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I am 26 years old and still cant get enough of the Boys....Is that bad? Anyway, I have been married for 7 years and have a precious little boy named Brody. I recently moved back to Baton Rouge after 6 years in the Navy, living in San Diego for three and VA Beach for three. I been to Iraq, and most countries in Europe. I love writing fan fics.....I can't decide who my favorite BSB is...I go back and forth between Nick and AJ...Nicks looks, AJ's voice....would make one hell of a man!!! I am trying hard to get better at writing and if I may say so I have noticed a big difference in my earlier stuff that I posted on here, and the stuff that I am working on now. Of course I am nowhere near the writer that my favorite's on here are. Some of my Favorite stories here on AC are: MelzBellz, Under My Skin and A Little Taste of Sin Cabybakes, Casual Honey, Being Jamie Baker, Fan Friction, Not Your Average Cinderella Story and Broken and By My Side by Rock of Ages. If you ahven't read these story, you should check them out! Brandy Desiree Williams's Facebook profile

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A Little Taste of Sin by Mellz Bellz Rated: R [ - ]
Summary:

After betraying her trust yet again, Alyssa finally gave up on Nick. She moved on and began a seperate life far away from him. But there are some people that life just won't let you let go of. What happens when they find their lifes entwined once more? Now that the stakes are higher, will they risk losing everything they have for another chance? Sequel to Under my Skin.


Categories: Fanfiction > Backstreet Boys
Characters: Nick
Genres: Angst, Drama, Humor, Romance
Warnings: Death, Graphic Sexual Content, Violence
 Series: Not Like We Predicted
Chapters: 61 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes
Word count: 329529
Read Count: 160506


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Published: 11/13/07 » Updated: 11/12/08
Reviewer: brandy_d Signed
Date: 07/11/08 Title: Chapter 40: Chapter 37 - Seeds of Doubt

Mel....I don't see Aylssa as the villian, but I think she is afraid that in the end she will be seen as the villian because of the choices she makes.

Even though she loves Nick and wants to be with him, she would almost rather be with Sean and not be happy, than be with Nick and look like a home wrecker and a adulterer.

From the begginning of the whole baby fiasco I haven't agreed with the way she is handling it. I agree, that if I were in Angel position, I would think the same about Lyss as she does.

I am not trying to hate on Aylssa, but it is kind of hard nto to, when I don't feel she is making the right decisions.

I know it is a story and all, and to get to the good, you have to go through the ugly....and I wouldn't want it any other way.....

I think you are doing a fantastic job with the characters.I never know if I am going to love Lyss in a chapter or Hate her.....you always keep me on my toes....

Author's Response:

First I want to apologize Brandy if I came off sounding offended. It was 3am when I got your review and I'd had a pretty bad night, so I wasn't in the best of moods. I'm sorry if i jumped to the defensive with Alyssa. I can see where you are coming from because I know that she's a very frustrating character. Hell, it's a frustrating situation that I wrote myself in lol. More frustrating than I thought it would be originally, The villian comment definitely makes better sense now that you elaborated on it and I definitely agree with you on it. Alyssa is still to a certain degree afraid of what people are going to think, which I think is pretty normal for a woman in her situation. Even the most confident woman could falter from the insensitive opinions of others. That is actually going to be a HUGE part of this sequel.  She's definitely torn right now between Nick and Sean and right and wrong. I guess you'll just have to keep reading to decide which way she's going to go. I'd prolly agree w/ Angel too if I didn't know the situation from the inside. Alyssa's made a lot of bad desicions throughout this story (so as Nick) and that's kind of the point. She gets herself into trouble how is she going to get through it without losing EVERYTHING?

Sometimes as an author I have to remind myself that jst because a reader may not agree with every move a character makes, it doesn't mean that they hate the story lol. In fact, if you really are that frustrated with Alyssa it shows me that you must really be into the story and I'm doing my job. Again I'm sorry if I offended you. You always leave me such great, helpful reviews and I'm glad that you are so invested in the story.

Reviewer: brandy_d Signed
Date: 07/15/08 Title: Chapter 41: Chapter 38 - What's In a Name?

OMG!!! I loved this chapter. The sex scene was hot, but the conversation with Nick and Lyss was even better.

Nick said all of the right things. It is true, the media may scrutinize them, but their true friends are going to be there for them.

And when Nick said that he loved her, I actually got tears in my eyes...I kid you not!!!!

Great Chapter!!!

OH one more thing.... my step daughter name is Kathryn Elizabeth... I hate it.
It sounds like a little rich bitch to me.

Author's Response:

Thanks for being the only one who commented on my sex scene LOl I was quite proud of it! Big leap for Alyssa I thought, but I think the conversation definitely did overshadow it.  Nick said a lot of very smart unlike Nick things in that scene which isn't exactly a bad thing! The I love you surprised me too. Sorry I made you cry lol

LOL See I picked Kathrine Elizabeth because I wanted something very bland and plain. Very proper sounding I guess. I don't love the name Katherine myself. I LOVE Zoey though and totally think it's a name Nick would choose cuz its a lil wild. Thanks!

Reviewer: brandy_d Signed
Date: 07/16/08 Title: Chapter 42: Chapter 39 - I Won't be Home for Christmas

Christmas tree shopping is my favorite thing about Christmas. I always had a real tree growing up, but my husband and I have added a new tradition. Every year we go to a tree farm and cut down our own tree. It is so much fun. It was a lot of fun when I lived in VA and there would actually be snow on the ground. It never snows in SoCal or Louisiana, so now we just get to be cold....

I knew Shayla would end up doing something sneaky like hiring a P.I..... I know that she really hasn't given us a whole lot of reasons to hate her (with the exception of the fake pg thing) but I really can't stand her. It is probably because I just have it made up in my mind that she doesn't belong with Nick.. I don't feel sorry for her at all. Unlike with Sean, I don't feel like she is a victim. I feel like she deserves what she is getting....IS that bad of me?

Anyways, I soooo can't wait for the show down at Christmas...I know that has got to be some drama there.

Oh yea..... Nick is now my hero...setting up the extra nursery is just the sweetest thing ever. If I were Lyss I would have had my way with him right then..... Ummmm If I were Lysss....nevermind don't get me started. LOL

Great Chapter Mel!

Author's Response:

I've always had a real tree every Christmas too. Alyssa's explanation about tree shopping her family? Comes completely from my own experience only there's four of us kids, so it's prolly even harder. My Dad is so anal when it comes to selecting a tree sometimes it takes all day lol. He's always wanted to go and chop down his own tree like you guys do.

It's okay for you dislike Shayla. I tried not to make her as much of a villian as just a woman who is desperate to keep her husband. But in BSB fan fic I think its only normal to want to hate the woman standing in the way of the happy couple even if she isn't really all that bad. Lucky for you though, she will do some pretty effed up things in upcoming chapters, so you'll be able to hate her soon enough lol.

Christmas should be interesting. It'll have its dramaful moments. And yes Nick is like the perfect man. It was tempting to have Lyss jump him, but I needed to get to everything else without splitting chapters again. Although she did jump him afterwards only it was only a mention that it happened. Oh, well... You may get something next chapter just prolly not what you're expecting :)~

 

 

Reviewer: brandy_d Signed
Date: 07/24/08 Title: Chapter 43: Chapter 40 - Naughty or Nice

OK....I must admit, I felt a tinsy bit bad for Shayla in this chapter. It seems to me that she really is trying to make things work with Nick. However, I did want to smack her with her comment about Alyssa gift.

We do Christmas the exact same way at my house. Everyone draws a name and you open a gift from that person on Christmas Eve. It is usually a lot of fun.

I am glad that most of Nicks family made Alyssa feel welcome. I expected Angel to be rude, but it seems as though she doesn't really like anyone.

I was half expecting Shayla to be evesdropping outside Alyssa room when Nick went to see her, and I can't believe that Lyss didn't get pissed about walking in on them.....I found that kind of out of character, but in a good way.

Great Job Mel, although, I hate the long waits, I can't wait to read your updates!!!!

NEXT Chapter Please!!!

Author's Response:

A lot of people felt sympathy for Shayla which is okay lol. I did want to show that she IS hurt and that's going to be the reason why she does and says a lot of things in the future. Her comment about Alyssa's gift was pretty bitchy though lol, I couldn't resist.

That's really cool that you do Christmas Eve that way. My family doesn't give presents out at all on Christmas Eve, but I know a lot od people who do and I wanted to do a lil gift giving this chapter, so I thought that would be a cute idea.

Angel was rude to both Alyssa AND Shayla if you noticed, but remember... She's lost respect for both women after Nick has confided in her. You'll have to keep reading to see if she comes around. And I'm glad that you liked the fact that Alyssa didn't get pissed catching Nick w/ Shayla. The old Alyssa would've flipped out and that would be the end. The now older and wiser Alyssa realizes that in the situation she has no right to tell Nick he can or cannot sleep w/ his wife. Plus I think the ridiculousness of the situation and the fact that Shayla wasn't doing anything for him softened the blow a lot.

Thanks for your review as always Brandy! Thanks for being paitent!

Reviewer: brandy_d Signed
Date: 08/05/08 Title: Chapter 44: Chapter 41 - Giving is Half the Fun

Great update Mel....what is it with you and making me cry lately. I know you said this was a cheesy chapter, but I totally cried when I read the note. I am so happy that Aylssa has finally really made up her mind to do the right thing. I am so happy for the two of them.
I loved the interation between Alyssa and Shayla at the gift exchange. Alyssa kills me with her comments.
I think that Aylssa made some good progress with Angel. At least now Aylssa knows that Angel has a valid reason for being rude to her. I am sure that Angel will come around. I did want to smack her a few times. What is it with me and wanting to hit your female characters. I have wanted to smack all of them at one point or another!!! LOL.
Great Chapter Mel. I am glad you were able to squeeze one in for us. Have fun in Orlando....

BTW.....14 more days til I finally meet NICK and AJ!!!!!

Author's Response:

Aww... Seems I made a lot of people cry lol I'm sorry! The note definitely shows that Alyssa is beginning to take Nick seriously. We'll have to see what happens when Sean comes home (hint: in a few chapters) Alyssa was definitely funny trying to play off Shayla's hurtful comments. She's definitely smart enough to beat Shayla at her own game in that respect. As for Angel I did think that was an important scene. Although it didn't make Angel like her any better, it did at least let Alyssa know what she was thinking. I think Alyssa may win her over eventually too. It just is going to take A LOT longer than it did w/ BJ, Leslie, and Aaron. Ha about wanting to smack all my female characters! I dunno if its a sexist thing, but I'm sure that Nick will screw up a lil somewhere and do something that makes you want to smack him too. Lol I create frustrating characters what can I say?

Have fun at your concert if I don't hear from you. Lucky! BSB isn't coming anywhere near me :( And Nick has been looking mighty fine lately...

Reviewer: brandy_d Signed
Date: 08/08/08 Title: Chapter 1: Prologue - Never Again

AWWWW MEL I am gonna cry all over again. Two weeks after you got my hopes up!!!!! Well, I guess I will forgive you as long as the new last scene totally rocks! Which with you writing I am sure it will.

Have fun in Florida!

Author's Response: Thanks Brandy! Sorry to disapoint lol. You can blame Teri and Darby for giving me the idea in the first place lol j.k I think it'll be good, but maybe not exactly what you are expecting *winks* I'll have fun! You have fun too at your concert!

Reviewer: brandy_d Signed
Date: 08/23/08 Title: Chapter 1: Prologue - Never Again

Yay!!! Mel is back!!! How was Florida? Guess what???? I MEET NICK FREAKING CARTER!!!! Okay....I am over it! LOL....Can't wait for a new update... ***hint, hint***

Author's Response: I'm working on it!! This last scene is KILLING me to write. You'll see why when I get it done. It's just harder than I thought to write. I promose I'll get it done soon. Ooh lucky you! Isn't he gorgeous in person? Like pictures don't do him justice. Gahh why aren't they coming to NY? LOL I should've told you to ask him that for me lol j.k

Reviewer: brandy_d Signed
Date: 08/25/08 Title: Chapter 45: Chapter 42 -Another Auld Lang Syne

WOW!!!! Great update. I really wanna feel bad for Shayla, because I think that if I were in her position it would be very dificult, however, I just can't. I found myself feeling bad for Nick, having to do something he really didn't want to do. It makes me smile though...realizing just how much Nick has changed from the first story.... I bet he is still going to feel really guilty the next time he sees Lyss.

Great Update MEL!!!

Author's Response: Oh, even I was feeling bad for Shayla, so don't worry about that. It's definitely an awful thing to have to experience especially coming from Nick, but I think you'll start to see this is all building up inside her and when it exlodes it won't be pretty. I tried to make Nick as less of a dick as i possibly could under the circumstances because lets face it, it's a pretty shitty thing for him to do, but she WAS begging and he tried sort of lol. As for how this will impact things w/Lyss we'll see, Next time he sees Lyss they might have other things on their minds. ..

Reviewer: brandy_d Signed
Date: 08/27/08 Title: Chapter 46: Chapter 43 -Fallen Soldier

I knew it wasn't going to be Sean.....

You wouldn't let them get away that easy.

I did consider the possibility that he might have been injured, so he was coming home early, and then Lyss wouldn't want to tell him until he was better..yada yada yada....

Really good Chapter though. It kind of hits close to home for me because I had 3 friends die when I was in Iraq, so I kindof know the pain.

Great UPDATE!!!

Author's Response:

No I definitely wouldn't... The injury theory is a good one though. Wish I can say more, but yea just keep reading lol. I'm sorry about your friends. It is very hard losing loved ones, especially in this kind of situation. All I can say is that Ian's death is going to have a very big impact on both Alyssa and Sean both which will obviously change things a lil for Alyssa and Nick.

Reviewer: brandy_d Signed
Date: 09/01/08 Title: Chapter 1: Prologue - Never Again

I was really hoping that there would have been an update today..... We are going to get slammed by Hurricane Gustav.....I have my entire family in my house right now!!!! The next few days are not going to be fun.....

I will keep checking until we lose our power...or internet!!!

All other Gulf Coast FANS stay SAFE!!!!

Author's Response:

Aww I'm sorry Brandy. I am halfway through the next chapter, but the past few days have been nutso. It was my best friends b-day on Fri and lots of Labor Day/end of summer get togethers... Some personal drama I had to deal with and now tomorrow is my Dad's b-day. I'm on call for jury duty and school starts again on Wed. My b-day is coming up on the 9th... So lots of stuff going on! I will try to get an update out soon though.

I hope that the hurricane doesn't strike too hard and I hope that you and your family will stay safe. God bless!

Reviewer: brandy_d Signed
Date: 09/04/08 Title: Chapter 47: Chapter 44 - You Know I'm No Good

yay!!! I got back on after four days with no enternet to find a new chapter!!!!

I understand Aylssa is pregnant and all, but seriously her mood swings....OMG!!! I don't think I ever had them that bad, and trust me mine were bad.

I feel so bad for Nick here. It always seems to me that he is giving into what Aylssa wants. It never seems that she gives into him. Kind of seems unfair.

But hey he lets her do it. I also don't see this plutonic thing working out to well, but at the same time, Sean should be coming home really soon.

Oh yeah! Finally another flash back to Katie (right?) and for a second I thought we were going to get details on the accident. I think I have pretty much decided that it was a wreck, right?

Anyways, great job!!!!

BTW.....Gustav didn't kill me :)

Author's Response:

Glad you know that you're still alive Brandy LOL. Yes, I will admit that Alyssa's mood swings were a lil on the extreme side in this chapter (to put it mildly lol) but seriously in her defense not only is she pregnant, but one of her friends just died and the affair was beginning to get really deep and stressful, so I guess you can almost expect her to be a total basket case. We'll have to see how this new arrangement works out with them, but yes... Sean will be coming home. SOON.

And yay for mentioning the flashback. Yea, that was about Katie. I know that it seemed kind of random and it was very vague, but there is one more flashback scene left and that's the one where everything comes out although you can almost piece it together by now.

Reviewer: brandy_d Signed
Date: 09/06/08 Title: Chapter 48: Chapter 45 - Coming Home

You know.....I knew this was going to happen! I knew Sean was going to come back and something was going to prevent Lyss from telling him about Nick. Although in this situation I can understand. I just hope Aylssa knows that dealing with someone who has PTSD is not only dangerous to the soldier, but their family also.

PTSD can be really hard. I know, I have it. I have had it for three years now, and even though it gets easier, there are still nights when you wake up in a cold sweat because I had a bad drea.

When I first started having problems, I actually pushed away all of my family members. I even left my husband because I felt that he hadn't been there, so he couldn't help me cope with it. All I really wanted to do go back to Iraq with my friends who were there with me, and since I couldn't do that all I did was drink with my friends who were in Iraq with me.

After three months of binge drinking, I finally realized that I needed to get some help. I was lucky that my husband understood the circumstances and came back.
He still didn't help much though. To me family makes it harder, not easier. You look for their approval the most, and everytime you have a panic attack you feel that they are critizing you.

Anyways, three years and lots of therapy later, I am finally to the point where I can take a lexapro and a xanax a day and get through the day pretty easily.

I know I am writing a huge comment here, but it really hits me hard.....

I know there is some stuff to be said about Shayla, but I don't feel like commenting to much on it.....

But hey how about this as an idea??? Aylssa never gets a chance to tell Sean herself because Shayla finds out the truth and spills the whole thing at Nicks B-day party!!!

Author's Response: Thank you for sharing all that with me Brandy. I figured that with your experience actually being in the military you'd be more sympathetic to Alyssa's choice in waiting to tell Sean. PTSD is pretty serious and in the next few chapters you'll start to see a much more irrational, impatient Sean. I'm so glad that you are doing much better today! This is definitely going to have an effect on Alyssa and Nick's relationship. You probably know by now that Alyssa has this habit of thinking that she can "save" people. She tried to do it w/ Nick in UMS and now she thinks she can save Sean when really Sean needs to work his issues out on his own. As for your idea for the party I can't say if your prediction is close or not, but lets just say Nick's party will certainly be memorable.

Reviewer: brandy_d Signed
Date: 09/09/08 Title: Chapter 49: Chapter 46 - Hot and Cold

LOVED this chapter.....although it is almost like reliving some of the things I felt.
I feel bad for Sean, because I know how difficult PTSD can be. It is like all these emotions that you don't know what to do with. You feel so lost in a place that should be comfortable. You feel almost empty, and it is hard to focus on anything that doesn't involve thoughts of Iraq.
At the same time though, I feel so bad for Alyssa. It kills me to think that I made the people closest to me feel that way. Granted I didn't ever get really angry, I just got mean. I was rude and disrespectful to everyone except my friends who were there with me.
I really hope you get Lyss out of the situation before it gets really bad. PTSD, gets a lot worse before it gets better, and if you write it the way it actually works, there is a lot a heavy shit that is about to go down.

Nick...wow!! I can't believe he blew up on Lyss like that, but at the same time it is almost like he has to do something drastic like that to get Lyss to pay attention to his needs also. The entire story Lyss has always seemed more worried about Sean than Nick, and Nick is always the one giving into Lyss. It is about time he stood up for himself and fought for what he really wants. I still feel bad for Lyss being in the situation though.

So I have wrote this huge comment.....I guess I will shut up now.

Great chapter though.... BTW....HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!

Author's Response:

Thanks for the b-day wishes... Sorry I took a while to respond. With my b-day on Tuesday and then I went back to work yesterday I kind of took a break from writing for a few days. I can definitely see how this chapter hit close to home to you. Sean is defnitely in a bad place and I'm glad you can sympathize w/both him and Alyssa. I decided to make Sean a little more of a loose cannon because when I did research PTSD I found that males tend to sometimes become enraged or even violent although I'm sure this isn't the same for every person. It just works better with what I have planned too. Things are going to get slightly worse. We'll have to see if Alyssa can get herself out of the situation she's in with Sean.

I definitely agree with you on Nick. It did come off harsh and evem I was like Wow... This is really mean, but I think it needed to be said to Alyssa. Any guy in his position would be pissed off and frustrated and scared of rejection, so Nick is just reacting to protect himself. So yea... I think he needed to have his blow up at Alyssa.

Reviewer: brandy_d Signed
Date: 09/17/08 Title: Chapter 50: Chapter 47 - Your Love is a Lie

OMG....I am crying literally tears are flowing down my face. Mel, I am seriously going to be so MAD at you if one of them dies. I am so serious!

I can't even think about the rest of the chapter. Yea, I know what happened.
Sean showed up, confronted Nick and Lyss, yada yada yada, but none of that seems important....

Seriously please don't do this to us. We have been waiting for this for months now and you just can't break out hearts.

I seriously want to KILL Shayla!!!!!

Please get the next chapter out ASAP. I am going to be a nervous wreck until you do. You would think all of this was really happening.

Great writing though, superb!!

Author's Response: Thanks a lot Brandy! I'm glad that you liked it. It really is a very emotional chapter. I know that the general consenus is let's kill Shayla right now. As for the fate of Alyssa and her baby, you'll have to keep reading. I hope that you aren't too disapointed though. I'm working on the next chapter and would like to have it out this weekend.

Reviewer: brandy_d Signed
Date: 09/17/08 Title: Chapter 1: Prologue - Never Again

do you realize how many times I said seriously in my last comment???

I mean seriously you would think I could fine another word to explain my thoughts right?

I blame it on Greys Anatomy!!!! The always say "seriously" and "i'm fine"....

BTW....I hope you don't take my comment to harshly. I will still read til the end even if you do have one of the die...... which I am praying you don't!!!!

Author's Response: Three... lol Six... if you count this review j/k I love Grey's though so its all good. Thank you for promising to still read no matter what. All I can say is that everything happens for a reason... Ooh how cryptic of me lol