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As I sit on the window seat watching the rain fall I couldn't help but think of Nick and wondering if he was thinking of me too. I rested my head against the cool glass and sighed. "God I miss you..." I looked up at the sky then I felt just like the weather outside, my life was nothing but a raging storm that I had no control over. And if I didn't do something soon I would be washed away just like the leaves laying in the gutter. I hugged my knees to my chest oblivious to the fact of Brian watching me.

Brian came in and saw his wife sitting on the window ledge just watching the rain fall. She looked so lost. As he watched her he couldn't help but think what was going through her mind. When she looked at him did she see him? When they made love did she imagine it was Nick instead of him? There were so many questions he wanted answers to but he didn't know how to approach her about it, afraid that she may snap. He walked into the room and made his way to her, she was still looking out the window as he placed his hand on her shoulder.

I turned around at the touch and looked up to see Brian and smiled weakly. "Hey..." "Hey...you ok?" I looked away from him turning my attention back to the falling rain outside. "Yeah I just have alot on my mind." I felt Brian sit down behind me and wrap his arms around my waist, his face was next to mine watching the rain "Anything you wanna talk about?" "No not really." I put my hands over his leaning back against him. Brian simply nuzzled my neck and lightly kissed it and he heard me sigh. For now he would enjoy the time they had.

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A few days later I lay on the couch flipping through the channels, I was majorly bored. I sighed as I changed the channel again not wanting to see another talk show. 'Theres nothing on today' I thought as I flipped a few more channels then stopped going back to the news when I thought I saw a picture of Nick. I sat up and flipped it back to the news channel sure enough they were talking about him, so I turned up the volume and sat on the edge of the couch.

'In other news former Backstreet Boy Nick Carter is getting ready for his next project...marriage. It seems that he and a woman named Jessica have announced that they are getting married this weekend in Orlando, Florida. "I didn't feel like waiting was an option, we just felt that right now was the right time to share our love with the world," stated Carter when questioned about it. And here's Matt with sports...'

'You have GOT to be fuckin' kidding me.' I thought as the words the reporter said sank in "How could he do that...he's getting married? That man didn't even step up to talk about that...let alone with me." I sighed laying my head back on the couch looking up at the ceiling. That was like a slap in the face, he never brought up the idea of marriage to me. And the fact that he even thought about it with someone else broke my heart.

Brian walked in holding Chris against his chest seeing his wife just staring ahead like she was in deep thought. He looked at her for a few minutes before speaking "Baby...you alright?" She was knocked from her thoughts at the sound of his voice and looked up at him. "Deanna what's wrong?" She looked down at the floor saying in a low voice "Nick's getting married." "I'm sorry I didn't get that, what did you say?" "I said Nick's getting married." "He...he is? Well that's a new one...," Brian said rubbing Chris's back when he started to fuss "You don't seem too thrilled about it." "You think I should be 'thrilled' about this? This is serious he can't get married." "Why not? I thought you didn't love him anymore?" "I..." Brian looked away from her wanting to look at anything but her at the moment, he knew something was up. "Brian you have to understand." Brian shrugged shifting Chris to his other side "What's there to understand? You still love him. I knew it but I never said anything I thought you'd tell me when you were ready." She sighed then knowing he figured her out and looked down at the floor "I'm sorry...I should have said something." "There's nothing to say now...you obviously still have feelings for him. Well that's too damn bad he's getting married, he's moved on, deal with it." "And what if I don't want to?" "Too bad Deanna your gonna have to you have obligations now and you can't just throw them away for him. He's not worth it." "But I..." "Just stop. Stop right now. I don't care how much you think you love him, he doesn't love you like I do. I show you all the time Dee and you brush me off. I try my damnest to be the man you need but what do I get in return? Nothing. This is your obligation, Christopher needs his mother." Deanna looked up seeing her husband cradling their son and sighed "I know..." "You know but why do you keep hanging on to that last bit of hope when you know it's hopeless?" "It's not hopeless he loves me I know he does." "Bullshit Deanna, that bastard does not love you. Why can't you seem to get that through your head?" "How dare you say that...he does too love me and I'm gonna prove it."

I walked past him not wanting to discuss this anymore, I was gonna show him once and for all that Nick loved me and wanted to be with me. Brian watched her go upstairs so that's how she was gonna fix this by running after him? Not if he had anything to say about it. He quickly went upstairs and put Chris in his crib then rushed down to their bedroom ready to stop her. I looked up when I heard the door close. "What are you doing?" "Your not leaving I won't let you." "I didn't ask you now did I? And yes I am so would you please move?" Brian stood his ground and put both his arms on the doorframe stopping her from going anywhere "No. Why do you keep doing this?" When she didn't answer he continued "Everytime Nick moves on with his life you go to wherever he is and ruin everything and I'm not gonna let you this time." "I have to he's making a huge mistake." "You think so? Or is it that you can't bear to see him happy with someone else? Well...which is it? Answer me." She bowed her head and started crying "I'm sorry your right." "I know I'm right and--what?" She looked up at him tears in her eyes "I said your right. I love you and I'm sorry." Brian pulled her to him and hugged her tight, she finally came around and realized all the shit she had been doing was wrong.