laugh
Anna started giggling “good” she said
Aaron grinned “so then does that mean your gonna tell me?” Aaron asked
Anna smiled “nope” she said shaking her head
Aaron sighed and put his down which and wondered if any of this was doing any good Anna sensing this made her giggle more he lifted his head upon hearing her giggle “but you do have a secret?” he asked making sure he was clear on things
Anna smiled “yep” she said she was now having fun with this but I may not have to live with it anymore if I do what needs to be done to release me from this nightmare of a life she thought to herself
Hold on if you feel like letting go
Hold on it gets better than you know
Aaron fell back and hit the back of his head on the TV stand “oww” he said as he rubbed his head then looked over who was splitting her sides laughing then stopped to think if I kill myself like I want too then someone has to make sure he pays for what he’s done to me “if I tell you, you have to promise me that you make sure he pays for what he’s done after I’m gone” she said looking into his eyes Aaron looked up at her he nodded “yea of course” he said
Anna sighed and began to explain “when I was around 10 when my dad got this new job but umm with that job came a lot stress and with all of the stress he umm got uh rid of it by taking it out on me so in other words he beats the crap out of me every night” Aaron just sat there not believing he was hearing
Your days
You say they're way too long
And your nights
You can't sleep at all
Hold on
And you're not sure what you're waiting for, but you don't want to know more
And you're not sure what you're looking for, but you don't want to know more
Anna look at him “want proof?” she asked Aaron didn’t say anything Anna got up and closed her door she walked back over to Aaron and slowly took her top off she then turned around so that Aaron could see her back his mouth dropped open at what he saw. Many scars and bruises a lot of the scars were thin, faded pink by time the scars lined her back harshly, all of the scars overlapped almost all scars were thin but there was many that were thick, elevated and very red due to it healing accompanied by yellowing, purpling, and blueing, bruises of due to recent attacks. Aaron ran his fingers over the scars disbelieving that all this awful stuff happening to such a sweet girl he wrapped his arms around her from behind just holding onto her with all of his strength
But we all bleed the same way as you do
and we all have the same things to go through
Then the door open Aaron’s and Anna’s head turned only to see Nick standing in the door way he turned on the light when he saw his little brother holding his topless girlfriend in what looked like from his angle a tight embrace tears sprung to his eyes “why?” he asked “why did you have to do this to me? What did I do to deserve this? I came here to apologize for acting the way I did earlier and what do I get when I come here? This, This is what I get him holding you when it should be me instead” Nick said as his voice broke which made Anna sob “Nick listen,—“she started to say as he started to leave Nick stopped at the stairs he shook his head and waited for her to come out she quickly put her shirt on and screamed when she hit one of her bruises when she came out with Aaron behind her she saw Nick sitting on the steps with his head down he raised his head when he noticed her “no you listen to me, I came here this late at night to tell you that I’m sorry that I’m sorry for yelling at you I’m sorry for the fight we had and I really am cause maybe if never had that fight you’d be with me in my arms instead of my little brothers all I’d like to know is why, why did you have to do this to me?” he asked Aaron sighed “look Nick this isn’t what you think we were just talking” Aaron tried to tell his older brother Nick laughed “right, and I’m Santa Claus it didn’t look like talking to me. To me I saw my little brother who I love holding my girlfriend” he said as tears came down his cheeks which made a sobbing Anna sob even harder “well? You guys gonna tell me or do I have to guess?” he asked after what seemed forever Nick spoke up “guess not” he said he got up and left thru the back door
Hold on if you feel like letting go
Hold on it gets better than you know
Don't stop looking, you're one step closer
Don't stop searching, it's not over
Hold on
Aaron wrapped his arms around Anna she felt her knees grow weak she fell with to the ground sobbing “Shhh...It’s okay” he whispered to her over and over again until he heard calm, even breaths.
What are you looking for?
What are you waiting for?
Do you know what you're doing to me?
Go ahead...What are you waiting for?
He looked down and saw that she was asleep he smiled picked her up and carried into her room he laid her down in her bed and pulled the covers over her he then walked over to her chair not wanting her to be alone that night and sat down in it he pulled up the bottom part of it he then pushed the top part down so that he could lay down once he was he closed his eyes and fell asleep
Hold on if you feel like letting go
Hold on it gets better than you know
Don't stop looking, you're one step closer
Don't stop searching, it's not over
Hold on if you feel like letting go
Hold on it gets better than you know
Hold on
Song Used: Good Charlotte – Hold on
Author's Chapter Notes:
Please don't hate me for this....this is how's it gonna go for awhile....
