Summary:
I don't know where to begin
I don't know how to get out there to see you
I don't know where to dig in.
I don't know how to get in there: to feel you
Baby there's something about you that
I can hold on to
I'm going to hold on to that
Categories: Fanfiction > Backstreet Boys
Characters: Kevin, Nick
Genres: Drama, Romance
Warnings: Slash M/M
Series: None
Chapters: 47 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes
Word count: 155868
Read Count: 46533
Warnings: Slash M/M
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Published: 10/25/20 » Updated: 03/16/21
Published: 10/25/20 » Updated: 03/16/21
Summary:
On his 17th birthday, Nick confesses his deepest, darkest secret to Brian. Little does he know that Brian is hiding a secret of his own.
Categories: Fanfiction > Backstreet Boys
Characters: AJ, Brian, Group, Howie, Kevin, Nick
Genres: Angst, Drama
Warnings: Slash M/M
Series: None
Chapters: 46 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes
Word count: 81299
Read Count: 91157
On his 17th birthday, Nick confesses his deepest, darkest secret to Brian. Little does he know that Brian is hiding a secret of his own.
Categories: Fanfiction > Backstreet Boys
Characters: AJ, Brian, Group, Howie, Kevin, Nick
Genres: Angst, Drama
Warnings: Slash M/M
Series: None
Chapters: 46 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes
Word count: 81299
Read Count: 91157
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Published: 02/07/19 » Updated: 02/14/21
Published: 02/07/19 » Updated: 02/14/21
Summary: Someone has a crush...
Categories: Fanfiction > Backstreet Boys
Characters: Kevin, Nick
Genres: Romance
Warnings: Slash M/M
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes
Word count: 1164
Read Count: 732
Categories: Fanfiction > Backstreet Boys
Characters: Kevin, Nick
Genres: Romance
Warnings: Slash M/M
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes
Word count: 1164
Read Count: 732
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Published: 01/02/21 » Updated: 01/02/21
Published: 01/02/21 » Updated: 01/02/21
Summary:
Even if it doesn't work out
Even if it doesn't make sense
And you never see me again
Can we just be happy now
Even if we burn this down
Even if we can't be friends
'Cause you hate me in the end
Can we just be happy now
Categories: Fanfiction > Backstreet Boys
Characters: Kevin, Nick
Genres: Romance
Warnings: Slash M/M
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes
Word count: 7874
Read Count: 815
Even if it doesn't work out
Even if it doesn't make sense
And you never see me again
Can we just be happy now
Even if we burn this down
Even if we can't be friends
'Cause you hate me in the end
Can we just be happy now
Categories: Fanfiction > Backstreet Boys
Characters: Kevin, Nick
Genres: Romance
Warnings: Slash M/M
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes
Word count: 7874
Read Count: 815
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Published: 12/07/20 » Updated: 12/07/20
Published: 12/07/20 » Updated: 12/07/20
Summary:
If you could step into my head
Tell me, would you still know me?
If you woke up in my bed
Tell me would you hold me?
Or would you simply let it lie
Leaving me to wonder why?
I can't get you out of this head
I call mine and I will say
Categories: Fanfiction > Backstreet Boys
Characters: Kevin, Nick
Genres: Drama, Romance
Warnings: Slash M/M
Series: None
Chapters: 11 Table of Contents
Completed: No
Word count: 28876
Read Count: 12565
If you could step into my head
Tell me, would you still know me?
If you woke up in my bed
Tell me would you hold me?
Or would you simply let it lie
Leaving me to wonder why?
I can't get you out of this head
I call mine and I will say
Categories: Fanfiction > Backstreet Boys
Characters: Kevin, Nick
Genres: Drama, Romance
Warnings: Slash M/M
Series: None
Chapters: 11 Table of Contents
Completed: No
Word count: 28876
Read Count: 12565
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Published: 11/30/20 » Updated: 12/03/20
Published: 11/30/20 » Updated: 12/03/20
Summary: Songfic based on "Heartbeats" by José González
Categories: Fanfiction > Backstreet Boys
Characters: Kevin, Nick
Genres: Angst, Romance
Warnings: Slash M/M
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes
Word count: 8049
Read Count: 762
Categories: Fanfiction > Backstreet Boys
Characters: Kevin, Nick
Genres: Angst, Romance
Warnings: Slash M/M
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes
Word count: 8049
Read Count: 762
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Published: 10/23/20 » Updated: 10/23/20
Published: 10/23/20 » Updated: 10/23/20
Summary: Some things we don't talk about
Rather do without and just hold the smile
Falling in and out of love
Ashamed and proud of, together all the while
Categories: Fanfiction > Backstreet Boys
Characters: Kevin, Nick
Genres: Angst, Drama, Romance
Warnings: Slash M/M
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes
Word count: 20620
Read Count: 966
Rather do without and just hold the smile
Falling in and out of love
Ashamed and proud of, together all the while
Categories: Fanfiction > Backstreet Boys
Characters: Kevin, Nick
Genres: Angst, Drama, Romance
Warnings: Slash M/M
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes
Word count: 20620
Read Count: 966
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Published: 09/10/20 » Updated: 09/10/20
Published: 09/10/20 » Updated: 09/10/20
Summary: 1998: Nicks teacher has fallen Ill. Brian agreed to be his substitute teacher in Math.
Nick however has anything else but math on his mind.
Categories: Fanfiction > Backstreet Boys
Characters: Brian, Nick
Genres: Romance
Warnings: Sexual Content, Slash M/M
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes
Word count: 2967
Read Count: 205
Nick however has anything else but math on his mind.
Categories: Fanfiction > Backstreet Boys
Characters: Brian, Nick
Genres: Romance
Warnings: Sexual Content, Slash M/M
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes
Word count: 2967
Read Count: 205
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Published: 08/20/20 » Updated: 08/20/20
Published: 08/20/20 » Updated: 08/20/20
Summary: In this One-Shot Nick is thinking about Brian, while having a dinner with a livestreaming Joey from NSync.
Categories: Fanfiction > Backstreet Boys
Characters: Brian, Nick, Other
Genres: Romance
Warnings: Graphic Sexual Content, Slash M/M
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes
Word count: 630
Read Count: 126
Categories: Fanfiction > Backstreet Boys
Characters: Brian, Nick, Other
Genres: Romance
Warnings: Graphic Sexual Content, Slash M/M
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes
Word count: 630
Read Count: 126
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Published: 08/03/20 » Updated: 08/03/20
Published: 08/03/20 » Updated: 08/03/20
Summary: The first few chapters are inspired by the 'Show 'Em What You're Made Of' documentary this fiction portrays events that never happened. The story starts, when the boys are planning their 'In A World Like This' tour. Nick mentions Brians vocal issues and things spiral a bit out of control. In Later chapters we have Brian going down a dangerous path.
This fic tells a story about depression and how Brian looses himself to it. It takes us along a journey of loneliness, abuse and drug use and the consequences that has. It is about Brian and how he nearly breaks on his problems and Nick, who tries to help him get through it.
Categories: Fanfiction > Backstreet Boys
Characters: Brian, Group, Nick
Genres: Angst, Drama, Romance
Warnings: Graphic Sexual Content, Graphic Violence, Sexual Assault/Rape, Sexual Content, Slash M/M, Violence
Series: None
Chapters: 18 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes
Word count: 62161
Read Count: 1964
This fic tells a story about depression and how Brian looses himself to it. It takes us along a journey of loneliness, abuse and drug use and the consequences that has. It is about Brian and how he nearly breaks on his problems and Nick, who tries to help him get through it.
Categories: Fanfiction > Backstreet Boys
Characters: Brian, Group, Nick
Genres: Angst, Drama, Romance
Warnings: Graphic Sexual Content, Graphic Violence, Sexual Assault/Rape, Sexual Content, Slash M/M, Violence
Series: None
Chapters: 18 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes
Word count: 62161
Read Count: 1964
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Published: 07/30/20 » Updated: 07/30/20
Published: 07/30/20 » Updated: 07/30/20
Summary:
Brian doesn't know how to continue on with his life. Before he attempts to end it, he sends a letter to Nick to tell him all he is feeling.
Categories: Fanfiction > Backstreet Boys
Characters: Brian, Nick
Genres: Angst, Drama
Warnings: Graphic Sexual Content, Graphic Violence, Slash M/M
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes
Word count: 3342
Read Count: 228
Brian doesn't know how to continue on with his life. Before he attempts to end it, he sends a letter to Nick to tell him all he is feeling.
Categories: Fanfiction > Backstreet Boys
Characters: Brian, Nick
Genres: Angst, Drama
Warnings: Graphic Sexual Content, Graphic Violence, Slash M/M
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes
Word count: 3342
Read Count: 228
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Published: 07/30/20 » Updated: 07/30/20
Published: 07/30/20 » Updated: 07/30/20
Summary: Nick and Kevin finally get their first date. (A continuation of the story Christmas Wrapping)
Categories: Fanfiction > Backstreet Boys
Characters: Kevin, Nick
Genres: Romance
Warnings: Slash M/M
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes
Word count: 1416
Read Count: 1092
Categories: Fanfiction > Backstreet Boys
Characters: Kevin, Nick
Genres: Romance
Warnings: Slash M/M
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes
Word count: 1416
Read Count: 1092
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Published: 08/27/18 » Updated: 08/27/18
Published: 08/27/18 » Updated: 08/27/18
Summary: "Nick. This is us. - Brian said, leaning his chin upon Nick's shoulder as his arms clinged around him. - What we've been through, what we have been able to fight and win... everything that's under the bridge is what has shaped us into who we are now. I wouldn't change anything. But I won't let it define us. We're more than that. We are us."
Categories: Fanfiction > Backstreet Boys
Characters: Brian, Group, Nick
Genres: Angst, Drama, Romance
Warnings: Slash M/M
Series: None
Chapters: 5 Table of Contents
Completed: No
Word count: 18082
Read Count: 8134
Categories: Fanfiction > Backstreet Boys
Characters: Brian, Group, Nick
Genres: Angst, Drama, Romance
Warnings: Slash M/M
Series: None
Chapters: 5 Table of Contents
Completed: No
Word count: 18082
Read Count: 8134
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Published: 09/09/17 » Updated: 07/03/18
Published: 09/09/17 » Updated: 07/03/18
Summary: Four times Brian asked Nick if he was his only one and one time he didn't need to ask.
Categories: Fanfiction > Backstreet Boys
Characters: Brian, Nick
Genres: Drama, Romance
Warnings: Slash M/M
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes
Word count: 5669
Read Count: 1161
Categories: Fanfiction > Backstreet Boys
Characters: Brian, Nick
Genres: Drama, Romance
Warnings: Slash M/M
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes
Word count: 5669
Read Count: 1161
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Published: 02/08/18 » Updated: 02/08/18
Published: 02/08/18 » Updated: 02/08/18
Summary: (or How Nick fell in love with Christmas and Brian in twelve days.)
Twelve Days. Twelve Tasks. Twelve opportunity for Brian to make Nick fall in love with Christmas.
And with him.
Categories: Fanfiction > Backstreet Boys
Characters: Brian, Group, Nick
Genres: Romance
Warnings: Slash M/M
Series: None
Chapters: 5 Table of Contents
Completed: No
Word count: 26024
Read Count: 7577
Twelve Days. Twelve Tasks. Twelve opportunity for Brian to make Nick fall in love with Christmas.
And with him.
Categories: Fanfiction > Backstreet Boys
Characters: Brian, Group, Nick
Genres: Romance
Warnings: Slash M/M
Series: None
Chapters: 5 Table of Contents
Completed: No
Word count: 26024
Read Count: 7577
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Published: 12/27/15 » Updated: 01/04/18
Published: 12/27/15 » Updated: 01/04/18