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Summary:

After betraying her trust yet again, Alyssa finally gave up on Nick. She moved on and began a seperate life far away from him. But there are some people that life just won't let you let go of. What happens when they find their lifes entwined once more? Now that the stakes are higher, will they risk losing everything they have for another chance? Sequel to Under my Skin.


Rated: R
Categories: Fanfiction > Backstreet Boys
Characters: Nick
Genres: Angst, Drama, Humor, Romance
Warnings: Death, Graphic Sexual Content, Violence
Challenges:
Series: Not Like We Predicted
Chapters: 61
Completed: Yes
Word count: 329529
Read: 161415
Published: 11/13/07
Updated: 11/12/08

1. Prologue - Never Again by Mellz Bellz [ - ] (6515 words)

Alyssa attends the wedding of an old flame.

2. Chapter 1 - Here's to You, Mrs. Robinson by Mellz Bellz [ - ] (4931 words)

Alyssa recounts the craziness of the past year in her life.

3. Chapter 2 - Jumping the Gun by Mellz Bellz [ - ] (4776 words)

Sean delivers some unsuspecting news to Alyssa prompting her to make a big desicion.

4. Chapter 3 - Six Month Itch by Mellz Bellz [ - ] (5389 words)

While enjoying a special dinner with Sean, Alyssa bumps into the last person she ever expected to see.

5. Chapter 4- Hey Jealously by Mellz Bellz [ - ] (6209 words)

Tensions flare between Alyssa and Sean. Shayla decides she wants to be a mother.

6. Chapter 5 - Saving Grace by Mellz Bellz [ - ] (6285 words)

Alyssa and Nick finally get an opportunity to talk things out.

7. Chapter 6 - Rise and Fall by Mellz Bellz [ - ] (5719 words)

Alyssa overhears a very personal song written by Nick.

8. Chapter 7 - So Far From Where We've Been by Mellz Bellz [ - ] (7476 words)

Nick and Alyssa wind up spending an unexpected afternoon together.

9. Chapter 8 - A Picture's Worth a Thousand Words by Mellz Bellz [ - ] (5317 words)

Tabloid pictures surface of Nick and Alyssa's afternoon together sending rumors flying.

10. Chapter 9 - Coming Clean by Mellz Bellz [ - ] (5864 words)

Alyssa tells Sean the truth about the afternoon she spent with Nick. Shayla makes a not so veiled threat.

11. Chapter 10 - Spring Cleaning by Mellz Bellz [ - ] (6214 words)

Nick comes across some very memorable photographs.

12. Chapter 11 - Curiosity Killed the Cat by Mellz Bellz [ - ] (6529 words)

Nick hands the photographs over to Alyssa. Shayla makes a startling discovery.

13. Chapter 12 - Wake Up Call by Mellz Bellz [ - ] (4774 words)

Alyssa has a dream that sends her reeling.

14. Chapter 13 - Survey Says by Mellz Bellz [ - ] (5316 words)

Alyssa discusses the topic of cheating with her friends.

15. Chapter 14 - Wine Me, Dine Me, 69 Me by Mellz Bellz [ - ] (5777 words)

Alyssa and Sean attend a dinner party at Nick's.

16. Author's Note/ Disclaimer by Mellz Bellz [ - ] (1319 words)

17. Chapter 15 - Joy and Pain by Mellz Bellz [ - ] (6140 words)

Nick gets some surprising news. Alyssa and Sean visit a fertility clinic.

18. Chapter 16 - False Alarm by Mellz Bellz [ - ] (6293 words)

Alyssa suspects she is pregnant. Nick finds out that Shayla has been hiding something from him.

19. Chapter 17 - Downpour by Mellz Bellz [ - ] (8141 words)

Alyssa and Nick seek comfort in each other.

20. Chapter 18 - Reality Sets In by Mellz Bellz [ - ] (3410 words)

Alyssa deals with the aftermath of the previous evening.

21. Chapter 19 - The Power of Goodbye by Mellz Bellz [ - ] (5673 words)

Sean is deployed to Iraq. Shayla confronts Alyssa and they work out an interesting compromise.

22. Chapter 19- The Power of Goodbye (Real Version) by Mellz Bellz [ - ] (6785 words)

Sean is deployed to Iraq. Nick has a meeting with his publicist.

23. Chapter 20 - Table For One by Mellz Bellz [ - ] (5062 words)

Alyssa spends her first anniversary without Sean.

24. Chapter 21 - The Greatest Gift of All by Mellz Bellz [ - ] (4249 words)

Alyssa gets the news she's been waiting for.

25. Chapter 22 - A Sterile Revelation by Mellz Bellz [ - ] (1721 words)

Alyssa receives some unsettling information.

26. Chapter 23 - Denial Is Not Just a River by Mellz Bellz [ - ] (2991 words)

Alyssa visits the doctor for the first time. She contemplates telling Nick the truth.

27. Chapter 24 - Just Hit Static by Mellz Bellz [ - ] (2803 words)

Alyssa continues to avoid Nick. Nick receives an interesting phone call from Shayla.

28. Chapter 25 - You Can Run But You Can't Hide by Mellz Bellz [ - ] (2684 words)

Nick confronts Alyssa.

29. Chapter 26 - Emotion Sickness by Mellz Bellz [ - ] (3610 words)

Alyssa reaches a big desicion.

30. Chapter 27 - Girls Behaving Badly by Mellz Bellz [ - ] (6012 words)

Alyssa spends the night partying with the girls for Teri's bachelorette party.

31. Chapter 28 - Going to the Chapel by Mellz Bellz [ - ] (3429 words)

Alyssa reflects on some old memories before Teri's wedding.

32. Chapter 29 - You May Now Kiss the Bridesmaid by Mellz Bellz [ - ] (6636 words)

Nick tells Alyssa how he really feels.

33. Chapter 30 - Damage Control by Mellz Bellz [ - ] (6370 words)

Alyssa makes a rash desicion at work. Nick comes to the rescue.

34. Chapter 31 - Hormonal Overdrive by Mellz Bellz [ - ] (5280 words)

Alyssa's hormones are causing some very erratic behavior.

35. Chapter 32 - Flirting With Temptation by Mellz Bellz [ - ] (4981 words)

After a fight with Sean, Alyssa accepts a dinner date with Nick.

36. Chapter 33 - Too Close for Comfort by Mellz Bellz [ - ] (4797 words)

Things between Alyssa and Nick heat up.

37. Chapter 34 - Sweetest Sin by Mellz Bellz [ - ] (7600 words)

A foot massage goes off course.

38. Chapter 35 - Still My Addiction by Mellz Bellz [ - ] (5005 words)

Alyssa and Nick begin to get careless.

39. Chapter 36 - Family Matters by Mellz Bellz [ - ] (4916 words)

Alyssa's family comes from NY for Thanksgiving.

40. Chapter 37 - Seeds of Doubt by Mellz Bellz [ - ] (5575 words)

Alyssa talks to Stephanie. Nick confides in Angel.

41. Chapter 38 - What's In a Name? by Mellz Bellz [ - ] (5653 words)

Alyssa and Nick get into a fight over baby names.

42. Chapter 39 - I Won't be Home for Christmas by Mellz Bellz [ - ] (5194 words)

Nick offers to have Alyssa over for Christmas.

43. Chapter 40 - Naughty or Nice by Mellz Bellz [ - ] (5107 words)

Alyssa spends Christmas Eve with the Carters. Shayla has a special surprise for Nick.

44. Chapter 41 - Giving is Half the Fun by Mellz Bellz [ - ] (5068 words)

Alyssa has a special gift for Nick.

45. Chapter 42 -Another Auld Lang Syne by Mellz Bellz [ - ] (5437 words)

Alyssa reflects on the past year of her life while Nick spends New Years Eve in Las Vegas with Shayla.

46. Chapter 43 -Fallen Soldier by Mellz Bellz [ - ] (4462 words)

Someone close to Alyssa is killed overseas.

47. Chapter 44 - You Know I'm No Good by Mellz Bellz [ - ] (5779 words)

Alyssa begins to feel guilty over her and Nick's affair.

48. Chapter 45 - Coming Home by Mellz Bellz [ - ] (7512 words)

Sean returns home from Iraq.

49. Chapter 46 - Hot and Cold by Mellz Bellz [ - ] (4169 words)

Alyssa recieves a surprising invitation.

50. Chapter 47 - Your Love is a Lie by Mellz Bellz [ - ] (9661 words)

Nick's surprise party turns out a lot more dramatic than planned.

51. Chapter 48 - The Waiting Game by Mellz Bellz [ - ] (7637 words)

Everyone waits to hear news on Alyssa and the baby.

52. Chapter 49 - The Hardest Thing by Mellz Bellz [ - ] (4368 words)

Alyssa and Nick begin to deal with their loss.

53. Chapter 50 -Sick As My Secrets by Mellz Bellz [ - ] (5289 words)

Alyssa decides to come clean to Sean.

54. Chapter 51 - The Truth About Lies by Mellz Bellz [ - ] (6608 words)

The truth is revealed...

55. Chapter 52 -Wake Me Up When It's Over by Mellz Bellz [ - ] (4648 words)

Alyssa is released from the hospital.

56. Chapter 53 - One Step at a Time by Mellz Bellz [ - ] (6735 words)

Alyssa seeks the help of a therapist.

57. Chapter 54 - Bringing Sexy Back by Mellz Bellz [ - ] (7269 words)

Alyssa tries a new exercise routine.

58. Chapter 55 - A Change Would Do You Good by Mellz Bellz [ - ] (8723 words)

Here's the next chapter and it's pretty long. Turned out a lot different than I had planned and because of me trying to cram too much in one chapter I had to do some adjustments so there will still be two more chapters left of this. I hope you all are still interested. I know that it hasn't been the most exciting story lately, but things will pick up again in the sequel. Please leave your thoughts if you are still reading. Last chapter I had the lowest number of reviews I'd seen in a LONG time :(

59. Chapter 56 - Blindsided by Mellz Bellz [ - ] (4395 words)
New chapter up already and only one more after this!  My goal is to finish this story over the weekend, let's see if I actually stick to it. Things are starting to come together in this chapter and I think a lot of you will be happy lil campers. I like to call this chapter the mini climax because well you'll see...

60. Chapter 57 - Getting To Know Me More by Mellz Bellz [ - ] (5984 words)

*sniff sniff* This is the last chapter and I must say that this was completely written for you guys because I think this is the cheesiest crap I have ever written LOL j.k But seriously it's more romantic than what I'm used to, but it fits based on everything I've put Alyssa and Nick through. I'm also going to be posting my thank you's and and final Author's Note and all that jazz shortly. I hope you enjoy!

Oh yea! The lyrics at the end of the story is from a song called Gardenia by Mandy Moore. I thought it REALLY fit the scene especially cuz its all about like learning about who you are among the ruins of failed relationships. I strongly suggest you do give it a listen because it really describes Alyssa's character arc beautifully. Here's a youtube link YouTube - Mandy Moore

61. Author's Notes & Thank You's by Mellz Bellz [ - ] (1258 words)